04-16-2012, 04:03 PM
Much enjoyed the story Eternal and your acceptance and acknowledge of the ladybug as another unique aspect of the Creator with your directed love towards it is admirable. 
You remind me of two recent stand-out encounters I had with insects that gave rise to some insight when viewed through the lens of the Law of One.
The first happened a several days ago. I was just sitting here at my computer when I started to hear rustling in the kitchen. Curious, I went over to check and the closer I got, the more it sounded like buzzing. Right as I stepped into the doorway I saw what was causing this sound: a fat little bumblebee had somehow gotten inside my house! For a few moments I considered getting some Raid or anything, but that thought quickly faded for 2 reasons: for one, ever since becoming illumined it has become impossible for me to kill insects as I view them now as tiny Creator aspects in bug bodies. The second, is because after observing it for a while I discovered what it was preoccupying itself with...
It had an intense fascination with the bright lightbulb right above my fridge. It kept flying around it, then at random intervals it would start bodyslamming itself into the lightbulb. But that's not all. After a few times of ramming its head into it, the bee actually kept ATTACHING itself to the lightbulb, and pressing its entire body/head and back onto the lightbulb, resulting in a loud 'sizzle', a bit of smoke, and the bee bouncing off and laying motionless for a while. After not getting up for 10 minutes I assumed it was dead, and went back to the computer, until I saw out of the corner of my eye it was right back up and back into the groove of lightbulb tackling. Yep, this went on for about... an entire hour, and it pressed itself to the lightbulb about 10-15 times. The final time it did this, it fell somewhere behind my fridge and I assumed that was it for it.
The insight that arose was that the bee held this subconscious, deep-seeded desire to seek the light, because perhaps it remembers the light it once in. In its intense seeking of the light, it drove itself headfirst into the light so that it may once again be one with it, but due to its lack of understanding/physical limitations it kept being denied time and time again, for in this lifetime it could not be one with the light fully. In its seeking of the absolute light its temporary form had to be annihilated so that it may continue in its progression. In seeking the light, it had to put out the spark of life it held so it may properly follow the design of the process. It was simply the Creator seeking the light it stemmed from.
I actually found the bee a few days later, very disoriented, crawling around the floor of my kitchen, except its wings were not there anymore. I'm assuming it seared them completely with its little hijinks. IT SURVIIIIIVED! Until... it sort of got crushed by my mother's sandal in a smacking frenzy and off into the garbage it went. x_o;
The second bug encounter was 2 nights ago. I decided on a whim, to finish the last bit of my DMT stash I hadn't touched in months and mixed it into a cannabis joint. I felt the usual sense of anxiety and slight fear which always arises before voyaging as DMT is no recreational casual fun-time thing one can just abuse and not expect to have their ass severely kicked by. It is serious business in every sense of the term. As I finished rolling and headed outside I turned to the wall by the entrance to my kitchen and saw a huge centipede just chilling there. I was close to killing it but quickly realized something. Doing so would mean that I'd be completely ignoring all I've learned, and I'd be robbing an aspect of Creator of its life experience simply for my own perceived sense of security. It would be extreme hypocrisy if I had done such a thing, had murdered, then decided turn around and smoke DMT (which I view as divine communion). So I'm figuring that the conveniently manifested centipede served the purpose of testing me before I would be allowed to undergo the experience as well as a reminder that it is pretty illogical to feel any anxiety or fear before heading into any entheogenic experience given that my true essence is already infinite and eternal, as was represented by the multiple-legged centipede. Besides, there's no reason to kill it seeing as it was there the entire time, hiding somewhere, not bothering me or my family in the slightest, so why should I bother it simply because I've become aware of it? I could've chosen to kill it, or leave it be on its way. And sure enough, when I came back inside from my smoke, it was nowhere to be found, and I avoided the experience of possible karmic backlash from the Creator through punishing my consciousness via DMT if I'd done so.
