03-24-2012, 10:22 PM
Kalle, your back story more closely matches mine than any other member on the forum that I've run in to. I even was in a motorcycle accident as well. 
I too, suffer from bouts of depression and even the occasional thought of not being able to stand the bad before all this good that's supposed to be coming actually manifests. Although, I have been much more 'up' in the past few weeks.
I am a loner and have been my whole life. You may be comforted to know that there are several introverts on this forum with which to commiserate, if necessary.
I also was / am still unfit. I gained a bunch of weight about a year after my motorcycle accident, but somehow managed to lose 80+ pounds without exercising, as I had bad knees before the accident, which are now much worse. Actually, my right leg is by far the worst part of it, so my right knee is beyond messed up. I can walk fairly normally, but cant exercise on my feet. I don't know if this is the case for you as well.
How I lose weight, which was through sheer will-power: I realized I was addicted to food like any other alcoholic or drug addict that has their recreation spill over into the practical. I don't get much exercise, so I simply eat only 1 - 2 full meals a day, and reduced how much I eat of that meal. In my case, my stomach was stretched out and had to get used to eating smaller meals and sometimes fast for a day to shrink my stomach so a small amount of food makes me feel totally full. It was from this perspective that I realized that I was addicted and noticed how many other people seemed to be as well, although they didn't seem to notice. I know how hard this can be since I just willed myself to do this, so I only tell you this so you can see how someone in a truly similar situation to you how they got healthy(ier).
As for the relationship problem, I can't offer much advice as I am an idiot in that regard. I am just moving back in with my separated wife, but things are most definitely not good right now. Actually, I would probably prefer your situation to mine in that regard.
In any case, Welcome to the forums and I hope you find as much spiritual / metaphysical / conspiratorial(if thats your thing) enlightenment as I have so far.
I too, suffer from bouts of depression and even the occasional thought of not being able to stand the bad before all this good that's supposed to be coming actually manifests. Although, I have been much more 'up' in the past few weeks.
I am a loner and have been my whole life. You may be comforted to know that there are several introverts on this forum with which to commiserate, if necessary.
I also was / am still unfit. I gained a bunch of weight about a year after my motorcycle accident, but somehow managed to lose 80+ pounds without exercising, as I had bad knees before the accident, which are now much worse. Actually, my right leg is by far the worst part of it, so my right knee is beyond messed up. I can walk fairly normally, but cant exercise on my feet. I don't know if this is the case for you as well.
How I lose weight, which was through sheer will-power: I realized I was addicted to food like any other alcoholic or drug addict that has their recreation spill over into the practical. I don't get much exercise, so I simply eat only 1 - 2 full meals a day, and reduced how much I eat of that meal. In my case, my stomach was stretched out and had to get used to eating smaller meals and sometimes fast for a day to shrink my stomach so a small amount of food makes me feel totally full. It was from this perspective that I realized that I was addicted and noticed how many other people seemed to be as well, although they didn't seem to notice. I know how hard this can be since I just willed myself to do this, so I only tell you this so you can see how someone in a truly similar situation to you how they got healthy(ier).
As for the relationship problem, I can't offer much advice as I am an idiot in that regard. I am just moving back in with my separated wife, but things are most definitely not good right now. Actually, I would probably prefer your situation to mine in that regard.
In any case, Welcome to the forums and I hope you find as much spiritual / metaphysical / conspiratorial(if thats your thing) enlightenment as I have so far.
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