what did you learn today?

[Ankh]

For days now, I've been experiencing the separation, and with that - a lot of suffering. I can not accept the separation! I can not accept all this array of negative thoughts and emotions that come with this experience!

Yesterday it culminated with the pain manifesting in my physical body; it was/is felt in the groins, especially the left one, and the stomach. It continued when I was among people, and culminated even more when I felt a complete separation and all the negative thoughts and emotions when being among them... How the heck do you accept that? And what do you do? I tried meditation, contemplation and intensive prayer for being in unity. But nothing worked... What do you do...?

Then I came to work. I felt no love. No desire to serve anyone. Just this pain, and suffering. Hours went by... Then suddenly at about 04:00 AM this night - BAM! There was a relief. I had one of these experiences. An experience of unity, of oneness... And it felt like all that was broken got healed, and my pain disappeared. I felt power and strength again. But as soon as I tried to rush somewhere, and serve as I usually do, be as I usually do, the pain came back. As soon as I tried to judge myself for not radiating enough, pain came back. As soon as I tried to be the "light and love", the pain came back... What the heck?! As soon as I returned to that place of unity within, pain went away...

On my way back home, there were loving teachers with me, telling me things like: the self is one with the creation. No parts of self, can be excluded from this unity.

These are freaking advanced lessons! I understand that this memory of what happened this night will soon wane. And I will forget it. And perhaps I will even start doubting again... I might leave the place of unity from within and so on and so forth... So this is where the faith comes into the picture... It's funny that I have been studying faith lately... And will probably experience a perfect example of how to work with it soon...

So what I learned today is that the self is one with the creation, and no parts if it can be excluded, all needs to be accepted as part of unity, of self. This density also teaches the lessons of faith and will, among others. Faith in what is happening, and that the one is on the right track of its evolution. The will is to be gently, gently used, to be touched and felt first, and worked with with care... To find that will is not easy. But when found, it is to be directed into the orientation that one wants to take, serving others in my case...

*phew* It's not easy in this density!

[Ankh]

But as soon as I tried to rush somewhere, and serve as I usually do, be as I usually do, the pain came back. As soon as I tried to judge myself for not radiating enough, pain came back. As soon as I tried to be the "light and love", the pain came back... What the heck?! As soon as I returned to that place of unity within, pain went away...

This is from today's Q'uote:

In reality, much of getting to know the self is not pushing the self around as much as it is gently sitting around the campfire with all of these different parts of self and allowing each to tell its story. For there is good in many different points of view within, all of which may come together in ways that are not helpful. Yet each item within the mix is helpful to consider, helpful to gaze at, perhaps over time.

I thought it was very fitting into what I experienced...

[Unbound]

If even a single element of Creation were to not exist, the entirety of Infinity could no longer exist. Part of absolute unity is also the inclusiveness of the separate states of perception, because the juxtaposition between the collective all and the individual is the dynamic which enables the Creation to exist as an experience, rather than just a unified blend of pure, undefined energies.

I am working with this lesson very much myself right now too, thanks for posting this.

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Reminds me of one of the last things Shin'Ar said to me before he left.

Nothing has been abandoned as though cast away. Everything that got you to this point of awareness in the process was the same process that 'we' are. All IS.And some aspects of it are meant to be used as methods of achieving higher vibrations in the process for particular locales; including the process of a form as well as the transformation of the planet and the cosmos itself.

This is why I emphasize that nothing has been cast away, it has rather been absorbed into the part of the process which your fragment affects through its interaction.

The process of your field is as important to the All and creation as is gravity to the earth and the stability of the moon. All processes are vital to the One. All a crucial piece of the whole pie to make it One. And many of these processes are factors which alter vibrations, and certain interactions between vibrations establish new frequencies and patterns which benefit the function of the Design and the process.

These are what we Ancients have called 'enchantments'. And this is what we have been offering to the Process throughout our history. When one is realized, it becomes a process that you want to continue over and over, forever enchanting the creation, and that particular aspect of it, with that effort.

Cast away? Never!

We cannot cast away the process, or any part of it. We can only utilize it according to our free will.

Powerless, yet so powerful.

One, yet so many.

[Wai]

I woke up late this morning and had to rush to a nearby supermarket to get a few items before going to work. As I entered the building, an old man came up to me and whispered in Hokkien (a Chinese dialect), "You forgot to zip up."

This reminded me of what a Taoist master once told me, "The only place you are rushing to is an early grave. You must learn to enjoy life. Take your time, live, enjoy."

[Hototo]

That language is an art form as fine as any other and improper usage of language corrupts.

That pretending to be of lower density than you are, out of fear of being inappropriately high is damaging.

That pretending to not know / understand what is going on in reality is very damaging for healthy social functions.

