Random Archetype Insights

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What I am puzzled with is the situations where I am exhausted, and where I want to be left alone, where I don't want to be of service anymore, but yet, being at work, or when taking care of my daughter, I can not *not* to serve. I have to. So that is when I wonder whether it depends upon that choice? That I perhaps have not made it on all levels?

I have those feelings, too. I think anyone with children can relate. My wife and I often talk about the respect we have for single parents. Add to that your stressful job, and my hat is off to you, dear Ankh!

I think the situation you're describing is maybe not as much about transformation of the mind as it is of the body or the spirit. It's not the case, is it, that you're trying to force your deep mind to give up her secrets to you? Instead, it sounds like you are trying to balance love and wisdom in the situations in which you find yourself.

The reason I mention transformation of the body is that Ra said, in the context of that card, that each moment offers us the opportunity to die and be reborn. That's how I feel when I find myself in a situation where I need to serve yet again even though I really don't feel like it. I find that if I can die and be reborn I can come to the service afresh, and when I do that I feel like my spirit has transformed, risen out of its sarcophagus.