So Eternal, know that you did not care for and desire to save a mere ladybug. It was the Creator whom you displayed affection towards.
You remind me of two recent stand-out encounters I had with insects that gave rise to some insight when viewed through the lens of the Law of One.The first happened a several days ago. I was just sitting here at my computer when I started to hear rustling in the kitchen. Curious, I went over to check and the closer I got, the more it sounded like buzzing. Right as I stepped into the doorway I saw what was causing this sound: a fat little bumblebee had somehow gotten inside my house! For a few moments I considered getting some Raid or anything, but that thought quickly faded for 2 reasons: for one, ever since becoming illumined it has become impossible for me to kill insects as I view them now as tiny Creator aspects in bug bodies. The second, is because after observing it for a while I discovered what it was preoccupying itself with...
It had an intense fascination with the bright lightbulb right above my fridge. It kept flying around it, then at random intervals it would start bodyslamming itself into the lightbulb. But that's not all. After a few times of ramming its head into it, the bee actually kept ATTACHING itself to the lightbulb, and pressing its entire body/head and back onto the lightbulb, resulting in a loud 'sizzle', a bit of smoke, and the bee bouncing off and laying motionless for a while. After not getting up for 10 minutes I assumed it was dead, and went back to the computer, until I saw out of the corner of my eye it was right back up and back into the groove of lightbulb tackling. Yep, this went on for about... an entire hour, and it pressed itself to the lightbulb about 10-15 times. The final time it did this, it fell somewhere behind my fridge and I assumed that was it for it.
The insight that arose was that the bee held this subconscious, deep-seeded desire to seek the light, because perhaps it remembers the light it once in. In its intense seeking of the light, it drove itself headfirst into the light so that it may once again be one with it, but due to its lack of understanding/physical limitations it kept being denied time and time again, for in this lifetime it could not be one with the light fully. In its seeking of the absolute light its temporary form had to be annihilated so that it may continue in its progression. In seeking the light, it had to put out the spark of life it held so it may properly follow the design of the process. It was simply the Creator seeking the light it stemmed from.
I actually found the bee a few days later, very disoriented, crawling around the floor of my kitchen, except its wings were not there anymore. I'm assuming it seared them completely with its little hijinks. IT SURVIIIIIVED! Until... it sort of got crushed by my mother's sandal in a smacking frenzy and off into the garbage it went. x_o;
The second bug encounter was 2 nights ago. I decided on a whim, to finish the last bit of my DMT stash I hadn't touched in months and mixed it into a cannabis joint. I felt the usual sense of anxiety and slight fear which always arises before voyaging as DMT is no recreational casual fun-time thing one can just abuse and not expect to have their ass severely kicked by. It is serious business in every sense of the term. As I finished rolling and headed outside I turned to the wall by the entrance to my kitchen and saw a huge centipede just chilling there. I was close to killing it but quickly realized something. Doing so would mean that I'd be completely ignoring all I've learned, and I'd be robbing an aspect of Creator of its life experience simply for my own perceived sense of security. It would be extreme hypocrisy if I had done such a thing, had murdered, then decided turn around and smoke DMT (which I view as divine communion). So I'm figuring that the conveniently manifested centipede served the purpose of testing me before I would be allowed to undergo the experience as well as a reminder that it is pretty illogical to feel any anxiety or fear before heading into any entheogenic experience given that my true essence is already infinite and eternal, as was represented by the multiple-legged centipede. Besides, there's no reason to kill it seeing as it was there the entire time, hiding somewhere, not bothering me or my family in the slightest, so why should I bother it simply because I've become aware of it? I could've chosen to kill it, or leave it be on its way. And sure enough, when I came back inside from my smoke, it was nowhere to be found, and I avoided the experience of possible karmic backlash from the Creator through punishing my consciousness via DMT if I'd done so.
So Eternal, know that you did not care for and desire to save a mere ladybug. It was the Creator whom you displayed affection towards.
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