I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from July 23, 1989:

The question this evening has to do with catalyst and the use of catalyst in the seeming synchronicities or coincidences in our lives where there is a change in direction or attitude or content of the life pattern. How do we utilize catalyst in this way? Do we draw it to us by our previous work? How do we prepare ourselves for it, and when it shows up, how can we best take advantage of it so that we actually do move ourselves along the evolutionary path?

(Carla Channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet each of you this evening in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator, the one original Thought of Love. We thank you for the generosity of your spirit in asking for information upon subjects which seem abstracted from the daily pattern of mundane activity. Yet by calls such as yours, we recognize those who have committed themselves towards accelerating paths of their spiritual evolution, and we salute and greet each as colleagues upon the path of seeking the knowledge of the truth.

The question which you ask this evening is many-faceted. There is no error which an entity may make during which an opportunity for growth and learning is forever past. Each seeker has an infinite amount of time to learn the lessons of this density, to grasp the illusory nature of all that is born, blooms, withers and dies. Each of you hungers for a food which is spiritual, for part of you is an imperishable being of light and that portion of you is your reality. That consciousness is not only your consciousness, but within it, largely in the deeper portions of the mind, lies the entire creation.

The process by which each of you has chosen in an incarnational pattern for this incarnational experience, is one’s own judgment of oneself. We realize that much has been said in spiritual literature about judgment, however, it is impossible within the illusion to judge in any way the effectiveness of what is being done. You cannot know what your score is. You cannot count up wisdoms or number strategies of meditation until you reach enlightenment. You merely put one foot before the other before a very long and dusty road. It is the road less traveled, as this instrument would say, and it does make all the difference. You have decided to seek in a theoretical and abstract way the nature of the composition of your consciousness. We find that this concern moves to the heart of the reason for third density being as intense an illusion as it is. It also explains the necessity of continuous spiritual coincidence, which some may call synchronicity.

When one first comes into the realization of one’s own self-consciousness as being something more than the brain of an animal which carries you around, each responds by moving towards knowledge, seeking to know the answers to questions. Where one begins seeking is largely a matter of free will, for in few cases do the very young remember anything of the undistorted images of light which express a spiritual entity. So, each of you has planned before this incarnation, with the aid of the higher self, those things which are needed to be learned within the incarnation.

Now, each of you also came primarily to serve, and by focusing daily upon the Creator, you have served and served well. And each moment that you spend consciously aware of your relationship with the Creator is a moment in which the consciousness of the planet upon which you abide is served. You have no clear idea of the kind of light source that you can truly be and that each of you is from time to time.

The group question for this session was how do we use the catalyst of coincidences and synchronicities in our evolutionary growth. Q’uo began their reply by saying that there are no mistakes in anyone’s life path because there is an infinity of time to learn each of our lessons. Q’uo went on to say that we each need to use our own judgement, or discernment, in deciding what steps to take on this journey. Q’uo reminded us that at the heart of our being lies the entire creation that we seek in a theoretical way, and this is why synchronicities and coincidences are an important part of our seeking.  Then Q’uo said that, with the help of our higher selves, each of us has planned before this incarnation the lessons that we wish to learn which will focus upon how to serve the Creator as we realize this light that is within us. On November 7, 1999, Q’uo mentioned how the higher self helps to plan the lessons of the incarnation:

The higher self and the conscious waking personality that inhabits third density have, previously to the incarnation’s beginning, planned together the lessons for that incarnation and have made ready an access means that the conscious self may utilize during the incarnation to receive information from the higher self. There is the necessity for the conscious self to be seeking in a clear and one-pointed fashion in order for the higher self to respond to the conscious self. For, as we mentioned previously, the subtleties of the nature of the higher self are such that the conscious self is frequently unaware that it is being aided when it is being aided. For the higher self is often the agency through which certain connections are made by the conscious mind, the intuitive mind, and the deeper portions of that same mind. The synchronicities which bring together various resources such as books, movies, experiences and other selves into the life pattern of the conscious self are those which are the handiwork, shall we say, oftentimes of the higher self.

