02-20-2010, 02:45 AM
(This post was last modified: 02-20-2010, 03:00 AM by wanderer4d.)
Greetings all. Before I tell you my story want to thank everyone for sharing your experiences & love in this place. Every time I read the life stories shared here it helps me feel less alone. It's kind of a support group for Wanderers. Like sitting around a family table. This time my more immediate spiritual family not my blood relations.
I turned 47 this last December and have spent the last 20 years with the knowledge that I was a Wanderer. I was given the information in a reading with a man by the name of Chief Little Summer. He would become for those 20 years my only "human" connection to The Law of One. He crossed over in January. I'm eternally grateful for the gift of that information. I miss knowing that he is a call away when I can't figure something out or just need some conformation. He also turned me on to the Ra material. So with his passing I decided it was time to find some new connections. So I looked back through my bookmarks and rediscovered Bring4th. When I came to this forum last month I began to sense the community at work here and was just amazed & comforted. Ra's words were in the same way were comforting. Like I was reading my native language. It's all so validating.
I grew up in small towns in Tennessee. Had a fairly easy life growing up. Just the usual run of the mill family communication dysfunction. I know this might come as a shock
but pretty much all my friction in this life has been self induced. lol My Dad was a quiet and kind man. I only heard him cuss one time. He really let the non starting mower have it with a "hell fire". The words to a Prince song comes to mind when I think of my Mom. "maybe your just like my mother, she's never satisfied". lol My Dad crossed over 2 years ago this March after a 15 year bout with Parkinson's. My Mom kept him at home (except for the occasional hospital stay) right up until his last few days. My parents would have been married 63 years that June 21. I love my Mom all the more for keeping Dad at home. It was hard on her but she would not have had it any other way. An amazing lesson of love. I didn't realize it at the time but I met my wife on my parent's anniversary. Summer Solstice under a full moon.
I have been surrounded by love my whole life. My family, friends, lovers, teachers, unseen guides, and All That Is. Even the times when I'm so deep in my own junk that I'm not conscience of it. I am cradled by it.
I wake, I sleep, I wake, I sleep. Now it's time to wake up & stay awake.
This is my Chinese year & the year of my ruling planets return. I am now working on clearing out the no longer useful and supporting what will clarify my love vibration. To radiate love. My path I know is to be a model through love not necessarily to be a "teacher".
My work is as a massage therapist allows me a setting to passively be that radiator. I always think of my van. In a similar way as a automobile radiator circulates water to cool an engine we can help transmute energies through our heart chakras to raise the vibrations around us. I also like the "feeling" of a cozy radiant heat source. I am very fortunate and blessed to be able to support my family doing something I love. I would be so much less easy to live with doing most any other work. lol
I have 3 step teenager girls & my wife and I have a 4 yr old together.
Pretty sure I'm a 4th Densityer. Lot's of love. Still working on the wisdom part.
Time to stay awake.
Thank you all. I love you all. So nice to have a place to say that.
Love&Light,
James
I turned 47 this last December and have spent the last 20 years with the knowledge that I was a Wanderer. I was given the information in a reading with a man by the name of Chief Little Summer. He would become for those 20 years my only "human" connection to The Law of One. He crossed over in January. I'm eternally grateful for the gift of that information. I miss knowing that he is a call away when I can't figure something out or just need some conformation. He also turned me on to the Ra material. So with his passing I decided it was time to find some new connections. So I looked back through my bookmarks and rediscovered Bring4th. When I came to this forum last month I began to sense the community at work here and was just amazed & comforted. Ra's words were in the same way were comforting. Like I was reading my native language. It's all so validating.
I grew up in small towns in Tennessee. Had a fairly easy life growing up. Just the usual run of the mill family communication dysfunction. I know this might come as a shock
but pretty much all my friction in this life has been self induced. lol My Dad was a quiet and kind man. I only heard him cuss one time. He really let the non starting mower have it with a "hell fire". The words to a Prince song comes to mind when I think of my Mom. "maybe your just like my mother, she's never satisfied". lol My Dad crossed over 2 years ago this March after a 15 year bout with Parkinson's. My Mom kept him at home (except for the occasional hospital stay) right up until his last few days. My parents would have been married 63 years that June 21. I love my Mom all the more for keeping Dad at home. It was hard on her but she would not have had it any other way. An amazing lesson of love. I didn't realize it at the time but I met my wife on my parent's anniversary. Summer Solstice under a full moon. I have been surrounded by love my whole life. My family, friends, lovers, teachers, unseen guides, and All That Is. Even the times when I'm so deep in my own junk that I'm not conscience of it. I am cradled by it.
I wake, I sleep, I wake, I sleep. Now it's time to wake up & stay awake.
This is my Chinese year & the year of my ruling planets return. I am now working on clearing out the no longer useful and supporting what will clarify my love vibration. To radiate love. My path I know is to be a model through love not necessarily to be a "teacher".
My work is as a massage therapist allows me a setting to passively be that radiator. I always think of my van. In a similar way as a automobile radiator circulates water to cool an engine we can help transmute energies through our heart chakras to raise the vibrations around us. I also like the "feeling" of a cozy radiant heat source. I am very fortunate and blessed to be able to support my family doing something I love. I would be so much less easy to live with doing most any other work. lol
I have 3 step teenager girls & my wife and I have a 4 yr old together. Pretty sure I'm a 4th Densityer. Lot's of love. Still working on the wisdom part.
Time to stay awake.
Thank you all. I love you all. So nice to have a place to say that.
Love&Light,
James
