I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 4, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light. It is our privilege at this time to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to those queries which may yet remain upon the minds of those present. We remind each again that we offer that which is but our opinion. We do not wish to be seen as those who are infallible. At this time we would ask if there is a query to which we may speak?

T: I have a query. As Simon Peter once said to the ascended Christ, “Quo vadis domine,” and in my ministry to others, “Quo vadis domine?”

Q’uo: I am Q’uo, and we would ask that for the benefit of this instrument that the Latin be translated.

T:“Whither do you want me to do? Where am I most needed?”

I am Q’uo, and we thank you for your indulgence, and for your query, which is asked with great sincerity. We appreciate the great desire to be of service to the Creator that you have expressed. This is a query which is asked to that being that is the Christ of all, the Christ within, that small and still voice, which, when petitioned with an whole heart, makes clear the way for the feet of clay and the heart of compassion. This clearly may be asked of any entity by any entity, and wise and careful counsel may be given by many. And yet, the response which is truly sought is that response which will fill the heart and inspire the spirit within, for each portion of the Creator exemplified by each entity within the creation is guided, most lovingly and precisely, by the voice of the Creator that speaks from that deep and still point within the heart.

T wanted to know how he should travel his path of service to others. Q’uo said that T could find the answer to his question by asking it with his whole heart to the Christ within or the still, small voice of the Creator. On October 15, 1976, Hatonn said that to seek the Creator within will give us what we need:

The Creator that is within you, and that exists as your heart and soul, is your link to total and infinite love. Never depend upon yourself. Never shame yourself if you have been inadequate. Know only that you simply failed to ask the Creator, and next time, remember. In this way, you may meet each situation in life as a rich man who has so many assets that he cannot count them. In this quiet confidence, many, many things can be met with love and with graciousness, whereas if you were to analyze the situation in terms of your own abilities, you would say, “I cannot handle this situation,” and, feeling poor in spirit, the situation would overcome you. This is never necessary, for you have all that you need from the Father. Just remember that He gives you what you need, and seek the connection with Him.

[Side one of tape ends.]

I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I’d sort of like to follow up on the preceding query and just make sure I have the principle straight, because I think it’s a really important one. Basically, what you’re saying is the harder that you try to figure out what your service is and where you should go and so forth, the harder it will be for you to find out, whereas the more intensely you ask these questions and then surrender them to the infinite One, the more easily and quickly the path that is yours will be shown to you. Is this the principle that you are explicating?

I am Q’uo, and we would suggest that this is a close approximation. We shall attempt to refine this statement by suggesting that the process involves not so much the analytical mind figuring the pros and cons, as you say, of one possibility over another, as it is the willingness to be of service and the great desire to serve being generated from within, and then allowing the self to surrender its small will and idea or ideas of what is proper, that a greater will might utilize the instrument as is most appropriate for that instrument at a particular time within its process of evolution.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: In a related way, I have seen a lot of people who feel that they have missed the boat spiritually, who feel that they had a chance to do something, and that that moment passed and that they failed to grasp it, and so they feel that there is not another path of service for them but that they have simply lost their direction and are forever, therefore, unable to be of the kind of help that they would need to be. I have always personally questioned this point of view, feeling that there is always a new hope and a new life and a new way of serving. Is it true that there is one service designed for each person and that that person must find it, or is it true that there are many paths of service for each person, and the person is perfectly free to choose that one which offers to that person the greatest degree of service that that person may bear stably?

I am Q’uo. Again, the small will in its ability to analyze and decide oftentimes becomes a stumbling block in its own activity when it takes over full responsibility for the service and actions of the entity. This is to say that where an entity is, and what an entity does are those ingredients which for that moment and that entity are the most appropriate in that entity’s journey. If the entity then begins to feel that it has missed its opportunity, it then begins to ignore the opportunity which is before it, and the prophecy is, as you would say, self-fulfilling.

However, if it is recognized by the entity that its opportunity to serve and to learn are with it always, and that any future opportunities that shall be added unto it are additional to that which is, then the life pattern can be seen as that of abundance, for that indeed is true for each. There is but one Creator in many faces. Each face one encounters is the same Creator. All faces need service. All may instruct. All may receive. Thus, there is nothing but opportunity to learn and to serve. The attitude of the entity in its breadth or in its narrowness determines the abundance of opportunity for that entity.

Carla wanted to know if a person misses one opportunity to be of service to others if they have lost their path altogether, or if there would be other opportunities to serve that the person could choose for their service. Q’uo responded by saying that if a person missed an opportunity to serve and ignored other opportunities available to it, it would have limited its service by ignoring other chances to serve, or if it chose to seek other chances to serve it might also continue its service, for it is the attitude of the person that determines the chances to be of service. On November 14, 1993, Q’uo spoke of the attitude or desire to be of service as that which provides the chance to be of service to others:

Once one has gone through this process and begun a life of service or perhaps simply begun serving in hopes of finding a life of service, one may simply open the consciousness to the fullest extent, having within that spoken desire that is spoken to the self to serve, not as “I will” but as “the Creator wills.” This stance or posture of keen desire and open willingness will in time always produce not one but often several ways of moving into more service. It is to the one focused all along on spiritual value or quality that the circumstances will become clear as a pattern for good works, as this instrument would call them. In other words, it helps greatly when seeking proper spiritual work to know consciously that you are looking for it.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: I find that when I gather in group worship of any kind, or when I am with people who are spiritually involved and dedicated, that my heart really does soar, and I feel strengthened, and I rather got the feeling that you were suggesting that this, in its importance, be somewhat downplayed.

 However, I have always found it to be an integral part of my being able to be of service to others. Perhaps you addressed this and I simply missed it because I was busy with the mechanics of channeling, but I wonder if you could clarify this point?

I am Q’uo, and it is our intention to reaffirm the value of group worship for each within any such group which offers itself in the joyful praise and thanksgiving that is a natural part of the Creator as It speaks to Itself through Its many portions. Each entity that engages in such a service of worship lends a certain vibratory reaffirmation, shall we say, to that vibratory level of being which is sought as the ideal, the goal, the grail, and makes more steady and sturdy the rainbow bridge that is girded from the mundane to the metaphysical in order that that which is of the spirit may inspire the mundane and ennoble it in a fashion which calls for the spirit from within the center of all created things. Thus, the joyful noise, shall we say, that is made unto the world is that which causes the creation to sing within the heart, and the heart to sing within the creation.

Carla was asking Q’uo about the channeling she had done earlier in this session that seemed to downplay the value of working in spiritually oriented groups because she was always inspired to be able to worship in this fashion, and she wanted clarification from Q’uo. Q’uo quickly reaffirmed the value of such group efforts to offer praise and thanksgiving to the Creator because each entity within such a spiritual group increases the total vibrations so that the heart begins to sing within the creation, and the creation begins to sing within the heart. On July 27, 1993, Q’uo shared the value of offering praise and thanksgiving:

The reason for offering love, appreciation, a blessing and thanksgiving to the infinite One is that the entity within incarnation is attempting to form its vibratory frequency more and more like that of the vibrational frequency of the one great original Thought, which is Love. The closer the seeker comes to matching that vibratory frequency, the more that entity will be perceived as offering praise and thanksgiving. This is true far beneath any articulation of words or even what you consider thoughts. Rather, it is in the nature of the way creation is built. That is, the original Thought expresses in love, thanks, blessing, praise and rejoicing. Thusly, it is not a Creator hungry for praise and thanks that requires homage of its worshippers, but rather it is love, it is reflected in love, and in that infinite reflection lies truth.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: I would like to ask a personal query, and I realize that you will be severely handicapped in answering me, which I accept. I had an experience in this contact which I have never had before, and that was that my mouth grew so completely dry, and it’s still like that, that I was completely unable to free my tongue from the roof of my mouth or my lips from each other, and was forced to stop long enough to get water. I also had to adjust the chair to my back because, although I am not normally conscious of being uncomfortable, at this time I was severely conscious of being uncomfortable. There were several adjustments that I seemed to have to make that I don’t usually make. Is this a form of greeting, and in general, what may one do beyond the challenging and the protection that I am already doing to avoid these inconveniences and to be a clearer and more useful channel?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The energies of which you speak are more various than described. Your increasing desire to speak in a clear and positive fashion, along with your predilection for the dry mouth syndrome have been accentuated so that these minor inconveniences would perhaps disturb the centering process and provide some small degree of difficulty. However, as one is able to meet each challenge successfully with an happy heart, shall we say, the ability to serve as an instrument is enhanced. One must expect that there will be some difficulties, for there are those entities of what we find you have called the loyal opposition which would exercise their desire that a portion of the light which is formed in groups such as this one might belong to them. We encourage the steadfastness to principle and the perseverance in the practical sense of achieving that degree of comfort which allows one to serve in the manner desired.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?


I am Q’uo, and as it appears that we have, for the nonce, exhausted those queries, we would take this opportunity to thank each for allowing us to join your circle of seeking for this evening. We again have greatly enjoyed this opportunity and look, as you say, forward to these gatherings, for in such gatherings we have our being within your illusion, and may for this brief moment take part in that great dance of seeking the One within the illusion of many.

The illusion in which you find yourselves at this time is one which presents the greatest of challenges, in our humble estimation, for the nature of your illusion is that of the mantling over of the many jewels of the one Creator in a fashion which seems to suggest that each entity is truly separate one from another, and that the strength of one must pit itself against the might of the many for any portion of peace or pleasure. This is the illusion which presents itself to your senses each day, and it is a brave and courageous act indeed to place oneself in the heart of such illusion and to hold steady to the ideals of unity of light, of the ability of each entity to fashion a pathway to that light and to that unity, both within and without the self. We salute each in each effort that is made, for each effort builds upon each previous effort and redoubles the strength of the seeking. You seek, you seek, you seek, and slowly you find, and that which you find becomes strong and firm within your being as you continue seeking, and seeking, and seeking. That light which you create is not easily seen within your illusion, but, my friends, we may say that it shines about you as brightly as those stars and suns that populate the universe about you.

At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, thanking each again for inviting our presence. We are those of Q’uo. We leave each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning Anna and I listened to Carla channeling Ra where her words were synchronized with written text. As always, it was a very inspiring experienced as the slow pace of the channeling seemed to make more of an impact on our perception of what was being said. We frequently stopped the recording to discuss one concept or another.

This afternoon I used the carpet sweeper to clean the hall carpet upstairs. Then I used the broom and dust pan to sweep up the kitty litter and dust bunnies in Benny’s room. The I used the dust mop to dust each of the three rooms and the hall. Then I  made an errand run to Kohl’s to see if I could find more casual jeans in my new size, and I found two pair that I will go back tomorrow to purchase because the line of people waiting to check out was from one end of the store to the other. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to pick up some fruit for myself. My third stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up some non-food items.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 10

Like Minerals In Soft Rains

I am the spirit of the consciousness of the love of Christ, and I greet you in the love that is power and might and glory, creating without end all that there is and rejoicing in the creation.

I come in the vibration which comforts this child of God, and I come to each who calls me in each seeker’s own need, with each seeker’s vibrations and necessities of consciousness in mind. For we would not distress any by teachings which are confusing but would rather speak in the native tongue of each heart, our feet planted in the native soil of each seeker’s fertile ground.

For each seeker is a garden wherein is planted the word: love. And love may create for each seeker a wonderful garden of fruit and harvest that blooms and yields forever. Yet without love, the ground wherein the seeds of love lie is barren and lifeless.

We who comfort are like minerals in soft rains, adding to the soil what is needed of the consciousness of love. Seek, then, in your own native tongue, to know the will of Christ in your life and we shall fall upon you like rain, and the seeds of love within you shall rejoice.

Peace be with you, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 4, 1990:

The question this evening has to do with how the various light groups around the world, in different countries, different cultures and different religions, who are all working towards the realization of some sort of love, light or unity within their group, can blend their efforts and help to bring forth this light and unity for the entire planet.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings to each of you, my friends, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in whose service we humbly are. We thank each of you for calling for our information and for accepting our love and blessing, for we do indeed feel loved and blessed in return a thousandfold, and learn a great deal from the bravery and charity which each of you manifests within the world of illusion in a purified manner. We think of you as gallant heroines and heroes, and though we know that often you are tired, yet shall you always begin again, for you are hungry in a way that cannot be fed by the bread of humanity or wisdom, but only by the mystery of the infinite One, and in this dance, in this journey, we are one with you.

Your question this evening is difficult to answer in a simple manner, for first we must undo what, in our opinion, is somewhat false consideration before we may go on to that answer which we would offer. The falsity within the illusion is complete. That one group or another may contact, move together, combine energies, and so forth, is subjectively and to the entities involved a most joyful and helpful experience, and many are the times that your groups have communicated with each other in the name of the infinite One, creating a palpable and metaphysical web of love, light and service which spans your sphere and which causes the spiritual gravity of your peoples to approach the point of harvest.

It is a great comfort for one who is on the road to have companions, and we do not deny you that comfort, nor suggest in any way that it is not helpful to you. Indeed, we encourage all such gatherings and communications betwixt those pilgrims who are upon the same path, for as you love each other so you empower each other, and engage each other’s passion in love and service to others. But this, my friends, is a bare beginning, the preparation for that service which you came to give. No matter how beautiful the vibrations of many entities together worshipping the infinite One, yet still the emphasis is towards the center, towards the self-growth and the mountaintop experience of sharing in wholeheartedness the infinite love of the one Creator with each other.

This does indeed have its place, and may be considered spiritual food for you, just as this group feeds as it will upon the humble grass of our thoughts, opinions and ideas. However, each of you that is already one who has chosen the path of service to others has now a deeper, honorable commitment, and that is to turn outside, to face away from the center of love and joy, that your light may pierce the darkness about you, that that which comes through you may shine from you, not into the eyes of another who is already radiant, but into the eyes of those who know not light.

Thus, the preparatory step of working with lightening the consciousness of the planet begins with a long-term journey of understanding of the self, of seeing the self as not elite and always equal to each and every other complex of consciousness which may pass before you. When this lesson is learned, the desire to meet only with those who meet your subjective standards of spiritual ability can be released more easily, for one is able to see that within each pilgrim lies the consciousness of love that, when purified, is a channel for love and light not only from the infinite Creator, but from all those co-creators who serve at the harvest, such as yourselves.

When we speak of social memory complexes, we are not speaking of a group consciousness which focuses upon each other, but a group of consciousnesses whose goals and balances are so well known to the self and to the other selves that each has finally become independent and able to stride forth into the abyss of unknowing, ready to risk that which may be risked, to be of service and to respond to the calls for aid that are all about you at this time.

We realize that it is difficult when one has spent many, many years pondering thoughtfully upon metaphysical data to conceive of the sleeping, the indifferent and the ignorant among your peoples as being your true equals. This is, however, a most important point, for we would have you see yourselves as servants, not masters, as the most low, not the most high. We ask you to bend the knee and wash the feet, metaphorically speaking, using your biblical reference, of those who shall never understand you, those who may not ever hear the clarion call to service, those who shall remain blissfully inattentive to the trumpet call, to the destiny, of harvest.

The group question for this session was how can various groups around the world from different religions, cultures, and countries who are working to share love, light, and unity with each other blend their efforts to bring love, light, and unity to the entire planet. Q’uo began their response by suggesting that the blending of the efforts of entities within in any group that are focused on sharing love, light, and unity with each other is, indeed, helpful in that way and does aid in moving towards the harvest. But Q’uo said that in order to aid the population of the planet that lives in darkness (which I believe would be the equivalent of not yet being conscious of one’s spiritual path) the conscious spiritual seeker must be able to see that those who are in darkness are equal to the conscious seeker in also having the love of the Creator within them. Q’uo continued by saying that the conscious seeker must be able to be servant of those entities who remain in darkness. On September 8, 1980, Oxal spoke of how one may be of service to those who are in darkness:

There is a crying need for those with the light and experience of the light of the infinite Creator to share and shine this light with your people who are bathed in darkness.

We are aware that many of your people seek sincerely yet inefficiently as they make their own journeys into consciousness. Their inability to fully recognize the light that shines in their being stems in some part from a lack of what might be called examples of your fellow creatures, for by example much is communicated. Unfortunately, there are too few examples of the light of the infinite Creator as you travel about in your daily activities. Shine that light forth with every opportunity that presents itself to you, as you meet and deal with your fellow creatures daily. Be noticed as one who radiates the love and the peace of the Father to those who are harried and worried and unable to find the center of the Father’s love within their own being. By your example you shall remind these that they also are capable of being such sources of light.


I am Q’uo. We apologize for the pause, but we found that this instrument’s vocal mechanism was becoming quite dry and unable to enunciate our thoughts, and so we paused while this entity recovered a level of consciousness able to perform the duty of replenishing the supply of water.

Now we may look at the one known as Christ, a teacher and prophet in his own time and place. He had those who were his students, but he did not encourage them to love and serve him, but to love and serve those who sought him. So we encourage each of you to consider yourselves sources through which the light of the Creator may flow. Yes, indeed, you are holding hands and forming the first harbingers of fourth-density social memory complex. You have the making together of so many entities in love, communication and service. But remember always that when strength has been given to the group by the group, it is then time to turn away from that great center of love and light, and to be that channel through which light flows into a world darkened by the heavy illusion of despair, loneliness, sickness and distress.

Have you never been lonely, sick, mournful or distressed? You see, you too, each of you, have all of humanity within you, and you can be of the greatest help to those about you by remaining humble, attentive and listening rather than determining to teach, to effect change and to transfigure others’ mental and emotional patterns of thinking and manifestation.

Let us gaze at the community of the faithful upon your sphere. You know intellectually that time is an illusion. This means that all of you are together now, linked, whole and entire. All your prayers, your meditations and your thoughts, mingle in glorious harmony and ring in euphony to the honor and the glory of the one Creator. As there is no time, there is no space. So all of you are linked far more closely than you may ever realize. As each of you approaches more and more purity of service, so you approach more and more closely the unity of those who serve.

Thus, the first service is always that of consciousness. Sometimes it takes a considerable amount of work to begin to remember the original self, the self that is beneath all of the masks, the protections and the armor which each sensitive soul has placed about it in order that it may endure this harsh third-density illusion. For those who wish to teach, fear is most inappropriate. The desire to belong, to be special, or to be aloof is most unfortunate, and will result always in a gradual lessening of the polarity that you have come so far to accomplish. We ask that you see yourself as a minister of some kind, not as the world calls minister, but as we call one who ministers to another, a caretaker, one who loves, one who gives. Upon one’s knees, metaphorically speaking, one bows the head and says, “I am ready to serve. My free will is open to the impression of divine guidance. May this day bring to me that which I should do, and may I do that which there is for me to do with single-mindedness of love and light.”