Now, there is destiny, let us say, but there is not predestination, that is, in no way is an entity’s life fixed. It is malleable as a soft piece of new clay. The entity begins the incarnation forgetful entirely of all its good reasons for choosing this parent, that sibling, this situation, that relationship. Rather than wasting the time of pondering these things, we might suggest that it is an act of faith to trust that whatever is happening at the moment is what should be happening at the moment, and the only important thing is that you approach the moment with the resonance of eternity within your consciousness so that the mundane and grimy world cannot touch the light being that you are, nor can it touch your ability to act as a channel for love and light to those who suffer in one way or another.

You and your higher self, before the incarnation, have chosen what in most cases is a difficult incarnational pattern. The reason for this is that each entity to whom we speak has the capacity to graduate to the fourth density, to accept more love and more light, and to live in a denser light within this illusion, each of you. Nevertheless, each of you came first to serve, and then only secondarily to work upon the personal consciousness. This is a situation such as your Red Cross might answer in case of peril on a large scale.

We visit you by thought because there is a great call for information of this type. As when people attempt to move into the established forms of doctrine and dogma of religion, they simply cannot any longer accept symbols that have become meaningless to them. Thus, you may find yourself creating a personal philosophy, religion or myth. The words are interchangeable. For it is important that those who walk the spiritual supermarket look carefully at each choice on the shelf, each path to the Creator, and then choose one and follow it persistently and deeply. Those who never begin to move toward the center of things, those who continue walking around the rim—we correct this instrument—the rim of the wheel of life, cannot polarize in either direction, and therefore will not be able to express the joy and the passion and delight in the light that is necessary for movement, comfortable movement into fourth density.

Now Q’uo said that each of us has a destiny that is not fixed but malleable, and that each of us should look at what is happening in our lives is what is meant to be. They also said that we should remember that we are truly light beings whose purpose is to share love with those who suffer, and that we and our higher self have programmed what will probably be difficult lessons because we are here to be of service to others and, through that service, be able to graduate into the fourth density. However, Q’uo suggested that as conscious seekers of truth we may not find any religion or doctrine that speaks to us, so we will need to create our own personal myth or philosophy and follow it steadfastly. On April 30, 1989, Q’uo described the nature of the power of the personal myth:

Thus, the beginning of the creation of the personal myth is a burning, passionate, consuming desire to know the truth, the truth of who you are, of that which you are constructed, of your relationships to eternity and imperishability. Consciousness is malleable. It is plastic. And you are either at the helm of your consciousness or being dragged along by it, having lost the reins. Therefore, when deciding to create a personal mythology it is well first to grasp the reins of desire and discipline and passion, to hone and whet the edge of the need to know, the desire to understand. If you seek the Creator, your path will come to you.

Let us speak now of spiritual coincidence. As we have said, there is destiny but not predestination. You are co-creator of your life. The portion of you that is co-creator is the portion of you that began the incarnation as complete, chaotic, unruly willfulness. The portion of you which remains ever the same is the Creator-self within. Now, because of this sameness, this complete congruency betwixt all individuals in their most basic makeup, the universe may be seen to collapse into a field of unified consciousness. This is the very long and slow movement back to the source which each prodigal son and daughter decides to take.

Spiritual coincidence is often used in order to offer proof of a subjective nature that one has hit upon something that it is important about which to think, or has somehow blossomed and begun to manifest in a new and different way, and signs are there for you alone, to reassure you that your job is being well done. Likewise in sadness, in grief and in frustration, there is always comfort available, for each is nurtured by the one infinite Creator and no entity need be or feel alone at any time.

Spiritual coincidence is also used in another way. It is used when one is attempting to learn a somewhat complex lesson and the higher self finds its conceptualized lesson to be distorted by the illusion in one way or another. This means that, for awhile, the work in consciousness which the seeker is doing is either delusive and even vain. At that point, often a spiritual coincidence will occur to express in some radical way the need simply to pay attention, to remember who one is and who one’s Father and Creator is.

