Obsessions

[AnthroHeart]

I've been obsessed with death and what happens after. I had a past life regression hypnosis, and found out that I should stop reading those type of books and instead focus on this life. My subconscious suggested that I read Sci-Fi Fantasy books instead.

Maybe because of the creativity that is to be discovered.

Could that be that it's possible to be too obsessed with what happens on the other side?

I've read so much that there's hardly anything new.

Perhaps I could read some other subjects such as Dolores Cannon's Convoluted Universe series. I have books 1 and 3.

I also determined that I was an anthro in a past life. I wore a ring that I used to help me get in tune with nature, and all of the tribe was telepathic. Maybe this will help to satisfy my curiosity.

They are however my only sexual outlet through imagination. I never find opportunities in this life to get intimate.

I know I know, everything in moderation. My past life regression made me question everything.

[Jade]

Did you just have this regression done recently, Gem?

I think, because we're here to learn about love, if we can't love it here in the moment, we may try to come back to relearn the lesson. I'm not saying that as a threat of punishment, but just because, I think (supporting your regression) that that is one of your major life lessons: You miss your home tribe very, very much, and this world is odd. But there are lots of wonderful people here. And lots of beautiful things. And longing for something (anthros) is even beautiful in it's own right, isn't it? So trying to focus on the things that you have now that bring you joy is a good thing, for all of us. Happiness and satisfaction aren't something in the future, they are something that exists in the present moment, and we have to find it there.

[AnthroHeart]

Thank you Jade for not getting onto me for being so repetitive.
Yes I had the regression done yesterday.
I don't know if it was me, or another life that had that past life. Don't know if I just made it all up.

[Jade]

I'm just happy you have a place where you can talk about these things. We're all here for you!

Whether or not it's made up is irrelevant. You took this opportunity to speak with your higher self/guides in a situation like this, and they showed you what you needed to hear. Sounds pretty right on to me. Did you get any recording or transcript of the session? If you did, I'd love to see it!

[AnthroHeart]

Yeah, my mom recorded it on digital audio recorder. But it's like an hour and a half or two hours. The induction takes some time and is usually taken out of recordings.

In that anthro life, I had a ring with a blue stone that I used to connect with nature. I didn't command nature, but I did influence it, so that hunters would find it easier to find prey. I also carried a staff and wore a rough brown leather jacket.

I don't remember more than that. I didn't have any real attachment to that life emotionally. Though we all spoke telepathically, and it was a third density realm.

Now I'm at a loss of why I desire such a life. Being covered in fur has its downsides. And the tail can get in the way. Though I don't recall mentioning a tail in that past life. Then I had another life where I was more human, and I drowned in the ocean. But it was a peaceful death. I don't recall how the anthro one died.

The anthro was homosexual, which was frowned upon by the tribe, so I had no partner and had no sex life to speak of.

Then my mom who was hypnotizing me brought forth my subconscious or higher self and asked about 20 or so questions. I had times where I felt like I had to answer, and other times where it was more like the higher self answered.

[earth_spirit]

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[Aion]

Where did your Mom learn hypnosis and regression?

[AnthroHeart]

Where did your Mom learn hypnosis and regression?

From a $1000 online course taught by Dolores Cannon, in video and document form. QHHT.

[AnthroHeart]

The anthro was homosexual, which was frowned upon by the tribe, so I had no partner and had no sex life to speak of.

Why was it frowned upon?

I never figured that out. I just got the impression, which is probably why I have such a sexual drive in this life, although my meds tone me down.

[anagogy]

I don't know if it was me, or another life that had that past life. Don't know if I just made it all up.

What makes you think you made it up?

[AnthroHeart]

I don't know if it was me, or another life that had that past life. Don't know if I just made it all up.

What makes you think you made it up?

Because most people seem to think they made it all up who are hypnotized.

But I didn't have to think very hard as if I were making it up. It flowed naturally.

[anagogy]

Because most people seem to think they made it all up who are hypnotized.

But I didn't have to think very hard as if I were making it up. It flowed naturally.

I think it depends how deep you were or how in synch with the past life.

In one one of Dolores Cannon's books (I forget which) she had a subject who was absolutely convinced she was John the Baptist in a past life.  She put her under and of course she recalled a past life of being John the Baptist.  However the detail just wasn't there and she could only supplant superficial details she had read in the bible.  Later on the session it was determined that it was a false memory on top of a more mundane life as a person who (If I remember correctly) either had a brief interaction with John the Baptist or with Jesus during that lifetime.  Recalling past lives can be tricky, but in general, the deeper into trance you can get, the more accurate the information.

