01-05-2010, 01:34 PM
Hello Monica!
I do recall the feeling of being 'alone' during my journey. It didnt last long, a sifting of a few weeks mabey. But I can relate, I did have a time of feeling very alone. It was needed, for I had to know that my path was true, and not for the gratification from others I was seeking. It was similar to being tested on something, I had to understand why I felt alone, before I discovered that I was not alone at all. I had to be willing to continue, for the will of spiritual things, and not for the will of others around me. So like you said, this alone time had its purpose, and showed its purpose to me eventually.
I can remember, my favorite confident, my mother, not supporting my path. As great of changes it was bringing me and inspiring me deep within, like a new love does to ones heart, I was saddened for a while, I wasnt receiving encouragements from the person I always had. I became very distant fro conversations with my friends and family about things that would of been normal for me to join in on. On the outside, I was trying to blend in with the norm, but on the inside, I had great changes going on, and my brain was bending different ways in every moment of every action and thought I had. Oh but all of this led to the most awesome times and experiences for me. How can I tell anyone I know the angels of the Earth are so real and love us? I can clearly remember, a day where I was deeply praying and seeking, I had been on this journey of seeking by myself for some while, knowing, God knows, I am sifting alot of thoughts, I am trying to cleanse my heart and mind so Thee knows my intent is true....and I surrendered my final feeling of it all to God. Once I did this, with a true meaningful heart, comfort swept over me like a warm blanket in the cold winter would, the knowing that I was not alone at all, but was being given the space I needed, helped me stand tall again in claiming my right to go with my gut and what I felt right. The best words to describe such a knowing is as if God was smiling at me, or the Universe itself, was smiling at me, saying 'its ok child...all is well'.
I remember the comfort more then the alone feeling, but I do remember it very well also. Its ironic how things work out
I would go as far to say that I felt God walking with me that next couple of days after I surrendered my every thought to Thee. I quickly forgot about my 'alone' feeling, like it never was.
Thankful to have others to share and talk with about such things
I do recall the feeling of being 'alone' during my journey. It didnt last long, a sifting of a few weeks mabey. But I can relate, I did have a time of feeling very alone. It was needed, for I had to know that my path was true, and not for the gratification from others I was seeking. It was similar to being tested on something, I had to understand why I felt alone, before I discovered that I was not alone at all. I had to be willing to continue, for the will of spiritual things, and not for the will of others around me. So like you said, this alone time had its purpose, and showed its purpose to me eventually.
I can remember, my favorite confident, my mother, not supporting my path. As great of changes it was bringing me and inspiring me deep within, like a new love does to ones heart, I was saddened for a while, I wasnt receiving encouragements from the person I always had. I became very distant fro conversations with my friends and family about things that would of been normal for me to join in on. On the outside, I was trying to blend in with the norm, but on the inside, I had great changes going on, and my brain was bending different ways in every moment of every action and thought I had. Oh but all of this led to the most awesome times and experiences for me. How can I tell anyone I know the angels of the Earth are so real and love us? I can clearly remember, a day where I was deeply praying and seeking, I had been on this journey of seeking by myself for some while, knowing, God knows, I am sifting alot of thoughts, I am trying to cleanse my heart and mind so Thee knows my intent is true....and I surrendered my final feeling of it all to God. Once I did this, with a true meaningful heart, comfort swept over me like a warm blanket in the cold winter would, the knowing that I was not alone at all, but was being given the space I needed, helped me stand tall again in claiming my right to go with my gut and what I felt right. The best words to describe such a knowing is as if God was smiling at me, or the Universe itself, was smiling at me, saying 'its ok child...all is well'.
I remember the comfort more then the alone feeling, but I do remember it very well also. Its ironic how things work out
I would go as far to say that I felt God walking with me that next couple of days after I surrendered my every thought to Thee. I quickly forgot about my 'alone' feeling, like it never was. Thankful to have others to share and talk with about such things