10-03-2012, 12:28 AM
Xise, without really going in too deep, you seem to have a lot of... emotion around feeling not being 'worthy' of being loved.
First off, devoting all your free time to it, probably not worth it. Diminish returns and whatnot, let alone letting other things fall apart. Going forward from there, obviously working on your own self image is highly important. Perhaps the first thing to work on is loving yourself. Personally after a few years of meaning too and good intentions I started working out. Going to the gym isnt really my thing, though I do go intermittently. But run the mile or two home from work most days im working now, and do like 300 pushups almost everyday at work. Getting results feels good, I forgot how I love being able to get sleep relatively quickly when my body has something to heal.
When I go out with friends, I get dressed up. Like I stand out a lot dressed up (three piece linen suit, everyone else is jeans and tshirt). Little vanities can go a long way. I would go so far as to say that working solely on ones spirituality will hamstring you spiritually. Do things to have fun, do things to help other people, do things to make you a better person. All of these things will make you a more spiritual, and better yet a happier person.
And while I dont know if this reference will register with you, reading some courage wolf memes always is motivating to me.
Chin up, chest out!
First off, devoting all your free time to it, probably not worth it. Diminish returns and whatnot, let alone letting other things fall apart. Going forward from there, obviously working on your own self image is highly important. Perhaps the first thing to work on is loving yourself. Personally after a few years of meaning too and good intentions I started working out. Going to the gym isnt really my thing, though I do go intermittently. But run the mile or two home from work most days im working now, and do like 300 pushups almost everyday at work. Getting results feels good, I forgot how I love being able to get sleep relatively quickly when my body has something to heal.
When I go out with friends, I get dressed up. Like I stand out a lot dressed up (three piece linen suit, everyone else is jeans and tshirt). Little vanities can go a long way. I would go so far as to say that working solely on ones spirituality will hamstring you spiritually. Do things to have fun, do things to help other people, do things to make you a better person. All of these things will make you a more spiritual, and better yet a happier person.
And while I dont know if this reference will register with you, reading some courage wolf memes always is motivating to me.
Chin up, chest out!
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