wanderers and past lives

[Ankh]

all my life i've felt a pull toward magic and yet a big wall that comes up, like to protect me. somehow i know i'm not supposed to mess with that stuff. but i have no idea why. what is in my past that makes me afraid?

Yes, I know this wall that you are talking about. I am not sure that it is anything from your past life though, but that it is your non-incarnated part that warns you. These stuff isn't to mess with as you said.

It is the intelligent infinity and energy (the energy of the Logos which destroys and creates) that you are to work with, and it is a lot of stuff that needs to be worked through before that. Ra calls it "illusory material" which is quite a lot in third density.

First there are stuff like magics of our bodies and minds that needs to be explored and understood. And then there is *polarity*. What is your purpose of using it? In what direction do you point your magic needle so to speak? This is my understanding though and each has its own.