why is catalyst so painful?

[Sagittarius]

I know that othes and Ra have said that Catalyst can be anything or everything that comes to awareness, so it can be good/plesant thoughts.

but I normally associate catalyst with SOMETHING bad or unpleasant, an unwanted.

there is something in the human mind (or my mind at least) that seems to resist the beautific change that the promptings of catalyst offer, and yet these are promptings that do not go away until addressed.

there is something in the ego that wants us to say that we are right, and have always been right, and the catalyst is a thing that points to the contrary, that an opinion or behaviour needs adaptation to the present circumstance.

funny, because Ra did not use our term ego, maybe because it was already so loaded.

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I say catalyst is painful because I had a weekend of spiritual purging, and while much better for the experience, it wasn't a pretty mental experience lol.

Frustrating hey.

No pain no gain, at least for the moment. We are starting to learn faster now, it can't be to much longer.