Boring past life memories

[Adonai One]

Recent boring flashbacks:

Desire to play with candle wax incessantly - Flashbacks to being a classical clerk that poured wax over letters to seal them and stamp them, constantly, over and over, hours on end.

Black women, blonde-haired women - Flashbacks to looking in a mirror and having a similar look. A sudden desire to be a woman again, to be beautiful.

White clinical hallways - Flashbacks to being a security guard at a research and development lab, constantly patrolling the hallways, seeing men in lab coats around big pieces of machinery and chalkboards and asking how they are doing.

Security booths in front of industrial buildings - Flashbacks to reading books, hearing the radio while sitting in one. Calm, serene, happy.

Anything military - Flashbacks to shooting clip after clip, magazine after magazine of bullets down a shooting range with a great satisfaction.

PTSD victims, PTSD related stuff - Flashbacks to laying constantly awake in a bed in great torment at memory of some past event (houses burning... people being burned alive?). Feeling trapped.

Yep, past lives are proven to me.

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Restaurants: Flashbacks to managing one and being harsh to my staff

Factories, industrial buildings: Flashbacks of feeling pride at managing some form of manufacturing, industrial process overlooking workers on the floor

[vervex]

I see a recurring theme here, hehe. It seems you were at peace, satisfied and detached in some of these lives according to what you shared. I imagine the man sitting in his booth leading a simple yet fulfilling life

I have a few "boring" memories as well, emotions and images which have come to me in meditation or contemplation over the past few years.

Here are a few:
- Feeling of elation and awe in regards to great libraries and old university halls. I feel I might have been a scholar in the past; walking in such spaces or even imagining them provides me with a feeling of "being home". (Couple this with spending a lot of my school time in libraries as well as my ambition of going to university since age 6, not even knowing what I'd study then, and you've got a strong transcendental bias I think )
- Mental sights and feelings of rural Japan, its forests, as well as owning or working at a tea house. (I've always had a great calling to visit Japan; I very strongly believe I might have spent some lives there)
- Images and feelings of being a Buddhist monk, wearing red and/or orange, feeling very calm and serene.

I have other stories to tell, some much, much darker ones, however they would not belong here. Maybe another time

[Adonai One]

Could be a bit distorted:

Back on the PTSD life... It was in the mid-20th century... For some reason, I was commanded to take a flame thrower to some civilian houses and burn people alive. Middle-eastern soldier? That wasn't very nice.

I also haven't disclosed that I have had visions of killing people in excess in combat BDUs with a machine gun in a little later of a period in a different life, taking a painful yet pleasurable satisfaction in watching people die. It was a great feeling of exaltation, bliss, meaning but with a great anxiety and hunger behind it. This is where I get my idea of the negative polarity from. It's a constant momentum of hate. I just had this insane, menacing stare... I was quiet, alone when around my fellow soldiers... I only joined the military to kill people. I was disobedient, deranged but they loved me for it.

Something went wrong with that life. Lots of laughter behind it all, such a great agony in the mind, such a trapped feeling that constantly expresses itself behind every falsification of a person. Yet so dead, so cold. Firey yet cold. So much hunger... Not so boring this one. Thought I should mention so people can have some background on my experience studying this.

It's just a constant agony that is so pleasurable that just feeds on itself until the mind totally collapses... and you get up again in a even greater trapped mental state.

[Unbound]

Most mundane lives seem to pass smoothly through my mind. Been a farmer and a lay monk and an ascetic multiple times, a soldier a number of times as well as been a scientist and researcher. Some lives were very short like one life as a young fisher girl who drowned but most of all of those lives I have already integrated. It is my less 'boring' lives which continue to feed me catalyst.

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One of the more gripping of my darker lives involves the impalement of thousands of individuals and feeding upon their life energy.

[ChickenInSpace]

One of the more gripping of my darker lives involves the impalement of thousands of individuals and feeding upon their life energy.

Sounds a bit (alot?) like Vlad Tepes o_O

[Horuseus]

I don't recall many on Earth as I know it currently. There are a few dating back to Egypt (One was a priest) and some in what seems to be Inca/Aztec/Mayan sort of theme. There were a considerable number in the Eastern region as a 'bodhisattva'. More recently some in America (Early 1900's).

