worst pyschic greeting ever?

[Ankh]

Oh, my friend also has these thoughts. She is not the least suicidal, but sometimes when she cooks, it's like someone whispers in her ear, to stubb herself with the knife. My worst attack was probably the one that lasted for about 3 years when I was 25. It started with doom dreams, and then transformed into daily pictures of these dreams, which gave me anxiety more and more. Then it continued with thoughts like: "Your heart is going to stop now, or... now! or now!!", or that I would faint, or that I couldn't breathe and would loose conscious soon. Stuff like that, for three freaking years. Then I get visits in my dreams by shapeless beings. They induce pain in my stomach and one time I even got some electrical shocks in my head. The pain is so sharp sometimes, that I force myself to wake up, because it is felt in my physical body really bad. (Nice people, huh? Speaking of that polarization thread...) :S

Speaking of all that - I haven't experienced any of this lately. Oh well, not since this year started. What about you all?