What I have come to further understand from the past 12 hours...

[AnthroHeart]

Indeed. It simultaneously feels as though I have reached a cap-off point of understanding as I feel there is no need to plumb further but regardless of my conscious participation this process will unfold and it becomes fully understood that there exists no cap-off point. It is a most enthralling feeling to have pushed the limits even further bordering upon annihilation, which is what did indeed occur in a sense, and for this I may feel more fully 'myself' inasmuch as this self is chained to no particular identity but exists as all. I admit I was a bit surprised at discovering how much deeper the rabbit hole of this "All is One" business can go.

I feel I may never reach that cap-off point of ultimately understanding, due to the endless mystery. But at the same time, there are plateaus of understanding that I reach, where I must assimilate the information. I almost reached annihilation when I was pulled into a mental black hole, but I fought it. Now that I think about it, if I had let myself fall into it, I may have learned a great deal about myself. I tend to fight back when times get hard.

I fear that I may not be learning all the lessons I came here to learn. I no longer worry about harvest. But that I may be neglecting certain tasks. I don't feel driven to do much of anything. I meditate, but often just fall asleep.

I'd love one day to go deeper into the rabbit hole. I used to work energetically with Ra, and found them difficult to work with. So now I work with Hatonn as per Patrick's advice. Perhaps I should read some of their channelings. Or those of Q'uo more. There's so much to read, it can make my head spin.

What have I learned this past 12 hours? I have relearned that ultimately everything is ok. All is Well.