Most of my 'memories' are between lives and those on other planes of existence. I recall my form the the area prior to incarnating this time around. Best way I can describe is as being in a formless dimension filled with light of a spectrum not found here. 'I' myself was a 'formless conscious light' (Again there are no direct translations). I also recall being a guide to an individual (Not sure who, I believe we switched roles this time round though) and being able to view various probabilities in that life. I would work with other Guides who would manipulate the individuals on their end and I would do the same to ensure they interfaced at the right point in space and time. I recall 'injecting' thoughts into the individual to give them inspiration to move in a certain way.

On other planes the existences could be akin to 'paradise'. Some more earthly existences are similar to those mentioned in 2150AD though. There is this one brief memory of me being in a sort of flat/apartment overlooking a vast beautiful city with someone else that has got me. For some reason I have a deep yearning to return, even to the point of sadness at times, though I've no idea what or where it is.

[Rake]

My only inclination is that I have been an archer... I want to say Chinese or oriental but that's more of a guess.

[Spaced]

The lives I remember most vividly are associated with traumatic events, but I have a couple of lives that I feel 'in the background' as it were, which seem to bubble gently to the surface now and again. One where I was the Hierophant at the temple of Demeter in Eleusis and took an active role in the Eleusinian Mysteries. A life as an atheistic governor of a Greek island during the later Byzantine period whose goal was to educate his people and built many schools. A life as a monk in Tibet. And so on. I feel connections to certain areas and feel certain I've lived there before (Germany, Indus valley, Egypt etc.) but the lives led there must not have needed integration in this life.

The memories that stand out are the ones where I was involved in violence, or lives where I explored my shadow more fully. Your life as a soldier taking pleasure in death reminds me of one I remember as a samurai taking great pleasure in my skill with the sword.

I do find it interesting that most of your lives seem to be 20th century Adonai, mine tend to stretch back pretty far into history.

I don't know wether my recall is accurate but these 'memories' paint my current experience.

[Ankh]

There are a few dating back to Egypt (One was a priest)

Do you remember any details of being that priest in Egypt, Horuseus? Cause I have memories myself of being a priest there three times and a priestess or some sort of female temple servant at one time.

[Adonai One]

The lives I remember most vividly are associated with traumatic events, but I have a couple of lives that I feel 'in the background' as it were, which seem to bubble gently to the surface now and again. One where I was the Hierophant at the temple of Demeter in Eleusis and took an active role in the Eleusinian Mysteries. A life as an atheistic governor of a Greek island during the later Byzantine period whose goal was to educate his people and built many schools. A life as a monk in Tibet. And so on. I feel connections to certain areas and feel certain I've lived there before (Germany, Indus valley, Egypt etc.) but the lives led there must not have needed integration in this life.

The memories that stand out are the ones where I was involved in violence, or lives where I explored my shadow more fully. Your life as a soldier taking pleasure in death reminds me of one I remember as a samurai taking great pleasure in my skill with the sword.

I do find it interesting that most of your lives seem to be 20th century Adonai, mine tend to stretch back pretty far into history.

I don't know wether my recall is accurate but these 'memories' paint my current experience.

My view of the soul is very fringe from what currently exists on this forum and other spiritual doctrines.

I feel I have uncovered the nature of my social memory complex, to where the souls intermingle into specific sets of hundreds of thousands, even millions of different aspects of many souls and place them into incarnations based on a great amount of lessons. In other words, one incarnation is inhabited by a great amount of souls.

In meditation, I've found that some planets have a single soul that incarnates itself into many people with a social memory complex being nearly inherently formed except the social memory complex still has trouble accepting itself in "3rd density." It being 3rd density in that there is still a lack of consensus in the planetary-self.

When I envisioned myself dying, I saw my soul untying into many simultaneous existences, not just one. I feel my body is a vessel for the lessons of a countless amount. I no longer feel myself as an individual. I find myself to be a team of individuals teaching one another for many.

