Greetings from the Dark

[Zaxon]

Lulu,

My mother was rather lavish with her affections, as was my father. Both were loving, kind and perhaps overly indulgent. I have often regretted not having had a more structured and disciplined childhood. I taught myself as much as I could, but many hours were lost in idleness that could have been spent learning and refining skills and abilities.

I am aware of the Arcturians, though this is the first Orion connection I have encountered. I have simply never understood the utility of emotions, other than their use with regard to the emotional. My personal experience of them has always been from a third person perspective, as a physiological process that the larger part of my awareness merely observes. When I hone in on a person I can easily discern what they are feeling in a palpable empathic sense. However, as with my own subdued emotions, my awareness remains separate and unaffected by the experience.

I may be wrong, but I get the sense that you are projecting your encounter with another person onto your expectations of who I am. Outside of my specific objectives, I have little use for people, and do not bother with them either to control them or require their love. My mate and I share mutual affection and understanding, and have reached a mutually advantageous agreement to share portions of our lives. I trust her implicitly as an extension of self. In that complete trust and understanding, I find no need to control her or violate her free will. She is free to terminate our association at any time. I see no utility in having her affection to justify machinations and control.

-Zaxon