09-05-2015, 11:03 AM
In the tense of, being Denied Free Will
In the context of, we are in denial of Free Will.
I am sorry to say this, I have thought it over for months now ever since I first discovered the innate concept (as in I didn't read about it, I thought it up) that Free Will is ignored, making this place actually a Hell of sorts.
'Oh Van, stop talking about Hell!'
I will say that I am wrong, that this is not something that is true for everyone. If you ever discover this for yourself, regard it as Greeting. It is Greeting, and it was welcomed by me, and now I understand the concept of Gnosticism, the entire flip-side of Spirituality (Earth is a Soul Trap) and such. It's actually real, but only if you make it real for yourself.
I am of the unfortunate nature that I desired to take this route. In so doing, I am surmising as I go through this life now the areas of Free Will Denial.
I will begin now.
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Free Will exists even against the scientific claim that it does not (the study cited in such a claim in my opinion proves Free Will, choices made 7 seconds prior to consciously making them, is the unconscious or 'whole' self choosing), I argued this in a model of Determinism I call 'Relative Determinism'. I won't post that unless people want me to
In Free Will we must accept and respect another's Free Will, almost like how we desire our free will to be respected and accepted.
In Earth, Free Will does not exist. There is no authority to enforce Free Will, rather, there is an authority present that suppresses Free Will. In both good and bad. Your Free Will as a human being is ignored cosmically even, to an extent that for eons now, nothing has been done to aid those countless endless entities who have incarnated here to experience enslavement of the most devious kind, the belief of freedom in reality where you are not free. I called this a Fanciful Hell. Heaven essentially in all ways shapes and forms, until you discover that your free will is ignored. It's called Unconditional Love, or The Law of Confusion. Some see it as Indifference, or a complex equation needing solved.
The most straightforward way of explaining this however is in an analogy:
Imagine if you will a Human, who has entered into a legally binding contract (Life Plan). They then lose all memory of who they are permanently (as far as that 'Life' is concerned) and find themselves a completely new Person personality wise. They discover they are bound to a contract they agreed to, but as a different person. Their current placement has them disagreeing with the terms of the contract. They are told they have Free Will. When they express that Free Will, it is ignored because of a contract they are bound to, and told that they put themselves here in this position and must go through with everything. They cite Free Will and are told there is no infringement because they choose to be here. They cite they did not, as the current being they are, choose anything. They are told they are wrong.
Does an amnesiac who is legally a new person still have to abide by a contract they have no recognition or desire of maintaining now?
According to the Universe, yes. Human Being's Free Will is not above the Soul's Free Will, it is not even regarded as equal to. It is ignored and then cited as equal to.
Human's who desire to be murdered and raped and tortured, they choose that.
Human's who want to leave and never return, cannot do so unless they fulfill very stringent specific actions.
Human's who are aware, come to an odd realization that cosmically, they are a Game in consideration (many NDE's reference this, even Carla calls this place the Gameboard, and our Consciousness is the Player with a self-aware vehicle.)
Human's who desire to stop playing the game, invite further game events (Catalyst).
Human's who continue to play the game, invite stronger/harder game events.
And are asked to have faith in something they have no knowledge of, in something that hurts them, in something that betrays them. In a Creator that resembled Demiurge, who is by definition of 'All is One', The Demiurge in a Distortion. To accept and love that, even while treated as badly as they are.
I would even post this in Strictly Law of One as it pertains directly to Free Will, revolving around several statements made by Ra, the most notable being, 'This is the Density of Desire' and another saying, 'This is the Density of Choice'.
Yet in this density, desire of Human's are ignored, grossly so.
Yet in this density, Choice of Human's aren't just ignored, they reverberate across and back unto the Human, even in instances of having occurred in a different life time, with no connection beyond The Incarnated Soul, to provide 'Catalyst', a special way of saying Something you do not desire is coming your way, because what you actually desire is what your soul desires, even if the desires do not line up, you are still presented with endless Catalyst to make choices that do not matter, but to deal with their consequences regardless even if you, as an amnesiac, become once more another amnesiac who is once more in no way similar to you except that you share the same Soul.
In 3D if you do not graduate by basically being halfway to pure love towards others, or being basically completely selfish towards others, you WILL have to return. Even if you already won the game once, you're back in it again. You get no choice.