Going into trance is a skill just like any other, and you can get better at it with practice. Sounds like a great tool for learning about what makes you tick in this incarnation.  

[AnthroHeart]

I don't want my mom to regress me anymore. She gets so mad at times, she yells and curses a lot.

I don't know why I would leave a wonderful life as an anthro, for a crappy human life. Though there are some giddy excitement times.

[Aion]

She gets mad and yells and curses during the hypnosis?

[AnthroHeart]

She gets mad and yells and curses during the hypnosis?

No, but the next day not 12 hours later she's cursing and throwing things across the room.

[Aion]

That doesn't really sound like a wise environment to go in to trance or subconscious, if you ask me. It doesn't sound like she is exactly in a professional state of mind and this can influence the way such a session goes massively. I don't mean to burst bubbles or anything but this just doesn't sound particularly safe for one's mental health, but then I'm not exactly a professional either. The biggest thing I'm always wary of in any kind of memory work is confirmation bias. The lines between memory and imagination honestly aren't entirely clear to me yet as they seem somewhat blurred so I think when doing these kinds of experiments it's important to check with yourself if it reflect a confirmation bias or is a reflection of how you perceive yourself. The danger being that when you begin to identify so strongly with an aspect of mind that is removed enough from your human experience then you will naturally enter in to more cognitive dissonance as your consciousness attempts to reconcile the relationship between body and mind, at least this has been so in my experience and it could very well be different for you. I just care and hope for the best so it feels appropriate to voice (type) my concerns. Much love, brotha.

[AnthroHeart]

When I was lying down this morning at 11am I heard my mom from the other room say that I made the whole thing up when she hypnotized me. She didn't believe my wolf past life. The important thing was that I said what was on my mind when I was hypnotized, but she just shot it all down a few days later. One more reason why I'm not going to go under again.

She's mad because I couldn't speak a foreign language while hypnotized nor could I really bring forth Elvis and say if he knew someone else.

She expected me to heal all the ferrets in the world who have tumors. Then she wanted me to heal her ferret. But I just don't have it in me to do that.

[Aion]

That sounds like she has very greedy reasons for using that technique and this may sound harsh but personally I feel she should lose any certification she might have. That sounds very unhealthy and I agree that you probably shouldn't do that again because it sounds like she was just using you to try and get what she wanted. I understand she must be in a lot of emotional pain and turmoil, but this is straight-up abusive. That is not okay. Sorry if it seems like I'm being overly direct, but mental health isn't something to just play around with, especially when you are already challenged by your perceptions of reality. That kind of thing can seriously hurt you if it is done wrong.

[anagogy]

I second Aion's post, I don't think it would be advantageous to your psychological health to continue having her perform hypnosis on you.  Instead, I would focus on learning self hypnosis.  It is more difficult to do, since you have to develop the ability to simultaneously maintain enough awareness to direct the session and allow yourself to go as deep into trance as possible without falling asleep, but in my opinion it is way safer than allowing someone other than a trained professional to go tinkering with your subconscious.  Frankly, I can barely be hypnotized by another individual (most likely because I am subconsciously uncomfortable with allowing another to guide me into that state of consciousness).  Self hypnosis on the other hand I've had much more success with.  But it definitely requires more practice.

[Night Owl]

Very good advices so far. In fact I think you shouldn't look up to your mom for anything important on a relational level or spiritual level or psychological level. It seems to me like she has deeper mental unbalances than you consider yourself to have. She doesn't seem like a healthy individual to interact with at all. Of course I don't mean ditch your mom, you are certainly here to learn to love her unconditionally. But whenever you need advice, guidance or any kind of help you might want to look elsewhere because she seems to entertain some really distorted and unbalanced relations with you. Like Aion said, if you struggle with your own perception of reality you should look for someone who has a clearer view than you not the opposite. A lot of people here are just waiting to help you however they can.

[AnthroHeart]

That sounds like she has very greedy reasons for using that technique and this may sound harsh but personally I feel she should lose any certification she might have. That sounds very unhealthy and I agree that you probably shouldn't do that again because it sounds like she was just using you to try and get what she wanted. I understand she must be in a lot of emotional pain and turmoil, but this is straight-up abusive. That is not okay. Sorry if it seems like I'm being overly direct, but mental health isn't something to just play around with, especially when you are already challenged by your perceptions of reality. That kind of thing can seriously hurt you if it is done wrong.

She doesn't have a certification yet. She hasn't finished all the videos and taken the exam to receive that.

