Hi,
I was just posting to see what you guys think about some strong negative emotions I have always struggled with my entire life and have been more pronounced recently. I am visiting my mother for christmas, and I have been having very strong emotional responses to things my mother and her friends say and do in the form of annoyance. The feelings tend to consume me. My mother is not someone who I would think of as especially intelligent, and says things that I think are very "stupid". I do not want to be bothered by these comments, but I find anger and annoyance welling up inside of me when she says these things. Her friends do similar things that annoy me. I am worried by these emotions, because it reminds me of a state I was in before I started reading the Law of One and meditating. Before I did these things, I would see "stupid people" all throughout society and laugh at them and think I was better than them because of this perceived lack of intellect. However, in the last four months I have made strides to overcome these feelings in my attempt to see others as an other-self, and these feelings seem to be a regression back to my old outlook.
I suspect the source of these emotions is an unbalance. I have recently been thinking that I may have an overabundance of knowledge or wisdom (is there a difference according to the Law of One material?) with a lack of love. It reminds me of the Q'uo channeling that talks about the difficulty of going from head to heart, rather than the more usual path of heart to head.
I was just wondering what you guys do when you have emotions that you do not approve of. I suppose I should meditate on them, but I was just wondering if anyone had specific suggestions as to the type of meditation I should perform.
Thanks for reading.
I was just posting to see what you guys think about some strong negative emotions I have always struggled with my entire life and have been more pronounced recently. I am visiting my mother for christmas, and I have been having very strong emotional responses to things my mother and her friends say and do in the form of annoyance. The feelings tend to consume me. My mother is not someone who I would think of as especially intelligent, and says things that I think are very "stupid". I do not want to be bothered by these comments, but I find anger and annoyance welling up inside of me when she says these things. Her friends do similar things that annoy me. I am worried by these emotions, because it reminds me of a state I was in before I started reading the Law of One and meditating. Before I did these things, I would see "stupid people" all throughout society and laugh at them and think I was better than them because of this perceived lack of intellect. However, in the last four months I have made strides to overcome these feelings in my attempt to see others as an other-self, and these feelings seem to be a regression back to my old outlook.
I suspect the source of these emotions is an unbalance. I have recently been thinking that I may have an overabundance of knowledge or wisdom (is there a difference according to the Law of One material?) with a lack of love. It reminds me of the Q'uo channeling that talks about the difficulty of going from head to heart, rather than the more usual path of heart to head.
I was just wondering what you guys do when you have emotions that you do not approve of. I suppose I should meditate on them, but I was just wondering if anyone had specific suggestions as to the type of meditation I should perform.
Thanks for reading.