01-22-2010, 07:34 AM
I can identify 100% with your catalysts. I don't have the energy to tell my story whole right now, but i lost almost everything i had once including my mental and emotional health after having been brainwashed by a meditationguru. My childhood was emotionally disruptive and i developed a strong codependencypattern. I have also been quite successful as a singer and musiscian in between the catastrophic events in my life. I had an inheritance that is almost gone now. My life has been a true emotional rollercoaster with extreme ups and downs, success and total loss, ranging between being idolized and cast-out, the typical "fame-syndrome".
It's easy to fear the loss of what you have if you have that experience over and over again, deep down there is this anticipation lurking making you cocreate the loss youself if it's not effectuated from someone else. A selfdestructive pattern, difficult to detect.
This of course is a lifepath i choose before reincarnating reflected in a chart with challenging plutonic/saturnian/neptunic hard aspects as well as some "benefic" ones. This doesn't mean that another person born at the exact same time and place would respond in the same way to the world/the self, but the overall theme would be the same.
I am not a determinist, but we have different challenges in life as we can see here; Aaron never experienced great loss in life whereas i can very much identify with peregrinus, ixlanders and fairyfarmgirls experiences. My lifepattern goes back to my mother and her parents: loss of great wealth, mental illness and supressed talents both from inside and outside, and probably in "direct line from the 7:th generation" as stated in the bible.
Someone has to break this pattern, and the opportunity arises every time it is recurring and THE TIME IS...NOW and the answer lies WITHIN reflected from OUTSIDE. Not an easy task being a spiritual alchemist, turning "lead/the shadow issues" to gold.
Keep on being miners for a
of gold (Neil Young)
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It's easy to fear the loss of what you have if you have that experience over and over again, deep down there is this anticipation lurking making you cocreate the loss youself if it's not effectuated from someone else. A selfdestructive pattern, difficult to detect.
This of course is a lifepath i choose before reincarnating reflected in a chart with challenging plutonic/saturnian/neptunic hard aspects as well as some "benefic" ones. This doesn't mean that another person born at the exact same time and place would respond in the same way to the world/the self, but the overall theme would be the same.
I am not a determinist, but we have different challenges in life as we can see here; Aaron never experienced great loss in life whereas i can very much identify with peregrinus, ixlanders and fairyfarmgirls experiences. My lifepattern goes back to my mother and her parents: loss of great wealth, mental illness and supressed talents both from inside and outside, and probably in "direct line from the 7:th generation" as stated in the bible.
Someone has to break this pattern, and the opportunity arises every time it is recurring and THE TIME IS...NOW and the answer lies WITHIN reflected from OUTSIDE. Not an easy task being a spiritual alchemist, turning "lead/the shadow issues" to gold.
Keep on being miners for a
of gold (Neil Young)transiten