Suicide

[Dinko]

well i now that there is a free will on the other side so it sounds cool to do it(i dont have to go back here)...i just think that i am a fool because i chose a human form lol...

You are not the one you are now, in your true form, when passing into the larger life, imho. So, when you go back, you will see, with infinite love in your heart, all the pain that you left behind you. And perhaps your plan was to alleviate that very thing you might cause by taking your life - sorrows and suffer upon this planet. Perhaps you wished to heal it, to heal other selves, to aid someone, but instead, by suicide - you'd cause more sorrows, that very thing that you came here to heal?

You will see what you've done with open eyes and open heart, and perhaps, being in that density, in that milieu, you will forgive yourself for that, but will wish to polarize deeper, further, and in infinite love to the One Creator, you might decide that you need to go back again, to learn these same lessons you are here now to learn.

Think of everything that you've been through this far. Think of everything that has already happened to you. Think of your childhood, and everything that you've suffered this far. Would you want it to repeat again? But now you are awakening, or already awaken. You found some part in yourself - this part that you will have to seek again, that you will have to suffer new, and still the same catalysts again, in order to find again. Don't close your eyes on karma and sorrows you might bring to both yourself and other selves, and this planet, by taking this action.

Look at the now instead, and try to seek the reason for you coming here. You came here with a *plan*, an amazing plan that you created for yourself, to learn something, and... to share something unique which you have hidden from yourself - that uniqueness is your amazing love and light, that no one else has. There is no one like you in this creation. And other beings line up to incarnate on Earth, Confederation enetities tell us, and few of us are chosen on those unique premises, gifts and talents that we bring with us. Look for that, wake up a little bit more. Because, my brother/sister - that amazing plan of yours - was *not* suicide.

I am waiting for 21.12 so that we can go home

We *will* go home. Each and every one of us. When it happens, we don't know. But I beg you to try to offer of what *you* have, before you go back. This Earth needs you. These people need you. They are starving for love. I wish to offer this quote by Q'uo:

We are grateful to the one known as Jim who witnessed to the lack of love upon your planet. Truly, no truer words, no truer thought has been spoken than this one. Your people and Gaia desperately need to be loved; to be seen, to be apprehended for the first time as part of the self.

yeah..