01-23-2012, 02:25 AM
I think I just learned the value of faith 2 minutes ago. Faith is useful when you have done pretty much all you can by yourself and now you need someone else to do something that will make you happy or fulfill some purpose you believe in.
All my life I depended on myself for my happiness, today I felt overwhelmed with longing for seeing someone, and I couldn't see them, I couldn't even talk to them until a few hours ago. I felt terrible most of the day, almost suicidal, but all it took was this person talking to me for a bit and I felt way better. I considered how it's unfair for my happiness to be dependent on another person's actions but then I remembered how yesterday I read about how 5D and 6D wanderers came here to learn about how to become more intimate with people, trust them, connect with them, etc. and I realized that trust doesn't just mean things like "I trust you won't steal from my room when I go to the washroom" but that it could also mean trust in synchronicity. I was against the idea of faith because I considered it synonymous with dogma, but if faith means trust in whats best for you happening, even if its out of your control, even if you've done all you can, then now I finally see the value and purpose of faith.
All my life I depended on myself for my happiness, today I felt overwhelmed with longing for seeing someone, and I couldn't see them, I couldn't even talk to them until a few hours ago. I felt terrible most of the day, almost suicidal, but all it took was this person talking to me for a bit and I felt way better. I considered how it's unfair for my happiness to be dependent on another person's actions but then I remembered how yesterday I read about how 5D and 6D wanderers came here to learn about how to become more intimate with people, trust them, connect with them, etc. and I realized that trust doesn't just mean things like "I trust you won't steal from my room when I go to the washroom" but that it could also mean trust in synchronicity. I was against the idea of faith because I considered it synonymous with dogma, but if faith means trust in whats best for you happening, even if its out of your control, even if you've done all you can, then now I finally see the value and purpose of faith.