Am I too sensitive?

[AnthroHeart]

I like to talk about love and being in the light.

But things that are just a little dark freak me out.

Like this. I can't even handle watching it.

Does that make me weak?

[Aion]

Might not be a bad thing, bud.

We shall simplify by concentrating upon what we consider to be the central idea towards which you are striving. We have, many times now, spoken about the relative importance of balancing as opposed to the relative unimportance of maximal activation of each energy center. The reason is as you have correctly surmised. Thusly the entity is concerned, if it be upon the path of positive harvestability, with the regularizing of the various energies of experience. Thus the most fragile entity may be more balanced than one with extreme energy and activity in service to others due to the fastidiousness with which the will is focused upon the use of experience in knowing the self. The densities beyond your own give the minimally balanced individual much time/space and space/time with which to continue to refine these inner balances.

[Cainite]

Aion's right.

btw the video was a joke.. the music I used to listened to is considered scary like this one :

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

Too sensitive?  No.  Just right sounds more correct to me.

Weak?  We're all squishy...  I don't think you're weak.  You became schizophrenic and are still trying to love and be every day.  If that's weakness, then we're all much weaker than you in the mental compartments.

Rather I think you're strong in your own ways that I hope you'll see one day.

I sometimes think I'm weak, but I know in ways I am stronger than most others, and not in.violent ways but caring ways...

I think weakness hints at strength we're suppressing.  You're as weak as your weakest link.  Mine is faith in myself it would seem.

That doesn't make me 'weak' however, only I define if I'm weak or not.  Everyone else who thinks I'm weak is just a songbird singing their notes offering a differing opinion.

[Plenum]

I like to talk about love and being in the light.

But things that are just a little dark freak me out.

Like this. I can't even handle watching it.

Does that make me weak?

there are lots of things which can threaten our sense of 'survival'.

Some of these may be purely 'symbolic', but the conceptual vibration is all so real nonetheless.  As real as the fear induced in a nightmare, in which we totally identify with a helpless or imperilled state of beingness.

What a relief when we wake up!  Although the dissonances in consciousness can be recalled quite sharply, and utilised.

[AnthroHeart]

Even this one disturbs me.
Another one that a friend sent.

[isis]

When I was about 5 or 6 years old I was watching one of the chucky movies with my dad. Needless to say, there was a scene that scared the crap out of me. My dad could tell I was getting very disturbed and scared to death and then he laughed and said to me, "it's fake"...and then my fear instantly vanished.

"It's fake" became my mantra and I started applying it to nearly everything that scared me - not just horror movies. I'd hear really loud thunder and while my friends would scream in terror I'd just be laughing and thinking it's fake. I still use it to this day; when something unsettles me, I remind myself: everything's ultimately an illusion.

[AnthroHeart]

My schizophrenia makes me sometimes think when seeing bad things happening that it's all my fault. Because of the "we create our own reality" thing.

It's hard to reason that it's "fake" when I'm in the throws of anxiety and bipolar.

Many times I had thought I had died and was in heaven and was going to hug someone and it really put them off.

I even cried and hugged someone who looked like Jesus to me in the mental hospital. I've been to like 4 of them.

Even tv static freaks me out sometimes. So do blank white billboards in dreams because I think there's some hidden message in them.