I find myself in a couple of things that you wrote - for a couple years I was working non-stop (either at my job or giving care to my demented mother)
I was completely exhausted and totally negative and unloving. I got into trouble with members of my family etc
I remember once coming down with the flu, being even more exhausted and praying to god "please dont let me wake up tomorrow, it would be a relief to get out of here...."
Life was one dark pit of despair with only duties and no fun anymore.
When my mother died I tried to get my life back on track, got back to working full time and then after couple months was diagnosed with cancer. In hindsight that was a blessing in disguise because it gave me the much needed rest - I was on sick leave and am now also on disability pension. If that would not have arrived I guess I would have continued like before until the next illness or accident came along to stop me in my tracks.
The pension now gives me time for my spirituality as well. All I can say I am so grateful for this cancer!!! it literally saved me lol
but this is not about me - but about you.
What I would suggest to you is - do you have any chance of going on rehab or to some kind of cure clinic?
Imo the most important thing in that stage is to
-get the rest you need to regenerate
-focus on yourself and what makes you feel good. What do you want for yourself? what would make your life better?
Someone mentioned volunteer work - I can only speak for the situation I was in back at the time - any additional work would have finished me off. Sometimes it is time to serve only the weary and beaten-down self, until that self gets back on track and feels better.....
The rest will come once you fix yourself. You wouldnt need the alcohol anymore anyways, as I see it right now it is a way to cope with the stress.
With me it was the nicotine, I smoked so I could get 5 mins of extra breaks outside, either from work or from caregiving ......
So get rid of the root cause ! The alcohol is a symptom.
All the best for you! you are not alone. "hugs"
I was completely exhausted and totally negative and unloving. I got into trouble with members of my family etc
I remember once coming down with the flu, being even more exhausted and praying to god "please dont let me wake up tomorrow, it would be a relief to get out of here...."
Life was one dark pit of despair with only duties and no fun anymore.
When my mother died I tried to get my life back on track, got back to working full time and then after couple months was diagnosed with cancer. In hindsight that was a blessing in disguise because it gave me the much needed rest - I was on sick leave and am now also on disability pension. If that would not have arrived I guess I would have continued like before until the next illness or accident came along to stop me in my tracks.
The pension now gives me time for my spirituality as well. All I can say I am so grateful for this cancer!!! it literally saved me lol
but this is not about me - but about you.
What I would suggest to you is - do you have any chance of going on rehab or to some kind of cure clinic?
Imo the most important thing in that stage is to
-get the rest you need to regenerate
-focus on yourself and what makes you feel good. What do you want for yourself? what would make your life better?
Someone mentioned volunteer work - I can only speak for the situation I was in back at the time - any additional work would have finished me off. Sometimes it is time to serve only the weary and beaten-down self, until that self gets back on track and feels better.....
The rest will come once you fix yourself. You wouldnt need the alcohol anymore anyways, as I see it right now it is a way to cope with the stress.
With me it was the nicotine, I smoked so I could get 5 mins of extra breaks outside, either from work or from caregiving ......
So get rid of the root cause ! The alcohol is a symptom.
All the best for you! you are not alone. "hugs"
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