Once a seeking entity who wishes to enable those of the Earth sphere to become more conscious of the light has realized that they are indeed all one, that they are indeed interwoven and cannot be otherwise, then one need never feel alone or solitary again, for in one’s seeking, in one’s doubting, in one’s searching and in one’s suffering, the spiritual journey is played out again, and again, and again with those who are as you, heirs of the everlasting.

Now Q’uo used Jesus the Christ as an example for how seekers could take what they have learned in the group and shine it out into the world of darkness around them just as Jesus asked his disciples to do instead of worshipping him. Then Q’uo said that we know that time and space are illusions that allow us to do work in consciousness together as we seek together to bring all people to the love and glory of the one Creator. Q’uo suggested that we all minister to those about us by giving over our will to divine guidance that each day may bring us the service we are to offer in love and light. On September 21, 1981, Latwii recommended that we use meditation to seek divine guidance to become an instrument of service:

We would suggest meditating at the same time each day so that you might develop a pattern of relaxation and communication within your own being, so that you might find that point of centering from which you might be of service. We would also suggest that a simple prayer might be used to ask that divine guidance be with you as you serve and that you might be made an instrument of that service of the infinite Creator.

Now, as you turn outwards to the world before you, gaze upon its city streets, its country fields, its great expanses of water, and the beautiful harmonies and colors of the second-density illusion, gaze upon the grief, the sadness, and the woe that is contained in the heart of each. Gaze further and see the merriment, the joy, the childlike quality that lies sometimes buried very deeply within each entity, and know that you are one among many. You simply have remembered that which you came to do. The greatest aid that one pilgrim may be to another is to share the insights of the practical spiritual journey, to share the pebbles in the shoes of spiritual experience caught in the mundane world.

You are not in this mundane world to seek a way out of it. You have chosen to be in this mundane world not to help each other, but to reach out to those who call to you, that is, to the Creator, the I AM within you, that you may serve, humbly, and without wisdom, but only compassion. We ask that none of you attempt to be wise, for wisdom within the density which you now enjoy is a snare, a trap set for the unwary by those who wish to put out the great light of compassion and love. In compassion there is often not understanding; there is always the accepting.

Paradoxically, the more one wishes to aid, the more one seeks and is desirous of being of service, the less spontaneous, flowing and effective will that service be. See yourself as in a flow of service already. See that the infinite One has prepared for you that work which you have to do from day to day. To the metaphysical mind and heart there is no difference between the task of being a parent, the task of working with one’s hands, the task of using one’s communication, or the task of working in consciousness, for all work is blessed. And for those who do nothing, who resist efforts to be awakened to that illusion of life and that mystery that lies beyond it, we say this is acceptable. This is not something about which you, as an harvester, need be concerned. There shall be other springs, there shall be seeds that find good ground in other seasons. There shall be an infinite number of blooming summers and the reaping of a harvest in autumn.

Release yourself from the limitations of the physical and mental energy complexes, and feel the attunement which you have with entities you do not know all over this sphere. Feel at this moment the intensity of love that is radiating through so, so many of you at this time, and know that the connections are already made. They are made below the level of consciousness within that nascent group mind which shall be the nucleus of fourth-density social memory complex.

We know that you desire to help, to serve, to love and to give. Love and serve that which is nearest to you. Cherish that which is given unto you, and release with gladness that which moves from you, for you shall pass in and out of many lives, and in your interactions those things will occur which you know not of, nor shall you know until you enter a larger life in which the veil is lifted and you are able to see clearly that which you have been able to do in service during the incarnational period that you now enjoy.

To turn inwards and link up with each other is to be comfortable, to be joyful, to experience the mountaintop, the glory, the positive infinite energy of divine love. This, my friends, is a luxury, a heavy, intoxicating and sometimes addictive drink. it is not well to overdo that nourishment, but rather it is well, as if that nourishment were food from a table, to rise from that table and go forth into the mean and beggarly streets of the grimy, garbage strewn surface of your Earth sphere, sending your clear love and your best light to those who lie in the gutter, to those who hunger but have no money for food, to those who know not what they wish.

You are there for them. You are there in service as a sacrifice. You are within this density in concentrated and purified sorrow and compassion, and when you realize that you can fix nothing, that you can recreate no perfection, but only stand as lights piercing the darkness, the peace of the one infinite Creator begins to steal over you as the dawn steals over the horizon, blinking out the hopeful stars of night, and taking on the rosy radiance of the manifestation of daylight. Sing your songs, my friends. Rejoice in heart and go forth to serve. You are linked in an inward way. May you enlarge, by example and by service the company of those who have joined in the web of life.

Now Q’uo said that we should be aware that everyone on Earth has the love of the Creator within them, but many do not realize that. So we are here to share our experience on the spiritual path as a constant spontaneous flow of serving the love of the Creator in each other self in love rather than the wisdom of a teacher, for wisdom is not of this density and can be used to divide people from each other. Q’uo said we should not worry about those who resist our service as there will be another time of awakening for them. They suggested, rather, that we feel the awakening of love in so many around the world and that we should attempt to move from our spiritual groups to those around us in the material world who are suffering and send our love and light to them. Q’uo completed their response by saying that even though we cannot fix the conditions which bring about suffering we can join with other lights in the web of life and go forth to serve as lights piercing the darkness. On July 5, 1981, Hatonn said that we can serve the love of the Creator in everything that we do:

My sister, we would answer you by saying that to seek the love of the infinite Creator in each moment of your life is the greatest service and the greatest learning that can be accomplished upon your plane, for it is the lesson of this dimension to discover the love of the Creator within all that is experienced within the self, within the life, within the family, within the community, within each activity, each experience and there is, shall we say, an infinite amount of time to discover this love.  

At this time we shall leave this instrument and transfer to the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument for allowing us to use it, as it was experiencing much difficulty physically. However, its channel remained determinedly open, and we thank this instrument for its faithfulness. At this time we would transfer contact. I am known to you as Q’uo.

This morning I got the extra chairs put into their proper places for the public channeling session that we will have this afternoon. I also got the phone and printer disconnected so that no phone calls will interrupt our meditation. And I will post this Camelot Journal entry this morning as our channeling meditation will very likely run longer than my usual posting time.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 9

The Rags And Bones Of The Mind

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

The deep recesses of your conscious mind contain the rags and bones, the scraps and oddities, that have become useless to you and garbage within the heart. The spirit of the living God urges you to clean house. For that which flows through you is blocked and weakened by these old rags of sadness, jealously, anger, desires for revenge, and, most of all, the dividing of self against self.

Self-criticism is an enormous stumbling block to one who wishes to experience and live a life upheld by love and bounded about by eternity.

Clean house, my children. Release all that has been considered waste. You do not need these sorrows as knives turned against the self. You merely wish them so that you do not blow away as the weight of past experience is lifted.

My children, you shall not blow away but, rather, shall be hollowed out at last, sorrow having done its work. A deeper, gentler, braver heart lies ready for the wind which whispers the spirit and the message of love.

We leave you in this peace and this love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from January 21, 1990:

The question this evening has to do with the means by which those who are in mated relationships might use the mated relationship to further, not only the relationship, but also the metaphysical or spiritual growth that each wishes to accomplish within the incarnation.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings to each of you. [Inaudible] of the one infinite Creator. [Inaudible] bask in the beauty of each unique [inaudible] unique spirit within this dwelling place. The beauty and the [inaudible] within this heavy [illusion] is very moving to us.

We would like to remind each that we are but those brothers and sisters on the path that you are following. Our [inaudible] are perhaps a bit dustier, our experience is perhaps richer and fuller, but we are not infallible, we are not authorities, we speak our opinions and some of our opinions may not be those truths which may personally pertain to you in the conditioning that your [inaudible] at this time. Therefore we ask you to beware of relying upon our authority, or any authority. But rather, when you hear truth that is your personal truth, you will feel as though you are remembering it rather than learning it for the first time. And you will resonate as an instrument does, a harp when touched by the wind, and you shall be inspirited and in your inspiration lies the removal of the fate of this planet. So listen in faith, but accept only those things that seem so to you as being helpful and allow the rest to pass away from your memory as not being part of your personal truth at this time. For there are many, many levels of learning upon this path of seeking and each entity moves at a different pace and in a different creation. In a creation as unique as that person is. Which brings us to the subject which was requested this evening.

Each entity of the mated relationship is a unique being. There will always be an “I” and a “thou.” One may gaze at this as a centrifugal force, a dynamic which swings each within the union away from the center of that union into those specialized environments which are made for the path of service that each has chosen. No two entities have the same path of service. No two entities can do everything together and if they were to do everything together they would be far more poorer than their relationship because of their slavishness to behavior. A mated relationship is not strengthened at the level of behavior, but, rather, is nourished by deeper and more dynamic forces from within.

Thus, the first thing that will aid the mated relationship is the constant respect of the free will of the other self. That other self may do things which are not understandable to the self. It is not necessary that each understand the other. For yours are not the lessons of reason, yours are the lessons of love. And so you attempt, in freeing each other, to move outwards from the center of the relationship, to encourage that self to be that self, to nourish and enrich that self, knowing that the self is accepted unconditionally as it is, with no desire for any change or variation. In this way, the mirror one holds up to the other becomes clear and still and accurate.

Because each is unique, there is sometimes a frightening realization that honest disagreements of a fairly deep nature exist. In the atmosphere of honest disagreement, there needs to be a realization of that which is beyond the surface, intellectual and emotional thinking. That awareness is a centripetal force that brings the couple back to the center to become “one.” This becoming one does not diminish either self, but is rather a different entity which you may call “us.” Each us is an unique blend of perspectives, biases and viewpoints, just as each are unique in self. This us-self is the beginning of what has been called a social memory complex. Total acceptance of another, without the need to understand, creates an atmosphere in which understanding becomes possible. Intellectually, one can only be hagridden by attempts to understand and rationalize the behavior of another.

To attempt to live as a couple, moving from the mind and not from the heart, is to imprison both in the very narrow room of logic [pause] and sacred or cherished belief systems. We urge each in a mated relationship to remember that the most precious thing they possess is invisible and is an entity that is created by both selves, working together in service to the one Creator.

Thus, there is the self, the other self, and the Creator. That is the “us,” for which you may strive with all good health and faith.

The group question for this session was how those in a mated relationship may use the relationship to enhance the relationship and also use it for spiritual growth. Q’uo began their reply by saying that it is necessary for each in a mated relationship to realize that each is a unique being and that each has their own path of service and their own way of living their life, so each should respect the other’s free will choices. Q’uo went on to say that there would be times of disagreement that need to be honored with acceptance of the different points of view that will eventually be resolved if both come from a place of love that will allow the creation of the shared sense of “us” to be strengthened as it also includes the Creator. On September 21, 2003, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the mated relationship that also includes the Creator:

Mated relationships are a triad. They are not two partners against the world. Rather they are a temple that has been enlarged so that two entities’ lives may be dedicated to that which is larger than themselves, larger than their worldly hopes, constituting that ark which contains those things that one couple wishes to save from the flood of the everyday. Into this ark of mating each may pour their ideals, their hopes, their dreams, their desires, their intentions, and every precious truth and spark of beauty that they have found and loved and made their own. Two entities offering these gifts to each other and to the Creator create a temple with a dome of light that, as that mated couple works through time and through circumstances which try every nerve and every part of the self, becomes stronger and stronger. Every time there is a situation met together, and energies are allowed to move between the two and the Creator is included in all discussions, no matter what the outcome of such a situation is, no matter how difficult the catalyst or how long the journey towards a solution seems, the dome of light is being strengthened because the journey is being made heart to heart, hand to hand. And always with the realization that the Creator and the Creator’s love is a huge part of the relationship.

The degree of purity and honesty between two entities is the key to clarity within mated relationships. To allow misunderstanding is to set the plumb line and lay the first brick in a wall that can never be broken down completely. When the occasion occurs wherein the mated pair feels that there is an antagonistic relationship, both entities need to step back and gaze at that stumbling block. Are two mated entities adversaries if they pull the same cart, carry the same hopes, and strain with every fiber of their being toward the passion of mystery? Certainly not! So when there is antagonism, objectify, acknowledge and accept this momentary antagonism. Discuss it, dissolve it, forgive it, and move on. Do not allow the first brick to be laid in a wall of separation.

This is an enormous challenge. We put you to it, for you have asked us how you may best use the mated relationship. It is hard work. We may mention also that the “us” of each in the relationship is enhanced greatly by that great enhancer of the unique individual. That is, meditation on a daily basis.

Meditation together is possible. Quiet times, reading times, inspiration times. It could be only five minutes long, it could be only ten minutes. If it be just a few seconds with the meeting of the eyes, in the understanding that each is on the other side, that each is in there pitching for the other and is never over against the other, then have you won through to a level of trust that will enable each to mirror to the other that which the self is actually manifesting in an objective sense. For subjectively it is entirely probable that the self shall be the own—we correct this instrument—shall be its own best stumbling block, fooling itself with rationalizations about the self.

In a mated relationship, each is the teacher to the other. In the complete and utter equality of children of the one infinite Creator, each is equally equipped to serve as a mirror to the other self. Each is perfectly equipped by that within, that we may call the Creator-self, for each of you is a mixture of the Creator and free will. When two entities come together, they come together willfully, their wills are variant, and the road is bumpy indeed, nor does it ever smooth out entirely, for there is no end to the lessons one may learn, no end to the refinement of those lessons.

Thus, do not fool yourselves if you feel you are smarter, more intuitive, an older soul, or in anyway elite or other than completely equal as a metaphysical being to the mate. This mutual respect and recognition offers to each the potential for great works in faith.

Then Q’uo said that if a time should occur in which the entities in the mated relationship feel the antagonism of disagreement that it is necessary for each to engage in a discussion of the problem, find forgiveness, and then move on. Q’uo also suggested that regular times of meditation together, or reading inspirational works could be helpful in establishing a trust that each is committed to the relationship and each is thusly the teacher of the other. On May 14, 1989, Q’uo spoke about how each of the mates can be a teacher of the other:

One does not know how long these seasons last or when the oasis shall appear, and in each mated relationship it is only after much work together that entities move in their moods together. Most often entities move according to their own rhythms and have not unified with the other entity enough to experience the same emotional life. Therefore, one of the mated pair may be stolid while the other is excitable. One may be calm, while the other speaks quickly and enthusiastically.

Communication is most difficult. To practice it, simply practice telling the truth to yourself, the whole truth as you see it. When one says it out loud, one hears it about oneself for the first time, and one may, perhaps, learn that one has not got the right of it yet. So, in communication with others you open yourself up to the mirror of your mate, your friend or whomever you are speaking to. And this mirror, if the mirror be objective and kind, is the most incredibly helpful mirror that you may have.

Before we close we would wish to address the subject of the paths of service that each has. Each has certain environments, peculiar to that person alone and not shared by the other. These environments begin quite subjectively within the mind and the heart of the individual. Two entities may stay in the same room gazing at the same scenery through an entire incarnation and learn completely different lessons. But more than that, each entity shall move out into the world, hoping to aid it, to serve it, to be one with that which makes things better, more unified, more peaceful, more beautiful, more of a gift to the infinite Creator. The path of service that is most often overlooked is the path of service called parenthood. There is no more difficult path of service. It is an extremely sacrificial, daily and devotional path of service.

Those who realize that they are dealing with imperishable spirits, that they are nourishing metaphysical entities in small physical bodies, may aid those entities as they grow by paying attention to those questions that are asked and answering them in all seriousness when the question is a serious one. It is a path of service that shall either separate a mated couple or bring it forcefully together, joyfully together, so that each offers the other consolation as they gaze in constant bewilderment at the chaos which is inherent in the process of rapid growth, the rapid growth of each child. You may best be of service to that entity by being a steady influence. For instance, if there is no formal worship within the family group, no sense of wonder or mystery explored, no time set aside for the beauty and the love and the peace of the infinite One, then the guidance that each intends to give to the young ones who have been given into your care is greatly diminished. Allow and expect your little ones to participate in some ritualistic recognition of the great mystery of the one infinite Creator. Talk about faith and abiding, talk of peace and consolation and forgiveness. Talk of those principles and ideas which are worn so shabbily and made so ragged by consensus reality, which is indeed an extremely skewed and distorted perception of that which truly is.

Do not abandon your little ones in your path of service. If they are entrusted to you, it is up to you to allow them to know the joy and the healing peace of worship of the infinite. Nothing is known, nothing can be known, we offer to you no doctrine, no dogma, but simply posit a theory which we have found so far to be correct in practice and that is that each is a child of the one infinite Creator. Each is a being of love. Each has choices to make about how to use that love. For each is a powerful person, able to give and to receive.

Share with your little ones the awe and the wonder of summer nights, the smell of burning wood, and the sweet smiles on otherwise sour faces when your Christmas tides are opening up. Share in a little piece of each day and spend some ritualistic time in respective silence or in vocal praise, in whatever way the mated pair feels comfortable with the little ones, that as they grow they may know that they have been created, that they have been loved not only by the parents but by the universe itself. Then they are at home in the universe, for the universe loves them. This is the most precious gift that this particular path of service offers. The creation of the biases within the incarnational experience of the small ones, that they are accepted, forgiven and loved unconditionally by that great mystery which is love itself, the great moving force of creation, and indeed the Creator Itself.

We suggest to each that a very strong lesson in the armament of fighting through to togetherness and comfort together is the sense of humor. It is not well to take things too seriously. For situations constantly change and that which yesterday was a mountain, today is the mole hill. Attempt to remain within the present moment.

Then Q’uo said that mates may have different paths within the incarnation and learn different lessons while together, but the greatest and most difficult service that any mated pair could offer was that of  raising children. They said that besides answering the many questions of children with love and appreciation that it would be a blessing to each child to be able to participate in some form of worship of the mystery of the Creator that has made them and the entire creation. Q’uo suggested seeing each child as a child of the infinite One and of Love, and to share with them the basic concepts of abiding in faith, consolation, peace, and forgiveness that are so important on their spiritual journey and which are not observed in consensus reality. Q’uo also suggested maintaining a sense of humor with the children and staying focused in the present moment with them. On October 22, 1989, Q’uo gave advice on how be of service to children in the worship of the infinite Creator with them:

And we may say that it is our opinion that the most helpful thing spiritually in the service of raising children, for the children, is either to bring them to any organized religious group for interaction with people of their own age and teachers, or, and this is undoubtedly preferable to many, to create a worship service within the home that is done daily and without comment. Emphasis is not put upon such spiritual discipline; it is picked up by young children as that stress or emphasis which protests too much. Happy are the parents who are settled in peace together and who may sit in meditation or whatever form of spiritual practice is desired, each and every day for a short time. This moves into the child’s subconscious as that which is, and in our opinion this is the truth of that which is—that is, that the Creator is within everything.