Let me repeat that.
You get no choice
That is infringement of Free Will to any Entity, unless the inherent contract of 3D is to discard your Free Will temporarily to discover the complexities of Free Will in order to make your polarity choice... It is still a Binding put upon you that takes away your Free Will. Unless one returns from incarnation and simply says. "No, I don't want to return." Do they get a choice if they have 'unfinished business' on Earth?
Some NDE's say yes, others don't even seem to comprehend the concept.
If a normally advancing soul is required, and I mean REQUIRED to pass 3D to move on, how is that factored into their Free Will? How about for the ones who wander aimlessly so lost and tormented by their experience on Earth? (Several NDE's and even Journey of Souls mentions a yellow plane where soul's wander in depression aimlessly bumping into each other as if they weren't even aware of one-another).
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I talked about what is beyond Illusion, a poor remark is 'Infinity'. To me everything inside Infinity is illusion. Because it is Distortion, Infinity itself is Distortion. It was not the first thing to come, it was not otherwise the first known thing wouldn't be Infinity, the first known thing implies something was present to be unaware before becoming aware, Infinity was not Infinite, it is by it's own definition (of being all things) Finite in that it is Unity, A Single Entity. If there was something beyond Infinity...
But that's a discussion for another thread, my point here is that to meet every question with this same god damned answer, You Chose This, You Desired This, You Did This to Yourself, The Answer is One, The Answer is Infinity, The Answer is Consciousness, The Answer is Love
Without any concept of the gradual premise of inference or inherence that what this is, is Distortion, is infuriating past a point.
We do not know if we are Free, we believe, and what does it mean to an entity not free? Is it a sick joke? Are Humans to Souls the same as Pigs are to Humans? Just a Thing to Utilize to Grow?
I honestly don't know, but I'm tired of being told it needs to be viewed with Love. I imagine in 3D, somethings are not meant to be viewed in the context of love. How does one Love the Torture dished upon them? How does one Love the murder put upon them? How does one Love the forceful raping of the self? Why would they? To forgive for the self? To accept for the self?
And if it wasn't planned? If it was another soul who has lost control and is infringing violently upon another... Where's the recompense? The infringing soul according to Journey of Souls must undergo a process of change to it's very being, or goes off to another place unknown to others. What about the infringed? Human wise? They get no actual justice while alive sometimes, hell sometimes their rapist is also their killer.
Free Will Denial.
It exists. Don't fool yourself. Here and now, you are learning to Love, but only through having your Free Will ignored profusely endlessly. (Let's try this practice: I desire to be at peace. Now wait for the Catalyst to take Peace and throw it into Chaos. How's that Free Will coming along friend?)
The only way to change this, is to simply not allow your Free Will to be infringed. Ra mentions how this is possible when discussing how Orion and Confederation sources clash. You must infringe infringing will to maintain free will, to infringe creates a scenario of Fair Game. "All's Fair in Love and War." Even the denial, if not full infringement of Free Will.
And even then, you're told you have power, and then discover yourself powerless. Which is an echo of this entire post, replacing Free Will with Power.
And this basis extends beyond even that.
Do you actually have a Choice? What if you do not align with your Soul? And it has happened.
Do you truly have a choice? Or is EVERYTHING an illusion?
Think about it, and let me know what you think. I'm pretty worried how I'll find myself once this life is done, if I'll be unable to go home...Or forced to come back. Or if I'll even end up in the same time/space environment. I don't know. If there were a word for the soul for Regret. It'd be called Earth, for so/me anyways.
Everything feels like a dream, and I can't wake up, and I can't go to sleep, yet I'm tired...
I feel pretty alone intellectually speaking. The greatest curse of this Philosophy was discovering how...Few. There are, of a world of billions.
This is a world designed to mess you up in some places. Why would anyone desire this?? To polarize? In an illusion? To learn? In an illusion? To help? In an illusion...? I honestly did my work, my polarizing, my learning, my helping. I did what I could for as long as I could. I had no help. And, the reward in comparison, experiencing Heaven for a few months, compared to Hell for years, does not pay off to me.
