The mysterious nature of time

[AnthroHeart]

Can you help me understand this better, GW? What is the crisis around the holy symbol of the Cross that you are referring to here?

Well, there was something still in me that since I hadn't followed the cross of Christ and that religion, that I was being judged by God having died. I experienced moments of hell, that were created by a part of me. It was a little scary when I felt like I was being strangled by an unseen force, and also had the smell of poo in the air that sort of gagged me. But it was my own self that brought these on. Not like I tried to produce them, but afterwards it made sense why this hell part of me came about. It was the part of me that thought himself unworthy.

Then there were other positive experiences such as seeing the trees come alive. Their leaves and branches very distinctly appeared to mimic certain animals, and there were faces in the trees that smiled at me. The wind blew the trees and it was a very relaxing time. Very peaceful. The trees were telling me stories through the characters that were portrayed in their branches. This was my favorite part of the whole experience. One tree could have 20 or more animal characters formed from the branches/leaves, and sometimes they talked but there was no sound yet.

Being a kid was fun. It's I think what happens when you begin to peek through the veil. I'm not sure really though. But in this state I was just who I am, with no real direction, so I needed guidance from other adults. In fact I took guidance from other kids as well because I felt so innocent that I couldn't make my own decisions. I still have somewhat of the feeling of being in heaven, but it's fading, and I'm returning to normal life. I'm sad to see the feeling go.

It gave me a taste of what 4D could be like, where the trees even talk to us like telling us stories. The shadows of trees on the outdoor wall also morphed and formed images of animal characters. It demonstrated to me what I'm passionate about. There were even cartoon characters in the rocks, and the plants on the ground. The whole world around me was full of life.

Honestly though, words fail me with how amazing it is to feel the oneness with all the life around you as it responds to you, and wants to show you many things. If only I could reach that state without having the negative stuff. But I guess negative greetings come with it. I'm not sure how all that works. But how equally amazing was the good experience, were the horrors of the negativity. They sort of balanced themselves out.

Now, now, you are making me jealous with all that fun. You should invite me to your jungle farmhouse now!

GW, I thank you for taking the time to personally address me and tell me your wonderful experiences. I want this thread to turn into a rest house for those weary of their life experiences, for that was what I am doing. If people can come here and freely discuss the pains and sorrows of their life and balance that with the joys and the uplifting promises of the purposeful service-to-others spiritual life, then I would consider that the thread has served a great purpose.