3d is fun, stop bashing 3d

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3d is about the rollercoaster of life. The wheel of fortune. The cycle of life.

Maybe it's just the energy, but for the past week I feel horrible - hopeless, despairing, lost, abandoned. Almost like it's my dark night of the soul time - I see the presence of intelligent infinity, but yet I am stuck in my reoccurring/incarnative (and recently resurgent) catalyst...I've tried looking at my catalyst every which way to decipher what lesson I am to learn.

After much contemplation, and looking at my life over the years and the reoccurring theme of catalysts (for which I have learned many lessons, but now am at a loss of what more I have to learn with this same type of catalyst), I believe that my primary lesson to learn is ultimately long-term faith that there is a brighter day...and that this darkness I may have to endure, as I have, for many more years in some form/fashion, until such a time that dawn truly comes.

It's time like these that I really look forward to the end of 3d...

Higher self if you are reading this: There is no rush man, we have infinite time to evolve, next time let's decide on just a wee bit less incarnative catalyst next time please lol.

I don't know if this will be helpful, but I've basically given up on the idea of learning lessons. Instead, I try to accept everything about each moment, no matter how difficult. I don't try to evaluate if I'm learning what I'm supposed to be learning; I just try to love myself and the others/catalyst I'm interacting with. I also try to remember to do the exercises that Ra said doubled in intensity with each repetition: seek the love in the moment and offer self to the Creator.