08-07-2017, 05:55 AM
(08-06-2017, 10:49 AM)Fuse Wrote: As to where I was when you needed me, eight months ago I was still trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with this messed up planet, lol. I only found out about the Law of One in January I think? I DEVOURED it in a week or two and it seems that it was something of a keystone experience for me. Now, finally, the last thirty years of my life make sense.I devoured it also very quickly, more like, in a rush to advance. At the same time that I read Law of One, I read the emerald tablets, dolores cannon, david icke, was into non-stop bentinho massaro and matt kahn and gosh I can't even remember now but it was intense, it was like complete-overwhelm and mis-match of information which also contributed to my mind going cross-eyed and not being able to make sense of anything. I had my truth, and all these others were ... 'resonating' with my truth, or validating my truth and I turned off my own discernment and just swallowed it all whole hehe. When I first read Law of One, I was hopeful but also skeptical.. it scared me with it's talk of "Harvest" and the love/light stuff was kinda making me wonder if it was like a dark kind of channelling mascerading as light. So I didn't really get into it with the right mindset, it was more.. I hope this is valuable "consume" and then moved onto the next. I just never stopped intaking all this information.. I was very much in a rush for truth at that particular time. It's much more enjoyable to read it now in a calm way without all the extra-pressure that I had placed on myself before.
(08-06-2017, 10:49 AM)Fuse Wrote: I won't derail this thread going into it, maybe I'll finally get around to that Wanderer Stories post I keep meaning to do.Please do that, I'm very curious.
(08-06-2017, 10:49 AM)Fuse Wrote: Thanks for putting up your blog links! I bookmarked your page immediately. I'm still devouring every writer I can find who has found the Truth, and it seems clear to me that you have.Ego is happy for the validation lol, big-me "creator/higher-self" all that truth-aspect of my consciousness is a believer, and little-me - this little avatar that I'm living creation out of right now, knows that from this perspective of whatever aspect of source I'm living now.. knows nothing, less than nothing of the magnitude, the infinite of what's possible, and knows nothing about anything ... but wants to know hehe and wishes this aspect knew so much more and is most of the time full of self-doubt or gets "certainty" then doubts that certainty because there are multiple-perspectives to look at anything and for everything we think we know, we might not know anything ... always seeking more clarity (I wish I could channel and ask all the questions I want to ask... been trying to do the ouija board too - it doesn't even move a little bit for me)
(08-06-2017, 10:49 AM)Fuse Wrote: In fact...I just re-read your original post on the thread here, and I have come to believe that you did more than touch intelligent infinity. Contemplating your story, your description of the way your emotions and your mind and your heart chakra were functioning...what if you woke up that morning as a newborn fourth density entity?I would've totally believed that and more at the time. I was convinced that we could just 'step into' whatever reality our consciousness wanted to step-into / create / experience, and it would just.. be that.
But since it didn't end up being that.. lol.. I totally resonate with what you said and I totally don't want to be crazy and have so many "mainstream" thoughts about what could've transpired, but also.. underlying that.. the belief is still there.. but so is the fear.
Maybe the psychosis was a necessary "creation" from within, to fully realize my unresolved blockages and programmes from the past. I really don't think I was ready for such an experiment, and therefore, I then created my own "downfall" possibly to something more "believable".
I really get confused between... the empowering feeling of knowing we are creating this, and actually having that belief - which changes our reality that we experience, via the placebo and imagination/intent/will/belief/etc. And the humbling of our ego. The keeping modest, small, calm, ease, peace. etc. I'm definitely experiencing the latter at the moment, and there is so much to be benefited from this experience, but ... when I was in that other mode, there was nothing like it - it was ... magical, love-filled, heart-centred, like.. no such thing as suffering in that particular sphere, and the feeling - you just feel so much love for the experience and everyone in it, that you want everyone, you "know" everyone could feel it and that together.. it was very liberating and freeing.... wonderful in the "wonder" sense of the word.. like, wow, anything is possible, wow. Like a child looking at exciting things for the first time, life sparkles. And now I'm dead lol.. and it's like.. oh crap.
