My story.
Early life.
I grew up with a single mother in East Sussex of England, in the town of Hove, near Brighton. Life was relatively idyllic (going down the beach with a bucket and spade, watching movies with my granny) although my mother took time off work and didn’t encourage me on the TV too much. There were precious few psychic occurrence but some which defied reality in a rather odd way. One was having some sort of waking dream when looking through a metal pole. Another was when the whole room tilted on its side, and the next day to my understanding, things in the room had moved a little down.
Begin
At 9 I met my father. 11 I got diabetes. 14 I got determined to cure my diabetes and discovered the world as it really is. I also became aware of meditation around this time and started meditating very infrequently, moving up to regularly at 18. I used to go on a website called Astral society because of vaguely psychic experiences, such as predicting numbers off a roulette wheel, and encouraging others to do it, which distressed the owners. I also went to a Reiki healer to come off caffeine (Diet coke.)
Discovering the self.
From here I discovered Edgar Cayce then David Wilcock and the Law of One. And was getting extremely intense experiences where a girl at a supermarket engaged in clingy but evasive behaviour that both distressed and thrilled me for three years. Later I got a dream that told me that I was Don Elkins and this was my inheritance, which also ended a period where I was absolutely unable to sleep properly and the girl then left the supermarket. The ‘past life' was what I ascribed to my ability to understand the Law of One so quickly.
So how to be of service? I started with music, that didn’t work out because my personality was seemingly not strong enough. Then healing, in which I felt too supressed. My inner fight wasn’t given a whirl. Then politics and sociology for two years. Which ended suspiciously with panic attacks and dodgy dream triggers that became an aspect of the terror I experienced later.
Climb up.
When I came back home I played a bit of guitar and felt that now this was my life path. After a few years in which I experienced mostly hatred for the system I was no longer directly fighting, I started volunteering at a Buddhist centre.
Fall down.
Eventually, after a few more events things started to heat up. I got a friend there and the spiritual information was flying thick and fast. I felt very stressed about everything, like I was energetically connected to everything. I used not to be able to have a facebook because I would psychicly perceive when a message would be sent to me. I effectively had a facebook app in my brain. I was also studying some pretty serious astrology and getting dreams that would translate directly into information when I woke up.
One day I met a girl at this Buddhist centre and a whole bomb simply went off. While out with her and other Buddhist folks, and through the quite stressful interpretation of dreams I realised, as I experienced it, that we were meant to be together but were both resisting it. I would experience massive magnetic attraction that was largely reciprocated and there was a lot going on here. Also, as if on cue to make a bad situation worse, including apparent negs showing up in meditation and just generally, I received some apparent extra- terrestrial contact that may have been negative. At this level of vibration, I felt that when I then didn’t use positively polarised energy, it would get converted to negatively polarised. My dreams strongly reflected this.
The situation remained stagnant for about a week until I received information that further raised my vibration and I had the instinct to return or contact the girl. I tried some things but it all went from bad to worse, there was no relief, and so from a state of absolute confusion, almost no sleep and strong spiritual forces having exhausted me, and a directly threatening dream telling me because I had rejected the positive entities through not taking their guidance, I would now be under the care of negative entities, locked into a coma with them making my life hell. I tried to kill myself.
The hospital visit, as you can imagine was a continuation of the same experience. After I left hospital and after a few months the feelings did subside, and I started making a lot more contact with positive entities and enjoying this place a lot more. There is some spiritual side of me that needs to talk about some of these things in order to live and I don’t know what the next path is.
Early life.
I grew up with a single mother in East Sussex of England, in the town of Hove, near Brighton. Life was relatively idyllic (going down the beach with a bucket and spade, watching movies with my granny) although my mother took time off work and didn’t encourage me on the TV too much. There were precious few psychic occurrence but some which defied reality in a rather odd way. One was having some sort of waking dream when looking through a metal pole. Another was when the whole room tilted on its side, and the next day to my understanding, things in the room had moved a little down.
Begin
At 9 I met my father. 11 I got diabetes. 14 I got determined to cure my diabetes and discovered the world as it really is. I also became aware of meditation around this time and started meditating very infrequently, moving up to regularly at 18. I used to go on a website called Astral society because of vaguely psychic experiences, such as predicting numbers off a roulette wheel, and encouraging others to do it, which distressed the owners. I also went to a Reiki healer to come off caffeine (Diet coke.)
Discovering the self.
From here I discovered Edgar Cayce then David Wilcock and the Law of One. And was getting extremely intense experiences where a girl at a supermarket engaged in clingy but evasive behaviour that both distressed and thrilled me for three years. Later I got a dream that told me that I was Don Elkins and this was my inheritance, which also ended a period where I was absolutely unable to sleep properly and the girl then left the supermarket. The ‘past life' was what I ascribed to my ability to understand the Law of One so quickly.
So how to be of service? I started with music, that didn’t work out because my personality was seemingly not strong enough. Then healing, in which I felt too supressed. My inner fight wasn’t given a whirl. Then politics and sociology for two years. Which ended suspiciously with panic attacks and dodgy dream triggers that became an aspect of the terror I experienced later.
Climb up.
When I came back home I played a bit of guitar and felt that now this was my life path. After a few years in which I experienced mostly hatred for the system I was no longer directly fighting, I started volunteering at a Buddhist centre.
Fall down.
Eventually, after a few more events things started to heat up. I got a friend there and the spiritual information was flying thick and fast. I felt very stressed about everything, like I was energetically connected to everything. I used not to be able to have a facebook because I would psychicly perceive when a message would be sent to me. I effectively had a facebook app in my brain. I was also studying some pretty serious astrology and getting dreams that would translate directly into information when I woke up.
One day I met a girl at this Buddhist centre and a whole bomb simply went off. While out with her and other Buddhist folks, and through the quite stressful interpretation of dreams I realised, as I experienced it, that we were meant to be together but were both resisting it. I would experience massive magnetic attraction that was largely reciprocated and there was a lot going on here. Also, as if on cue to make a bad situation worse, including apparent negs showing up in meditation and just generally, I received some apparent extra- terrestrial contact that may have been negative. At this level of vibration, I felt that when I then didn’t use positively polarised energy, it would get converted to negatively polarised. My dreams strongly reflected this.
The situation remained stagnant for about a week until I received information that further raised my vibration and I had the instinct to return or contact the girl. I tried some things but it all went from bad to worse, there was no relief, and so from a state of absolute confusion, almost no sleep and strong spiritual forces having exhausted me, and a directly threatening dream telling me because I had rejected the positive entities through not taking their guidance, I would now be under the care of negative entities, locked into a coma with them making my life hell. I tried to kill myself.
The hospital visit, as you can imagine was a continuation of the same experience. After I left hospital and after a few months the feelings did subside, and I started making a lot more contact with positive entities and enjoying this place a lot more. There is some spiritual side of me that needs to talk about some of these things in order to live and I don’t know what the next path is.
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