02-28-2013, 06:26 AM
(This post was last modified: 02-28-2013, 06:51 AM by LastBreath.)
Where do I start.... First of all as I'm typing this I'm feeling somewhat hesitant to post this at all due to the extreme taboo and disdain of the subjects involved. The last 2 days I've been very angry, upset and I haven't slept very well. I don't know if anyone else does this but once or twice a year I venture into the deep dark side of the net where some of the most atrocious acts imaginable call home. It ranges from animal cruelty, torture, violent sexual fetishes, murder, war, mutilation and other things that are too extreme to speak of here etc... I don't do it because I get kicks out of this stuff or enjoy it, but I do it as a way to make myself more aware of the bad that goes on in our world. One thing I've learned from my ventures into the dark side is that our global society as a whole seems to me to be extremely troubled and confused, that these sorts of things would manifest.
I don't know if it's a healthy thing to do or if I'm just wounding myself psychologically but I have seen the most horrible things on the dark side of the internet, the most extreme cases of violence, cruelty, abuse and all the horrible things people do to themselves, other selves and animals. The sort of things that you would sit down and watch and seconds later find yourself screaming at your screen because what your watching is so unimaginably messed up and cruel that your just flooded with overwhelmingly intense emotional waves of rage and sorrow. Really, some of the stuff in the underground net is BEYOND the worst possible scenario that you could imagine or ever nightmare of, because probably you never fathomed that such atrocities could even happen in the first place. And I really seriously wonder if I'm the only one around here that deliberately tries to see these things or not.
I feel for my fellow man that suffers, more-so especially for the ones that suffer inside because I can relate to that so well. But where my heart reaches out to and feels for the greatest is with animals, I've always had a soft spot for the animals. I can't conceive of anything more destructive to morality than the deliberate harm of those innocent creatures on the rung below ours and nothing can boil my blood faster.
My question to my comrades here that are on the spiritual path of seeking unity and oneness is first of all how do you process this sort of information? How do you deal with the fact that these things go on? Are these things just so painful to bring to conscious awareness that you just ignore it completely and instead try to mainly focus on the good in the world? A lot of people I think would rather just ignore it because it is so painful, but I strongly do believe that if it doesn't cripple you inside that there is a certain power of motivation that can come from being aware of the going-on's of the dark side. On the other hand though I have to admit that sometimes after watching these things I'm so disgusted and disturbed that I feel like throwing in the towel and saying "f*** it all, I've had it with humanity, I hope humanity nukes itself into extinction", you know? Well just some thoughts... that's what I've been thinking about for the past few days I needed to get that off my chest pretty badly.
You know what I think this thread would fit better in the Spiritual Implications of Politics and Current Events sub forum if a mod would move it there please. thanks.
I don't know if it's a healthy thing to do or if I'm just wounding myself psychologically but I have seen the most horrible things on the dark side of the internet, the most extreme cases of violence, cruelty, abuse and all the horrible things people do to themselves, other selves and animals. The sort of things that you would sit down and watch and seconds later find yourself screaming at your screen because what your watching is so unimaginably messed up and cruel that your just flooded with overwhelmingly intense emotional waves of rage and sorrow. Really, some of the stuff in the underground net is BEYOND the worst possible scenario that you could imagine or ever nightmare of, because probably you never fathomed that such atrocities could even happen in the first place. And I really seriously wonder if I'm the only one around here that deliberately tries to see these things or not.
I feel for my fellow man that suffers, more-so especially for the ones that suffer inside because I can relate to that so well. But where my heart reaches out to and feels for the greatest is with animals, I've always had a soft spot for the animals. I can't conceive of anything more destructive to morality than the deliberate harm of those innocent creatures on the rung below ours and nothing can boil my blood faster.
My question to my comrades here that are on the spiritual path of seeking unity and oneness is first of all how do you process this sort of information? How do you deal with the fact that these things go on? Are these things just so painful to bring to conscious awareness that you just ignore it completely and instead try to mainly focus on the good in the world? A lot of people I think would rather just ignore it because it is so painful, but I strongly do believe that if it doesn't cripple you inside that there is a certain power of motivation that can come from being aware of the going-on's of the dark side. On the other hand though I have to admit that sometimes after watching these things I'm so disgusted and disturbed that I feel like throwing in the towel and saying "f*** it all, I've had it with humanity, I hope humanity nukes itself into extinction", you know? Well just some thoughts... that's what I've been thinking about for the past few days I needed to get that off my chest pretty badly.
You know what I think this thread would fit better in the Spiritual Implications of Politics and Current Events sub forum if a mod would move it there please. thanks.