If this experience was real, then I've stepped back for some reason. Either through dark forces or my own unconscious "creation of dark forces". As a means to deal with undealt with stuff perhaps, as some kind of weird evolution process - like my soul is screwed-up and celebrates trap-doors and hero-journey's out of them? lol.
In any case, I don't know if it's possible to repair anything "to get back to", or even if that's what I'm supposed to do (but I want to experience my heart again .. or do I? Just realized, I'm starting to get used to this not-feeling space, it just feels.. not-right, a bit empty.. like, I can't "tap-into" any love - from the creator or from myself or for others, it's weird).
I do wish I had've been able to finish my "save the world" phase first while I was in my 'save the world mode', because I was so motivated at that time and getting big things done. Now it 'doesn't matter'.. none of that matters. Now I spend maybe an hour on our project a week lacking the lustre that I had when I was all empowered, I had many websites and was creating networks to gather and unite with others and yeah, in the middle of it, lost it all, all faith, deleted everything, came "back down to earth" and had no belief in anything that I had experienced because it seemed like, by believing what I did - my life went to ruins.. and I didn't want to give anyone else 'false hope' that this was real because I wouldn't wish the hell-fire walk on anyone, that is the opposite of what I want for humanity. The synchronicity of meeting my new lightworker-partner was why I joined his project instead of re-creating my own, because it's "similar" (lightworkers/wanderers/soulpreneurs, are almost identical in my eyes - he even had back&forth conversations with Carla when he was learning to channel) - so his project was almost the same as what I was doing before this happened and I can step back in more from a background, rather than the 'face'. I do need to rebuild my confidence now that I've had some kind of ego-death or maybe still in the process of actually, possibly. Still shrinking in a way. But also, can sometimes feel the opposite. Hmm. I don't know, maybe it's all just self-doubt.
(08-06-2017, 10:49 AM)Fuse Wrote: It's a really interesting time right now. Have people here seen information about the eclipses this month? Tomorrow's full moon gets eclipsed, which is the start (or one of the high points) of an astrologically significant period culminating in the full solar eclipse in fifteen days. This presents a profound opportunity, I believe.
I'll look into the eclipses. I definitely feel a different - a stronger energy - hitting earth at the moment. Like, literally there are 3 conversations I'm having in facebook right now from 3 different friends who are considering suicide, and so something seems to be strongly unearthing undealt-with-s*** with people at the moment. I thought it might of been related to the schumann resonance - which I don't know that much about, but apparently it’s normal frequency varies between 7-8Hz and it’s been increasing over the past few years… in 2014 it spiked at 14-16Hz & last year it hit 30-40Hz. This easter it zoomed up to 90hz and I'm pretty sure that I read last week that it recently spiked to 1000Hz. But yeah, don't know much about it (and just now tried to google the new data and can't find anything worth referencing) but it apparently does correlate with human consciousness and connection to source and all that good stuff lol..
(08-06-2017, 10:49 AM)Fuse Wrote: What if the problem was that you took this step alone? What if you were vulnerable because you didn't have anyone else's support? What if next time, a whole lot of us take the step together, and in the linking of our minds and wills and intentions, support each other and guarantee, magically, that they can never de-evolve any of us again?Funny that a common theme coming out of my mouth over the past few years is "I just have to find the others.. #FindTheOthers".. etc etc etc.. over and over. (And one that fellow-youtubers were very strongly trying to dissuade me from saying.. because also like me, they were saying that no matter where we are, we need to do the work.. that it's not about finding others but going within).. but I think it's about both. Doing the inner-work, and .. finding the others. hehe. So definitely resonates with me... and so does this forum And I guess also the new lightworkers project will hopefully help us all 'find like minds' and truly test this theory once and for all. And yet, ever still be doing-the-work in the meantime, clearing blockages, working on all that we need to work on, etc. But yeah I'm not back in my beliefs yet, but these conversations are very helpful and relaxing to me, really feeling waves-of-blockages leave me as I'm feeling "free" to express these things that I've been suppressing xo
That would be the official birth of the Eden social-memory-complex.