That when people say things that have the wrong astral / emotional connontation even if the general message is correct they should be corrected or your/mine disagreement with their message clearly and poignantly explained. Lack of doing so will invite negative.

It isn't wrong to not like some people.

It is preferable to be honest to people that than to try to form a message in way that emotions are taken consideration for. It is almost always either worse for the situational clarity overall to not be straightforward or ponder what the other persons emotional reaction will be in relation to your action.

When you start to think of the other persons emotional responses to what you say/do in an anticipation to predict what they will do you step over the line and turn STS.

When you don't think of yourself primarily and to the full extent of necessity you cant give to others steadily.

True giving is not in giving when you need as well, but rather, in giving when you no longer need.

[Plenum]

well, today I learnt I had to forgive myself for a whole 'year' of life, which happens to be 1995.

I had just turned 18, gotten out of high school, started university (what you guys call 'college') and was basically a fish out of water.

little social skills, facing the 'real world' for the first time, having discovered a little metaphysics and being confronted with my sheer ignorance of how things worked in reality ... travelling long distances (both a bus and train required) to get to my campus, the cold, experimenting with my diet ... this was a horrendous year for me in terms of psyche and confidence.

I was totally shaken and confused. The entire year, I truly did not want to 'be there'; I never harbored any thoughts of 'ending it', not even in the most despairing periods, but the attitude of not wanting to be present pervaded my psyche. And it left a stamp.

after this period, whenever I had difficulties or was faced with life-confronting stresses, this 'emotion' or attitude was triggered from that year. I had learnt to approach things with the attitude of a victim - 'I don't like it, so I don't want to be here'. I felt that I couldn't change things or influence the outcome that well.

this whole year of my life had to be forgiven, and the corresponding hold it has on me hopefully should be released.

- -

the past is not truly left behind until it is understood for what it was, accepted, and integrated.

I hadn't really appreciated the subterranean effects that this one year of life had on me until a dream brought this to light.

[AnthroHeart]

It's a comfort that I'm not the only one who's had a difficult past. While it was only one event in my past that I truly regret, there were other more minor mistakes. I know there are no real mistakes, but I can't help feeling lost for what has happened, and feeling that I may lose something special in the future. I don't know what the future holds, but I am with a circle of friends here in this forum. When I'm feeling down, I can read the accounts of others to lift my spirits. My dog has already forgiven me for the time that I hurt him. He's such a sweetheart, at least to me.

I periodically also get brief moments where I feel ecstatic. But they only last a few seconds at most. Usually around when I'm about to do something new.

Ankh, you're so right it's not easy in this density.

[Hototo]

Today? That my Ex is still ridiculously hot.

[Dinko]

that i want to eat some shrooms

[Plenum]

I am continuing to learn how wondrous life is.

I've had the joy of chatting with Ellai, and she is someone genuinely connected with the 'mysteries' on the other side.

I've had an astonishing first four months of 2013.

life is just a miracle right now.

AMAZING.

[Jamie35]

I have learned today that I must take a pilgrimage in the wilderness to face my inner demons & get away from the tendency of my family of wanting to control everyone & bringing forth their conflicts so all others can listen. It can be emotional draining even if you are far more detached then the normal everyday man.

[Dinko]

learned the power of love and peace again...

[Plenum]

I was reminded again, today, of the wonders of an open chat.

when there is blue ray communication, it is like a communion of minds; all is shared as honestly as possible, the stories, the dramas, the feelings. It's all there, in a living exchange of vibrant words.

so thanks again rie and Karl. You made the highlight reel of my day

hats off to blue ray!

hi def communications from mind to mind

[Jeremy]

I'm finally learning that its ok to be without a mate by my side. I had an impromptu night out last night since I really don't have the time for any type of social life and I had a blast. I bar hopped and met some cool people then went to an amazing little bar and grill by the beach that is the exact reason why I moved towards the beach and met an incredible couple there.

The funy thing was that when I originally drove passed this bar and grill, I noticed the girl first as she was quite gorgeous and saw she had a guy standing next to her so I didn't really pay her much attention but they both immediately caught my eye. When I made it back to that bar and grill to get some food a good 1.5 hours later, they were still there and I was sitting a few feet away from them enjoying the outside ocean breeze and listening to their drunken rants which was quite entertaining.

The girl apologized to me if they were being inappropriate to which I told her that I hardly ever get to go out so I was simply enjoying the moment and nothing could have bothered me at that point. We ended up shaking hands and talking a bit and then the conversation somehow steered towards spirits and spirituality. He started opening up about he's always been surrounded by death and all the spirits both of them had seen. They couldn't figure out why they were so open all of a sudden so then I told them of how spiritual I am and the lightbulb went off for them as they figured it was the vibe we all gave off that allowed such openness.

