01-12-2010, 01:14 AM
Questioner, I thought about posting this in the "wanderer awakenings" forum, but it says you're only allowed one post there and I've already put my story about *this* life there. Whichever is preferable works for me, though.
The reference to my husband was a reference to my husband in this life. I do not remember any romantic attachments in my last life, though I won't deny any happened. I simply don't remember. As far as I can tell, I was raised to see sex as just another way to control people, and partnerships as a way to get what you wanted quicker. Meaningful relationships weren't really part of the program.
I am not saying my experience is limited to whatever planet I was living on. I think much of that mindset is very prevalent here on earth, and I'm not going to blame Orion for it being that way. I think everyone is perfectly capable of forming their own distortions, including Earthlings, though I'm sure the negative forces may have had a field day encouraging us in these "explorations." However, the techniques used (from what I can remember of them) seemed to be a lot more sophisticated than what I've witnessed here. They had technology that made it so very easy to literally get into your brain and push your buttons. I remember there was this chair they'd have me sit in and some kind of thing that would go on my head. A lot of these instances were passed of as "purification rituals" and seen as a necessary part of training. People were supposed to think it was a way to attain more power, through this sacrifice of pain or pleasure or what have you. It kind of reminds me of the rites some shamans go through, only it was somewhat of an illusion and images could be fed to you while you were in this state. It was very easy to implant words and images, they just weren't as discreet about it as the media is today. Most people knew about these things to some extent, they'd just been trained not to care.
I think my teacher sounds a lot like Ra because Ra is a solid reflection of the STO mindset. He wanted to help me and he was wise enough to know that trying to convert me would only worsen my condition. He displayed both compassion and wisdom- one of the key objectives in progressing in the STO path.
I believe this "planning" for this life took place between lifetimes, as I'm having a hard time seeing how it could have been done at any other time. Planning the details of your next life while still in the life before it seems a bit absurd, but there may be ways to do it that I do not know about. I do not remember when or how I died, but I'm assuming I did at some point. I could probably expand the memory farther if I meditated on it, though retracing my own death seems kind of scary. I have the vaguest memories of the spirit world, but for the most part I can't find words to describe it. Things just aren't the same there. There isn't all the fear and attachment. It's easier to have a "clear head" and look at the big picture. It's very beautiful, but very different. I think I spent a lot of time trying to decide who my parents would be and different things that might happen in my life, and I had guides working with me to help me make decisions. I almost see these...pictures...pictures made out of light, and I was moving them around, the way you would draw things on a dry erase board, only it was light and moving. That may not make much sense, but my memories of such places are very few and far between.
Aaron, I think I might be one of those really funky instruments. Those kind that sound kind of weird but if you play them at exactly the right time it goes right in with the rest of the symphony and sounds awesome. Maybe I'm a saxophone.
btw Questioner, what sayings of Jesus were you talking about? It's been a good while since I've read the Bible on a regular basis.
The reference to my husband was a reference to my husband in this life. I do not remember any romantic attachments in my last life, though I won't deny any happened. I simply don't remember. As far as I can tell, I was raised to see sex as just another way to control people, and partnerships as a way to get what you wanted quicker. Meaningful relationships weren't really part of the program.
I am not saying my experience is limited to whatever planet I was living on. I think much of that mindset is very prevalent here on earth, and I'm not going to blame Orion for it being that way. I think everyone is perfectly capable of forming their own distortions, including Earthlings, though I'm sure the negative forces may have had a field day encouraging us in these "explorations." However, the techniques used (from what I can remember of them) seemed to be a lot more sophisticated than what I've witnessed here. They had technology that made it so very easy to literally get into your brain and push your buttons. I remember there was this chair they'd have me sit in and some kind of thing that would go on my head. A lot of these instances were passed of as "purification rituals" and seen as a necessary part of training. People were supposed to think it was a way to attain more power, through this sacrifice of pain or pleasure or what have you. It kind of reminds me of the rites some shamans go through, only it was somewhat of an illusion and images could be fed to you while you were in this state. It was very easy to implant words and images, they just weren't as discreet about it as the media is today. Most people knew about these things to some extent, they'd just been trained not to care.
I think my teacher sounds a lot like Ra because Ra is a solid reflection of the STO mindset. He wanted to help me and he was wise enough to know that trying to convert me would only worsen my condition. He displayed both compassion and wisdom- one of the key objectives in progressing in the STO path.
I believe this "planning" for this life took place between lifetimes, as I'm having a hard time seeing how it could have been done at any other time. Planning the details of your next life while still in the life before it seems a bit absurd, but there may be ways to do it that I do not know about. I do not remember when or how I died, but I'm assuming I did at some point. I could probably expand the memory farther if I meditated on it, though retracing my own death seems kind of scary. I have the vaguest memories of the spirit world, but for the most part I can't find words to describe it. Things just aren't the same there. There isn't all the fear and attachment. It's easier to have a "clear head" and look at the big picture. It's very beautiful, but very different. I think I spent a lot of time trying to decide who my parents would be and different things that might happen in my life, and I had guides working with me to help me make decisions. I almost see these...pictures...pictures made out of light, and I was moving them around, the way you would draw things on a dry erase board, only it was light and moving. That may not make much sense, but my memories of such places are very few and far between.
Aaron, I think I might be one of those really funky instruments. Those kind that sound kind of weird but if you play them at exactly the right time it goes right in with the rest of the symphony and sounds awesome. Maybe I'm a saxophone.

btw Questioner, what sayings of Jesus were you talking about? It's been a good while since I've read the Bible on a regular basis.