awakened skeptic?!

[Parsons]

hi wanderers

i, like lots of us, was a vehement atheist for many years[...]

i don't know. i definitely feel like this could be a real possibility, but i just question the $hit out of everything. i really have no set standard of beliefs in anything other than to be "good". i want to be good despite a "harvest" or any kind of reward.

does anyone else feel like this? am i a fake wanderer because i don't *fully believe* i am one?

just going off of what Ra calls a "wanderer":

"Wanderers have as a general rule some form of handicap, difficulty, or feeling of alienation which is severe. The most common of these difficulties are alienation, the reaction against the planetary vibration by personality disorders, as you would call them, and body complex ailments indicating difficulty in adjustment to the planetary vibrations such as allergies, as you would call them."

i'm not sure what my point is in posting this, lol. just saying hi i guess. i'm wondering if anyone else is as unsure as i am, or if everyone just KNOWS they're a wanderer.

I have felt this way my entire life. I, like you, was wavering and unsure of all this... That is, before I read what you wrote. That was the "last straw" for me I think... I can no longer ignore the convergence that is going on in the way I lived my life and philosophies that I have been coming up with recently just before I read them in the Ra material. (which I have not quite yet completed... session 88ish I think).

Thank you... since I can co-miserate in problems of alienation, etc. I have felt entirely alone my whole life until I found this forum... Now I have potential to finally not feel so alone in regards to everyday life philosophy. =OD