I can be of Service to Others, but I do not desire to interact with them anymore. I'd rather learn visualization meditations, and other ways to aid the planet. Anything but going back to Work in Consciousness through others...It's just not for me I understand now... It hurts too much watching everyone suffer. I just can't do it, I can't ignore it. It's cruel to ignore the suffering of others in my mind, they're me. Suffering, and I know the feeling, and I can not stop it, I am not power, I have no Will capable of doing such.
I don't like it anymore. Don't know what to do. This is how it feels to be enslaved essentially.
It worked, I'm not enslaved but I feel like I am. Enslaved to Humanity, to...Apathy. Indifference. I loved it and nothing changed. I did my Work, and nothing changed... Nothing, people saw, but no one took up the mantle with me. People felt the bliss, but they didn't want to do the Work involved to get to it.
And I was alone. And even though I'm not now, I still feel alone, more so than ever. And even though I like it, I just. Would rather be with others, accepted, desired, wanted. But I'm not. Even back then, no one really bothered with me. I was the kindest most amazing person some people met by their own words back then. It changed nothing.
I think I'll pursue my desires in other ways now, isolation for the most part is a welcome change now. Solitude is desires once more. It, ironically, helps me not feel trapped on Earth, it lets me not judge myself, it free's me from myself-through-others.
Lets me...Feel like...I actually HAVE Free Will. Instead of waking up each day to sadness and depression from feeling out of control of my life, from accepting something endlessly hoping for better to come, and better never coming until it's far too late.
I'm an ass hole even... I'm a monster now. And I like that about myself. But for some reason, I also don't.
I really do not like this place anymore. Maybe I've thought about it too much. But in my experience, Earth is an excuse to torment and cause suffering where it can be experienced other ways without such...Vile and deliberate ignorance of Self-Aware Human Free Will.
The only way it was acceptable was if the Human was literally an empty shell and the Consciousness brought Free Will, but if all living things... If Human vehicle is 3D, and the vehicle can support self-awareness, then the vehicle IS self-aware, soul or not, by it's construction.
And it is ignored.
I don't know anymore. Free Will/Confusion. How does that even equate? You've the Free Will to be Confused about Free Will?
I just don't know anymore.
Don't go down the same path I have, pick another one, this one sucks.
In the context of, we are in denial of Free Will.
I am sorry to say this, I have thought it over for months now ever since I first discovered the innate concept (as in I didn't read about it, I thought it up) that Free Will is ignored, making this place actually a Hell of sorts.
'Oh Van, stop talking about Hell!'
I will say that I am wrong, that this is not something that is true for everyone. If you ever discover this for yourself, regard it as Greeting. It is Greeting, and it was welcomed by me, and now I understand the concept of Gnosticism, the entire flip-side of Spirituality (Earth is a Soul Trap) and such. It's actually real, but only if you make it real for yourself.
I am of the unfortunate nature that I desired to take this route. In so doing, I am surmising as I go through this life now the areas of Free Will Denial.
I will begin now.
-------
Free Will exists even against the scientific claim that it does not (the study cited in such a claim in my opinion proves Free Will, choices made 7 seconds prior to consciously making them, is the unconscious or 'whole' self choosing), I argued this in a model of Determinism I call 'Relative Determinism'. I won't post that unless people want me to
In Free Will we must accept and respect another's Free Will, almost like how we desire our free will to be respected and accepted.
In Earth, Free Will does not exist. There is no authority to enforce Free Will, rather, there is an authority present that suppresses Free Will. In both good and bad. Your Free Will as a human being is ignored cosmically even, to an extent that for eons now, nothing has been done to aid those countless endless entities who have incarnated here to experience enslavement of the most devious kind, the belief of freedom in reality where you are not free. I called this a Fanciful Hell. Heaven essentially in all ways shapes and forms, until you discover that your free will is ignored. It's called Unconditional Love, or The Law of Confusion. Some see it as Indifference, or a complex equation needing solved.
The most straightforward way of explaining this however is in an analogy:
Imagine if you will a Human, who has entered into a legally binding contract (Life Plan). They then lose all memory of who they are permanently (as far as that 'Life' is concerned) and find themselves a completely new Person personality wise. They discover they are bound to a contract they agreed to, but as a different person. Their current placement has them disagreeing with the terms of the contract. They are told they have Free Will. When they express that Free Will, it is ignored because of a contract they are bound to, and told that they put themselves here in this position and must go through with everything. They cite Free Will and are told there is no infringement because they choose to be here. They cite they did not, as the current being they are, choose anything. They are told they are wrong.
