The Uncohesive Story

[Danu]

Thank you for the warm welcomes and for taking the time to read my story. I am glad to have found a place where it is encouraged to share.

Welcome in the forums!
I hope you find what you are looking for here - and I wish you good luck in lightening up: if you have encountered the Law of One material, you will gain a new perspective: one where the Earth is nowhere near to being a "failure", rather being a place where Darkness turns into Light. Where separation turns into Unity. Where sadness becomes Joy. Where differences become things to look at and be amazed, instead of frowning.

Well, I came across the LOO material on Saturday, April 28th, 2012...long after my dreams and about one month after I had the dream about being asked if "They" should end the project. We all know [or should know] that time flows differently here, on this Earth/plane/realm than it does elsewhere.

So even if I was asked if 'this project' should be tossed, it didn't necessarily mean it would happen this year, or even this time around. The reference could have been to how I got here - the procedure and planning - They could have been referring to that, and not necessarily "Earth" itself. Who knows.

The LOO material that resonated with the feelings I had in this dream was the Harvest. So I know deep down it has something to do with that process.

In the end, only 'time' will tell.

I can relate to the conditions - some of them, anyway - that you described, especially the part where one gets lost in the necessities of life and almost, just almost, forgets the "Higher Goals". But now I believe that even those years are not really wasted. They were there so catalysts can intensify and point as strongly towards where we really want to go as possible. No one takes a step in this density without some pressure, after all

Eh, I have to agree on that one, especially after experiencing a HUGE catalyst yesterday with my sis and mother, with regards to myself. A huge volcanic eruption that was, well, necessary.

I am glad that it cleared up what needed to be cleared up. I was tired of the weight of the facades we donned when we arrived. The sad thing is, I was aware of my origins, self and mission when I was little, but forgot after realizing that I wouldn't be supported by the people around me. So I guess I put myself in a 'slumber' and timed it to where I'd wake up over a course of years and breakthrough on the weekend of a Super Moon that was evidently in Scorpio, of which rests my Moon sign, btw. ^_^

Welcome Danu, most of us here like you are homesick for that greater reality. We all picked a difficult assignment, and now we must make the best of it, because it is why we're here. This is also a very important task, very happy to have you with us.

I was looking for a teary-eyed smiley because that was something that came up in my breakthrough conversation with my mom and sis. Yes, I always knew I had an important task, but never saw how it could possibly work while I carried my facade. And so I told them that I didn't feel supported by those around me, so I created a facade hoping that I would find a way to integrate the two and make it work, and it obviously blew up in my face. It's always been that way and that is why I wanted to leave prematurely.

Mom cries, sis sheds some tears and I apologized; I'm forgiving myself because I want to forgive them as well. But I told them that my dreams inform me, my path, my purpose, yet I didn't know how to bring them to this world. And then the pep talk began, but that's beside the point.

I just didn't know HOW to make it all work...and living a false life was weighing me down.

Why I chose 2012 to fall apart really relies on why I chose to wear a facade in the first place.

Whatever works, right? .:.sleepy smile.:.

Hey Danu!
That was a good read, thanks.
I also recall a time where I cried out "GET ME OFF OF THIS ROCK!!", but now I understand that I am very much a part of earth as well as being (a being) from elsewhere.
Welcome to the forums - you can bellydance here any time.

The facade me would say "I envy your affinity to being a part of Earth".

But I am curious about how you have come to understand being a 'part' of Earth, if you don't mind sharing. ^.^

I never felt a part of this star system. And at this point it's now a matter of starting over again and doing what I have to do. .:.so much work to do.:.

Anyway, I retain my origins and desire to be home [but be home some day]; yet acknowledge that I cam here to help Earth. It's one thing to feel that way deep down, and another to be reminded by the team you arranged [the non-sentient team] where your allegiance lies and why you're here. THey nearly drove me crazy when they revealed themselves to me. Didn't get any sleep and my supervisor at the time probably thought I really WAS going crazy - and being in China at the, I would say, didn't help, but was probably a necessary catalyst.

p.s as an artist I'm pretty sure you will love this site if you are not familiar with it already.
www.bryandeflores.com
I'ts not mine - but a friends.

Ah!! This site, rocked! It not only helped my breakthrough process, but I stumbled across something super fascinating: The Angelic Language of Light, resembles my artwork! Or rather, my artwork resembles the ALoL, yet I have never come across it until yesterday. I started my art as a healing process this past February, and the Language of Movement was created on February 10, 2012.... It was an awesome gift, Ashim, so thank you SO much for providing the link. It just reaffirms how interconnected things are.

Shadow Cartography

Welcome Danu, your story was well told, you said something which felt new to me. (that be good *smiles*)

.:.blush.:.

Yeah life does feel crazy and unbearable at times, but its cool jou it is what let's us see the beauty of it as well.

I suppose. :-) Although I do prefer the hermit lifestyle surrounded by the beauty of nature and the night sky...

Stick around here, people care and I care about you, If I don't then its my loss. You are a radiant being no matter how dark it seems and feels.
I am glad that you are doing better

Thank you! I really am feeling a lot better today...after having experienced my volcanic breakthrough yesterday.

"All I need to do is be myself; it's in doing that that helps the Earth." Those words resonate withe me.

And it's my mantra to keep me going. I tend to get overly emotionally attached and I think that's what made my slumber all the deeper. So as long as I remain true to myself, going 'wrong' is next to impossible.

Sooo I saw (and read) you like anime! I think you would like "Berserk" its 25 episodes long, check it out when ya find time.

Ah! Another anime fan! I will look into it. I was asking my younger brother if he wanted to do another anime marathon [you know, watching 5 episodes per night, going to sleep around 6am kind of thing].I just didn't have one in mind. I'll still check it out even if he's already seen it...

I have many more I itch to tell about.. buuut *restraining* its better to take one at a time .D

Pray, do tell!!! Please!?

Thank you for sharing the story
Love and light

And thank you for witnessing

In my view resonated at about 99.5 to 99.7% accuracy with regard to my personal story, so i would say high accuracy, in terms of emotional content of message =D

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