Let us make an analogy. Each of you is a aware of how animated cartoons are made. Each slide is drawn slightly differently, that a movement may seem to take place when those slides are run past the eye in rapid sequence. In reality, all of the incarnational experience is those slides of the present moment resting upon one another in one pile of presence. There is only the present moment. You are heaping up the present moment. The path is a dream within a dream. The future? The same. Your link with eternity? Truth, reality and love is the realization that now is a resonant and sanctified moment. We ask you to become intense in your appreciation of this present moment, of the beauty within you and all about you.

We are being told by this instrument that we must be short, so we shall at this time end this most pleasant conversation with you, hoping that we have said some few things that may be of help to each. For truly, two learn better together than one by themselves. For does one have a mirror to gaze into? No. The only true mirror you shall ever have is the mirror of your friends and especially that of your mate, who knows all your secrets and has seen all your imperfections, and who has forgiven them, accepted them, and now simply reflects that which is given. This is the heart of accelerating spiritual grown by using the mated relationship. Follow your paths of service as they diverge. Fling yourselves into your environments with joy. They will be different and you shall learn different lessons and so shall you teach each other. But above all treasure the “us” which is created in the mated bond and which includes, as a third partner, the Creator Itself, the great original Thought, which is love, love impersonal and impassable.

May you share laughter and tears, And may you remember that such relationships and such learning are the work not of a week, nor a year or a decade, but of a lifetime. You may feel you are making no progress. But look back ten years and see the value of shared experience. Above all, refuse to become adversaries. Always attempt to put the self in the place of the other self. And to give that other self every consideration, as their freedom, every ounce of love within your being. Release and surrender your mate to the love of the one infinite Creator. And allow your mate to release you. For each of you is strong, independent and able. Your differences are the dynamics which make your “us”-ness strong. So do not fear disagreement. Simply recognize that there will be honest disagreement and that this is acceptable. May you live in faith, faith that that which is happening is that which is supposed to be happening. Faith that there is love in the moment, if one looks hard enough for it. Faith in the difficulties, that the difficulties is a challenge which shall bear fruit. And faith that recognizes and rejoices in those times which are easy and warm and loving. Remember always to give thanks and praise for such moments. For if you may give sufficient praise and include the Creator in these special moments, then you need not so much suffer disagreements. For you are doing your work of becoming more and more a strong union. While in good humor, the more you may do in a conscious work. While in a good humor, the less need you will have for the challenge and the learning inherent in trauma. Yet trauma there shall be, for as you meditate, as you learn together each shall change, not once but many times. And there is a continuous need for acceptance, forgiveness and for encouragement, one to the other.

We leave you in each other’s hands. May you cherish each other as if each were the Creator, for in truth that is what you are. You are just a very young creator with much to learn, as are we.

Q’uo reviewed their answer to how the mated relationship could be used for spiritual growth by saying that each in a mated relationship is a mirror to the other to reveal the secrets and imperfections that can be worked upon to move further along the spiritual path. They said again that this process made the “us” nature of the mated relationship stronger as it also reveals that the Creator exists as the third party in the mated relationship. Then Q’uo said that the mated relationship was the work of a lifetime of experiencing joys and sorrows, and when there were the disagreements that each in the relationship should have the faith that that which is occurring was meant to happen to allow each to move forward in change many times during the life shared together. On April 15, 1990, Q’uo gave the overview of the value of the mated relationship as a means of progressing spiritually:

The mated relationship, regardless of what its nature be within the legal framework of your culture, is the most powerful possible arrangement within which acceleration of the spiritual path may be done. It is also the most difficult, because intimacy is very difficult among those in a culture which teaches each entity to wear the mask and to behave in such and such a way, that the truth be only half told, or not mentioned, for to do so would cause time-consuming, heart-rending work in consciousness by both.

Thus, each who is a teacher to the other in a mated relationship must, to be the most effective partner, gaze within the self within all circumstances and within all transactions with the cleansing, purifying and healing openness of heart, never allowing difficulties to remain between the two, realizing always that difficulties will continually be between you, for you are each other’s greatest catalyst for learning. Face that squarely. You shall make each other uncomfortable. That is the nature of change. And when you have a teacher, the weight of learning increases, and the discomfort increases likewise. Therefore, see the pain that you give each other with sorrow and with apology, but with the knowledge that it is a necessary portion of the learning of two who together seek most beautifully.

I am Q’uo, and we thank this instrument for its effort at this time with the one known as Jim McCarty. We would at this time leave this instrument in love and light and transfer to the one known as Jim.

This morning I vacuumed the first floor of the house, and then I made an errand run to The Home Depot to buy a larger pot for one of my Mother-in-Law Tongue houseplants. Then I went by the vet’s to pick up some meds for Bosco. When I got back home I repotted the Mother-in-Law Tongue into the new pot and added some peat moss to the soil.

This afternoon Stephanie was dropped off at my house after flying in from Chicago to attend tomorrow’s public channeling meditation. We took a couple of hours to catch up on what has been happening in our lives since it has been quite a while since we have seen each other. It was good to spend some time with her and discover how she is looking at her life through a spiritual lens to see how she now feels a change is coming where she will be more able to share her talents with others in a more meaningful way.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 8

Thy Will Be Done

I am of the principle of the consciousness of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the beauty of complete and divine love which is the nature of that consciousness.

Many of you seek to become more and more as you may understand the mind of Jesus the Christ to be. To be pondered in this regard is the helplessness of Jesus nailed to His tree of death and resurrection.

 Sometimes the soul who serves the positive and the good finds oneself incapable of producing any fruit to the spirit or any aid to consciousness except the affirmation, “Thy will be done—and that cheerfully.”

In those times when you feel helpless, release that helpless feeling, for your help is near. Sometimes to be helpless is to be of great service. And it is then time, always, to ask for the company and the comfort of the consciousness of the love of Jesus the Christ.

We leave you in love and peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from January 7, 1990:

The question this evening has to do, to start with, how does one maintain the attitude, and the manifestation of the attitude, of joy, and of praise and of thanksgiving, sincerely and heartfelt, when one is undergoing assaults of pain and limitation, nausea, discomfort, general run of the mill bad news? Then we will follow with other questions, concerning, perhaps, was Christ the only Son of God, what does it mean to be a Son of God?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and am with this group, thanking each in the circle for calling for the kind of information that we are able to offer an opinion upon, for it is a great service to us to teach, as the teach/learner learns always more than the student.

You ask this evening firstly about the prickly business of mood balancing during difficult conditions. We are aware that it is this instrument’s question, as this instrument is going into two hospitalizations and wishes with all its heart to create within those experiences a poem of praise and thanksgiving for the Creator, and not the nattering of complaint and whining.

Firstly, we would remind all that they are in the third density. The amount of will which it takes to balance pain and the counting of blessings is enormous, and if it is not balanced, but merely suppressed, it does much more harm than good. It is well to ventilate any negative emotion while it is small, that it does not escalate into a crisis in the spiritual walk of a pilgrim. Breathe in; breathe out. This is the first blessing. You are alive. You are in this illusion, and you are learning. You earned this position, this incarnation. Carefully did you select that which shall come to you. Carefully did you estimate your limits and move catalyst to the very limits, for you wish once and for all to learn the lesson of unconditional self-forgiveness that opens the door to compassionate love. Therefore, the first thing that we should suggest is dwelling whenever possible upon the all-compassionate love and the immediate presence of the one infinite Creator.

We realize it is difficult for the mind to work well when the physical vehicle demands a great deal of energy in pain control. But the words to give praise and thanksgiving are simple. Merely thank the Creator for your creation, for the safety in which you have lived to this day, experiencing and learning, for opportunities of the moment and the moments to come. You have been created, and you are sustained, and all that is given you is given you by your Higher Self, in sure knowledge that with that which this instrument would call grace, that which we would call the principle of unconditional love, can be made to be the natural and essential being of each, no matter what the condition.

You, as humankind, must face the fact that you are mortal and given to weakness of the flesh. There are few who have not the aches, the pains and the irritabilities. The basic secret of protecting the self from the self’s own self-judgment is the practice of self-forgiveness, for Christ, Christ consciousness, the Higher Self, whatever you wish to call this principle of unconditional love, stands waiting for you to ask for help. May your heart be as soft as the earth in the springtime, that it may be amenable to plowing, and that seeds of love are planted in the ashes of pain, and fertilized with meditation and caring to do better in a persistent way.

When you wish to count your blessings, and you are not in a position to think clearly, you are still in a position to count the blessings of personalities close to you. You may give thanks that the Creator loves you personally, that you are as important to the mystery as the mystery is to your mystery-clad being; not your variousness, not your free will, but that of you which is in the Creator, and that of the Creator which is in you. Kindness to the self is helpful.

We find also that for some the using of breath is very helpful, for when one uses one’s breath one is using one’s vital energy. Thus, the reading to the self of material designed to increase one’s awareness of thanksgiving is recommended. Even repetitious reading of inspiring words is helpful, for sometimes those of humankind are resistant to feeling better about themselves, to accepting their limitations, and to continuing to offer the praise and the thanksgiving that is rightfully the one infinite Creator’s, Who offered each of you and each of us a magnificent opportunity, the opportunity to grow, to be, to perceive and to act. Always have you control of some degree over the behavior which you must express.

This instrument is telling us that we should be short, as there is more than one question. We believe that an instrument, such as this one who is in pain, may, through the help of medication which is causing mere sleep, slide into thanksgiving for all those souls that care about the entity, for the Creator’s love of the entity, for the gift of faith to bear that which cannot be born, and to endure the unendurable.

We credit each pilgrim with persistence. Persistence, more than any one trait, though it lacks somewhat in a sense of humor, is the key to spiritual growth. You cannot pick up items on the spiritual shelf and gaze at them, and try them, and put them back, unless you have learned from them, and applied those learnings in the life. Therefore, we suggest the very simple giving of thanks, thanks for creation, for preservation, and for all those people and things that are blessings to you. In any circumstance there are many blessings, not the least of which is the fact that many environments which an entity knows not that it touches, moves into prayer as it cares and shares that caring with the metaphysical instrument of unconditional love, and the request that the will of the One Creator be perceived, and the entity given the strength to act upon what is perceived.

You must see yourselves as heroes. You are mythical characters. You are not mundane. That is the illusion. The pain that you feel is within the illusion. Far worse is it to feel the spiritual pain of rejection, low self-worth, frustration and anger. These things cannot be avoided, for you are of humankind, but in the controlled situation of recovery from serious illness, it is good to attempt to pray without ceasing, giving thanks for all that you can think of—for those who love you, for the Creator which nurtures you, for the skill of those healers which work with you. Repetition is a good and useful tool for the learning of a habit, and that is what a positive attitude is—it is a habit. You may complain, or you may count your blessings. It is difficult to do both in the same breath.

To increase the energy which is available for praise and thanksgiving—that is to increase the vital energy—the use of the breath is recommended, either through chanting, singing, praying out loud, or reading from inspirational works to the self. Again, repetition is no bad thing. If something is important to you as you read, savor it, and bless it with your recognition of its personal truth for you.

The group question was from Carla and was how can a person maintain the attitude of joy, praise, and thanksgiving when they are in pain, limitations, nausea and just generally feeling bad. Q’uo began their answer by reminding us that we all are in the third density where pain and suffering are a part of the way that we learn our lessons, and that we should be grateful for simply being alive and learn to use the catalyst that comes our way according to our pre-incarnative choices.  Then they said that it would be well to seek the presence of the one Creator and thank It for the opportunity to experience our lives and learn our lessons. Q’uo also suggested that it would be helpful if we remembered that we are subject to the weakness of the flesh and that self-forgiveness and asking for the help of our Higher Self could allow us to experience unconditional love for ourselves and from the Creator. Then Q’uo said that our persistence in dealing lovingly with ourselves as we go through difficulties was the key to spiritual growth and that giving praise and thanksgiving would increase our vital energy and enable us to deal more effectively with any disease or difficulty. On October 21, 1990, Q’uo underlined the value of persistence in dealing with difficulties:

One of the great traits of the seeker is its persistence, for gathered persistence is absolutely necessary, for the failures self-perceived, not perceived by anyone but you, seem so many, and if you do not forgive yourself, how can you expect to forgive others, and how can you bless others if you do not forgive, if you do not feel healing love pouring from you?

We are told we must stop at this point, that we may answer other questions that you may have. And so we open this meeting to questions.

Jim: What does it mean to be a Son of God, and how do we manifest that? Is it possible to in our lives? Was Jesus the only Son of God?

I am Q’uo. The phenomenon known to you as Jesus is a principle of the Logos, or Love, that has moved through the densities as any other entity, but was created slightly differently than those of you who swim beneath the sea of illusion. This entity also wished to live a life that was a poem to the Creator, and again, and again, on planet after planet, this entity comes into incarnation with the special character of partial remembrance. In other words, this entity contains more of the Logos, or Love, than free will, whereas each of you contain the bonding of Love and free will, against which you must challenge yourself to find a unity of being.

This entity was a good teacher of the message of the Law of One. Again and again the message is misunderstood. Again and again the Creator sends forth that special part of Itself which retains the consciousness of unconditional love rather than having it disappear beneath the veil. This entity has helped many, many civilizations.

Each of you is equally son or daughter, heir or heiress, Christ, of God, but each of you are deeply enmeshed in a negatively oriented mundane world. You do not have the ability which this special entity had to perceive and do the Creator’s will in joy, no matter what the circumstances, no matter what the cost. However, each of you is brother or sister to the Christ principle. The Christ principle resides within each of you. You are Christ. But you are separated from the knowledge of that portion of yourself, that you may feel iniquitous, guilty, angry, frustrated and disharmonious, and thereby offer to yourselves the catalyst which is needed for growth and polarization in the choices that you make to serve others or to serve the self.

Shall you one day be a Christ? There is only one Christ that is part of the Creator or the Logos that has been given the dispensation not to forget in third density. This does not mean that you are lesser. It means you struggle against more difficult circumstances, for you struggle in a life full of faith instead of knowledge. To the one known as Jesus there was little mystery in the Creator, in itself, and in humankind. To the rest of creation there remain grave questions to be answered, a truth for which to be sought, although the truth shall not be forthcoming within this density. There is the instinctive hunger to move closer and closer to that principle of consciousness which is freely given, unconditionally given, love. You labor against an immense handicap. Do not be discouraged. In the words of this particular entity, when mistakes are made, they are not counted. It is merely an opportunity to realign the life pattern so that the lesson may once again come before the entity.

There is no judgment save the judgment of the self by the self. Consequently, we suggest that each spend time forgiving the self and praying for those who are not seemingly helpful to you, for so would the Christ consciousness do. So is the I AM of love. Each of you has an I AM deeply buried in the resources and contents of the deep mind. It is overlaid with stratum after stratum of bias, experience and reaction. As always, we recommend the faithful daily meditation, or some form of prayer, that one may spend time aware that one is on holy ground. There is no ground that is not holy. But when one is moving very quickly through the mundane routine of the day, one is prone to forget one’s relationship with the Infinite One. Call yourselves prodigal sons or daughters, for you have squandered your inheritance. As a planet, damage has been done that rests upon the head of each. May each be aware of each and pray that the situation be ameliorated, and if possible, may each entity volunteer to make things better for those who have nothing.

Yes, my friends, there is only one Christ, but it is a consciousness, a principle, that can incarnate, and incarnate again, and incarnate again. When it incarnates, its only difference is that it does not forget that which all those upon your sphere do forget: the glory, the wonder, the beauty, the peace, the laughter, the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. It is not impossible for you to move along the path that the Christ consciousness has shown you, for you too are the sons and daughters of the Infinite One. And as you meditate and slowly become more and more conversant with the deep self which is worthy, limitless and eternal, you may find yourself humbly pleased that you are able to be a servant of the principle of Love.

Now, instead of just channeling the answer to the group question, Carla is channeling Q’uo’s answers to individual questions which she was advised by Ra not to do because on August 16, 1981, while she was channeling Latwii at a public Sunday night meditation she was asked a question that she did not know the answer to and thought to herself: “I don’t know the answer to this question. I wish I was channeling Ra.” Because her will was so strong she began to leave her body, and our friend of negative fifth density attempted to gain control of her body and take her to negative time/space where she would have to become a negative entity for a great period of time before she could reverse her polarity and become positively oriented again. So in 69.18, Ra suggested that she not open herself to questions and answers:

Questioner: This instrument performs services on Sunday night channeling other members of the Confederation. We are reluctant to continue this because of the possibility of her slipping into trance and being offered the services of the negatively polarized adept. Are there any safeguards to create a situation where she cannot go into trance other than at a protected working such as this one?

Ra: I am Ra. There are three. Firstly, the instrument must needs improve the disciplined subconscious taboo against requesting Ra. This would involve daily conscious and serious thought. The second safeguard is the refraining from the opening of the instrument to questions and answers for the present. The third is quite gross in its appearance but suffices to keep the instrument in its physical complex. The hand may be held.

Now I will continue on with the question that I asked Q’uo in this session which was: “What does it mean to be a Son of God, and how do we manifest that? Is it possible to do this in our lives? Was Jesus the only Son of God?” Q’uo began their response by saying that Jesus was an entity which had a greater portion of the Logos, or Love, within it than it’s own free will, and was sent forth by the Creator to one planet after another to aid people in discovering unconditional love. Q’uo continued by saying that each person is a son or daughter of the Creator, but the veil of forgetting keeps us from remembering that this is our nature whereas Jesus kept this memory within each incarnation and was able to do the Creator’s will. Q’uo also said that each of us has the Christ principle within us, but we will have to struggle greatly within the third-density illusion before we are ever able to realize this principle within our lives. So we need to learn how to forgive ourselves for our failures. Then Q’uo recommended that we use meditation or prayer to realize that we, too, have this Christ principle within us, and that we are sons and daughters of the Infinite One who can also become servants of Love. On January 21, 1996, Q’uo spoke of how we can become Sons of God:

The phrase, “Son of God” or the phrase, “The Christed One” are means of expressing the kind of consciousness available to those who have been able to open the green-ray energy center in sufficient degree to feel and experience this creative force of Love that has made all that there is. This quality of consciousness or attitude of beingness is the goal or opportunity which is offered each third-density entity as a means of passing from this illusion to the fourth density where the study of this creative power of Love is that which is the focus of all energy expenditures. Thus the one known as Jesus was able to offer itself as a model or pattern by which entities could move their own consciousness to a larger view in which the acceptance of self and others as one being was far more easily facilitated.

