03-17-2021, 09:43 AM
Hey guys. Bless all of u with the love and light of our infinite creator. Here's my wanderer's story, my story of awakening. I was born into a fundamental Christian, very loving family in Oak Hill, WV in November of 1992. Around 5 years old is when the scales of childhood innocence began to fall off my eyes as i got out into the neighborhood and got amongst the other kids. I started picking up some of their delinquent ways, and eventually noticed a tension between my good upbringing and who i was slowly becoming. When i was 12, we moved near Ashland, KY and this completely threw off my balance. Around 16 years old, after going through social awkwardness, living for other people, and not having any identity of my own, I started spiraling into my dark night of the soul. I started drinking, smoking pot, and fell into a great depression. I started asking all the big questions like who am i, whats my purpose, and whats the point to all this. i had tried to be faithful as a christian many times but kept going back and forth between backsliding and recommitting. I knew i couldnt do it on my own, so i gave up and pretty much told god that if he wanted me, he'd have to come and get me. after this i really started getting to a dark place. i was watching mass shooting and killing videos on the internet, and was convinced the economy was about to collapse carrying social order along with it. I became a doomsday prepper, buying supplies. I had no regard for humanity any more and became completely numb, apathetic and a bit unstable. I thought i was running out of time before the anticipated collapse, and i thought i needed more supplies, so i got the bright idea to rob this gas station. I went in there fired a gun, got the money, and took off on some back roads. before i knew it about 10 cops were on my tail in a high speed chase. i pulled over after a while and gave up cause there was nowhere to go. they cuffed me, threw me in the back of the cruiser and sent me to jail. After a few nights of getting my bearings, i found a bible and began to flip through it. i could tell god was calling me back to him. The next night as this kept working on me i had one of the most profound experiences of my life. That night, i was laying down and everything just started to hit me. I broke down in tears and began to cry out to god. i had hit rock bottom. i felt so unworthy and so small and begged god for just a sliver of mercy, for help, for something. then in the middle of my cry for help, i heard three quiet but powerful words come into my thoughts that would change my life forever, "It'll be alright." As soon as i heard these words it felt like a bucket of warm tingling oil poured over my entire body from head to toe and i felt such a peace as i had never felt before in my life. i knew i was in god's hands now and everything was going to be okay. In the following weeks, months, and a couple years, i became like a dry sponge for his word(which at that time to me was the bible) i learned so much and grew so much and it was great. After about 5 years of this i had grew to a point where i felt grounded and well rounded enough to go out and meet other people of different beliefs to converse with them and hopefully win them over to the christian side. Turns out i would be the one who was in for a suprise. I met this one guy who brought to me a message from the bible from a whole nother point of view about the I AM statements of jesus. Whatever it was he told me about his, pretty much that we are god and all is god and that our purpose is simply to be, clicked with my soul and set me free into a whole nother level of spirituality that i call conscious being. This set me seeking upon another path for my new paradigm of truth. After 2 years of this seeking to no avail, i came across two books by michael newton called journey of souls and destiny of souls, which really opened my eyes. Then not too long after that, i came across the law of one books by L/L Research and i had found my new home. The material resonated with my soul like a radio tower. After taking in the information from the law of one, i wrote L/L and they sent me a list of their books that they offer. I got and read all these and it just added to the sense of bliss from uncovering blessed truth. Growing and maturing with the confederation philosophy, i finally got released from prison in the Kentucky DOC after serving 10 years. I got out march 13, 2021. and now here i am writing this story. I'm just now beginning to read L/L's full archive of channeling transcripts and guess that it'll take me about two years to get through it all if i read 3 a day, but i'm so looking forward to it. The impact that L/L has had on my life has been megatonic. I am so thankful for what they are, what they have become and the super great resource that they have provided for our planet. They are a bright lighthouse of love and light for so many. Bless u all truly and greatly in the love and light of our one infinite creator. blessed be. Thanks!
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