Alone

[Oceania]

*hugs* i've had those same thoughts Conifer. about fear of rejection and that feeling about having a part of me somewhere happy while i feel like crap! hehe. it's weird.

good luck with your new friends, i hope they're worthy of your company. if they're not then they will behave as you fear. don't put that on you. if you ever get rejected, it's simply because the other person doesn't recognize you as the wonderful person you are, or isn't compatible with you. or not the right time for you to be friends. but that doesn't mean there's something wrong. one thing i know is what it's like to carry a rejection around and let that cripple you. i was rejected and it hurt, and it affected my future friendships. it made me reserved and incapable of saying anything positive to my friends in fear that they'd think i was clingy and dump me. i used to be a good friend to people, i was generous and loving and honest about my feelings. being rejected crushed that out of me and i blamed all those traits for having been rejected. truth is maybe the right sort of people would have loved those things about me specifically. but i didn't let them out anymore and i changed. so don't let that happen to you. if you get rejected it's universe's way of saying, these people are exiting your life but there are other ones on the way. when incompatible friends go, better ones come.