10-28-2015, 10:39 AM
I had an insight, or maybe some oversight kicked in?
I dont know how or why I thought it, but these are the types of thoughts I'm okay with. I noticed my thoughts have...Roots, a place that causes them to exist and begin then end for me. Memories, feelings. Odd complexly lumped together ways my mind-brain works. (Mind-brain is totally a thing by the way )
But i was meditating. Or trying to sitting in front of my store's door where there's a no parking space area, waiting for customers and staring at the word, SELF, on one of the gas pumps between the numbers 5 and 6.
And I was trying to just silence my mind the way you 'be' a color, by just focusing on being silent.
And some thoughts came, I watched cars drive by. Nothing happened long enough for me to relax. Then I...noticed how shiny pumps were. Very silvery and reflective. It made me feel somewhat dull, which was sad and I noticed and then this thought just out of nowhere pops up:
Smiling makes you invite happiness to fill you, there's no force involved towards self if i choose to do it.
So I smiled, and it wasn't particularly genuine, felt more snarly at first. But relaxed out. And I tried to go back to meditating with decent results!
Mind you this was all sober. I don't smoke on the job, that's just irresponsible... :exclamation: (at least in my mind, some past coworkers disagree.)
When smiling everything starts ro relax. I felt like I had invited myself to feel happy just because I wanted to be happy.
It was a, quick lesson learned, be how you want to be, smiling is easy, so much it hurts. Frowning is hard but so painless after so long.
So, Smile! When you meditate next time, and let me know your results!
Also comments are welcome along with thoughts!
Side question: Does anyone ever find themselves smiling in meditation randomly or logically?
I dont know how or why I thought it, but these are the types of thoughts I'm okay with. I noticed my thoughts have...Roots, a place that causes them to exist and begin then end for me. Memories, feelings. Odd complexly lumped together ways my mind-brain works. (Mind-brain is totally a thing by the way )
But i was meditating. Or trying to sitting in front of my store's door where there's a no parking space area, waiting for customers and staring at the word, SELF, on one of the gas pumps between the numbers 5 and 6.
And I was trying to just silence my mind the way you 'be' a color, by just focusing on being silent.
And some thoughts came, I watched cars drive by. Nothing happened long enough for me to relax. Then I...noticed how shiny pumps were. Very silvery and reflective. It made me feel somewhat dull, which was sad and I noticed and then this thought just out of nowhere pops up:
Smiling makes you invite happiness to fill you, there's no force involved towards self if i choose to do it.
So I smiled, and it wasn't particularly genuine, felt more snarly at first. But relaxed out. And I tried to go back to meditating with decent results!
Mind you this was all sober. I don't smoke on the job, that's just irresponsible... :exclamation: (at least in my mind, some past coworkers disagree.)
When smiling everything starts ro relax. I felt like I had invited myself to feel happy just because I wanted to be happy.
It was a, quick lesson learned, be how you want to be, smiling is easy, so much it hurts. Frowning is hard but so painless after so long.
So, Smile! When you meditate next time, and let me know your results!
Also comments are welcome along with thoughts!
Side question: Does anyone ever find themselves smiling in meditation randomly or logically?