I've hit a big change in my life. I had to withdraw from the university I've longed to attend my whole life, and had to leave in my final semester. A girl that led me on, and who I had asked God for nearly two years, if she was the one, and got positive signs confirming she was, filed a charge against me and I had to leave.
I'm basically on a form of house arrest at the moment, and, while I was in jail for 3 days/3 nights, I did meet a man who helped me with my faith and my issues in overly-trusting people. If anyone has read the book, The Peaceful Warrior, he was the closest person to Socrates I've ever met.
So I'm at home, thankfully, by God and my dad. All I can do is hopefully get my old job back, if not, find one I don't even like. We're tight on money and this is all I can do. Also, this is 2012, so I've suspected this is a part of God's plan, as I have felt nearly all my life I was meant for something bigger than just getting a degree and fitting into the system.
The church is good for me. I go to a non-demoninational church, and sometimes attend a college church group. Which can be fun, BUT...
I've always been highly suspicious of freemasons. In fact, this new years eve, I went to a friend-of-a-friends party. The friend who brought me there, I've never known to have any association with freemasonry, and he doesn't, but his friend, who I kind of knew in the past, is a part of a family that is. There were 4 or 5 overt freemasons there at the party. I talked with them for a while, nicely and everything. To me, it kind of seemed like interesting catalyst to me, as it was random, and maybe i was there to see for myself they aren't bad people. To me, they seemed a bit stiff- like, fortified in yellow chakra, like there was something up their butts I couldn't quite put my finger on.
All my life I've been STO, and I've read that it's quite possibly an STS organization, but, being stuck here in my house, looking for guidance beyond the Bring4th and ATS forums, the thought came to mind that maybe I should join the masons. I've kinda always liked the idea of joining a guild, you could say, and with it being a spiritual guild, you'd think I'd really like the idea. I have managed to go through the trials of joining a fraternity in college, and while I learned stuff going through that, I felt misfit as a brother. In fact, I felt I could hardly breathe at times, because I felt my heart-chakra was being closed off entirely.
I want to be a part of something bigger, and masonry would allow me to talk to older, wiser people that I could talk spiritually with that doesn't have the prejudice-bias that I find in most churches, but I am uncertain. I've been firmly against the idea of secret societies for a long time, but the idea does seem fun to me. Ever since I accidentally found the lawofone.info, I've been entranced by learning more about life, infinity, purpose, and freedom by God.
But for the time I resisted the idea, I kind of thought, well Jesus is against these kinds of organizations. Hiding in the shadows... spirituality is something should be brought to light, and not contained in the dogmatic principles of religion! I mean, if there is a Satan trying to overtake the world, secret societies with a facade of God and helping children would be the way to work undercover...
Talk to me about your thoughts on freemasonry. I am all about love and service to others, and would never sacrifice my principles and ideals, even for a collective, But I am in a spot in my life I never thought I would be in, and I would like to talk to people as open-minded, or as crazy
as me! Face-to-face, regularly, you know what I mean?
In fact, an old high-school classmate was at that party, and he sent me a text not to long ago about something random, and I've never even talked to him on facebook, let alone trade numbers with him.... are they trying to recruit me? Am I falling into a trap? ...
I'm basically on a form of house arrest at the moment, and, while I was in jail for 3 days/3 nights, I did meet a man who helped me with my faith and my issues in overly-trusting people. If anyone has read the book, The Peaceful Warrior, he was the closest person to Socrates I've ever met.
So I'm at home, thankfully, by God and my dad. All I can do is hopefully get my old job back, if not, find one I don't even like. We're tight on money and this is all I can do. Also, this is 2012, so I've suspected this is a part of God's plan, as I have felt nearly all my life I was meant for something bigger than just getting a degree and fitting into the system.
The church is good for me. I go to a non-demoninational church, and sometimes attend a college church group. Which can be fun, BUT...
I've always been highly suspicious of freemasons. In fact, this new years eve, I went to a friend-of-a-friends party. The friend who brought me there, I've never known to have any association with freemasonry, and he doesn't, but his friend, who I kind of knew in the past, is a part of a family that is. There were 4 or 5 overt freemasons there at the party. I talked with them for a while, nicely and everything. To me, it kind of seemed like interesting catalyst to me, as it was random, and maybe i was there to see for myself they aren't bad people. To me, they seemed a bit stiff- like, fortified in yellow chakra, like there was something up their butts I couldn't quite put my finger on.
All my life I've been STO, and I've read that it's quite possibly an STS organization, but, being stuck here in my house, looking for guidance beyond the Bring4th and ATS forums, the thought came to mind that maybe I should join the masons. I've kinda always liked the idea of joining a guild, you could say, and with it being a spiritual guild, you'd think I'd really like the idea. I have managed to go through the trials of joining a fraternity in college, and while I learned stuff going through that, I felt misfit as a brother. In fact, I felt I could hardly breathe at times, because I felt my heart-chakra was being closed off entirely.
I want to be a part of something bigger, and masonry would allow me to talk to older, wiser people that I could talk spiritually with that doesn't have the prejudice-bias that I find in most churches, but I am uncertain. I've been firmly against the idea of secret societies for a long time, but the idea does seem fun to me. Ever since I accidentally found the lawofone.info, I've been entranced by learning more about life, infinity, purpose, and freedom by God.
But for the time I resisted the idea, I kind of thought, well Jesus is against these kinds of organizations. Hiding in the shadows... spirituality is something should be brought to light, and not contained in the dogmatic principles of religion! I mean, if there is a Satan trying to overtake the world, secret societies with a facade of God and helping children would be the way to work undercover...
Talk to me about your thoughts on freemasonry. I am all about love and service to others, and would never sacrifice my principles and ideals, even for a collective, But I am in a spot in my life I never thought I would be in, and I would like to talk to people as open-minded, or as crazy
as me! Face-to-face, regularly, you know what I mean?In fact, an old high-school classmate was at that party, and he sent me a text not to long ago about something random, and I've never even talked to him on facebook, let alone trade numbers with him.... are they trying to recruit me? Am I falling into a trap? ...