Greetings from the Dark

[Zaxon]

Greetings Oldern,

I am cognizant of the potentiality of a highly polarized entity switching polarity. Prior to dedicating myself fully to the conscious pursuit of the STS path, I forced myself into a STO orientation so that I might make a more informed decision. I learned much from this experience, as to both the value and allure of the STO orientation. I believe being able to experience the duality/unity of polarity is a imperative step in the spiritual progression of any entity. However, in my exploration of the STO orientation there was also that which I found incongruous with my primal distortions towards STS.

The unified Creator - without distortion or separateness - consists of forces that both pull its infinite energy towards itself, as well as forces that in the totality of unity are separate, utterly independent, and all encompassing. As intelligent energy progresses back to the Creator, these tendencies are manifested in the STO and STS orientations, with those of an STO orientation manifesting the pulling togetherness of the Creator, and those of the STS orientation seeking the knowingness and completeness of self. This latter aspect is the primal impulse of my being that calls to the Creator.

-Zaxon

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Greetings Meerie,

I have always deeply understood and empathized with what is termed Aspergers syndrome. I believe it to be a dysfunctional manifestation of someone with a STS orientation. However, I would say I differ from someone with this dysfunction in several fairly significant ways. Perhaps most significantly, I do not have trouble understanding or relating to other's emotions. I find that I have exceptional emotional and empathic acuity. Within a few moments of meeting someone I can easily summarize their emotional state, inclinations, basic desires, and most significant defects. However, where one of an STO orientation may become submerged and/or immeshed in the other-self, I am unaffected by the encounter. Another significant departing point is that my emotional intelligence and empathic abilities have allowed me to construct a compelling, charming, and even charismatic human facade. Because I am easily able to "read" a person, it takes no effort for me to manifest a demeanor that most find pleasing and disarming. My natural state most closely resembles that of the "Vulcan," and it is that aspect that I express here.

-Zaxon