May we ask if there is another query at this time?

Jim: Who are you as Q’uo as you speak to us?

I am Q’uo. I am two social memory complexes, the one you know of as Ra, and the one you know of as Latwii. We have combined because this instrument constantly asks for the highest and best contact it may stably carry. The energies of the one known as Ra, which is a social memory complex of sixth density, is an energy band narrow enough that it requires the locking in, and therefore the unconscious state, of the mind of the channel. The entities of Ra were appalled to see the toll it took upon this instrument to bring forth that which it did channel. It was not expected that there would be so much interest from what this instrument calls the loyal opposition.

When our energies are stepped down to those of Latwii, an energy this instrument feels most comfortable with, we are able to offer concepts that are to some degree more precise, and may we say, perhaps more interesting to the advanced student of metaphysics, than that which is called Latwii would be by the self, for Latwii is of the fifth density, the density of wisdom, and as you can feel, our vibrations are the vibrations not only of unconditional wisdom, but compassion as well.

Thus, we are composite, and as this instrument has often suspected, our name is a pun, a quibble; not a joke, but merely an identification which was clear. We are the I AM, and you too are the I AM, and all that is in creation is the I AM. We chose a language this instrument knew, and used the word meaning “who,” or “which.” It was designed to make the instrument ponder this very point, and we are delighted (in the) results so far, for we of Latwii have been able, with the help of our teachers, those of Ra, to offer information in a way which is clearer and more compassionate, perhaps, than we of Latwii, in and of our own social memory complex, could accomplish. We find that our senses of humor are not at all the same, and so we have attempted to give up our sense of humor, that the higher sense of humor or wisdom informed by compassion may do its subtle work in these meditations.

Now I asked Q’uo who they were, and Q’uo responded by saying that that they were composed of those of Latwii of the fifth density of wisdom and their teachers, those of Ra, of the sixth density since Carla always asked for the highest and best contact that she could stably carry. Then Q’uo said that when Ra’s energies were stepped down to those of Latwii that they could give more specific information than those of Latwii were capable of on their own. Q’uo said that they chose the name “Q’uo” because in Latin–which Carla was familiar with–Q’uo meant “who” or “which”. So they said that the combination of Latwii and Ra was like informing the wisdom of Latwii with the compassion of Ra. Now this is the first session that Ra is named as a portion of Q’uo, and I know that the sixth density does balance compassion/love with wisdom. But I am wondering when it will be revealed that those of Hatton, who were of the fourth density of love, will be named as the third portion of the principle of Q’uo.

May we answer you further, my brother?

Jim: Not at this time. Thank you.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

K: Can you talk about what it means to accept your limitations?

I am Q’uo. The acceptance of limitations is both simple and excruciatingly difficult. To accept a limitation is to fight not against it, and it is humankind’s nature to fight, to see any limitation, or lack of freedom, as a fault, and to move body, and soul, and mind, and spirit, in will and faith that the condition experienced—which may be difficult at the present moment—by the activities of good attitude, proper care of the body, and proper discipline of the mind and personality, may become more and more able to be themselves.

When one is doing that which one does out of a sense of duty, one is not accepting one’s limitations, for the limitations of which we would speak are not only those physical limitations which may occur, but also mental, emotional and spiritual limitations, which are just as valid, though unseen. To accept the self as it is is to accept the limitation.

Now, this instrument, for instance, is a good example of those who are unable to accept limitation. This is a human characteristic, and is designed in direct opposition to the spiritual principle of surrender of the self. However, this determination and will was given to each seeking entity to use in complete free will. And so if the limitations are not respected and are pushed against, this is no mistake, nor is it an error. It simply increases the distractions and discomforts of the limitations against which one is fighting. If one were to accept all of one’s limitations, one would never change.

What we truly mean by accepting limitations is accepting whatever condition one finds oneself in. Certainly it is well to help the self, insofar as the self may be helped…

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I am Q’uo. I shall continue. The acceptance of limitations is a very personal, metaphysical question. If one accepts limitations that are unacceptable to the personality, one is not accepting limitations, but rather becoming dutiful, and duty is a negative emotion. So we suggest to each that one do what one can to improve one’s condition, with joy, and to meet that which one cannot meet with joy with a sense of peace and acceptance.

Each entity was born without this or that gift, and with other gifts. Each entity is unique. Each entity has unique limitations. Therefore, we suggest to the one who wishes to accept one’s limitations that in any circumstance one offer praise and thanksgiving for one’s being, one’s preservation, and one’s son- or daughtership in relation to the one infinite Creator.

Now K asked what it means to accept one’s limitations. Q’uo began their answer by saying that to accept one’s limitations of mind, body, spirit, and soul is to use one’s will and faith in a manner which expresses the characteristics of “good attitude, proper care of the body, and proper discipline of the mind and personality, may become more and more able to be themselves”. Q’uo said that to accept the self as it is is to accept one’s limitations. Q’uo also said that not accepting every limitation was also a way of growing as the limitation revealed where progress could be made, but if change could not be made that one treat the situation with peace and acceptance as everyone is unique in how they deal with limitations. On October 22, 1989, Q’uo shared the value of both accepting and not accepting limitations:

There is no shame in recognizing and admitting limitations. These are the boundaries which at one time served one well, and provided a fuller arena of experience, shall we say, but which at the present moment have the opposite effect in reducing that which may be offered as service. The discovery of these limitations increases the knowledge of the self so that there is possible an expanded view of the self that included the limitation and the beginning work upon the balance of the fundamental nature of the limitation.

May we answer you further, my sister?

K: Not at this time, thank you.

I am Q’uo. Pardon us for taking the time, as you would say, to luxuriate in what seems to us a warm and frothy waterfall of each entity’s love of the Creator and of each other. We are aware that within this group there is not the strength of the group which Ra was able to use. This identity, Q’uo, is able to use the level of this group in a stable and safe manner. We rest here with you, in quietness and peace and comfort and immunity, for you are light to us, beautiful, dramatic, and at the very heart of the adventure of consciousness. Now is the time for choice—to serve the Creator by serving others, or to serve the self and so serve the Creator within.

We ask each to be persistent with the daily routine of morning offering. We realize that anywhere two or three, as it is said in your holy works, are gathered together, unconditional love is within the group as a member, an actual principle or being of consciousness. Thus, the group meditation, the group focus upon the truth and love and peace, creates a very strengthening resource for each as it moves from the group into other environments which are not controlled, which are not safe, which are puzzling and risky. May you pray for such risks, and such chances to utilize that which you have learned, to move closer and closer to the polarity of the unconditional love that is the core of your imperishable being.

We would leave you at this time in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are most pleased that you asked who we were. We would have called ourselves “Ego,” except that it would have been misunderstood by each of you, for though it means I AM, the same difficulty would have caused conflict that has caused conflict ever since the entity with consciousness of Jesus said “I AM the Way, I AM the Truth, I AM the Life.” We speak to those within a Christian culture, and we find that this is one of the most misunderstood passages ever offered by the teacher known as Jesus. His I AM was the principle of unconditional love, the nature of the Creator. The great I AM is love, unmanifest and manifest.

You are the dancers now which dance the dance of your destiny in third density. May you choose well to learn from each mistake, to forgive the self for all, to move forward in newness of spirit and renewal of commitment each and every day. You are lifted up into the light of the Infinite One. Feel that blessing as we call it to your group. It is intense, is it not? We ask you to find your own center of being, your own essence, your own passion, commitment and center, for then you shall be able to express more and more of the I AM principle within.

We leave this group in love and light. I am known to you as Q’uo. We wish each to take that which we have said not as infallible, but as our opinion, as we leave each in thanks and blessing of being allowed to share those opinions with you. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning I had an appointment with my eye doctor, and after the appointment I went to Target to see if I could find another couple pair of pants, but I had no luck. Then I went to Feeder’s Supply to buy some bird seed. My next stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some non-food items.

This afternoon I took the garbage cans which had been emptied of their leaves this morning into the back yard and was able to put the rest of the leaves in them for yard waste pickup next week. Then I used the extension ladder and a long pole to put the solar powered lantern, that had blown down, back in its proper location at the top of the pyramid of solar powered lanterns. I also spread a couple bags of mulch in the Hydrangea garden as I had blown some mulch out on the far end while I was blowing leaves out of the garden this fall.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 7

You Are The Rainfall

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

The sun awakes and peeps over the horizon. Does the sun have eyes that gaze upon the earth? We think not, for were it to gaze and judge, the sun would shine on one but not upon another.

The rain moves over the land and feeds alike the stinking sewer and the fertile farmland. There is no judgment within the creation of the Father but only the balancing of harmonies. You, too, are the sun.

You, too, may shine upon all or you may choose to save your light for some and not for others.

You, too, are the generous, gentle rainfall that makes all things new. Yet you, too, may choose through judgment to restrict that blessed plenty of water, that precious food of life.

This day we ask one thing of each. Know that you shine, that you can be most fertile in fruit as a child of the Father.

But know also that judgment removes you from the Father’s side so that you are the prodigal son or daughter. Then the sun does not shine nor the rain fall in your own private world. For as you judge others, so shall your experience be.

Refrain this day from judgment. Ask only for the opportunity to love, to shine, and to bless with your plenty.

In peace, in love, and in joy we leave you, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from December 31, 1989:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light. At this time we would ask if there may be queries to which we may speak that have arisen as we have spoken upon the magical personality this evening, or upon any other topic that has interest. Is there a query at this time?

Questioner: Yes, Q’uo. I understand that in the selves of a higher density nature we come together with others, or those that from a third-density point of view seem like others, to form social memory complexes. By the time of sixth density this seems to be a way of life. One’s higher self would then seem to be of a social memory complex and therefore would, from the standpoint of third-density experience, be something shared. Is it part of the reason for coming together in groups and joining our seeking together that we share higher selves?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. This is a most interesting query, for it deals with the nature of the creation itself as it is discovered by conscious, seeking entities, for you are as the explorer that moves into a wilderness area and begins to fashion a means of survival in that wilderness out of what it finds there and as the means of survival are accomplished and shelter is created and food is attained, the explorer begins to discover not that which is foreign to itself but that which is not only familiar but is identical to the self.

As you move through this octave of creation and move into the third density which you now inhabit and refine the definition of individualized consciousness, you then use that defined and individualized consciousness as a means or a trail by which to discover more of that which is unknown, more of that which becomes known, becomes familiar, and is recognized as the self. The country through which you travel, the brothers and sisters with whom you travel, reveal themselves to you and give of themselves in a fashion which forms a unified conscious seeking so that what is available to one is available to all and is utilized in furthering the journey of discovery. So, as you come together, utilizing the pooled resources, you add information, experience, response and discovery, and all of these things and concepts become further definitions, or refinements, or broadening of the small self that has become a group self that is, indeed, transforming to a greater self that continues this spiraling process, so that that which you seek, that which is your goal, eventually is seen to be a portion of the self in an expanded quality.

Thus, at some point in your experience, you will no longer seek the light but shall become the light; you shall no longer seek the love but shall become love; you shall no longer seek the one Creator but shall become the one Creator. Thus, the pattern of your seeking reproduces the nature of the creation, which is unity.

Questioner was aware that in the higher densities social memory complexes exist as a natural way of being, and he wanted to know if part of the reason that this meditation group came together was to share our higher selves from the sixth density. Q’uo began their answer by saying that the process of the evolution of consciousness begins in a kind of wilderness where one eventually becomes aware of its individualized consciousness. After some period one joins with others of like mind and forms a group where that which is known is shared with all in the group, and the small self becomes part of a group self which continues to expand into becoming the light that all seek and then becoming the Creator as well. In 11.17, Ra defined a social memory complex:

 Questioner: At what stage does a planet achieve social memory?

Ra: I am Ra. A mind/body/spirit social complex becomes a social memory complex when its entire group of entities are of one orientation or seeking. The group memory lost to the individuals in the roots of the tree of mind then becomes known to the social complex, thus creating a social memory complex. The advantages of this complex are the relative lack of distortion in understanding the social beingness and the relative lack of distortion in pursuing the direction of seeking, for all understanding/distortions are available to the entities of the society.

And in 16.22-.23, Ra said in the seventh density that their awareness would be the Creator’s awareness:

Questioner: Thank you very much. In previous material, before we communicated with you, it was stated by the Confederation that there is actually no past or future… all is present. Would this be a good analogy?

Ra: I am Ra. There is past, present, and future in third density. In an overview such as an entity may have, removed from the space/time continuum, it may be seen that in the cycle of completion there exists only the present. We, ourselves, seek to learn this understanding. At the seventh level or dimension, we shall, if our humble efforts are sufficient, become one with all, thus having no memory, no identity, no past or future, but existing in the all.

Questioner: Does this mean that you would have awareness of all that is?

Ra: I am Ra. This is partially correct. It is our understanding that it would not be our awareness, but simply awareness of the Creator. In the Creator is all that there is. Therefore, this knowledge would be available.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: Yes, from the point of view of the seeking, the distance [inaudible], as we gaze toward the unity which we [inaudible], it seems to us something not yet. And yet the further we get in the exploration and in the unfoldment toward that unity, the more it seems that what is discovered is discovered as something already. We already have a higher self, already in sixth density there seems an already preparedness of all of the stages in life’s way. Have we had to go stage by stage downward to the furthest point removed from the one infinite Creator, then to begin the journey back? I’m not sure I understand the why of that.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. It depends upon one’s point of view as to whether one has gone in a downward fashion in order to move upward, or has moved from an upward fashion to that which seems to be down. To be more precise, when the one Creator harvests the experience of all Its portions through an octave of creation It then utilizes that harvest, which is the refinement of each of Its portions of experience of unity, and enters again into the great cycle of creation and spins forth another universe, beginning in the chaotic movement of first density that is in your measurement without time, without order. And from this seeming chaos, then moves into that which has the spiraling cycles of increased conscious awareness, that the harvest of the previous creation might become the foundation for that which shall further refine the experience and knowledge of the Creator.

Each of you, as individualized portions of the one Creator, partake in this process by particularizing what is simultaneous, taking a small portion of what you would call the river of time from the ocean of eternity, and viewing that river of time as if under the microscope, looking at what seems to come before that which follows, creating the past, the present, and the future, in order that that which is, and that is unity in many portions,  might be experienced in a more intense, varied and purified fashion. That small sliver, then, of experience that is chosen for each incarnation has working upon it your free will choice, so that that which is eternal becomes magnified and particularized enough that it may be examined carefully within an incarnation, be worked upon by free will, be refined in this process and be purified as an expression of Beingness, of the identity of the one Creator within yourself.

Thus, you enter into this entire process in order that you might pick a portion of that which is yourself and, by working upon it intensively, cause it to become as vivid as possible that it might become an adornment, an honestation for the one Creator. Thus, you refine as one who takes the raw ore from the mountainside and removes from it by this process of particularization that which is gold so that the product of this process, then, is bright, brilliant and shining and is purified in its nature in a manner which would not have been possible were not you to have chosen to expend your consciousness and your effort upon it.

Questioner said that we already have a higher self in sixth density, but in our process of evolution it seems that we have to go back to the beginning and go through all the densities to become one with the Creator. He wanted to know why. Q’uo began their answer by describing how this octave of densities eventually coalesces into the Creator and after a period of timelessness creates a new universe. Then in the third density entities become small portions of the entirety of the Creator and move within the illusion of past, present, and future so that the experience might be more intense and of greater variety and purity as an honestation for the Creator. On May 13, 1990, Q’uo spoke of how our evolution can be an honestation for the Creator:

It is true that there are cycles or stages in the journey of union that are likened unto transformations of the entity from quality to quality as that which is heavier and more grossly constructed within the personality is refined and burned away, shall we say, by the fires of experience, so that that which remains is burnished and bright and serves as an honestation for the Creator.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: Yes, just one more. As we move into a greater realization of our goal as selves, we find that self is in God and yet we need now to learn to develop the magical personality, which for us means to develop that self which is in the sixth density, not yet God. Is there a reason that we do not invoke directly our Godness? Is it a matter of taking one step at a time?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. If we understand correctly that which you have asked, we would say that this Godness, the quality of the Creator, residing whole and full within, is not immediately available in its complete sense to each entity in any portion of the evolutionary journey in order that that journey might have, what we might call, a greater span of experience possible. For, if any portion of the one Creator shall come into the full realization of its nature as the one Creator, then the journey is complete. The opportunity for further refinement through the application of free will to catalyst then has no further purpose, the goal having been achieved.

Thus, the octave of creation through which each portion of the one Creator moves provides each portion and the one Creator within each portion an opportunity that is more varied because of the lack of full knowledge of the nature of the self. Thus, one may say that ignorance provides opportunity. The veils that are placed within the consciousness of each entity provide the mystery which draws the seeker onward. If all veils were removed and the nature of the self were seen, it would be as if there were no more debts, no more gains, shall we say.

Questioner asked if, in developing our magical personality that is in the sixth density, why we don’t just invoke our Godness. Q’uo responded by saying that it is necessary for the realization of the Godness or Creator to be a journey of partial realization throughout the octave of densities, for if it occurred all at once the journey would be complete, but that this is a process that takes much time to complete. On November 28, 2009, Q’uo explained what it means to become the Creator:

If an entity is of the Creator, at what point would an entity not live as the Creator? These two paradoxes are only the beginning, but perhaps they are enough to indicate that when one is speaking of how to pursue the goal of the becoming the Creator, one is dwelling in a land of paradox and mystery in which the known patterns of logic shall not necessarily be of significant aid. On the other hand, if one foregoes the resources of logic and intellect and rests entirely upon naked faith, one becomes rapidly incapable of communicating with the self in a conscious manner and therefore robs the self of all the hard-won advantages of being an incarnated human being.

Therefore, we suggest neither that one rely completely upon the intellect and the use of the logical mind nor that one rely only upon the energies and essences of faith and direct apprehension or gnosis. Rather, we suggest that you become aware of the situation in which you have placed yourself as a stranger in a strange land, and as a native of that land within the body of bone and muscle, that chemical distillery that carries you so well through your physical incarnation.