So, some spiritual coincidences are set up to encourage and console the weary-footed seeker. Other spiritual coincidences occur so that one may take another and different look at the same challenge of love. There are many, many things to learn about loving. Few there are who may love unconditionally within your density. There is always the temptation for the bargaining, the rights of each, and so forth. When two entities who are mated seek together, you may find the spiritual coincidences mounting rapidly because each mate teaches the other. Each offers a fairly undistorted mirror to the other self, enabling that self to see itself in an objective way; thereby, intuitive or rational decisions can be made and change occur.

Thus, when there is a seeming synchronicity that has entered your life pattern, allow yourself to be completely fascinated by it and to follow the trail that it leads you to. The forest of ignorance and unknowing and indifference blocks the sun from many. Thus, we urge each not to become calmer and calmer, but rather to become spiritual warriors. Those who take advantage of the challenges of this very precious, small portion of time which is your incarnational experience, you will find that there is a good deal of change involved in deciphering spiritual coincidence.

You will also find at the time it occurs it may seem to be a disaster, for when one decides to manifest in another way, when one decides to discipline or change one’s personality, one must, in this instrument’s terms, dump programs that have been working and set in place within the biocomputer of your mind for time long enough for the habit to be very difficult to break.

When you recognize synchronicity, there is the key, the clue, the harbinger which says, “Pay attention, find the love in this, this is your challenge, this is your pattern.” Move and flow with it without resistance. We are aware that there is nothing harder for any entity to do than to have blind trust and faith that all will be well. When difficulties seem to be large, perhaps even insurmountable, when the juice of gladness and joy seems to have left and the life seems empty of true purpose, this also is an excellent time to meditate upon and to analyze one’s emotional and physical environment, for a truly exhausted soul will often need to sit by the road for a time and refresh itself.

Then once again Q’uo reminded us that we do have a destiny that is malleable as we are co-Creators of our lives, and often it is through experiencing spiritual coincidences that we are given an indication that we have chosen wisely. However, Q’uo also said that there could be a good deal of change which is necessary after recognizing a spiritual coincidence, and this would require that we take time to meditate and analyze our state of being able to accept the pain and effort of change. They also said that sometimes we may need to take some time out to rest and recuperate from such difficult experiences. On July 7, 1991, Q’uo suggested how we could handle spiritual exhaustion:

You are the beholder and you are beheld. When emotions run high and spiritual exhaustion is deep, you may wish that you were not this vase and you do not have to be the vase that you are. The flower is unchangeable, immutable and everlasting; and you are learning how to value that flower, not because it is you, not because it is something that you have called the Creator, not because of anything, but because that is all that there is. And in these choice-making lifetimes, you are shaping that gift to yourself that is the most beautiful receptacle for love that you may create.

Thus, we encourage each to be completely non-judgmental of the self or others, to appreciate the validity of subjectively interesting spiritual coincidences, and to realize that the seeker enters an ordeal. The seek—we correct this instrument—the seeking of the Holy Grail might perhaps be the best way to express the journey that each is on. Each yearns for the food of eternal existence and in the day-to-day cares of the world, love can become sour, trust can become embittered, walls can be built that can’t be broken down.

In order to avoid slowly building oneself into a fixed position which you [as] an entity do not like, it is well to make every attempt to flow through the changes and not hold on to any truth, but rather have faith that that which is true at this time is indeed valid, but that at sometime in the future you may find another learning which gives you a deeper understanding of the particular lesson that you are attempting to learn.

It is much more exciting for entities to learn efficiently, but we find that your people do not learn efficiently and we find that most third-density entities do not learn efficiently. The inefficiency of the illusion as far as its offering to the seeker any outer proof of the existence of eternity is simply not there. So each must gaze upon the catalyst before him and say quite seriously, “What has this to do with me? What would be the way to serve, the way to unburden, the way to console, the way to bring light?”

