11-10-2015, 07:22 AM
My meditations help out. Excuse me if I'm a bit disgruntled, very upset at the moment.
I have realized I can feel people around me, I realized I pick up on them and that's all I've noticed today but Its starting to. Or has BEEN driving me maaad.
Perhaps its intolerance on my part, maybe I can't handle everyone's emotions, I personally have begunto think I'm weak. Just weak. I've done what I can, I have a job where I see less than 50 people a day sometimes... I'm still losing my mind some days from how people feel. Its like I can hear their mood in my body and not through my ears... And so many people are so cruelly apathetic. Its like a digging black light of 'THIS IS THE DARKEST PART OF ME' specially cultivated socially.
I find indifference hard to stomach in large amounts...
How do I stop this?? How do I tone it down? How do I not lose my mind from all of this?
I mean I knew I was an introvert butnever knew why until recently. But... so few people still screw me up emotionally, like throwing me RIGHT INTO a stormy mind of messed up emotions, then my own anger flies into the mix because I can't figure out what to do... I can't find a more secluded job... I can't even socialize or go out into public for more than a few hours. How do I deal with this? Should I just lose my mind and ride the chaos down the rabbit hole orrr???!!!
I have no idea and I can barely stand it anymore. I don't even know for certain if its Empathy or JUST ME.
And I'm starting to blur into desperate, I literally can't live this way, I haven't gone shopping, I haven't figured out my thyroid meds or whatever the doctors and pharmacy can't communicate, I haven't showered in 4 days or brushed my teeth because I'm so uncalm usually. Been going to sleep either furious or depressed And just been going mad at home alone failing at calming myself down.I'm so frustrated with myself and how everything feels painful.
Can anyone please explain if there's some kind of way for an Empath to stop taking in other's...energy?
I need to mediate with ear phones, its never quiet around me. I'm going crazy here... Can anyone help make it calm down or even stop but temporarily? Or coping mechanisms or anything???
I have realized I can feel people around me, I realized I pick up on them and that's all I've noticed today but Its starting to. Or has BEEN driving me maaad.
Perhaps its intolerance on my part, maybe I can't handle everyone's emotions, I personally have begunto think I'm weak. Just weak. I've done what I can, I have a job where I see less than 50 people a day sometimes... I'm still losing my mind some days from how people feel. Its like I can hear their mood in my body and not through my ears... And so many people are so cruelly apathetic. Its like a digging black light of 'THIS IS THE DARKEST PART OF ME' specially cultivated socially.
I find indifference hard to stomach in large amounts...
How do I stop this?? How do I tone it down? How do I not lose my mind from all of this?
I mean I knew I was an introvert butnever knew why until recently. But... so few people still screw me up emotionally, like throwing me RIGHT INTO a stormy mind of messed up emotions, then my own anger flies into the mix because I can't figure out what to do... I can't find a more secluded job... I can't even socialize or go out into public for more than a few hours. How do I deal with this? Should I just lose my mind and ride the chaos down the rabbit hole orrr???!!!
I have no idea and I can barely stand it anymore. I don't even know for certain if its Empathy or JUST ME.
And I'm starting to blur into desperate, I literally can't live this way, I haven't gone shopping, I haven't figured out my thyroid meds or whatever the doctors and pharmacy can't communicate, I haven't showered in 4 days or brushed my teeth because I'm so uncalm usually. Been going to sleep either furious or depressed And just been going mad at home alone failing at calming myself down.I'm so frustrated with myself and how everything feels painful.
Can anyone please explain if there's some kind of way for an Empath to stop taking in other's...energy?
I need to mediate with ear phones, its never quiet around me. I'm going crazy here... Can anyone help make it calm down or even stop but temporarily? Or coping mechanisms or anything???