You seem very limited to yourself. You must breathe to live. You must eat and drink the food and the liquid of your nourishment. You must care for a chemical distillery which eliminates that which is used in a way which seems less than spiritual. In a million small ways, physicality pulls at you to remind you of one limitation or another within which you dwell in order to become yourself.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you. Indeed, we thank you very much as well, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I would like to know if I was, in fact, experiencing psychic greeting before this meditation, and, if so, why. And I will certainly appreciate the problem if you cannot answer because of the Law of Confusion.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The nexus of this experience is likened to the crossing of paths or of opportunities that have been noted by those entities who have been your companions for some time upon this journey, of that which you call the negative polarity. The cycle of the adept is such that within your own experience there was noted a particular sensitivity, as has been noted on previous occasions by these entities and one in particular. Added to this cyclical sensitivity were the chemical medications that further enhanced your receptivity, or susceptibility, to impressions, shall we say. The state or nature of the mind complex when under the influence of these various medications provided an opportunity which then took advantage of the dysfunction of the otic portions of your physical vehicle that were damaged from youth, so that it was possible to render a certain degree of what you would call dizziness that would have the potential of rendering you unconscious for a brief portion of time. This effort was offered more as an attempt to enter fear into your experience than to enter true difficulty or danger.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, Q’uo. I appreciate it. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Could you comment on how aware cats in our household are of these contacts, if they are able to participate in any way?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The entities that you refer to as the cats are quite sensitive to not only our presence and others of the Confederation of Planets in the Service to the One Creator, but are also sensitive to the negatively oriented that would offer their service in their own way. The feline entities have, throughout the history of your peoples, been seen by those of a metaphysical sensitivity as being able to perceive much which is unseen to your physical eye. The cat has been utilized as the guardian of many temples in the past of the Egyptian race of your peoples. For this reason and because of the sensitivity of the cat entities, the negatively oriented entities find some difficulty in offering the full impact of their services when the feline entities are present, for there is a natural kind of guarding or protection that is offered by the cat entities. They are not always aware of each entity as an individualized portion or person as they are aware of you in that nature, but are often aware of a feeling tone or attitude or ambiance that has changed or has a certain quality.

Thus, it is sometimes as if these creatures sense a presence as you would hear a certain sound that would alert you to activity. The cat entity, however, is also able to ascertain the nature of the presence, whether it is beneficial or deleterious, and will respond differently to each of these qualities.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Are they, then, beginning to develop their own biases toward the positive or the negative path at this point?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. In some cases this is so, especially those cases in which a cat entity is invested in the position as a pet, as we find in this domicile there are six such entities. In other cases, it is possible for the cat entity to become aware of the presence of unseen entities and simply be aware that a presence is there, much as they are aware you are in their presence when you are indeed in their presence. Their beginning bias toward one polarity or the other, then, is a function of the quality of investment, shall we say, that has been given to them.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Is there a [inaudible] that in our participation [inaudible] that would aid them in the investment process? And also I am assuming that our contributions toward investment is a service that we perform?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The participation of the cat entities in these meditations enhances this investment quality in that they share their experience with you and with us. The nature of investment is that the quality of beingness of a greater energy source, shall we say, is manifested in a direct fashion that is the proximity of one presence to another with the motivation being to share freely of the self or to radiate a certain vibration or information that then will find a resonance with the essence or basic quality of the entities with whom the vibration or information is shared. Thus, though the cat entities are not able to perceive in a mental or spiritual nature in the same manner as are you that which is shared in these meditations, they are aware of and receptive to the basic frequency of vibration that is radiated in a resonate fashion with their own essence.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

Is there any other query at this time?


I am Q’uo, and we wish to take this opportunity to thank each present for asking with an whole heart that of which is the greatest concern, for we cannot be of service without the asking and we treasure each opportunity to respond to your queries with that which we have found helpful in our own journeys of seeking and of asking the same questions that you ask with your hearts, with your minds and with your being. We walk with you upon this journey and rejoice with each step. We thank each for every particle of experience that is brought into these meditations that we may share with you that which is your experience and which is your desire. The bridge that is fashioned by your invitation is that rainbow bridge which connects heart to heart.

At this time we shall take leave of this group, thanking each for the joy and the love that is given to us, and leaving each in that joy and that love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went to Kohl’s and bought a couple pair of casual pants since the pants I ordered via the internet came last night but their inseam was too long even though it was stated to be my size. But the ones from Kohl’s seem to fit well as I have altered the size I use by an inch or so with both my waist and inseam.

This afternoon I used my backpack blower to blow the leaves in the back yard into the pile that remained from last week so I can, hopefully, put all of them in the garbage cans after yard waste picks up the leaves in them tomorrow.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 6

You Must Wait In Faith

I come in the name of Jesus Christ, the consciousness of love in that vibration peculiarly apt for this instrument. I greet you in Jesus’ name.

We perceive that there are many doubts as to the efficiency of prayer even among those who believe most fervently in prayer and follow its ways, for you do not feel that your prayers are always heard. Yet you ascribe to us the deafness of your own ears.

It is said that in everything there are seasons, and, indeed, you who dwell in the desert of Earth will experience many, many seasons of loneliness and desolation. For your ears are stopped against the words offered, which are always there. The hand of Jesus touching yours cannot be felt by your numb fingers. And the truth that is offered is not seen because you are blind.

Then it is that you must wait in faith, in the blankness of the desert sun, for the oasis of grace that will unstop your ears and enliven your fingers, open your mouth to praise and free the eyes of the scales of doubt.

It is truly said that you do not know the day or moment wherein the Son of Man cometh. Jesus stands, awaiting the season of your open heart. You cannot force it but must await it. When it comes, will you be ready to acknowledge, accept and be transformed by it?

We commend you to watch and wait in patience and faith, offering your agony to Christ with the same praise that you offer your joy. Thusly you shall find peace, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day.

Today the Q’uo quote comes from December 31, 1989:

The question this evening has to do with the development of the magical personality. How do we go about developing the magical personality, and what, actually, is it that we develop when we develop the magical personality, and of what value is it to us to do so?

(Carla channeling)

We come to you in gratitude and greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. I am Q’uo. It is a tantalizing prospect to us, a marvelous avenue of service that you offer us, and we offer to you our humble thanks and our abiding love that you who struggle in the darkness still see and have faith in the light within.

The question offered this evening has to do with the magical personality. But before we speak upon that subject we must speak upon a subject that is fundamental to an understanding of the magical personality. That understanding is the simultaneity of all time, all space, and all action. This present moment is eternal. The past, the future, the feeling of being in the river of time, are part of an illusion which gives you who seek an enormously powerful opportunity, consciously to accelerate the rate of your spiritual growth.

It happens to be the last day of an old year and an old decade among your peoples who count by your calendar. Tomorrow it will be next year. Shall it feel like a different time? Shall it seem transformed? For the most part, no, because you are the same. You have always been, you are, and you will always be.

The choices that you make in this density are predisposed by the biases and polarities that you have picked up in lifetimes long ago and more recent. When biases of love and peace and gentleness and humbleness of heart become your rest and your confidence, then perhaps you may release time and space, allowing it to be a useful and extremely potent offerer of catalyst to those who wish to learn lessons of love.

You see, you are at the beginning of self-consciousness. You have almost finished this year in the school of eternity, this illusory time. However, the choices that you make are made in time/space and speak not to the outer world and its mundane concerns but to the heart and the vital feelings of each.

The group question for this session is what is the magical personality? How do we develop it? And of what use is it? Before Q’uo began to answer these questions they wanted to introduce the concept of the eternal present moment because they felt it was central to understanding the nature of the magical personality. They said that the concepts of past, present, and future give one the opportunity to use the illusion of time to powerfully accelerate our spiritual growth. Q’uo went on to say that the choices we make in this life are continuations of choices we have made many lifetimes ago, and if we can learn the lessons of love and peace that we make in time/space these choices speak to the heart of each entity. On October 27, 1985, L/Leema spoke about the lessons of love and the present moment:

Though many live the well-examined life and have learned well the lessons that may be presented in the day-to-day round of activities, there are few who can project the possibilities of what you call the future and how that future might be affected by a choice made in your present moment. It is rather the salient lesson and ambiance, if we may, of your illusion that entities work upon the lessons of love. Those lessons include the seemingly foolish giving of self without expectation of return, the movement within darkness with the faith that the love of the one Creator exists in each portion of that darkness without knowing any fact for sure and yet giving wholly of the self regardless of the not being able to know. Yet do entities learn the lessons of love.

In this way we may say to you more simply that the magical personality is an artifact of the one who has been able to focus the heart and the mind upon the infinite One. It is, in a way, possible to think of the higher self as being separate from you. But just as you were yesterday and will be tomorrow in a new year and a new decade, so the I AM that is the core of you learns of love, of wisdom, and of loving, wise compassion. When these lessons have been learned to the extent that they are without significant distortion, you turn and, reaching through time, you offer yourself a gift. You offer the biases and decisions and choices that have been made, not up to this point alone in your illusion of time but all the choices that allowed each of you to graduate into fourth density, perfect the lessons of love and learn the lessons of light, to fifth density, when you manifest light and learn the true meaning of wisdom.

In sixth density, there is eventually, in mid-density, a point in which there is no longer any polarity, for if all is one polarity there is no polarity. It is when the spirit has reached this point, full of unity, wisdom and compassion, that the sixth-density self places within the third-density self, in the deep mind, the biases which are to come, the destiny which has been fulfilled, the beauty, the exactitude of service to others.

Therefore, the magical personality, or the higher self, is the last vestige of the self which contains polarity. And as you deal in a world illusion grounded in polarity, this gift can be extremely helpful. Many, many times one is faced with dilemmas and enigmas that cannot be rationally discerned. There is no logical answer. There is only the wisdom of the heart and the compassion of the mind. For this is what the sixth density of unity provides: the realization that compassion is not only of the heart but of the mind, that wisdom is not only of the mind but of the heart.

How many times do your people turn from their heart, refusing to ask, refusing to open the door to that helper or comforter which waits patiently to be asked to aid in decision-making of various kinds?

Our message is very simple. We ask each to love the Creator with adoration and worship as one would normally feel for one’s father, for you are truly sons and daughters of the infinite One and within yourself infinite in your own being.

The process of accessing the deep mind, and especially the higher self, may be accomplished best, as we have often said, by repetitious, persistent and daily meditation. Not lasting so long but lasting as long as it feels as though you are in a holy place with the one infinite Creator. Thus, meditation is always the key to the opening of the shuttle from the subconscious or deep mind to the conscious mind. The higher self does not operate by giving instructions, for that would be an infringement of free will and would cause paradoxes within the universe that are not desired. However, the call must go forward within meditation that you may be visited, strengthened and renewed by a longer point of view, a vaster field of incarnations and of incarnational decisions. For, as each knows, there is no thing upon your planet which is as it seems. You are energy fields, complexes of energy fields, with the energy holding you together, carrying you through life.

It is well to be very kindly toward this physical vehicle for it is the means by which the computer of the mind may gently enter data from the deeper self, the self unperceived even when praying or asking. Perhaps one day one awakens and knows what the proper or appropriate answer to a question may be. Perhaps it comes all of a sudden within meditation. There are as many ways to use the higher self as there are entities.

Now Q’uo begins to give us an idea of what the magical personality is when they said that it is the higher self with the heart and mind that are focused on the infinite One. Then they said that as we learn the lessons of love of the fourth density, and the wisdom of the fifth density, there is then in sixth density the balance of love and wisdom that no longer partakes of polarity after mid-sixth density. Then the higher self turns back and gives the gift of polarity to the third density entity’s deep mind in the form of love, wisdom, and unity that provides the opportunity for the third density being to realize its destiny to be of service to others.  Then Q’uo said that the way to access the deep mind and the higher self is through meditation where the third-density entity seeks the larger view of its life experience, and the higher self gives information to the deeper mind as to the direction to take in a way that is unique to each entity. In 36.7, Ra revealed how our higher self gives us this larger view of our life experience:

Thus the higher self is like the map in which the destination is known; the roads are very well known, these roads being designed by intelligent infinity working through intelligent energy. However, the higher self aspect can program only for the lessons and certain predisposing limitations if it wishes. The remainder is completely the free choice of each entity. There is the perfect balance between the known and the unknown.

Now, how does one make use of the higher self, this sixth-density portion of you? The first thing that you must do is give up your physical reality. You are an illusion within an illusion; mystery surrounds you. Consequently, as one asks for guidance from a deeper self, the higher self within, one opens a door that can only be opened by the seeker since the higher self is a far more clear, lucid and defined product of your thinking. Yet, still you will find it most helpful to blend the conscious and rational mind with the deep mind, for they give you feelings and biases that are far more a part of whom—we correct this instrument—of who you are, what your essence is, than you may have by any amount of consideration of these matters within this illusion.

Now, as each sits here, we shall attempt to give the process by which the higher self may be contacted. This is one way; there are many others. This is a way which we feel is simple and therefore easier to grasp.

The first step is the acceptance and the forgiveness of the self within this illusion. It must be clear to each one that one cannot live purely in a world polluted by constant negative thoughts and perceptions, cynicism, and the ugly emotions of fear, terror and the triumph of those who delight in terrorizing others. This is not the personality that you wish to use for that special time during which you are working within consciousness to accelerate the rate of your spiritual growth, to heighten your polarity and to move, may we say, forward. You do not need to gaze at the higher self as part of the self unless you wish. However, it is well to know that the higher self and you are timeless and whole and one.

Now, to attain a magical personality there is much which one can do and, indeed, must do to create the appropriate atmosphere for the gentle lover’s touch of the rational mind into the deep mind. This is a slow process for many and infinitely worth it. Once one has been able to contact that part of the self that is sixth-density and which has given the gift back to you within the deep recesses of your mind, you may then have a much wider perspective, a much more clear vantage point from which to view the life experiences which your incarnation brings to you.

We caution each against attempting to live in the higher self mode for any length of time past which one cannot hold the concentration and the clarity which the tuning, the praying and the singing brings about. You cannot plunder your own higher self without doing damage to the quality of information which you receive. Consequently, in putting on the whole armor of light, as this instrument would say, and accepting the self which seems to be in the future, but is indeed yourself, as a good advisor you are moving toward a centered position which will be most advantageous to you in using this deep and lovely resource of the mind. We say lovely because it is considerable effort, a labor of love, for the sixth density to create a thoughtform of all that it has experienced.

It the higher self or magical personality is placed deep within you. It is not placed without you; it is not placed within your teacher or your student or your colleague. The magical personality is an artifact of the self, the mystery-clad being whose entire experience is recognized to be mystery—we correct this instrument—mysterious.

In preparation for the magical personality’s development, the first thing which one needs to accomplish is a full and complete examination of conscience. Not that you as an entity may judge you as an entity—not at all. But rather that you may forgive yourself, for you have forgiven all others, have you not? Yet, still you hold yourself unworthy. This is not a helpful spiritual point of view, for the magical personality is based upon the fact that the spark of the Creator within is the true self of each entity.

Therefore, to begin working with the magical personality one must first go through much searching of the mind, the intellect, the emotional biases that constitute that which you are at this time. This is not for the purpose of judgment but for the purpose of grasping your essence at this time. Perhaps you wish to make changes; perhaps you do not. But to come into contact with yourself as a self is the beginning of the magical personality.

The day-to-day personality wavers. It is happy; it is sad; it is active; it is passive. Life is easy or life is difficult. And all of this is within this illusion. The more attention paid to the difficulties of this illusion, the less likely it is that one will be able to have access to the deeper mind of the magical personality.

So, we suggest to each that the table be cleared, the table of petty prejudice, any unfairness, stinginess, desire to manipulate others, and all of those artifacts whose bias is not helpful in gaining polarity toward service to others in the name of the infinite One. This preparation takes a different amount of time for different entities and at the end of it, it is still impossible to live within the higher self at all times. However, it is possible to clear the self for the special and sacred door to the self to be opened.

Now Q’uo gives the preliminary steps for attaining contact with our higher self and the magical personality which might begin with prayer and singing. They said that the higher self and magical personality are deep within our being, and there will also need to be some cleansing of our conscious selves through the forgiveness of the self for the petty mistakes of our daily lives so that the sacred door to the magical personality is opened. In 75.36-39, Ra suggested the way that we could contact the magical personality:

Questioner: How does the use of the magical ritual of invoking the magical personality aid the mind/body/spirit complex totality? Could you expand on the answer you gave in the last session with respect to that?

I am Ra. When the magical personality is properly and efficaciously invoked, the self has invoked its higher self. Thus a bridge betwixt space/time and time/space is made, and the sixth-density magical personality experiences directly the third-density catalyst for the duration of the working.

It is most central to deliberately take off the magical personality after the working in order that the higher self resume its appropriate configuration as analog to the space/time mind/body/spirit.

Questioner: Then you are saying that the act, the signal, or the key for the invoking of the magical personality—which is the putting something on, or a gesture—should be as carefully… you should as carefully take that something off or reverse the gesture, perhaps at the end of the invocation. Is this correct?

I am Ra. This is correct. It should be fastidiously accomplished either in mind or by gesture as well, if this is of significant aid.

Questioner: Now the invocation of the magical personality is not necessarily effective for the neophyte. Is there a point at which there is a definite quantum change, and that magical personality does then reside? Or can it be done in small degrees, or percentages, of magical personality as the neophyte becomes more adept?

I am Ra. The latter is correct.

Questioner: Then is it correct that a good sequence for developing the invocation of the magical personality are alternate meditations, first on power, then a meditation on love, and then a meditation on wisdom, and to continue cycling that way? Is that an appropriate technique?

I am Ra. This is indeed an appropriate technique. In this particular group there is an additional aid in that each entity manifests one of these qualities in a manner which approaches the archetype. Thusly visualization may be personalized and much love and support within the group generated.

We suggest that each begin a magical personality meditation with that which has been the call of a white, or positive, magician from time immemorial: “I desire to know in order to serve. I desire to use my subconscious mind to enrich, enliven, enable and engage this third-density mind and heart.” It is impossible for most to keep this clarity over an extended period of time, and there is danger in attempting to do so.

Consider yourselves as toddlers, just learning to walk, the spirit so young, so lovely, so strong, and yet so vulnerable. This is how the magical personality sees the outer portion of your behavior and thinking. It is perceived as that of a child who knows not what he does. When one turns one’s will and faith to the quest for the philosopher’s gold of greater wisdom, then you may begin to see gradually a change within you. But, firstly, you must accept that the magical personality is already your own personality, for all time is simultaneous.