Therefore, we very much encourage each to recognize the great importance of subjectively interesting spiritual coincidence or synchronicity, and to gaze keenly at the situations either by intuition or by analysis or both, seeking out what pattern is being repeated in this particular situation. For each of you, my children, has an incarnational pattern with one or two basic lessons which you wished to learn.

Now, mind you, your anxiety is not because of your own learning, for each of you wishes far more to aid others than each may take seriously the self. We would suggest that each continue to attempt to serve others, but that each take oneself more seriously. We do not mean that you should lose your sense of humor. That is certainly necessary within an illusion such as yours, which is quite comedic, we find. But in order to avoid becoming a pawn in someone else’s game you must grasp the dimensions of the understanding that is being asked of you, and then to the best of your ability attempt to learn and to manifest that new understanding, to undergo the pain of transformation and change, and to use the energy of that pain for a building of a new and higher truth for yourself.

There are few who examine the life minutely, moment by moment each day. Most entities are content to be intro—we correct this instrument—introspective from time to time only. It is well to never focus upon oneself to the extent that one is oblivious of other’s needs, but it is also most important for each of you, my children, that you respect yourself, that you move within your consciousness as on holy ground, for all of creation, all of love, dwells within the infinity of your deep mind.

If you wish to work with spiritual coincidence more intensively, the writing down of the dreams when one awakens is an helpful adjunct to silent prayer and meditation. In the silent meditation, one simply is with the Creator, and slowly, the self of each self in that atmosphere becomes and is the Creator. This is the depth and the resonance of the present moment which infinitely intersects with eternity. And the more consciousness that each has of the eternal moment, denying time and space any final reality, there is a great opportunity for that entity to find knowledge that is being sought. Then there is the responsibility and the duty to put into action those things which are learned.

Then Q’uo said that as seekers we are looking for the true nature of our being, and that it is well if we look at the catalyst that comes to us with the question of how it can help us learn the lessons that our higher self has programmed for us. They also suggested that these lessons may have layers of depth to them and, from time to time, they may also change, so it is well if we go within our deep mind to determine what the lessons are by using dreams, meditation, and prayer. In this way we may go beyond time and space and begin to live in the eternal present moment and begin to live the lessons we have learned. On January 14, 1996, Q’uo described the eternal present moment where we may find our true self:

Within time the attempt to grasp the present moment is constantly doomed to failure for your mind—that is, your earthly intelligence—and the illusion itself were created so that things would occur in an order. In the eternal present moment, all things exist simultaneously. That which is, is, and in this fullness of being resides the peace that is so eagerly sought by those who weary of the passing scene.

How can one find this present moment? We suggest often the practice of regular contemplation or meditation, for within silence there is that key which unlocks the doors of attention. And into that sanctum sanctorum of the open heart, silent and listening, there resides the Creator whose name is Love.

May we say in reassurance, that it matters not how many times you may misread the will of the Father for you, for in each situation—synchronistically, if you will—events will fall in such a way that you are presented once again with the area of learning to love that you have been working upon for some time. It is well to know one’s incarnational goals, not only in service to others, but in terms of honoring the self as a portion of the creation enough to place that self in a meditative state where there is light abundant and food plentiful for the soul and the spirit.

Daily meditation, as always, is something which we feel is at the heart of one’s acceleration of spiritual growth, but never think that you are being moved about by destiny. This is not so. The free choice is always your own. If you do not wish a lesson, if you are too weary, you may simply sit by the side of the road and let others go by for awhile. And when you are refreshed, you simply begin again where you stopped. There is no hurry, there is no worry, there is no concern, there is no attachment. There is only the challenge of the chase for the Grail and the infinite satisfaction of spending time with the one infinite Creator. Indeed, each time the mind turns to the Creator with a word of praise or thanksgiving, the service rendered thereby is incalculable. Each time that each may smile at the stranger, or comfort, or help one who needs it, each is expressing a kind of consciousness that one is attempting to learn, that is, unconditional love.