It ended up being an incredibly unexpected night with some really cool people that made me realize that its ok to be "alone" because you need know who you might meet along the journey.

[Aloneness]

I'm learning to buy new stuff, I mean, after nearly 15 years I finally bought myself a new duvet without the usual hassle that it's way too expensive blabla. I passionately dislike shopping and usually only buy secondhand stuff, mostly online. Not this time!
Tomorrow I'll be going out to diner to celebrate everything.

[Lycen]

After a run, under the shower realized that I think others are not as accepting as I. That leading me to be kinda defensive in my writing as I do not want to offend anyone.

It has been a while since the last "AHA!" moment before this. It is comforting to know I have my work cut out for me yet also.. >.< .p

[Aloneness]

After a run, under the shower realized that I think others are not as accepting as I. That leading me to be kinda defensive in my writing as I do not want to offend anyone.

It has been a while since the last "AHA!" moment before this. It is comforting to know I have my work cut out for me yet also.. >.< .p

Hi Lycen, I'm curious to know what it is about your work that evokes comforting thoughts?

[reeay]

What are your responsibilities when communicating/interacting with other self?

[BrownEye]

For some time I have felt as if I was not allowed to "know" who I really am. After a good session of qhht I was told that it really is the case. There is an agreement between myself and my higher self, and I will not be allowed to know who I am until the appointed time.

Guess there is no hurry eh?:-/

[Spaced]

I get similar messages when I try to get in touch with my Higher Self. Sometimes when I ask what I am doing here it gives me the word "backup," as though I'm here as a sort of contingency and that I can be "activated" if needed, but for what purpose I have no idea It seems like until then I am just here to exist and observe.

My higher self is pretty quiet in general. The only message that I ever seem to get from them is "you're doing fine"

[Ankh]

Sometimes when I ask what I am doing here it gives me the word "backup," as though I'm here as a sort of contingency and that I can be "activated" if needed, but for what purpose I have no idea It seems like until then I am just here to exist and observe.

By some reason I thought of this when reading your post:

In this on-going struggle the light of freedom would burn within the mind/body/spirit complexes capable of such polarization. Lacking the opportunity for overt expression of the love of freedom, the seeking for inner knowledge would take root aided by those of the Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow which remember their calling upon this sphere.

[Hototo]

That telling the truth has a positive outcome in super surpising ways and that I really need to remember to thank B4 and Ra.

[AnthroHeart]

I never hear from my higher self. Or if I do, I don't recognize it.
Same with my guides, I don't realize any communication on their part.

[BrownEye]

The only message that I ever seem to get from them is "you're doing fine"

I keep getting this as well. The specific wording is "you are doing very well." But I feel as though they are talking about my tangential "work" more than anything.

[Hototo]

That I should be quiet more *looks at the 75% of B4 threads answered to*

[Spaced]

Sometimes when I ask what I am doing here it gives me the word "backup," as though I'm here as a sort of contingency and that I can be "activated" if needed, but for what purpose I have no idea It seems like until then I am just here to exist and observe.

By some reason I thought of this when reading your post:

In this on-going struggle the light of freedom would burn within the mind/body/spirit complexes capable of such polarization. Lacking the opportunity for overt expression of the love of freedom, the seeking for inner knowledge would take root aided by those of the Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow which remember their calling upon this sphere.

Reading this session reveals that Ra is speaking here of a timeline in which North America is engulfed in guerrilla warfare. If that were the case and I was sent here to play a role in such a scenario then I am perfectly willing to remain behind the veil of confusion for this lifetime if it means a more peaceful period of transition

[Adonai One]

I got a good reminder that people can be wrong and can be logically inconsistent, and that one should rely on their own mental resources when it comes to the direction of their life, rather than become greatly dependent on others.

[Lycen]

After a run, under the shower realized that I think others are not as accepting as I. That leading me to be kinda defensive in my writing as I do not want to offend anyone.

It has been a while since the last "AHA!" moment before this. It is comforting to know I have my work cut out for me yet also.. >.< .p

Hi Lycen, I'm curious to know what it is about your work that evokes comforting thoughts?

Sometimes I succumb to illusions like "I know enough" which is true yet also false. It comforts me that my knowledge/understanding has its limits for if it had not.. Then should I struggle in "pain" finding a solution would seem impossible. Well something of likes I thought then, now it seems quite foolish when put in words.

Thank you for your query .)

What are your responsibilities when communicating/interacting with other self?

In my eyes, to be as honest and accurate as possible to my thoughts and feelings. As so I wish others to be.

[Horuseus]

The only message that I ever seem to get from them is "you're doing fine"

Tell me about it. I often feel my guides are trolling me Lol.

[Aloneness]

Nothing and everything. I don't know. It's a day when I'm so fed up of being stuck here in this shithole (excuse my french)