One good way to prepare oneself for meditation upon the magical personality is to visualize each chakra in turn, beginning with the red root chakra, and moving upwards carefully clearing energies, carefully seeing your chakra centers glowing: orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, violet. When you have reached sufficient humility to be able to listen to advice from the higher self that is not easily understood to be other than the self, then we suggest that you begin with this clearing of the chakras, so that you feel the light streaming from your head, for you have opened all your chakras; you have become vulnerable; you are ready to take a risk.

Firstly, there is a tremendous amount of protection of the body by the body, and we recommend to each that this be observed. For instance, this instrument blends the violet of the crown chakra and the red of the root chakra to cover the self with an energy that is completely personal and denotes that which one is. Upon completing this encapsulization of yourself in the red/violet of body protection, you will then put on a garment of light. That is the Creator’s protection, impersonal, loving and infinite.

During the meditations it is helpful for those who call upon guides or angelic presences to do so, for that work which you are doing is work in which you are vulnerable, for you are open to learning and you do not always have truly appropriate vibrations for this energy. This must be seen to carefully. The self must be gotten in order, cleared of the small change of life’s miseries, cleared even of the laughter of good times, clear to listen within to what has been called in your holy works “the still small voice.” That is your magical personality. It is well to call any whom you wish to call to aid in your protection. This is not an illusion any more than you are an illusion within.

This instrument, for instance, evokes—we correct this instrument—invokes the archangels—Raphael, Gabriel, Michael, Auriel—and with these four pillars standing in the corners of the room there is an overarching golden dome, for these principles of love called the archangels are most powerful and most protective.

When you have prepared yourself for the meditation upon the magical personality it is well to sink into the self with no pressure, no thought, no worry, and no wonder, but rather simply to open the door and invite the wisdom and compassion of the ultimately learned balanced being, which you shall have become, to the self as it is.

It is well, when one wishes to work in consciousness with another by communication, to make these same preparations, for by far the majority of those who channel are channeling their own magical personality, their own higher self, their uniqueness. And it is well, when it is finished, that mentally one acknowledges that one slips off the garment of light and moves back into the illusion of energy fields and the experiences that challenge you to love.

The magical personality is one which is grounded in the deepest humility and in the strongest sense, paradoxical though it may seem, of the worth of the self. Like a string or a ribbon, this unrolling behind you gives you information at each present moment as you request it. Those who wish to maintain a magical personality outside the discipline of meditation may indeed work with the visualizations, to work with visualizations if those visualizations are simply shapes—the square, the circle, the triangle…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and we shall continue.

It is well for those who wish to maintain the spiritual magical personality for a longer time than a meditation to work with visualizations. The first visualizations are simply shapes: the square, the circle, the triangle. The discipline it requires to hold this image in consciousness is the same kind of discipline that an artist employs as it studies its technique that it may, in the end, be a better instrument through which music or communication or healing or living may use to allow you to be the shining metaphysical being that you truly are.

It is not advisable, in our opinion, to keep the magical personality any longer than one is able to remain completely clear within. This normally limits that which the magical personality may do to very brief moments within the waking hours and to enspiriting dreams during those hours when the subconscious and the conscious move together in play, in ritual, and in meaning. For, woe betide those who act as if they were acting out of the magical personality when they are less than clear. May we say, this is extremely inadvisable and that the student of the magical personality who does not wish to study the Tree of Life, the Kaballah, and all those things which would inform one of the history of this concept, content the self with knowing that the magical personality lies within you fallow and ready to bloom. When you call upon it may you do so in humility. We hope you may call upon it often, but always protect the self before you open your vulnerable spirit to that which, though it is you, appears within the illusion to be another. For those who do not clear themselves excellently may receive any number of guides which would purport to be the magical personality but which instead are means by which positive polarity is gradually lessened.

Now Q’uo completes the steps that one may take to invoke its magical personality by beginning a meditation where one sets one’s intention to contact its magical personality in order to be of service to others. Then they suggested that the energy centers be cleared in order from the red through the violet and that the red/violet protective shell be used to be a garment of light. Q’uo also said that at this time it would be well to call upon any inner guidance such as one’s guides, the four archangels, and the “still, small voice”. Q’uo recommended that one not maintain the magical personality beyond the time or practice for which it was invoked because the focus upon the magical personality must be pure and clear to avoid attracting any less than positive entities who would claim to be one’s magical personality. In 75.32, Ra described the nature of the magical personality:

Questioner: The three aspects of the magical personality are stated to be power, love, and wisdom. Is this correct and are these the only primary aspects of the magical personality?

Ra: I am Ra. The three aspects of the magical personality, power, love, and wisdom, are so called in order that attention be paid to each aspect in developing the basic tool of the adept; that is, its self. It is by no means a personality of three aspects. It is a being of unity, being of sixth density and equivalent to what you call your higher self and, at the same time, is a personality enormously rich in variety of experience and subtlety of emotion.

The three aspects are given that the neophyte not abuse the tools of its trade but rather approach those tools balanced in the center of love and wisdom and thus seeking power in order to serve.

For anyone who would like to study more about the magical personality I would recommend reading The Magician, His Training and Work by W. E. Butler.

We are told by this instrument that once again we have talked too long. We shall cease at this point, though there is perhaps some more upon this subject which would be of interest, for we wish to close the meditation through the instrument known as Jim. We leave you in the love and in the light as we transfer to the one known as Jim. We are Q’uo.

This morning I made an errand run with the first stop being at Speedway’s to put gas in Stanley. Then I stopped at Kroger’s to buy a new wet mop as my old one has worn out, and I bought some food while I was there. Then I stopped at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought more food for myself. I buy most of my food at Paul’s because their food is organically grown.

This afternoon I used my backpack blower to blow the few remaining leaves in the front yard into the leave the leaves area between the fish pond and the pet cemetery.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 5

The Realization Of Right Action

I am of the spirit of the one God in the consciousness of love which is Christhood. I come in the name of Jesus Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of Christ’s love.

Just as it is not known to this instrument what I shall say, so it is not known to us, ourselves, what the consciousness of love in a particular application may be until that moment comes. Though you desire to apprehend aforetimes those things which you seek to know about a coming situation, they are impossible to know well, and the guessing and supposing thereof will only confuse and muddle your prayers.

Await the moment in which discrimination and action are necessary and pray heartily for the spontaneous realization of right action. If you wish to pray beforehand for right action, pray that right action may come to you at the proper moment. For did not Jesus teach you that you did not need changes of clothing or food for your journey but, instead, could rely on the good graces of the Father to give you all that was needed?

Trust, then, that the wind of the spirit shall blow at your back and within your heart at the precise moment at which you need wisdom and thus allow the full and spontaneous power of Christ’s love to enliven and transform your experience.

We leave you in the peace of the love of Christ, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from December 10, 1989:

How to discover one’s gifts, how to determine what it is that might be the most helpful and beneficial thing for a person to do in the life pattern?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. May we say, as always, what a privilege it is to be called to your group, and may we thank the instrument known as Carla for perceiving a difficulty that was not inwardly visible, but only sensed through the intuition. There was a particularly strong negative entity which was able to stop the contact, but this instrument identified the difficulty with the contact and banished it by calling anathema. We appreciate the instrument’s fastidiousness with regard to the challenging of spirits, and especially at this time, since there was no obvious [inaudible], but rather a most clever imitation of our vibration, which is only possible by those of equal ability to use light.

There are very few fifth-density negative entities willing or interested in risking the loss of polarity by working to close down contacts which have promise. This entity has the pathway into this instrument from your times past, but has not been interested in, shall we say, removing the light in the interval since the contact with those of Ra. However, harmony grows within the group, one drop, one understanding, one forgiveness at a time, and, gradually, three independent people become three independent, but harmonious portions of one service, one working, and because this has begun to occur to a small extent in your group, the attention of this entity was caught.

Q’uo began this contact through Carla by saying that they appreciated Carla’s discernment in discovering a negative friend that had attempted to stop the contact. They said that Carla had used her intuition to sense and challenge the entity, and this caused it to take its leave of the group. Q’uo said that this was the fifth-density entity that had attempted to stop the Ra contact by various means, and it had been attracted to this meditation group by the growing harmony of the group. In 68.16, Ra gave the conditions that were necessary for our fifth-density negative friend to be attracted to our group during the Ra contact and to this group that was channeling those of Q’uo:

Questioner: Well how does the fifth-density entity go about this working from the very start of his being alerted to the fact that we exist. How does that occur? Can you please trace the steps that he involves himself in? Please.

Ra: I am Ra. The entity becomes aware of power. This power has the capacity of energizing those which may be available for harvest. This entity is desirous of disabling this power source. It sends its legions. Temptations are offered. They are ignored or rejected. The power source persists and indeed improves its inner connections of harmony and love of service.

The entity determines that it must needs attempt the disabling itself. By means of projection it enters the vicinity of this power source. It assesses the situation. It is bound by the first distortion but may take advantage of any free will distortion. The free will, pre-incarnative distortions of the instrument with regards to the physical vehicle seem the most promising target. Any distortion away from service to others is also appropriate.

You wished for more information upon how to recognize your gifts, those things which you have to offer in love to the Creator and to those about you. We begin with those things which are most basic, the beingness, and the relatively universal experience of sacrificing oneself in an attempt to rear a young soul to its best advantage rather than your own.

Let us look now a bit further. One who practices the presence of the infinite Creator, and can stop the mouth and open the ears, may rest in a special kind of gift, the gift of presence. This is not the gift of being, for an entity with this gift is one who seeks out the broken and the painful with hands open to heal, and hearts open to listen, for there is a great deal of damage done throughout an entity’s lifetime, though only a very small portion of it is damage done to the physical vehicle. Practicing the presence and listening is a universal service. It can never go awry, for as you listen you support and you forgive, and you enable a soul who is troubled to move closer to practicing the presence of its own Creator.

There is a practice which is also most helpful, but difficult to describe in language. It is the state of non-ego, for want of a better term. It is a state of being which has no personality, and therefore no dynamic tension. This utter passivity is not what it seems, for it is the result of giving away all those things which stand between the consciousness of the self and the consciousness of mystery. Well it is that an entity have the gift and the talent of egolessness, but the real entity which has this gift is perhaps the most accurate mirror any spiritual seeker may have.

The group question for this session was how to discover one’s gifts and how to use them on the spiritual path. Q’uo began their response by saying that the first gift to offer to the Creator is one’s beingness and its willingness to engage in sacrifice. Then Q’uo said that beyond the gift of beingness there is the gift of practicing the presence of the Creator and listening to another soul who is troubled to help them to be able to practice the presence of the Creator within them. Q’uo also mentioned achieving a state of egolessness where the entity gives away all those qualities of the self which stand between its consciousness and the consciousness of mystery: On March 24, 1994, Hatonn described how we may practice the presence of the Creator:

If you are practicing the presence of the one infinite Creator, if you are living in faith rather than seeking and scrabbling for proof, if you have hope and trust and love and a smile, these things will speak for you, without your doing anything, and this silent witness may bless without invading, for it is primary that each entity freely choose that which it chooses for the choice made is so very important. What choice would that be but the choice of how to love?

Now, let us speak of gifts in a different sense, the sense that we believe you meant when you asked this query of us, and that is the gifts or talents which one brings through the incarnational process. Each entity has preferences, each entity has skills and areas of negative skill. Each entity has likes and dislikes, biases too deep to explain. It is not of service to others to express the self if the self has not examined deeply that which is its desire, that which is its joy, that which gives it contentment, pleasure, or the feeling of something well done. This is different for each entity, for each entity comes into the experience of reincarnation with an unique bias, personality, and set of talents or gifts.

The one mistake an entity may make that is a serious error is to offer the gifts of the surface, of the self. Instead, one who wishes to offer gifts to others must needs make the journey within, to seek that seat of joy and peace that is the center of that soul’s unique being, for each entity could not be in manifestation were there not a core of perfect wholeness and divine light within.

Thus, one who seeks to offer to others gifts must first move through the process of gazing beneath the surface of things, finding those areas of interest which may translate into help for another, or for giving glory and praise to the one Creator. This instrument, for instance, and the one known as K within this group, have shared a bliss, a joy, and a great service earlier in this diurnal period, as they vibrated and manifested a great hymn to the infinite One, and the principle which you call Christ, that which is forgiven, that which is redeemed.

When you look at your gifts, look not only at those things which you do well, your activities at which you are accomplished, but also look below the surface of things to find the energies within you moving deeply and spontaneously, so that you may spontaneously offer that which is given you only by intuition. Your people are locked in the darkness of manifestation, and so are you, yet within you there is light immeasurable. To be able to find and trust the intuitions which move from the light to the mind is most helpful, for one truly does not ever know when one is serving, one merely attempts such, and leaves the outcome in the hands of the one to whom the gift has been given, for it matters not to the giver if the gift is appreciated or not, but only if the gift is given freely and gladly without the nagging expectation of being paid back.

We speak here of very deep and intuitional gifts, such as the gift of peacemaker, the gift of true humility, the gift of sympathy. These gifts mean a great deal to many, who very much appreciate the sharing of these energies, for not all entities can move to that intuitional place where the hope of peace is true, where the hope of consolation is true.

You will notice that we have spoken mostly of the passive gifts, for they are the most important. In those passive and often nondramatic gifts lie the most free will which entities may give each other. It is respecting and treating each as a colleague, and not as a student to be taught. Thus, no matter what the seeming situation in regard to titles, responsibilities and honors, no matter how many dramatic gifts an entity may have, one may still rate those passive willingness’ to listen, and to forgive, to understand, to make peace, to find union where there was none. The gift of humility is especially rare, but it is a resting place for all those who pass by, as they rest in the bosom of one who is no judge, but only sees all as beloved beings whom one wishes to serve.

Now Q’uo began to speak of the unique gifts that each seeker has brought into the incarnation, and in order to discover these gifts Q’uo suggested that the seeker move into the center of its soul’s unique being to find those gifts that give love and praise to the Creator, and use them spontaneously through one’s intuition and to give them without any expectation of return. Q’uo said that often these kinds of gifts involve that of the peacemaker, the gift of sympathy, and the gift of humility as they are passive and non-dramatic gifts which respect the free will of the recipient. On February 13, 1994, Q’uo spoke of how we can share our gifts:

We then must say where is the heart of service, for you? Where is love, for you? Where are your gifts? Which gifts do you wish to use? When seeking answers to questions concerning service we encourage the exploration of one’s own gifts for each entity moves into the third-density illusion with all of its woes and wonders with a certain package of gifts, a certain combination of virtues and darker virtues, which you call vices, and out of this broken and seeking existence blooms forth all of the beauty and generous harmony of that same entity’s blossom of selfhood.

So we ask the instrument to take the time in the following days to contemplate its gifts and to seek an inner feeling of certitude concerning the service which is desired to be given so that the service may once again be made calm and unruffled by self-doubts. Always, it is not the outer appearance which determines the success of employing one’s gifts but, rather, one must simply move as one feels to move, always being aware that the service is service to love, in love, for love, by means of love alone.

Now, in order to keep this shorter, as this instrument has requested, we move to the active gifts that undoubtedly were held in mind when the question about sharing gifts was asked. Each entity has a list, short or long, of talents within the illusion. It is difficult to serve fully while staying fully within the illusion. However, that which one has as a gift one has for a reason, for each soul has chosen its manifestations, and fully intends to use each of them.

Thus, as the seeker moves along the path, he notices, without false pride and without false humility, those things at which he is good, and those things at which he is not. The situation often arises where the talent that an entity has is needed. It is neither aggressive nor egotistical to offer wholeheartedly one’s talents in the service of the infinite One. And so a great service is simply to offer that which one knows one may do well for the entities about it. The only damage done to this kind of giving of service is a grudging heart.

Thus, each day, it is well for the spirit to ask itself not what its gifts are, but what is blocking it from being a person at peace, a person aware of infinity, a person ready to turn the attention outward to the needs of others. If this is not your attitude with which one awakens, then it is well to look within in consciousness to simplify, clarify and understand the self, and by understanding to have compassion upon the self, so that one does not use one’s talents in any negative way. It is the responsibility of the seeker to be firm with the self about the positive use of talents.

The essence of manifested talents is simple, in fact, it is so simplistic that it is difficult to comprehend. When one is in a situation of wishing to be of service, one is already many steps behind the entity which simply is of service, and has responded spontaneously to whatever catalyst is given it. In other words, we wish each soul to follow that which makes it joyful and peaceful and positive and hopeful, and to live in those affirmative vibrations so that when a call comes, it is heard purely, with an unselfish ear and an unblemished heart.

So many, many of your people believe that they serve others, yet because they do not await the balancing and the asking, they become those who are stumbling blocks to others, insistent upon this or that tenet of truth, philosophy or spirituality. There is no truth within your density, except within the heart of your own consciousness, and similarly, within the heart of each consciousness with whom you come in contact. Oftentimes, gifts are learned and then put away like old clothes in a trunk in the attic, and then, one day, deep intuition speaks to the self of a spontaneous need to share a particular gift. We are not specific here, for there are as many gifts as there are entities.

Now Q’uo said that each person has come into this illusion with various gifts that it may share with others. They said that that as one becomes aware of what its gift are that one offer them in the service of the Infinite One and to ask on a daily basis “what is blocking it from being a person at peace, a person aware of infinity, a person ready to turn the attention outward to the needs of others.” Then Q’uo suggested that it is well to respond to any opportunity to be of service which does make one feel at peace, aware of infinity, and ready to turn the attention to the needs of others. Q’uo said that there is no truth within this density except the heart of our consciousness and the heart of the consciousness of the ones we seek to serve. On May 16, 2002, Q’uo gave an answer as to how we may share our gifts with others:

We would ask each, then, “What do you desire if you close your eyes and envision the peak of peace and contentment? What do you start to imagine?” In times of change, in times of awakening and transformation, often it is that the most meaningful ways of sharing gifts are not seen, because they are too common and too ordinary. However, the ministry of essence, as this instrument has called it, the priesthood of being who you are and allowing your truth to shine, is a most precious gift to give, and it is truly the deepest and the most central gift that each life does give to the world. For each came into the world to be the light of the world; each has the capacity to be the hands, the arms, the loving hearts, the loving mouths of the Creator that speak, that reach to hug, that curve to smile and stop to recognize and honor the divinity of each other self. This principle that is you is unique, and yet you carry crystal within you through which the light may shine.

