09-22-2012, 01:33 AM
(This post was last modified: 09-22-2012, 06:06 AM by christine10.)
Hey all,
I guess Im really not sure if you would call this a story or a question...maybe both....hopefully one of you nice people could tell me!!
K well first Ill start with the fact that I come from a very large family Im # 10 of 12 7 boys 6 girls all from same parent and all very close I LOVE my siblings and parents very much we all seem to be quite alike(i understand how that is now) but all that aside I have always felt alone and that I dont understand,Ive had my issues with drugs as a young adult but never have done any harm to others,not a criminal still knew right from wrong,my parents did an amazing job all my brother and sisters are college grads,very successful,great familys,I joke about the smart gene being streatched a lil thin by the time me and my brother and sister were born..hahaha...but we all have good hearts and would never hurt anyone!! People always say the great thing about being from large family was you always had someone to play with but never seemed to be the case with me I always seemed to be alone or maybe I should say FELT alone!
ALWAYS had this longing to go home and am very excited(now dont take this part wrong) to return to the creator,I seriously cant understand why everyone isnt... OMG everything youve ever been told about the afterlife has been AWESOME, I cant wait plus I have some questions I wanna ask him/her....hehehe.... Ive also ALWAYS been hyper sensitive,VERY emotional,I dont think a day goes by that I dont cry sometimes I dont even know why it can be very overwhelming like theyr not my feelings,it takes my breath away sometimes but since reading The Law of One Ive come to understand why,everything just makes complete sense to me now and in a strange way it makes even the most horric things that happen in this world alot easier to swallow, it has been sooooo helpful,its AMAZING!!
ALSO Iam a HUGE giver,LOVE,LOVE,LOVE to give I get soooooooo excited, as a child I use to find old(I didnt know it was junk seemed like great stuff to me...hehehe) things or even things we used around my home and would wrap them up and give to all my neighbors, they would then return stuff to my parents, Im sure they all thought I was a goofy kid....hahaha....it just makes me very happy to give to others but recieving has always been difficult for me it makes me feels uncomfortable I get very anxious almost like I dont deserve gifts yet I dont think I feel that way but I dont know!!
Anyways so I guess thats my story and my question is ....am I a wanderer and just by me asking does that mean Im awake and what should I do now, I want to do EVERYTHING I can and do it right, I feel like my job is to spread the word,not push anything on people but just make them aware of whats going on and the choices they have but I could be wrong,I understand really my only job is to love and I do but I want more!!
Any suggestions anyone?
Thank you all for your help and love!!
Christine
I guess Im really not sure if you would call this a story or a question...maybe both....hopefully one of you nice people could tell me!!
K well first Ill start with the fact that I come from a very large family Im # 10 of 12 7 boys 6 girls all from same parent and all very close I LOVE my siblings and parents very much we all seem to be quite alike(i understand how that is now) but all that aside I have always felt alone and that I dont understand,Ive had my issues with drugs as a young adult but never have done any harm to others,not a criminal still knew right from wrong,my parents did an amazing job all my brother and sisters are college grads,very successful,great familys,I joke about the smart gene being streatched a lil thin by the time me and my brother and sister were born..hahaha...but we all have good hearts and would never hurt anyone!! People always say the great thing about being from large family was you always had someone to play with but never seemed to be the case with me I always seemed to be alone or maybe I should say FELT alone!
ALWAYS had this longing to go home and am very excited(now dont take this part wrong) to return to the creator,I seriously cant understand why everyone isnt... OMG everything youve ever been told about the afterlife has been AWESOME, I cant wait plus I have some questions I wanna ask him/her....hehehe.... Ive also ALWAYS been hyper sensitive,VERY emotional,I dont think a day goes by that I dont cry sometimes I dont even know why it can be very overwhelming like theyr not my feelings,it takes my breath away sometimes but since reading The Law of One Ive come to understand why,everything just makes complete sense to me now and in a strange way it makes even the most horric things that happen in this world alot easier to swallow, it has been sooooo helpful,its AMAZING!!
ALSO Iam a HUGE giver,LOVE,LOVE,LOVE to give I get soooooooo excited, as a child I use to find old(I didnt know it was junk seemed like great stuff to me...hehehe) things or even things we used around my home and would wrap them up and give to all my neighbors, they would then return stuff to my parents, Im sure they all thought I was a goofy kid....hahaha....it just makes me very happy to give to others but recieving has always been difficult for me it makes me feels uncomfortable I get very anxious almost like I dont deserve gifts yet I dont think I feel that way but I dont know!!
Anyways so I guess thats my story and my question is ....am I a wanderer and just by me asking does that mean Im awake and what should I do now, I want to do EVERYTHING I can and do it right, I feel like my job is to spread the word,not push anything on people but just make them aware of whats going on and the choices they have but I could be wrong,I understand really my only job is to love and I do but I want more!!
Any suggestions anyone?
Thank you all for your help and love!!
Christine