So it is as if, say for instance, you wished to drive to the town of Chicago, you may go by one way or by another. You may sail about the world or drive the distance in a very short period of time. Eventually, however, you shall arrive at that destination which is yours. So nothing is wasted and nothing is lost in processing catalyst in a biased fashion. You are, of course, attempting to hone out of the stuff of which you are made, that is, free will and the Creator-self within, a self in which the will has become disciplined.

And one thing that spiritual coincidence does for those who heed it is encourage them upon their quest. When one is in a deep feeling of despair, one is still a hologram of the one infinite Creator. There is no way one is not going to get to Chicago, if we may continue the metaphor. It is just that there are many, many roads, some shorter, some longer, some easier, some more difficult. The measure of an entity’s spiritual mettle is basically the entity’s ability to express faith that all is as it should be and that there is love in the moment. This takes a complete, blind trust and faith because the illusion has been designed for you to see a fairly large portion of negativity within the relationships one has, the friendships one has, and the wars and rumors of wars of those upon your planet who would wish…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

Finally, Q’uo said that even if we may not achieve the lessons of our incarnations right away there is plenty of time for synchronicities to reveal them to us. Then Q’uo recommended that we continue to utilize daily meditation to move forward as a means discovering our lessons and then it is up to us as to how quickly we wish to move on our spiritual paths, for it is our free will, and not destiny, that determines our progress. As a final suggestion, Q’uo said that faith that all is well and knowing that there is love in the moment can help us to learn any lessons. In 10.14, Ra spoke of the love in every moment:

The moment contains love. That is the lesson/goal of this illusion or density. The exercise is to consciously seek that love in awareness and understanding distortions. The first attempt is the cornerstone. Upon this choosing rests the remainder of the life-experience of an entity. The second seeking of love within the moment begins the addition. The third seeking powers the second, the fourth powering or doubling the third. As with the previous type of empowerment, there will be some loss of power due to flaws within the seeking in the distortion of insincerity. However, the conscious statement of self to self of the desire to seek love is so central an act of will that, as before, the loss of power due to this friction is inconsequential.

…The instrument has just informed me that she would wish that I transfer this contact at this time, for we seem to have spoken in enough of a volume of your time that were we to be longer, we would lose you, as this instrument would say, as each drifted sweetly off to sleep. Therefore, we would close this meditation through the instrument known as Jim. I am known to you as Q’uo.

This morning I was on a zoom meet with Ra-El and discussed some books that he and two friends have written that utilize the Law of One in fictional stories, and he wanted to know if I would be interested in making audio books out of them. I said that I would be interested, but it would be quite some time before I am able to as I am hoping to make audio books out of 102 and 103 in the next couple of years. I did ask him to send me copies of the books that have been completed so that I could take a look at them. Then I ran some errands with the first stop being at Speedway to get some gas for Stanley. My second stop was at Kroger’s to buy come cleaning grade vinegar and some kitty litter. My third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some food and non-food items.

This afternoon I used my backpack blower to blow the Red Oak Tree leaves, that just began falling three days ago, into the pile that I have going next to the driveway.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 13

The Doorway To Freedom

I am of the principle of Jesus Christ, the love of almighty God, the Creator and preserver of all things. I greet you in that self-same consciousness of love which enlivens the dead and causes the still to dance with joy.

You cling very tenaciously to your ideas of right and wrong and assume that your perceptions operate not only on your own behalf but also on behalf of all. Yet you have not the authority to make that assumption. It is only in the desires and biases of those who contend with you that you may find the doorway to a more gracious concept of rightness which allows the freedom of others to find their own rightness in their own way and at their own time. How can you know the perceptions of another?

How do you dare to assume that you have the perception of Christ? We rebuke you not to break your love of right into little pieces but rather to scatter your presumption in living an unexamined life. Ask for the grace to be given a wider view and I shall be there.

May the peace that you seek be with you always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.