Don should have asked more questions about the nature of the Social Memory Complex because it truly isn't an individualistic affair from what I've found.

Thus, I feel I am living thousands of Earth lives simultaneously. All that happens to lucidly come back up are recent 20th century lives. The older ones, I am told, are not as relevant.

[Unbound]

One of the more gripping of my darker lives involves the impalement of thousands of individuals and feeding upon their life energy.

Sounds a bit (alot?) like Vlad Tepes o_O

Aha Shhh.

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The lives I remember most vividly are associated with traumatic events, but I have a couple of lives that I feel 'in the background' as it were, which seem to bubble gently to the surface now and again. One where I was the Hierophant at the temple of Demeter in Eleusis and took an active role in the Eleusinian Mysteries. A life as an atheistic governor of a Greek island during the later Byzantine period whose goal was to educate his people and built many schools. A life as a monk in Tibet. And so on. I feel connections to certain areas and feel certain I've lived there before (Germany, Indus valley, Egypt etc.) but the lives led there must not have needed integration in this life.

The memories that stand out are the ones where I was involved in violence, or lives where I explored my shadow more fully. Your life as a soldier taking pleasure in death reminds me of one I remember as a samurai taking great pleasure in my skill with the sword.

I do find it interesting that most of your lives seem to be 20th century Adonai, mine tend to stretch back pretty far into history.

I don't know wether my recall is accurate but these 'memories' paint my current experience.

My view of the soul is very fringe from what currently exists on this forum and other spiritual doctrines.

I feel I have uncovered a nature of my social memory complex where the souls intermingle into specific sets of hundreds of thousands of different aspects of many souls and place them into incarnations based on a great amount of lessons. In other words, one incarnation is inhabited by a great amount of souls.

In meditation, I've found that some planets have a single soul that incarnates itself into many people with a social memory complex being nearly inherently formed except the social memory complex still has trouble accepting itself.

When I envisioned myself dying, I saw my soul untying into many simultaneous existences, not just one. I feel my body is a vessel for the lessons of a countless amount. I no longer feel myself as an individual. I find myself to be a team of individuals teaching one another for many.

Don should have asked more questions about the nature of the Social Memory Complex because it truly isn't an individualistic affair from what I've found.

Thus, I feel I am living thousands of Earth lives simultaneously. All that happens to lucidly come back up are recent 20th century lives. The older ones, I am told, are not as relevant.

Is not the "individual" body made up of millions and billions of cells? Our conscious selves are also like that. I applaud your insight, it is very similar (although not quite the exact same) to what I have recognized within myself.

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Also, I don't like talking about my past lives really as people tend to place emphasis on why my self-perceptions are 'unnecessary'.

[Horuseus]

There are a few dating back to Egypt (One was a priest)

Do you remember any details of being that priest in Egypt, Horuseus? Cause I have memories myself of being a priest there three times and a priestess or some sort of female temple servant at one time.

Awesome! Maybe we know each other there. I 'recall' only little at this time, though I can say in that one life it was at the Temple of Thebes around 2000BC. My family there was fairly high up if I recall. I was happy and had honour in the role entrusted, and did well, even though I had a knack for being more on the 'unconventional' side of the teachings, which got me reprimanded on occasion. Was somewhat of a day dreamer and would often look up at the stars and feel a strong connection. It was good.

Given time is simultaneous and our lives/existences are more like threads connected I tend to pull back to a 'past self' and bring in the wisdom/knowledge of those lifetimes to this one. I call it 'parallel timeline downloads' and can be a nifty tool for meditation.

[anagogy]

If all is truly one, then you live all lives that ever were, are, and will be. It's a giant tapestry of experience that all consciousness eventually filters through.

But be rest assured, if you are remembering a life, whether it was one your individuated patternization "actually" lived or not, you can bet that life you are remembering is a vibrational match to your thoughts now.

[AnthroHeart]

My only true past life memory is me killing a wolf with a knife. The wolf was my friend, and I had to kill him because of the villagers. I have a vague memory of it. It had an emotional attachment the moment I remembered it.

