Wandering into the Military (Be prepared for wall of text)

[Cassandra11]

It looks like you are attracted to/attracting the "wrong" type of women. Then you get the same results over and over again. Have you considered looking at those relationships as catalyst? Is there something you are missing here? The catalyst will continue until you get what your soul wants you to understand and change. And since we can never change others then it must be our selves that need some change. I would say what we mostly learn from relationships is self love and self worthiness. Then comes forgiveness and acceptance.
I suggest you do not take shortcuts if that is what you are attempting to do.
You deserve a girl who sees how attractive, confident and lovable you are with or without that uniform. She is out there waiting for you to be ready for her.