I thought she meant what was best for me. At least I got to look into a couple of past lives, potentially. It was sad that she shot down my experience which seemed very real.

I don't want the past lives to overtake this life, since I don't want to suffer from multiple personality disorder. So it's best that I don't go again.
I trust another hypnotist more that I have seen a couple of times and actually gave me a hypnosis certification, which I am using for self-hypnosis.

[Aion]

That definitely sounds like a healthier course of action to take aha

[Jade]

Gem, if you felt you experienced something "real" (sounds like a real enough experience to me), then it's real to you, and don't let her take that away. She just thinks it must have not been real because you didn't do what she wanted you to do, like a puppet. She seems to think of hypnosis like the type you see at a carnival performance, where someone gets made to bowk like a chicken. I think you had genuine intentions so I think those overrode your mother's insidious intentions.

Either way, I also support the "you shouldn't get hypnotized by your mother anymore" chorus. But I also don't think you should let her negativity nullify your experience, because it has carried spiritual meaning for you to ponder.

[AnthroHeart]

Thanks Jade. The anthro past life regression was more wonderful than I could have imagined.
I was so in tune with nature.
But the tribe was anti-gay, so me being gay I was alone with no mates.
That's the part I missed. I still don't have a mate in this life.
The three people whom I had a sexual interest in are both furries, but have moved away.
I do have one friend here, but he's pretty critical of everything I say.

[Jade]

I have zero doubt you have experienced past lives as an anthro. In fact I think you were likely shown more of a parallel life it sounds like, choosing to incarnate in a society where homosexuality wasn't fully accepted, and then in turn sounding like you don't accept yourself and self-impose a loneliness/ostracization. Either way, what I would take from these sessions is that maybe you should take some opportunity to get more in tune with nature - find a nice quiet park, sit beneath a tree, watch the birds and squirrels. These sort of things might help "fill you up" if you know what I mean. You talk often about wanting to feel unconditional love, and nature is pretty good at offering that.

[Jade]

Hey Gem, have you ever felt any resonance with the star Sirius? Ra makes a statement about Sirius once, and I almost wonder if it was a "clue":

38.8 Questioner: I was wondering if that particular social memory complex from the Sirius star evolved from trees?

Ra: I am Ra. This approaches correctness. Those second-density vegetation forms which graduated into third density upon this planet bearing the name of Dog were close to the tree as you know it.

In context, Ra and Don were talking about Charlie Hickson and his experience with a third density tree social memory complex (rare in that they were only third-density but had a social memory complex, very advanced trees). They had come from Sirius, and Ra first offered that information to Don. Then Don asks again about Sirius and Ra says "this planet bearing the name of Dog" - firstly, Don never called it Dog, and secondly, Ra didn't say "the planet bearing the name which you call Dog" or anything like that. Not to mention, Sirius is the "Dog Star" but I've never heard of any of Sirius' planetary bodies being referred to as "Dog". Also, Ra specifically says "Those second density vegetation forms which graduated into third density..." This is also literally the only time the word dog is used in the text. Just some food for thought!

[AnthroHeart]

Yeah, Sirius is my favorite star. I had a dream I was looking at a picture of Sirius once.

[AnthroHeart]

Our evenings now are cool, so I could go outside and meditate.

I'm also focused more in this life than any past life. I've let the past go, and focus on moving forward.

I have to be careful with hypnosis, so that I don't develop multiple personality.

One time I had a regression of in between lives, and I was floating and had no structure to stand on. But there were cartoons there as well. That let me know that I came here to find structure.

[anagogy]

In context, Ra and Don were talking about Charlie Hickson and his experience with a third density tree social memory complex (rare in that they were only third-density but had a social memory complex, very advanced trees). They had come from Sirius, and Ra first offered that information to Don. Then Don asks again about Sirius and Ra says "this planet bearing the name of Dog" - firstly, Don never called it Dog, and secondly, Ra didn't say "the planet bearing the name which you call Dog" or anything like that. Not to mention, Sirius is the "Dog Star" but I've never heard of any of Sirius' planetary bodies being referred to as "Dog". Also, Ra specifically says "Those second density vegetation forms which graduated into third density..." This is also literally the only time the word dog is used in the text. Just some food for thought!

I never really gave much attention to the fact that they referred to a planetary body, rather than the star. However it is only called "the dog star" because it is the brightest star in the canis major constellation.  Then again, since the whole constellation is "a dog", so to speak, I don't think it would be too outlandish for Ra to call a planetary body in that constellation "dog" as well.  But interesting thought nonetheless.