Unfeeling

[Peregrinus]

I've always pushed myself Marina. My work is that of a managerial/ technical senior chemical engineer, teaching those with degrees and masters degrees, and yet I have no degree. I should say, that was my work until I awakened, and now cannot work in that line of work any longer (oil field), due to my conscience in harming Gaia. Always in my life I excel at whatever I choose to. To not do so is illogical. My logic demands a completeness of effort into the chosen direction. I've been poster boy for the saying "Always bite off more than you can chew, and then chew it".

My work life has been one of riches to rags, and I am perfectly ok with it. Finding myself and opening my heart is now my direction of purpose. As long as my little girl has love, attention, wholesome food in her belly, a roof over her head, warmth and her daddy, I require no more.

I always thought a logical mind was enough, and knew the spirit was there, but I disregarded the heart as that of lore. I logically knew the spirit existed simply because it is energy, and energy is understood in physics. Only now I have awakened and understand the mind/spirit/body complex and chakras and balancing and polarities etc etc do I deem it important to find the balance I have long neglected. I now seek to do this, and asking questions of other enlightened ones seems to me to be a logical step in the right direction. Thus I ask here, and the answers I receive are of benefit and help to me. I do thank you all.