This energy does not need to come from you. All you need to be concerned with is allowing yourself to be ever more truly and deeply yourself and in that comfort of self to bless and welcome and open to the infinite energy of the one Creator as It flows through from the limitless white light of the great original Logos. Once that energy has been begun, the energy itself, as it circulates, rotates and spins, begins to bring naturally to the self those opportunities for outer service that one has planned aforetimes for the time when spirit within was mature enough to take it up.

Now, as you gaze at your gifts within the illusion, you may count those artifacts of the human heart and intellect as the writing, the speaking, the poetry, the music, the dance, and all of those creative gifts which pour through one as sweet wine, blessing all upon whom they fall. If the spirit is clear, deep intuition expresses itself in saying, “Use this gift now, and use it for the love of the one infinite Creator.” Most puzzling are those entities which have various gifts, talents, which are not used, seemingly. But we say to you that each and every gift of talent subjectively perceived by an entity has a purpose, and the purpose will come forward in due time.

This instrument, for instance, questions why it was given the ability to dance, and then given the disability of arthritis which causes the dance to be clumsy and footsore. Notice that without the gift of dance this particular entity would not be able to move at all. Many, many times, the gift of singing, or of playing a musical instrument, is that gift which creates an atmosphere of love, safety and peace within an abode which may be in need of these things.

There are gifts one does not often think of, the gift, for instance, of gab, as this instrument would call it. One whose joy is in small talk, passing the time of day, sharing in any way what occurs, the life as it is happening, is an entity who will remove loneliness from the consciousness of those about it. Such entities seldom know the wonderful gift they bring to manifested experience, and the catalyst they offer those who are melancholy by nature, and have no small talk, or laughter, of their own. The first laughter may be very rusty, but in time a melancholy soul with faith in the gift of laughter which has been manifested to it will learn to share in that gift, and so give glory to the one infinite Creator, by lightening consciousness upon the planet.

The key to recognizing one’s gifts has been already written down in two seemingly paradoxical ways. One is the statement, “Not my will, but thine,” spoken by the teacher known to you as Jesus. The other is that willingness to pitch in and do all such good works as appear before one to do. How can one both surrender and volunteer? This is a cause for great study, and worthy of its own time for discussion.

If a gift has been given to you that does not make you happy, it is not a gift that was intended to be used in polarization in service to others, for it is following the gift that makes one happy, evanescent as that concept is, that assures the seeking entity of being at the right place at the right time to be of service in its unique way. “Not my will, but thine.” How can one be of service when one has only the deeper feelings of the heart to inform one as to divine will or the higher self as opposed to the self in manifestation which is blind, deaf and dumb to the actuality of the experience to which you now dance?

It is well for the young soul in your culture to choose that which the entity does in order to create the energy to live on the basis of that which appeals to one, for it is a gift to no one to be wealthy and uncomfortable and unhappy. It is far more a gift in one’s poverty to offer in joy that talent which one has.

Gifts and talents come in all shapes and sizes. There are unusual and eccentric gifts which still are able to help others. The gift, for instance, of the gifted mechanic, who can listen to a complicated piece of machinery, and by ear alone detect that which is not correct in the machine. There is the gift of sight, simple physical sight. When it is acute and keen it may be used as a gift as one looks at what gives one joy, and expresses to those who cannot see with loving eyes the energies upon canvas, or the sculpture from clay, wood or stone.

It is a gift given to each and every entity that is self-conscious to express itself, and in expressing itself to learn how to support itself. This may be done in many ways.

Now Q’uo began the final portion of their response to how one may discover their gifts by saying that the gifts of the human heart and intellect may be discovered by using the intuition as to what one’s gifts are, and then they should be used for the love of the infinite Creator. Q’uo said that some gifts may be as simple as the “gift of gab” that can relieve the loneliness and the gift of laugher that can give glory to the Creator by lightening the vibrations of the planet. Then Q’uo said that doing the will of the Creator could bring about the opportunity to share one’s gifts at the right time that they are needed. Q’uo completed their answer by saying that we all have gifts that allow us to express ourselves in a unique way that can be of service to others. On February 7, 1988, Q’uo revealed the value of everyone’s gifts:

 We make a plea to each who experiences these gifts and the interest which these gifts generate to seek not just the comparison of one gift with the gift of others, but also to begin through meditation, contemplation, the use of dreams, the reading, the talking with friends, to begin the process of knowing the true self, and once you have found that ground within you which is not your heartbeat or your thinking processes, but is your consciousness itself, once you have met yourself face-to-face for what you are, with your gifts and your limitations, then the time has come for you to make this an offering in humbleness and sincerity to the Creator, offering your talents, your gifts and your limitations with thanksgiving and praise.

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This morning I was on a zoom call with my friends of 50 years, and we had a good time checking in with how each of us has been doing since our last zoom call. Then we read from The Ra Contact: Teaching the Law of One, and stopped now and then to discuss the concepts being channeled by Ra. It was a lot of fun to make these connections again.

This afternoon I finished putting the Christmas cards into their envelopes and took them over to the Post Office to be mailed.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 4

The Instinct Of Creation To Praise

I am of the Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ who comes in the name of the one infinite God. I greet you in the full consciousness of Christ, which is love.

Every creature which is perfect of its kind is a true picture of the face of God. Each flower that blooms shouts with its colors in praise and blessing of the One who made it. All that is, is full of the instinctive love of its Creator.

Humankind alone removes itself again and again from the Creator’s praise, interpreting the signs and events of experience in ways that do not honor the love that created all. Do you think that you bloom with truer colors than the flower, you who doubt that each experience is full of love? Again you betray the love and honor which would be yours to offer if those who were self-conscious were also fully conscious.

It is the faith which we who are of the principle of Christ seek again and again to strengthen in you which alone can inform human consciousness of the divinity of all things and of their true color. Praise is not possible for most who are selfconscious without such aid. And yet the instinct to praise and bless one’s Creator is a true part of your makeup.

Seek, then, the grace of the Holy Spirit, that you may become a blooming flower, rejoicing in the light of a sun that always shines regardless of the appearance of evanescent clouds.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from December 3, 1989:

The question this evening has to do with glory and the meaning that glory would have as we say the Lord’s Prayer and think about the concepts of “the Kingdom and the power and the glory.” What is the glory that belongs to the Father, or to the Creator, and what part in that glory do we play, how do we offer glory, and… that’ll do.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. It is a privilege and pleasure to share this meditation with you. May we say, for those sensitive enough to sense the presence of another entity, that the one known as Latwii is with this group this evening, having been called in support but not to speak. Having answered the challenge, the contact prefers to be silent and supportive.

This is the first time that those of Latwii have been mentioned as a part of the principle of Q’uo, although they did not assume the role of being the voice of Q’uo in this session as they later would do.

Joy, worship, adoration, praise, honor, glory. Within your illusion you may see glory. It exists instinctually and continuously. Each creation of land and sea and air sharing its rustling leaves, its proud and sturdy branches, its healing magic, its sweet rainfall, sharing all, the glory of a rainbow or of a beautiful scene, is not simply the expression of admiration of geographical territory but a prayer of thanks to its Creator who has made all things well.

This instrument, we find, has asked this question because in this instrument’s mind the concept of humility is congruent with the idea of service to others. Thus, the instrument wonders what the place of glory is in the life of the seeker. Within the day-to-day life glory is beheld by many eyes and seen by few hearts in true perception. Most entities sitting in the midst of glorious beauty find that they have a chore to do that must be done, that keeps the eye upon the paper or within the work area, so that one cannot look out and see the easiest, clearest, most eloquent and poignant definition of glory.

Why should the Creator be glorified? The most simplistic answer is, “Look about yourselves, witness the unique character of each dawning, of each dusk, each change of weather that moves the feelings and emotions—quieter when it is pearly, nacreous and rainy; happy and active when the winter sun deigns to shine its glory upon your fair planet. There is an element of “breaking through” to that metaphor, for the glorious light of the one infinite Creator must break through clouds. And in understanding glory itself, you within the self must break through clouds of unworthiness, unhappiness and disquiet.

It is truly said in your holy work named the Bible that in quietness and confidence is your peace. When one becomes still enough to cease the speaking one rapidly becomes aware of the astonishing and miraculous wonder and the beauty of the creation. All of this beauty is within you, all of the Creator is within you, all of the Creation is within you. So, when you give glory to the Creator, you give glory to the deepest part of yourself and affirm your ultimate and far-off nature, affirm that you are a prodigal moving through strange lands, faring variously and aiming at last for the home of the Father.

The Creator does not have a sense of Its own glory. That which you know as glory is that which is recognized by your peoples as an appropriate response to the beauty and blessings, challenges and learned lessons that shape each entity’s destiny. One is not always able to focus upon the affirmative, to praise circumstances or to give glory to the source of those circumstances. One often thinks not about one’s own incarnation. Had the Creator not felt a glory within thee, would you be? For you are the active principle of the infinite One. You are the crossroads of eternity and time, of reality and illusion. And in any illusion there is the moment when that illusion is shattered and the wonder comes upon one.

The first glory is that which the Creator has invested in you. Thus, it is centrally important to come to an understanding and acceptance and a self-forgiveness within the inner structure of the heart, the mind, and the spirit. As we have mentioned before, it is far more common for the self to be overly judgmental and perfectionistic about the self than for that same self to find many things unacceptable about others. Yet, how can the self be unacceptable to the self? How can the Creator be so distorted that that spark within becomes hidden? You move upon your skis down the white alp, the wind blows by and your face is cold, except for your goggles. Every muscle, every fiber of the being is engaged in this plummeting trip, this sailing upon the Earth, this experience that seems most glorious.

It is exciting. It is that about which one becomes intense. Thus, entities within your culture give glory to many, many things which are not that which is truly glorious. No matter how worthy the entity, the glory of that entity is not the entity, but the Creator within the entity, for one who speaks to another speaks to the Father within that other. And the glory, if there be any, goes solely to the Creator.

The group question for this session came from Carla, and she wanted to know about the concept of glory as used in the Lord’s Prayer. She wanted to know about how glory is experienced by the Father and what part a person might play in that glory. Q’uo began their response by saying that one could see the glory of the Creator in the beauty and harmony of the trees, the sea, rainbows, and the geography of any location, but most people are not aware of this glory because they are absorbed in the work of the day and practical concerns. Q’uo said this being unaware of the Creator’s glory was a sign of a feeling of unworthiness which one could work with by becoming still and seeking the confidence and peace of the Creator that is within us and becoming aware of the purpose of the life is to return into unity with the Father. Q’uo said that this would eventually allow us to come to an understanding, acceptance, and forgiveness of ourselves within our heart, mind, and spirit so that we could feel the glory of the Creator within us. On April 12, 1989, Q’uo spoke of feeling the glory of the creation:

The real work of living a life in faith is living it within this illusion, at this time, with no evidence of glory or perfection outstanding. The challenge is to feel the glory and the majesty of creation, to feel the life that is lived now, to feel oneself opening as a flower to the Creator. These memories of aid do not truly help the émigré to Earth, for it is here that each spirit has chosen to make—once again—that great choice, of service to others or service to self.

Glory is a concept directly at odds with judgment, for in the concept of glory, with the concept that all are one, then all are potentially full of glory, able to generate glory through love and light and service and able to experience glory in the inner room of meditation and contemplation and in the environments which so richly endow each with companionship, laughter, light-heartedness, and a sense of confidence and security that comes from feeling that the self is indeed worthy, that the self at heart is indeed a portion of the glory of the Creator.

It may seem much to you as though we suggest you praise yourselves. By all means, do so. It is known by you to a nicety in this system of illusion that one is not particularly glorious very much of the time. The illusion of difficulty and challenge is heavy; the blockages to self-awareness and self-forgiveness, formidable. To think of oneself as a part of something glorious is very difficult under these circumstances, for one feels humility and somehow it seems that one cannot feel humility and affirming—we correct this instrument—affirmation of glory in the self at the same time. Yet, this paradox is one of the strongest spiritual truths, the dynamics of which a seeker needs to grasp, for the glory lies not within the behavior, not within the surface thinking, but at the level at which each is a portion of the one infinite Creator.

Few there are within third density that are able to manifest perfect glory, for in manifesting perfect glory one no longer has any catalyst to process and one is able to stay in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator, praising and blessing the name of the Creator, speaking hallelujahs for all the blessings of your life. Yet, in the next hour you shall walk away from this beautiful concept, this imperishable ideal, and be unable to live up to that which is truly within you at this time. Yet, the glory is there. It continuously speaks to you, continuously moves within you and, as you become more transparent, more trusting, more accepting of that which occurs, of those conditions in which one finds oneself, one can then allow the glory to flow through the self to all the other portions of that glory.

Q’uo said that the concept of glory is potentially available to us all since we are all one, and we can find the glory of the Creator in meditation, contemplation, and companionship. However, Q’uo also said that in the third-density illusion there are constant difficulties that can cause us to feel like failures, but we should remember that glory is not associated with behavior but is found at the level of our being where all are the Creator. As we are more accepting and trusting of this truth then we can let this glory flow through us to all others. On May 4, 1986, L/Leema spoke of the glory within us:

It is the glory within that causes your peoples to seek some way of finding, exploring and expressing that articulated glory which, though gushing like a geyser from the deepest portions of being, comes into consciousness with a demand to be articulated. It is a rare being who can consciously love and serve the Creator without some structure. This is, however, by no means impossible, and, indeed, there is a minimum of distortion involved in the patient returning again and again to the daily practice of meditation and to the persistent analysis of one’s own being, for it is within you and within each of you that the consciousness you seek lies, that the foreverness for which you hunger and thirst is seated.

What do you mean when you say “glory”? In some cases, entities mean heaven; others mean worship; others, praise. Even your flag has the name of “Godhead,” undoubtedly named with deliberation. The nature of the Creation is love and the nature of love is glorious. It is much to be awed by, much to be studied. There is much to take into meditation each and every day, and there is the listening ear to develop to the less and less distorted self that lies deeper and deeper within the self, closer and closer to the true self which, in the end, as it was your Source, shall be your Omega.

Now, what is glory to you? Is there glory in serving others in an humble way, in chores, in cooking and cleaning and mothering and fathering and providing and working? The amount of glory you allow into your life is up to you. The glory is there, intrinsic in each moment. Beauty lies all around. Dreams, hopes and ideals abound. And these artifacts of the spirit and the mind and the emotions are wonderful, wondrous and glorious. For, is not love glorious, my friends? Remember that the one known as Jesus removed the commandments of his predecessors, and, instead, asked each to love the Creator and to love each other as the self. This was the new promise that this teacher requested from its followers.

The direct reason that most people do not feel glory, or any intense emotion, is that the culture in which you live is difficult, and in fact, even for it, is going through a difficult period because of the transformation of space and time as your galaxy spins into a new configuration, a new space.

How can one find glory when one has not perceived glory? One may meditate upon glory. But perhaps the best way to approach the understanding of the word glory is to strip away all adjectives and gaze at the great noun, “I,” the great verb, “AM.” To exist is glory. To be conscious is potentially to live in the Kingdom of the Father. Why should a relationship with a father whose love for each is infinite produce anger, confusion and disputation? These things are a portion of your illusion. If you are able to silence your mind, silence your doubts and to open the door to the inner room in private and devout meditation, that silence for you may be a great voyage of discovery, for you will find more and more to like about the self, more and more to see as accomplishments as each entity moves through the life experience and becomes more mature.

Could one do without glory? By no means. To say “glory” is also to say “passion.” Glory is the passion of the heart and it has its artifacts in the blue ray of communication of an inspirational nature and the indigo ray of work done upon the self in self-healing, self-forgiveness, self-quieting and, above all, self-acceptance. The beginning of lover—we correct this instrument—the beginning of loving others as one loves the self is to discover the glory within the self, to forgive the self for its behaviors which shall be various due to the workings of free will, so that one may concentrate as much as possible simply on loving and being with the infinite One.

So many things you have seen have been to you glorious and wonderful, awesome and a cause for devotion and worship. Know that this within your spirits is not an artifact of culture, is not a trained portion of an entity, but an instinctive, genuine need. Each entity needs and seeks to find that glory, that joy which somehow, although it may not have been experienced since young childhood, each is aware does exist. One may not become glorious by one’s decision to do so. Each has the guidance, the Comforter, within. And this Comforter, with its longer point of view, its wider perspective, may find the glory in moments which seem less than intensely glorious.

Glory is the faculty of the child who finds those things which it likes passionately lovable and glorious objects of love. Were there not an objective referent to glory in the metaphysical sense, there would be no word, for the word “glory” is that which reaches out into eternity for that which it knows not. It knows the glory as a mystery, and, like buoys clanging in the fog on a stony coast, it is hidden and it is difficult to navigate through the waters of humanity and ordinary living to create the intensity of consciousness that allows one to glorify and praise and thank the one infinite Creator. Yet, this exercise comes back to you an hundredfold, a thousandfold, a millionfold, for as you recognize the glory of the one infinite Creator, the glory of Creation, the glory of the heart of humankind, one becomes aware of the glory hidden within, that treasure in earthen vessel, that gem within the body. As you become more humble and more aware of how many errors are self-perceived by you, paradoxically you shall become more and more aware of the exploding excitement of the creation in its eternal dance, in its endless beauty, in its infinite love under the powerful strength of pure light.

Now Q’uo gave examples of various ways that we may find glory in our lives such as living in the Creation of love, in communing with the Creator in meditation, serving others in any capacity that is based in love, self-healing and self-love to perfect the focus on loving the Creator and then be more able to see the glory of others. And Q’uo said that simply being able to navigate the difficult waters of this illusion successfully and humbly will help us to experience the glory of our very being. On November 12, 1989, Q’uo spoke of the way we may experience glory in our lives:

We encourage each to seek the holy ground within, to find praise and give thanks for the glory, for beauty, the infinite majesty of the one great original Thought. The heavens sing with His glory, the trees and mountains dance, and all stars and planets sing a song of passionate love for the Creator unmanifest, and for each of you, the Creator made manifest and given complete free will.

You shall not always be manifest, you shall not always need to feel glorious, for you shall become glorious as you move back to your source and become a portion of the potentiated Creator that has not yet been potentiated.

It seems odd to use glory as a word which describes the pilgrimage experience. One’s shoes are dusty from the road and painful from the stones upon it; one has hardships, thirsts, hungers and yet one still seeks. How can this be glorious? Yet, if you will open the heart and request a sense of praise, thanksgiving, worship and adoration of the one infinite Creator, suddenly glory will be understood by you, the glory of all that there is, the glory of the journey, the glory of its beginning, its ending, and its infinite progression.

