10-21-2011, 07:10 AM
(This post was last modified: 09-19-2013, 10:36 AM by AnthroHeart.)
I had learned to balance the love and light in my heart. This was a 6th subdensity lesson. The 7th subdensity, that gateway to intelligent infinity was accessed when I opened this octave within my heart. As above, so below. The 3rd eye singularity of the octave above, and heart singularity of the octave below. We must keep them in balance. We are the fulfillment of the infinite octaves within us. We are each at the center of Creation.
Now, opening the gateway is not instantaneous and you're gone. No, I continue to approach Creator, and continually learn more and more detailed and timeless aspects about myself. I now approach Creator without pain because I can balance light and love. Without balance, it feels like being burned and crushing when you push so hard to get there.
The writings below are to be taken with lighthearted humor. It is my own experiencing, and is by no means the “way it is”.
My main goal in learning about myself was at first wondering “what's it like to be an anthro”. This became “What is it like to be a furry” because furry is a subset of the anthro. I knew I loved the furry, but I did not know how much. The question then became “what would a furry have to do so that I did not love them any more”. For me this was like what could they dish out or I could take that could throw off my love balance for them.
What I thought before was “the energy” was “furry energy” manifesting to answer “the question”. The energy became furry energy, and I began to learn what it was like to be pwned by furry, a great hidden desire of mine. I did all this lying on my bed. I have been strangled physically by the furry energy, put in bondage by it, raped, b**** slapped (to where my head is knocked back and forth). Head has been knocked back and forth by the energy against my pillow. And finally my body being shaken with enough force to throw it about a foot in the air. And at this point, when the furry energy pounded my head back and forth, and my stomach turned, I knew this was how much “pwnage” I could take from furry.
I had to learn to tame this side of myself, because accepting furry's love back to me at times could be too much. I could not even bear to look at furry, it was so full of win. As I say with my pseudo-germanlike character accent, “I dare not even look at ze furry. It is toooo much, too much.”
Now, as I approach Creator even more, I can comfortably think about “cuddling” with furry, getting intimate. The thought of us holding one another, in total adoration, is no longer “too much”. Though I still get about 10-pounds of emotions on my chest when I look at fursuit videos and such. Such is the amazing adventure of answering our question. And yes, I can "pick up" in no uncertain terms, the emotion of the person in the fursuit as well if I choose to. I feel their anxiety, even if they are doing the fursuitting they enjoy. Others I feel that they are genuinely at peace with it.
Now, you might not know the passion I have behind all my words. Passion for expression is an intense desire at these higher densities. I speak much slower when I'm in character, with greatest expression of each nuance of word. The order of words is important because it drives the energy flow. The enunciation of each syllable. The volume of each syllable and tone, all combine to provide this expression. This just briefly covers my current experience. As for anything, they are solely my own and I hope that they offer some idea of what is possible.
With much joy in learn/teaching, as we approach love/light balance,
- Gemini Wolf
It's the question that drives us (1:52). What is your question?
Now, opening the gateway is not instantaneous and you're gone. No, I continue to approach Creator, and continually learn more and more detailed and timeless aspects about myself. I now approach Creator without pain because I can balance light and love. Without balance, it feels like being burned and crushing when you push so hard to get there.
The writings below are to be taken with lighthearted humor. It is my own experiencing, and is by no means the “way it is”.
My main goal in learning about myself was at first wondering “what's it like to be an anthro”. This became “What is it like to be a furry” because furry is a subset of the anthro. I knew I loved the furry, but I did not know how much. The question then became “what would a furry have to do so that I did not love them any more”. For me this was like what could they dish out or I could take that could throw off my love balance for them.
What I thought before was “the energy” was “furry energy” manifesting to answer “the question”. The energy became furry energy, and I began to learn what it was like to be pwned by furry, a great hidden desire of mine. I did all this lying on my bed. I have been strangled physically by the furry energy, put in bondage by it, raped, b**** slapped (to where my head is knocked back and forth). Head has been knocked back and forth by the energy against my pillow. And finally my body being shaken with enough force to throw it about a foot in the air. And at this point, when the furry energy pounded my head back and forth, and my stomach turned, I knew this was how much “pwnage” I could take from furry.
I had to learn to tame this side of myself, because accepting furry's love back to me at times could be too much. I could not even bear to look at furry, it was so full of win. As I say with my pseudo-germanlike character accent, “I dare not even look at ze furry. It is toooo much, too much.”
Now, as I approach Creator even more, I can comfortably think about “cuddling” with furry, getting intimate. The thought of us holding one another, in total adoration, is no longer “too much”. Though I still get about 10-pounds of emotions on my chest when I look at fursuit videos and such. Such is the amazing adventure of answering our question. And yes, I can "pick up" in no uncertain terms, the emotion of the person in the fursuit as well if I choose to. I feel their anxiety, even if they are doing the fursuitting they enjoy. Others I feel that they are genuinely at peace with it.
Now, you might not know the passion I have behind all my words. Passion for expression is an intense desire at these higher densities. I speak much slower when I'm in character, with greatest expression of each nuance of word. The order of words is important because it drives the energy flow. The enunciation of each syllable. The volume of each syllable and tone, all combine to provide this expression. This just briefly covers my current experience. As for anything, they are solely my own and I hope that they offer some idea of what is possible.
With much joy in learn/teaching, as we approach love/light balance,
- Gemini Wolf
It's the question that drives us (1:52). What is your question?