12-18-2011, 10:45 PM
Hi my name is justin i am really confused at this point,first i attribute this to genetics to mental illness (schizophrenia) and adhd as a kid and i think i had some neglect but i was a really really cruel kid and this was due to low development of my prefrontal cortex from adhd and being at risk for schizophrenia but when i turned 15 i think this is when my prefrontal cortex fully matured and i became the oppisite of what i am i became completly empathic i cant even kill a bug or hurt a plant.
i always have this inner voice that tells me that i have to help especially when coming down from from drug trips and during when trip i asked my inner voice am i a wanderer and it said yes i also love lights, but i always ask myself how could i be a wanderer and be so cruel as a kid but i probably answered my own question and it was just my mind body complex.
my question is can anyone relate to this and especially obssession with lights i love lights and an inner voice somtimes saying i have to help.
i always have this inner voice that tells me that i have to help especially when coming down from from drug trips and during when trip i asked my inner voice am i a wanderer and it said yes i also love lights, but i always ask myself how could i be a wanderer and be so cruel as a kid but i probably answered my own question and it was just my mind body complex.
my question is can anyone relate to this and especially obssession with lights i love lights and an inner voice somtimes saying i have to help.