Does an amnesiac who is legally a new person still have to abide by a contract they have no recognition or desire of maintaining now?
According to the Universe, yes. Human Being's Free Will is not above the Soul's Free Will, it is not even regarded as equal to. It is ignored and then cited as equal to.
Human's who desire to be murdered and raped and tortured, they choose that.
Human's who want to leave and never return, cannot do so unless they fulfill very stringent specific actions.
Human's who are aware, come to an odd realization that cosmically, they are a Game in consideration (many NDE's reference this, even Carla calls this place the Gameboard, and our Consciousness is the Player with a self-aware vehicle.)
Human's who desire to stop playing the game, invite further game events (Catalyst).
Human's who continue to play the game, invite stronger/harder game events.
And are asked to have faith in something they have no knowledge of, in something that hurts them, in something that betrays them. In a Creator that resembled Demiurge, who is by definition of 'All is One', The Demiurge in a Distortion. To accept and love that, even while treated as badly as they are.
I would even post this in Strictly Law of One as it pertains directly to Free Will, revolving around several statements made by Ra, the most notable being, 'This is the Density of Desire' and another saying, 'This is the Density of Choice'.
Yet in this density, desire of Human's are ignored, grossly so.
Yet in this density, Choice of Human's aren't just ignored, they reverberate across and back unto the Human, even in instances of having occurred in a different life time, with no connection beyond The Incarnated Soul, to provide 'Catalyst', a special way of saying Something you do not desire is coming your way, because what you actually desire is what your soul desires, even if the desires do not line up, you are still presented with endless Catalyst to make choices that do not matter, but to deal with their consequences regardless even if you, as an amnesiac, become once more another amnesiac who is once more in no way similar to you except that you share the same Soul.
In 3D if you do not graduate by basically being halfway to pure love towards others, or being basically completely selfish towards others, you WILL have to return. Even if you already won the game once, you're back in it again. You get no choice.
Let me repeat that.
You get no choice
That is infringement of Free Will to any Entity, unless the inherent contract of 3D is to discard your Free Will temporarily to discover the complexities of Free Will in order to make your polarity choice... It is still a Binding put upon you that takes away your Free Will. Unless one returns from incarnation and simply says. "No, I don't want to return." Do they get a choice if they have 'unfinished business' on Earth?
Some NDE's say yes, others don't even seem to comprehend the concept.
If a normally advancing soul is required, and I mean REQUIRED to pass 3D to move on, how is that factored into their Free Will? How about for the ones who wander aimlessly so lost and tormented by their experience on Earth? (Several NDE's and even Journey of Souls mentions a yellow plane where soul's wander in depression aimlessly bumping into each other as if they weren't even aware of one-another).
-------
I talked about what is beyond Illusion, a poor remark is 'Infinity'. To me everything inside Infinity is illusion. Because it is Distortion, Infinity itself is Distortion. It was not the first thing to come, it was not otherwise the first known thing wouldn't be Infinity, the first known thing implies something was present to be unaware before becoming aware, Infinity was not Infinite, it is by it's own definition (of being all things) Finite in that it is Unity, A Single Entity. If there was something beyond Infinity...
But that's a discussion for another thread, my point here is that to meet every question with this same god damned answer, You Chose This, You Desired This, You Did This to Yourself, The Answer is One, The Answer is Infinity, The Answer is Consciousness, The Answer is Love
Without any concept of the gradual premise of inference or inherence that what this is, is Distortion, is infuriating past a point.
We do not know if we are Free, we believe, and what does it mean to an entity not free? Is it a sick joke? Are Humans to Souls the same as Pigs are to Humans? Just a Thing to Utilize to Grow?
I honestly don't know, but I'm tired of being told it needs to be viewed with Love. I imagine in 3D, somethings are not meant to be viewed in the context of love. How does one Love the Torture dished upon them? How does one Love the murder put upon them? How does one Love the forceful raping of the self? Why would they? To forgive for the self? To accept for the self?