[Wai]

There are a few dating back to Egypt (One was a priest)

Do you remember any details of being that priest in Egypt, Horuseus? Cause I have memories myself of being a priest there three times and a priestess or some sort of female temple servant at one time.

Awesome! Maybe we know each other there. I 'recall' only little at this time, though I can say in that one life it was at the Temple of Thebes around 2000BC. My family there was fairly high up if I recall. I was happy and had honour in the role entrusted, and did well, even though I had a knack for being more on the 'unconventional' side of the teachings, which got me reprimanded on occasion. Was somewhat of a day dreamer and would often look up at the stars and feel a strong connection. It was good.

How fascinating! I must know both of you then. I was a scribe (historian, recorder, minutes taker?) during the building of the Pyramids. My "God" in those days was Thoth. When I was in school, I already knew that the Pyramids were built using levitation or some kind of force and I couldn't stop giggling when I watched movies showing slaves dragging huge stones to build the Pyramids.

Yes, some of my past lives were rather boring (fisherman, merchant, villager). But not the past life when I was an adviser to Genghis Khan as he led the Mongols all across China and the Middle East. That was thrilling!

[Ankh]

There are a few dating back to Egypt (One was a priest)

Do you remember any details of being that priest in Egypt, Horuseus? Cause I have memories myself of being a priest there three times and a priestess or some sort of female temple servant at one time.

Awesome! Maybe we know each other there. I 'recall' only little at this time, though I can say in that one life it was at the Temple of Thebes around 2000BC. My family there was fairly high up if I recall. I was happy and had honour in the role entrusted, and did well, even though I had a knack for being more on the 'unconventional' side of the teachings, which got me reprimanded on occasion. Was somewhat of a day dreamer and would often look up at the stars and feel a strong connection. It was good.

Given time is simultaneous and our lives/existences are more like threads connected I tend to pull back to a 'past self' and bring in the wisdom/knowledge of those lifetimes to this one. I call it 'parallel timeline downloads' and can be a nifty tool for meditation.

When I was that priestess, I used to look at the stars too, dreaming of something. I felt great sorrow during these times, feeling some sort of loss that I didn't understand (I guess it was just Wanderer blues). I don't think that I was ever been able to connect to anyone closely or intimately during that life time, because of that sorrow. Next life time I was a male priest, and used to wake up early each morning and go outside that town or village where we lived. I used to sit and watch the sun go up there, in a desert like place, meditating and doing some sort of "magical workings" which I don't remember in details now. It was like channeling energy through myself and then releasing it into the planet. I was less sorrowful at that time, and much more focused on "work". Another time, when I was a priest again, I was "unconventional" too, and didn't act as it was expected from me. Someone high up didn't like it, and I was "reprimanded" couple of times, but since I could do something that no one else did, they couldn't do much about it and left me alone, although disliking it.

[Matt1]

I have had some memories. One that comes to mind is being in the desert with a white robe on riding a camel with a scimitar sword with a glaze of mystery in my eyes. Perhaps it was a archetypal subconscious vision rather than an actual memory. I tent to believe 90% of past live claims are nothing more than subconscious imagination with perhaps a few drops of truth. I have seen a few great cases of past live experiences thought and i fully believe in reincarnation.

[reeay]

If all is truly one, then you live all lives that ever were, are, and will be. It's a giant tapestry of experience that all consciousness eventually filters through.

But be rest assured, if you are remembering a life, whether it was one your individuated patternization "actually" lived or not, you can bet that life you are remembering is a vibrational match to your thoughts now.

This is exactly it.

Memory is thought to be retrieved based upon the cognition (thoughts like beliefs) and affect (emotional states) that we are currently experiencing. Every time we retrieve and recall, the memory is reconstructed based upon the most current beliefs or world views - or more generally based on our current situation.

'Past life' memory are recalled probably in a similar manner. So the utility of recalling past lives, whether grand or boring (lol) is that it highlights whatever distortions or information that we may find useful for self-discovery. Just my 'theory' here

[AnthroHeart]

I am pretty timid in this life. Afraid of meeting new people.
Must have something to do with past life(s).

I like to be comfortable, where I am.
I don't take risks more than necessary.