03-08-2012, 12:38 AM
(03-07-2012, 07:16 PM)Azrael Wrote: It is difficult, I feel that I am very heavily impacted by external perceptions of me as being evil, or manipulating, because it is not in the essence of my intention or being at all. It makes me feel like everything I have been doing and working towards, and the Light I have found, is just another illusion, and that I'm once again on the "wrong path". I just don't know what to do with myself anymore.
Azrael - I can't tell you how to live your true self. I can tell you that what I have found to be true in my own life is that I must first decide who I want my true self to be. Then instead of striving and working hard trying to be that self, I am more successfull if I just relax and know that I am.
As for you being evil and manipulative, I certainly have not had that perception of you. Rather, I would agree with Shin'Ar who said, "Azrael's biggest problem is that his temporary physical thinking is as yet unable to catch up with the vast amount of ancient wisdom that is stored within his consciousness. He has made some astonishing remarks in this forum that I have rarely seen elsewhere. Many have been completely overseen by most. They have not gone unnoticed my me."
Love and light to you, Azrael.