And if it wasn't planned? If it was another soul who has lost control and is infringing violently upon another... Where's the recompense? The infringing soul according to Journey of Souls must undergo a process of change to it's very being, or goes off to another place unknown to others. What about the infringed? Human wise? They get no actual justice while alive sometimes, hell sometimes their rapist is also their killer.
Free Will Denial.
It exists. Don't fool yourself. Here and now, you are learning to Love, but only through having your Free Will ignored profusely endlessly. (Let's try this practice: I desire to be at peace. Now wait for the Catalyst to take Peace and throw it into Chaos. How's that Free Will coming along friend?)
The only way to change this, is to simply not allow your Free Will to be infringed. Ra mentions how this is possible when discussing how Orion and Confederation sources clash. You must infringe infringing will to maintain free will, to infringe creates a scenario of Fair Game. "All's Fair in Love and War." Even the denial, if not full infringement of Free Will.
And even then, you're told you have power, and then discover yourself powerless. Which is an echo of this entire post, replacing Free Will with Power.
And this basis extends beyond even that.
Do you actually have a Choice? What if you do not align with your Soul? And it has happened.
Do you truly have a choice? Or is EVERYTHING an illusion?
Think about it, and let me know what you think. I'm pretty worried how I'll find myself once this life is done, if I'll be unable to go home...Or forced to come back. Or if I'll even end up in the same time/space environment. I don't know. If there were a word for the soul for Regret. It'd be called Earth, for so/me anyways.
Everything feels like a dream, and I can't wake up, and I can't go to sleep, yet I'm tired...
I feel pretty alone intellectually speaking. The greatest curse of this Philosophy was discovering how...Few. There are, of a world of billions.
This is a world designed to mess you up in some places. Why would anyone desire this?? To polarize? In an illusion? To learn? In an illusion? To help? In an illusion...? I honestly did my work, my polarizing, my learning, my helping. I did what I could for as long as I could. I had no help. And, the reward in comparison, experiencing Heaven for a few months, compared to Hell for years, does not pay off to me.
I can be of Service to Others, but I do not desire to interact with them anymore. I'd rather learn visualization meditations, and other ways to aid the planet. Anything but going back to Work in Consciousness through others...It's just not for me I understand now... It hurts too much watching everyone suffer. I just can't do it, I can't ignore it. It's cruel to ignore the suffering of others in my mind, they're me. Suffering, and I know the feeling, and I can not stop it, I am not power, I have no Will capable of doing such.
I don't like it anymore. Don't know what to do. This is how it feels to be enslaved essentially.
It worked, I'm not enslaved but I feel like I am. Enslaved to Humanity, to...Apathy. Indifference. I loved it and nothing changed. I did my Work, and nothing changed... Nothing, people saw, but no one took up the mantle with me. People felt the bliss, but they didn't want to do the Work involved to get to it.
And I was alone. And even though I'm not now, I still feel alone, more so than ever. And even though I like it, I just. Would rather be with others, accepted, desired, wanted. But I'm not. Even back then, no one really bothered with me. I was the kindest most amazing person some people met by their own words back then. It changed nothing.
I think I'll pursue my desires in other ways now, isolation for the most part is a welcome change now. Solitude is desires once more. It, ironically, helps me not feel trapped on Earth, it lets me not judge myself, it free's me from myself-through-others.
Lets me...Feel like...I actually HAVE Free Will. Instead of waking up each day to sadness and depression from feeling out of control of my life, from accepting something endlessly hoping for better to come, and better never coming until it's far too late.
I'm an ass hole even... I'm a monster now. And I like that about myself. But for some reason, I also don't.
I really do not like this place anymore. Maybe I've thought about it too much. But in my experience, Earth is an excuse to torment and cause suffering where it can be experienced other ways without such...Vile and deliberate ignorance of Self-Aware Human Free Will.
The only way it was acceptable was if the Human was literally an empty shell and the Consciousness brought Free Will, but if all living things... If Human vehicle is 3D, and the vehicle can support self-awareness, then the vehicle IS self-aware, soul or not, by it's construction.
And it is ignored.
I don't know anymore. Free Will/Confusion. How does that even equate? You've the Free Will to be Confused about Free Will?
I just don't know anymore.
Don't go down the same path I have, pick another one, this one sucks.