12-10-2011, 10:04 AM
(This post was last modified: 12-10-2011, 10:41 AM by Tenet Nosce.)
(12-07-2011, 05:06 PM)Diana Wrote: Your astral experience in Peru was amazing. Did you do this through meditation? Dream? I'd be interested to know.
I had just flopped down in bed, and went to sleep. I don't know if I would call it a dream though, it felt more like OOB.
(09-12-2011, 08:02 AM)zenmaster Wrote: After all, you are learning about yourself. If you want to learn about avoidance of something, it is important to understand what it is you think you are avoiding - it will be an aspect of self. 4D negative battles 4D positive due to lack of understanding what they are avoiding - and each group has a power the other lacks due to understandings which were rejected by the other party.
In my own particular case, there is an old friend who became paranoid schizophrenic. While this was a long time in coming, a more permanent sort of break occurred in 2003. This involved him becoming convinced that I was spearheading a conspiracy to have him committed to a mental institution.
Granted at the time... I had pushed him rather hard into taking a four-part personal growth seminar which I was convinced might "help" him. I still believe it would have... if he had completed it. Instead, he decided to drink himself into an alcoholic stupor after the end of the third part, where participants went through a guided meditation focused on forgiveness of others. Anyway... I have learned the lesson of pushing people too far "for their own good". Yet I am still paying the price??
At the time there was so much other stuff going on as well... breakup with a girlfriend and the sudden death of an associate. I was just overwhelmed by everything. Basically I just kicked him out and called his family to come deal with him. I couldn't take it anymore.
Well... for a delusional paranoid schizophrenic, you can imagine that didn't go over so well. Still, I have totally left him alone for nearly 8 years. OTOH, every year since then he tries to "reach out" to me. For a while he had my cell phone number. I tried having conversations with him, but he only calls in delusional states. Basically talking nonsensical and making disguised threats.
After I switched my cell phone number (because of a move, not because of him) when he got activated he would call my family, or my place of business. Trying to pose as a client in order to get my cell phone number, and things like that.
Anyway, this has been happening every year starting at the beginning of August (his birthday) like clockwork, and proceeds until the end of the year. Every year I try to use this as catalyst for coming to a state of forgiveness and compassion for this individual within myself. And yet it persists.
I really don't know what else I am supposed to "get" from this catalyst. Other than to possibly just accept that I am going to be hearing from this individual periodically and that he will be psychotically stalking me for the rest of his (or my) life.