The Dream Thread

[xise]

another dream:

I'm at dinner. nice restaurant. they put a big juicy 24 oz steak in front of me. I'm sitting with a good friend of mine - a genuinely good soul and roommate, though he is not a spiritual person.

I cut all off the fat slowly. (I love steak in real life). I start eating. about halfway through, I remember that I recently became vegetarian (in real life: 3 weeks ago...tho I was veg for 5 yrs of me life about 10 yrs ago due to moral/spiritual reasons...and as an aside I believe its a personal decision). I think well damn, I'm gonna have to figure out if I'm gonna make meat something for special occasions or just promise to never do this again. but I guess I might as well finish eating the meat in front of me besides it'll look weird if I suddenly stop eating. as I think that last thought - what's the harm - I feel a tug in my heart area

(I've experienced this is real life - I'm a casual smoker and one of my bar friend always tells me I should stop smoking and I always for the past year smile and say back I should and then light up anyway. about three weeks ago I'm at a bar and the same exchange happens, probably the first time since I've actively decided on a life of positivity and started feeling stuff physically in my heart area. but this time I felt a tug in my heart as I spoke the words. and I knew I had to follow my heart so I got up walked over to the trash and threw out basically a brand new pack of organic American spirits and my lighter)

so in my dream I feel a tug in ny heart as I think what's the harm of finishing the steak. then I know I shouldn't. I stop eating the steak. and then I wake up.

I didn't interpret this dream about eating meat. I felt it was more about listening to your heart. it felt like some sort of test. and I think I passed. yay .

much love,
xise