Did I just merge with Someone

[Ankh]

After reading info, I feel some clarity, sometimes, but overall I don't feel uplifted or that hopeful or on some new mission of how to proceed that will make my life any better. Actually, often the opposite is true. I read it, then have to try to gage, from previously learned experiences, what to do next.

Dear Lulu, it sounds like the Ra material and Q'uo sessions are not the right tools for working for you. Leave them, and keep seeking for other sources, if that is your wish.

Q'uo do not wishes to be a stumbling block upon *anyone's* path. Do disregard their thoughts when they don't resonate with you.

This is what Q'uo usually says in the beginning of each session:

We would ask you to guard well your discrimination and listen carefully to those things that we say, being sure to discard any thoughts of ours that you do not particularly like. We do not share thoughts in order to challenge you or to be a stumbling block but only to offer what aid we can to your own good and worthy process. If you are able to exercise discrimination, then we shall be able to share our thoughts without being concerned that we might infringe upon your free will. This is an ongoing concern of ours and we appreciate your consideration in this regard.

And Ra said that what they share, is their understanding of the "reality", which is unique for each one. That is how Creator, who is you, me and anyone and anything else, gets to know Itself/Ourselves.

Imagine if everybody would understand things in the exactly same way or resonate with the exactly same sources, what purpose would it be then with the creation? It would be quite meaningless I think.

For example, why STO would be a disaster in the workings for me, and why at the HEART of truth we should all be self-serving in it's purest form. Yet there is no explanation of what that REALLY is, or how to proceed. And that is just the "main" topic.

So... As "interesting" and "informative" as that was, I don't know WHAT to do to activate those whatever chakras that the easterners seem to have or at least conceive of. If anything it leaves me feeling a little lost and unsure as does much of the material "not good enough".

Dear Lulu, we teach/learn, learn/teach, ask questions and share our ideas about the Ra material and the Q'uo sessions in this forum, yes. But besides it, there are many sub-forums in this community, where Ra material is not in focus.

But in order to want to study this material, one, I think, needs to be interested in it, or appreciate it. One may perhaps not understand anything in it, and yet finds some kind of fascination in it, because it wakes something up inside him/her.

But you feel lost and unsure, and this material is "not good enough" for you. Then, my sister, it is not. The most important thing is to be honest with the self. To be truthful to yourself. And to not try to fool yourself by trying to accept something that is not acceptable for yourself. Because you are an infinite intelligence, and already know what is right for you.

Some impressions I've received have to do with those in Egyptian times that purposefully destroyed their orange/second chakras to have more power, something about walking worlds and/or then what is perceived immortality while physical.

There is no information about destroying orange chakra in the Ra material. The information in the Ra material is that Ra indeed walked the Earth back in ancient Egypt. Ra offered themselves as brothers, but were perceived as other selves by human siblings, acclaimed to be something more than their brothers. So Ra left from the physical plane, and never returned. But there might other sources saying something else though. I just wanted to share what is said in the Ra material.

Speaking of the orange center in regards to personal power, this center in combination with the yellow one, is used to open the gateway to intelligent infinity by negative entities.

Orange center is the energy center of personal relationships, while the yellow center is the energy center of societal self.

If we cannot perceive another self... what would that be like?

Home? :p

We are now incarnated in third density space/time. In sixth density, Ra said, the self is unified to such an extent that the difference between the self and another self is not seen anymore. So if you can no longer perceive another self, you would be in sixth density, in my understanding.

I personally am rather tired of living the Law of One, not by choice. I think it might be easier to feel joyful rather then feeling others and all that is all the time. Most people are not what I want to feel. I can see why someone might like to be free'd of something that seems to be overall, rather useless. Sorry for the (?) blasphemy...

Oh, you don't have to appologize. It's good that you are honest with yourself, and sharing that with other selves maybe can help you in some way.

My advice to you is to free yourself from everything that doesn't feel right for you, dear one. Be yourself. And feel that joy!! Do not constraint yourself with the chains created by your mind, or anyone else's for that matter. Be yourself, be free and enjoy the creation!

Would it still be considered sacred if it happened all the time?

The obvious answer would probably be "no".

But in my understanding, the merging with the Higher Self, or if/when the gateway to the intelligent infinity is opened and the merging with the One Infinite Creator is accomplished, *all is/becomes sacred*.

See... like that -- so what should we do with the info? I know his message useful because then seekers will have a DESIRE for to uncover it. And then they will attract what is necessary for it.

Dear Lulu, the Ra material and Q'uo sessions do not seem to be the right source for inspiration and study for you. My advice is to leave them, for now. If you would ever feel the urge in the future to take a look again, then you can go back. But it seems to me, that for now, these sources of information are acting like a stumbling block upon your path?

And how fortunate that there are gazillions other sources of spiritual and religious information upon this Earth...

For me, after the "shadow confrontation" there was more to do for the heart. And I'm sure there is forever more. Sometimes it seems the process itself has damaged my heart.

Anyways... firstly I had to ask for (have a desire) to have the humility to be wiling to feel any/all blocked emotions that had not yet been acknowledged.

There is a BIG difference between "understanding" why a shadow became a sacrifice in ones past societies and feeling the truth of the Heart. How the emotions really are in relation to the heart is the key.

Behind all the hearts damaged and blocked emotions is the feeling of being UNLOVED. So for me, later --after the shadow viewing and learning of acceptances and understandings. I then went through a time of ASKING how my Heart felt in regards to everything happening around me, and everything in the past.

Behind anger for example... there is deep inside another emotion of feeling unaccepted/unheard/unappreciated/uncared for: basically Unloved.

KNOWING that doesn't change it or help it (though the Wisdom is valuable it is only a one geared path of understanding).

One should ask to feel it's truth that was never acknowledged and then naturally clear it.

This sounds to me like you are on a good way, and doing an excellent work on the self! You don't need to study the materials that you don't resonate with, as you do a great job without it. Free yourself. Live with joy and peace.

Good luck, my dear sister.