Peaceful

[Plenum]

What I had done differently is cut off thoughts of my future/debt and said "I am going to enjoy things with my family right now". As I see it, living in the now for me has always been unresponsible. But, it may be that I have manifested an unseen safety net in these areas that will not activate until needed. Allowing for the safe choice to just say "f*ck it, gonna go have fun".

I have seen the effects of financial stress on others and myself. It leads to an intense red-ray blockage (fears for one's own survival) and is one of the most severe blockages that anyone can experience.

in fact, the latest Mad Men episode features someone committing suicide because they reach a position where their job/monetary situation becomes grossly compromised. Death is the exit there.

cutting off someone's money supply is akin to cutting off their food supply in the economic structures which we dwell in.