05-22-2012, 08:30 PM
Thank you Eternal. The possession did not feel "evil", so what you say could be correct. It could be the release of negative charges. I do know it freaked out my friend at first, but he soon got the picture. I think the episode lasted maybe a minute.
I thought the sexual expression I was doing of "humping the earth" was rather amusing actually. Did not know what to think about it except that it was related to "Lucifer". So I was releasing the darkness within myself. How interesting.
Hopefully as I go on, I can stay balanced. It's just too bad I'm on medication now for it. Still, this Universe is pretty darned harmonious compared to before.
Thanks for clarification on it being Love that was flowing through me. And a vein of fertility. I had built up an enormous sexual energy, and was going at peak for some time. I had peaked it out and balanced my sexuality to where I had no sexual desire. So I held no charge there. But there was so much spiritual mass that even the slightest distortions I held were pronounced by this seeming possession.
And it wasn't a demonic possession either. A confused possession that was sexually driven was more like it. It felt pretty pure.
I thought the sexual expression I was doing of "humping the earth" was rather amusing actually. Did not know what to think about it except that it was related to "Lucifer". So I was releasing the darkness within myself. How interesting.
Hopefully as I go on, I can stay balanced. It's just too bad I'm on medication now for it. Still, this Universe is pretty darned harmonious compared to before.
Thanks for clarification on it being Love that was flowing through me. And a vein of fertility. I had built up an enormous sexual energy, and was going at peak for some time. I had peaked it out and balanced my sexuality to where I had no sexual desire. So I held no charge there. But there was so much spiritual mass that even the slightest distortions I held were pronounced by this seeming possession.
And it wasn't a demonic possession either. A confused possession that was sexually driven was more like it. It felt pretty pure.