11-20-2009, 12:16 PM
(This post was last modified: 11-20-2009, 12:18 PM by Questioner.)
Whitefeather, thank you for your explanations about how chakras work. Your comments were helpful about how chakras relate not just to people, but also to ideas and situations. I also liked your comments about how chakras give and receive, and they slow down if all that is available to receive is negativity. These ideas are all very helpful to me.
I have had trouble most of my life with what I've learned, in recent years, must be near total shutdown of my lower chakras. This came from so many experiences through the years of pain, attack, loss, frozen grief, deprivation, abuse, cruelty, indifference, abandonment, false accusations and so forth. I came into this life with an excess of compassion and not much wisdom. I have had plenty of experience hurting myself as a martyr whose sufferings didn't help others either. From the 50 questions chakra test, this morning's scores for my lower chakras are:
root -63
sacral 0
navel -25
And this definitely fits with feeling ungrounded, that there is no safe place to stand on my own piece of the earth. I feel that I'd love to share my creative ideas as a leader, but am afraid to do so because of the risk of further harm. And I don't really feel that I could have a right to assert my own plans with a group.
Unfortunately, I've somehow taken in the guilt of those who pulled the rug out from under me and kicked me in the gut. I don't stand up for myself in a positive way, out of a fear I'd somehow be that hurtful to other people. It makes no sense, but it's the way that emotions work for me. It would be nice if Perigrinus and I could swap the feeling/not feeling thing for a few days. He would get to feel compassion and hurt and happiness. I would get a break from the feelings so I could engineer my next plans without distraction.
I have brilliant, intuitive, creative ideas that would help many people, but these primal fears hold me back from marketing or selling what I could do. I am slowly working through the issues with a therapist. But I fear not being able to heal quickly enough so that I can take a stand and express my point of view in enough time to get the clients I need. (I need to work on a freelance basis since health problems make a regular 9-5 schedule something I can't do now. I'm also trying to take care of someone else at home who is very ill.)
Amen. It's seemed a fact of life to me that I don't get to be loved and cared for, until after I've given up everything that people demand to stop their hurt, then they discard me anyway. Sometimes I wonder if the chakras have minds of their own and they say, "No way are we going to open up again if it just gets you hurt like that."
They must be in California.
(I get to say this since I grew up in California. I'm not a fruit. Am I a nut or a flake? That's for you to decide.)
I have had trouble most of my life with what I've learned, in recent years, must be near total shutdown of my lower chakras. This came from so many experiences through the years of pain, attack, loss, frozen grief, deprivation, abuse, cruelty, indifference, abandonment, false accusations and so forth. I came into this life with an excess of compassion and not much wisdom. I have had plenty of experience hurting myself as a martyr whose sufferings didn't help others either. From the 50 questions chakra test, this morning's scores for my lower chakras are:
root -63
sacral 0
navel -25
And this definitely fits with feeling ungrounded, that there is no safe place to stand on my own piece of the earth. I feel that I'd love to share my creative ideas as a leader, but am afraid to do so because of the risk of further harm. And I don't really feel that I could have a right to assert my own plans with a group.
Unfortunately, I've somehow taken in the guilt of those who pulled the rug out from under me and kicked me in the gut. I don't stand up for myself in a positive way, out of a fear I'd somehow be that hurtful to other people. It makes no sense, but it's the way that emotions work for me. It would be nice if Perigrinus and I could swap the feeling/not feeling thing for a few days. He would get to feel compassion and hurt and happiness. I would get a break from the feelings so I could engineer my next plans without distraction.
I have brilliant, intuitive, creative ideas that would help many people, but these primal fears hold me back from marketing or selling what I could do. I am slowly working through the issues with a therapist. But I fear not being able to heal quickly enough so that I can take a stand and express my point of view in enough time to get the clients I need. (I need to work on a freelance basis since health problems make a regular 9-5 schedule something I can't do now. I'm also trying to take care of someone else at home who is very ill.)
Quote:When you already care and love all and, still the activity of the chakra remains slow or weak, the only way to unblock and heal it, would be to find oneself physically amongst loving and caring people. I mean that that is the love and care which one does not receive which is then impeding the overall balance and activity of the chakra. In short, we need to be loved and cared for.
Amen. It's seemed a fact of life to me that I don't get to be loved and cared for, until after I've given up everything that people demand to stop their hurt, then they discard me anyway. Sometimes I wonder if the chakras have minds of their own and they say, "No way are we going to open up again if it just gets you hurt like that."
(11-18-2009, 02:31 AM)peregrine Wrote: In the orange ray garden, where the STO entity might be growing veggies and such (fruits, nuts, flakes)
They must be in California.
(I get to say this since I grew up in California. I'm not a fruit. Am I a nut or a flake? That's for you to decide.)