You entities call many things glorious. Artifacts of humankind such as music and art and literature receive this adjective frequently and truly, in some cases, the author or the composer has, indeed, touched upon part of the glory of humankind, part of the birthright of the imperishable spirit which you are. You are taught to feel unglorious; you are taught to doubt the self, to esteem the self most lowly and to act defensively. Glory is radiant, quiet, confident, brilliant and radiant. It is an aspect, an attribute of the one infinite Creator that inspires in the seeker purified emotion—the emotion of unconditional love, praise and thanksgiving.

As you move through your life, realize that your life is a divine and glorious gift from the active principle of the one infinite Creator to its source and ending, the unpotentiated Creator. After you have come to this gentle and loving perspective, loving the Creator and loving self as having the Creator within, partially hidden by distortions, one may begin to see the glory of other entities about you.

But always glory is most clearly seen in the second density of Nature, its blooming, its color changing, its infinite variety. Each flower is full of glory, yet it cannot sing praises to the Creator except with its heart. You, too, were given consciousness by the infinite Creator. Is this not a blessing? Glory is not in this case an emotional word but rather a word indicative of a worshipful and adoring attitude toward the mystery of the one infinite Creator. There is no reason to dislike the Creator; there is no reason to be indifferent to the Creator. But to the mind that is lucid there is every reason to see the glory all about one and know that the creation is like the Father.

Before we finish this speech we would like to iterate one important thing. The greatest blockage to an awareness and a feeling of intensity, passion, thankfulness and glory is the focus one has on one’s distortions of behavior which does not forgive the faculty of free will for blindsiding you with this variety of feelings and states of mind. You are not intended to be perfect people. You are intended to be pilgrims, but you carry within you great glory. May you always feel that glory and offer that glory back to its source, the Creator, alone.

Q’uo said that in the larger sense our spiritual paths are always glorious because we are all returning into unity with the one Creator, but as we travel this path in the third density there is much difficulty that we experience. However, Q’uo suggested that if we can open our hearts and ask for praise and adoration of the one Creator that we will then understand the glory of our entire journey. Q’uo went on to say that realizing that we have the Creator within us will allow us to see the glory of the other entities around us. They finished their response by saying that even though we are not perfect seekers we do have great glory within us, and we may offer that glory back to its source, the one Creator. On March 15, 1998, Q’uo described how we are part of the glory of the one Creator:

As you embrace this process those emotions of release and humility, humbleness and nothingness, become an offering to be lifted up unto the Creator as “all that I have.” “This is all that I have and this I give to you. Do with me what you will. I am a boat. Life is the ocean. Toss me somewhere. I shall attempt to sail.” This kind of abandon, this action of the Fool is powerful. And as you become ridiculous, as you embrace this darkness, you embrace also the light that follows. For truly in the Dark Night of the Soul there is a moon setting and a sun rising. And that sun is a glory beyond all space and time signifying a Love that created all that there is. We would encourage that moment of abandon within each of you where you not only say but feel, “Not my will, but Thine.” For, you see, there is a cyclic nature to manifestation of any kind. As the Creator’s heart beats, creations are born and die. The one thing that remains, whether it is perceived or not, is that intelligent infinity that we can only call Love in your language, this vibration which is the one great original Thought or Logos is what you are, with no past or future but simply a moment of being that is infinite.

At this time we would offer a contact to the one known as Jim if this instrument wishes to close this meditation. We leave this instrument in the love and the light and the glory of an inestimably beautiful and truthful and authentic creation. I am Q’uo, and those of Latwii also bid this instrument love, light and farewell. We transfer now if the instrument, Jim, is willing. I am Q’uo.

This morning I began my work on getting L/L Research’s Christmas cards ready to send out to our spiritual family. I was able to get the labels and stamps on the 226 envelopes as I worked on them from the little table in the living room.

This afternoon I went upstairs and used the carpet sweeper to clean the hall runner, and then I used the broom and dustpan to sweep up the kitty litter in Benny’s room. Then I used the duster to clean all three rooms and the hall. Then I continued my work on the Christmas cards and began stuffing the Christmas cards into the envelopes and was able to get about half of them done.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 3

The Blessedness Of Agony

I am the spirit of the consciousness of love, the principle of Jesus Christ in the vibration which comforts this instrument and many besides.

We come to all, to each in the vibration which may comfort each, for Christ discriminates not betwixt souls, considering one to be more blessed or beloved than another. Nor does the principle of love consider one situation to be more blessed than another.

You who are fortunate and content may consider yourselves blessed, yet you are no more blessed or beloved than the soul which is in torment or in agony. When the soul may begin to see the blessedness of agony and the glory of honest error and slothful iniquity, embracing all and offering all alike to Christ in thanksgiving, then we may speak more and more clearly and more often.

The seasons of repentance are also seasons of fruitful listening to those who seek to cherish their pain but not the agony which produces pain. Cherish not your hurt but your sin, offering it and all of your old life to Christ. For in the surrender of responsibility is also the acceptance of redemption.

We say this not to encourage a spirit of carelessness but rather a deeper responsibility; that is, the responsibility to see the face of Christ and not the face of humankind. For are you not a dweller in eternity? We offer you eternal peace, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 26, 1989:

The following question is the same group question that was discussed in the Q’uo channeling yesterday that was channeled on November 12, 1989 and may be considered an elaboration upon the answer channeled then.

What is the function of emotions in the life of the spiritual seeker, and what value is there to the seeker in attempting to uncover or develop or feel the full range of emotions, especially the caring for those about one and feeling the vitality of life and being able to express the feelings that move through one?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings to you all in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, whom we serve in our humble way as do you in yours. We are most grateful to share these few steps of your path of seeking with you, and to explore with you concepts having to do with the nature of consciousness.

Previously, we had established that in truth, although the intellect is highly regarded within your culture, it is, nonetheless, not as intelligent a portion of the mind as the deeper intuitions, what some might call gut instinct, and others call the prompting of the still small voice within, the higher self, guidance, or by whatever name an entity chooses to relate itself to a wider, wiser intelligence. This intelligence is emotion. We established that the surface emotions of life having to do with being caught in traffic, being late, having to wait, feeling negative emotions, feeling quick positive emotions with no depth, is the province of the mundane.

We do not suggest that you follow each whim, each thought, each impulse. We suggest, rather, the trust in the process of seeking within for the truth which will set you free, though it may not set another free. Each of you is unique, and the emotions that are your deeper intelligence are unique to you, their balance is unique to you, and the fruit of that balance in service is unique to you. Thus, we have established a great respect for the intuition and emotion that is the essence of intelligence.

We shall pause as this instrument is concerned.

[Pause while Carla checks with Jim, who has been coughing.]

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument, and greet each again in love and light and thanks. We shall continue.

For emotion to be considered the deeper intelligence, a new concept must be created, a word which is not within your working language, to indicate not the emotion of the easy joys and the easy sorrows, but those emotions which move deeply within the roots of mind, moved by the tides of many, many past experiences and many choices made, moved by the guidance of whatever you wish to call that spirit that comforts and supports when all of humankind seems to have failed you. Why would we ask you to dive so deep into yourself when there is a world of manifestation for you to enjoy? There is a reason, and we feel it is a worthy one, and it is from this point that we wish to go forward.

As entities are given physical vehicles at birth and move into the world, their first emotion is anger, their second, love. So begins the dynamic of a lifetime: anger at change, and love at being fed.

The anger, that of change, that of moving from the safety and quiet of the womb to the harsh illusion of your world is extremely traumatic, and it creates in the entity, even so small a one, that desire so to use emotion so as to control that which occurs. One cries if one feels hungry, and one is fed. One cries if one is uncomfortable, and one’s diapers are changed. This is the beginning of each incarnation, the duality being present from the beginning of hatred of change and love of the ideal.

When we ask you to plunge deeply within yourself—and remember, this is only our opinion—we are asking you to consult the only reliable source of information for yourself. Those such as we may speak words which inspire or aid or otherwise enable entities to know more and more of their true selves. This work is done internally and in the company of intimate friends, mates, children and other family. If one deals with one’s own life situation by the use of logic, intellect and cleverness, one shall fall short of one’s own desires, for the intellect is intended to be your servant, not your master. In the same way are your deeper feelings to be tools, resources and instruments for your spiritual evolution, not carrying complete authority, but substantially worthwhile to seek out and to hear and to feel.

Once again the group question is what is the function of emotions for the seeker of truth, and what is the value of expressing the full range of emotions and to be able to express the feelings that move through one? Q’uo began their response by saying that the deeper emotions within each of us are unique, and they may be linked with our deeper intuitions, the still small voice within, the higher self, or inner guidance. They said that these deep emotions are the product of many previous incarnations and that when we are born our emotions move between anger and love; anger at leaving the comfort of the womb and love at being nurtured; anger at being hungry and love at being fed. So Q’uo said that these deeper emotions could be helpful as a portion of our spiritual journeys. On March 15, 1998, Q’uo described the function of our deeper emotions:

The self does not see any possibility of becoming able naturally to embrace suffering. Here is where the heart may become an ever more helpful and useful resource, for while the mind is an excellent tool for the outer world of decisions within the outer world, it is within the heart and the deeper emotions that spiritual change shall take place. And, therefore, it is to the heart that the seeker may reliably and trustfully come; sometimes for comfort, sometimes for encouragement, and sometimes simply for a place to be held and comforted and loved.

Now, let us examine the fabric of the universe as we understand it to be. The one great original Thought is not a thought, it is a purified emotion. It is Love. You may call it the Logos, the Creative Word, but it is in essence a pouring through the channel of the self of the infinite love of the one Creator. To attempt to manipulate one’s feelings is to attempt the masquerade ball. Yet the ball must end and the masks come off, and the finery, the feathers, the ribbons laid away, and there you sit, all of the masks gone, all of those whom you were to impress having left you alone. And as you sit you ask yourself to take off your mask, and you take that mask off and you find another, and another, and another. The nature of the intellect is such that eventually you will find that the layers enclose a nothingness, for intellect is a cold, logical biocomputer which is designed to make choices. It is not designed to be the vehicle for manifestation. The heart, that which this instrument would call gut feeling, these are those things which enable manifestation among each of those who serve the one infinite Creator in service to others. The primal Logos of all that is, is emotion, the deepest intelligence of all, infinite, without flaw, without distortion, the carrier wave of consciousness.

And so, if you wish to manifest that which you have found to be good, if you wish to manifest your desire to find that which is good, if you seek and hunger for the truth, there is work to be done, for the intellect, the past, the future and all considerations of humankind must needs be put in abeyance on a regular basis for the amount of time it takes to sit in silent waiting until one is able to feel the presence of the infinite One.

We ask each within this group at this time to pause and allow that experience of love poured into your waiting heart to manifest itself to you.


I am Q’uo. I am again with this instrument. Is that love not astounding? Is that love not impossible for humankind to sustain? Yet you are other than human. That of you which is human is that which must do the manifesting, that which creates the inspiration and desire to manifest love of the Creator and love of others, comes from crossing the threshold to the unconscious with the care, persistence and devotion of the lover who is willing to wait and watch and seek from afar, content to sit at the edge of the crowd listening to that faraway voice at the center of the crowd that speaks the truth, for you have many, many voices within you which are manifestations of biases. These biases need to be examined, and in this intellect and logic play a great part. However, as you wish to be of service to the infinite One, and as you wish to love each other, know that the universe is, in essence, an emotion, it is consciousness. Consciousness does not necessarily think. Consciousness allows itself to avail itself of that infinite source of information within.

It is in this way that you are attempting, through meditation and contemplation, through the balancing of the day’s extreme emotions, to give to yourself that which cannot be done without some aid. There is, for instance, no possibility of an entity’s being able to cogitate, ruminate, ideate and manifest love. Indeed, it is possible for such a person to manifest a universal and very real compassion, but love engages being, love sets on fire the desire to help, love causes soil of the heart to become fallow, that seeds may spring therein which flower out into the tree of manifestation of love with its many blossoms, its beautiful aroma and its faithful use.

Yes, my friends, more than ever as you realize, recognize and respect your own inner wisdom as a portion of the creation, as you continue to meditate faithfully, then you may be undisturbed, insofar as it is possible, by the painfulness of change. For you now seek the beginnings of the fourth density.

Within third density the spotlight was on the self, the emerging consciousness, the discovery that that consciousness is one with all and one with the Creator. It is the chief lesson of this particular density, to learn to love, and to learn to accept love, feeling both worthy to love and to be loved.

Much has been written about love. Within your holy works love is described by many phrases, “Love is patient,” “Love is long-suffering,” and so forth. May we say that love in the sense in which we understand it is in the impatience, is in the misunderstanding, is in every portion and every cell, every iota of creation. You cannot move yourself from the roots of your being. You are rooted in that which you may call the Kingdom of Heaven, and your roots are deep and imperishable, and down, down into the world of illusion do you grow your branches and produce the bloom that promises fruit.

Now Q’uo said that the nature of the universe is the love of the Creator that pours through each of us, but if we attempt to manipulate this love with our intellect we create various levels of masks that hide the true nature of the love of the Creator from us. So Q’uo suggested that if we hunger for the truth of love we must put our intellect in abeyance and use meditation to experience the love of the Creator. Then Q’uo said that this love of the Creator is that which sets on fire our desire to serve others and begin that journey into the fourth density. On April 2, 2000, Q’uo reminded us what the purpose of the third density is:

You must see your density as one in which you will inevitably, again and again, throughout your life be in the position of wishing to call for help from others. For the entire purpose of third density is socialization, the learning to give and to receive love and to give and receive lovingly that encouragement and support that is needed.

Within your culture, as we have said, the intellect is valued almost to the exclusion of deep, quiet, confident, considered intuition. You are an impatient people, eager, and perhaps running faster with you feet than your heart and your mind can follow. Thus, the first priority may seem very selfish to one, and that is to learn to love the self, unequivocally, with complete self-forgiveness, with full knowledge of the various iniquities of one’s own character. You must allow yourself to become aware that the Creator and the creation lies within you, each of you. It is not well to speak as though one were ever and always unworthy to be the vessel for divinity. All of clay and dust, bone and muscle is by definition unworthy to carry imperishable ideals into a world which you experience as that which is not ideal.

Now, you see the interplay of love and faith against the dynamic catalyst of a mundane and sometimes intensive nature. What shall you do in this situation? What shall be your decision in that situation? It is appropriate to use all of the resources at your command. If you have any ignorance of the subject as it is known by humankind, fill the mind with what was written. Use the intellect to discriminate upon the subject in which you are interested, then surrender control of the process, carefully and fastidiously, to the love within, the spark of the Creator within that makes us all one.

Those who have not been able to love themselves are by definition unable to love the Creator, for each is the Creator’s prodigal son or daughter, each is an heir of eternity. This is not said to puff you up with pride, but to say that each of you is a cell in the living body of the creation of love. Once you have learned to come into some contact with the Creator on a daily basis, it is then time to gaze at that which lies before you, at the stones in the road, at the stragglers by the wayside, at the thirsty, at the hungry, at the homeless. The manifestation of the Logos that is within you, that of unconditional love, has never been needed more than at this juncture in the passing [of] your planet into fourth density space and time.

It is often said “Thou shalt not judge,” not only within your holy works, but also by those whose sense of fairness and ethics makes it mandatory for them to yield to all the same benefit of doubt that one would hope would be yielded to the self in the same circumstances. The density in which you are is a density in which you choose not how to think, but how to love. If you love yourself, you will think in terms of manipulation and control, elitism, perquisites and power on a personal level. If your love is of the Creator and of those in whose eyes you see shining the light of the one infinite Creator, then you are one who may radiate to that person. Often no words are necessary. It is well to move with the deepest instincts, to give a hug, to give a kiss, to give verbal support, to leave alone, to treat as precious each entity, each imperishable light being that is about you.

What is the purpose of emotion? The purpose of emotion within third density is so to engage the mind, the heart, and the soul of the entity which seeks that it becomes more and more aware of the depth and breadth of each present moment and possibilities for loving within each moment. Needless to say, we do not speak of the clinging, dependent love. We do not suggest that the surrender to the higher self be made before the self has been tuned so as to hear the true voice from within. Many are those who would whisper in the ear of one who seeks to be of service. Discrimination remains important always, and this includes those things which we say to you. Let us not be a stumbling block before you.

Then Q’uo said that in order to love others we must first learn to love ourselves even though we are full of distortions of one kind and another. Q’uo said that we need to come into contact with the Creator on a daily basis in order to realize that the Creator and Its love is within us and all others as well, then we can love others in any way that we may choose such as: “to give a hug, to give a kiss, to give verbal support, to leave alone, to treat as precious each entity, each imperishable light being that is about you.” Then Q’uo said that the purpose of emotion is to become aware of the infinite possibilities of the present moment to love those around us. In 10.14, Ra said that the moment contains love:

The moment contains love. That is the lesson/goal of this illusion or density. The exercise is to consciously seek that love in awareness and understanding distortions. The first attempt is the cornerstone. Upon this choosing rests the remainder of the life-experience of an entity. The second seeking of love within the moment begins the addition. The third seeking powers the second, the fourth powering or doubling the third. As with the previous type of empowerment, there will be some loss of power due to flaws within the seeking in the distortion of insincerity. However, the conscious statement of self to self of the desire to seek love is so central an act of will that, as before, the loss of power due to this friction is inconsequential.

Now let us look at the way emotion is deepened. Each of you is aware of the system of chakras, or energy centers within the being. It is understood that each needs to be minimally clear and balanced for the full energy of the one infinite Creator, the life force, the prana, if you will, to move upwards within the body to meet that inspiration which comes from the infinite One, from the comforter, from your guidance, from your inner self. Over and over again we suggest to you the daily meditation for the clearing of cobwebs from the mind and the heart, of picking up the old newspapers, the leftover takeout food, the banal junk of a banal society that is intent upon not listening to any voice within which might cause discomfort.

The universe itself is an emotion, it is consciousness, it is Love. Each of you will go through many definitions of the word love as you experience various facets of conditional and unconditional love. Your goal, and it is a difficult one within this density, is so to use the deep wisdom of the intuition and choice-making nature of the intellect in harmony to move in the direction that you and the Creator have set for yourself this day. And in that regard we would say that it is not well to create in the mind that which one desires, unless one is absolutely sure that one desires it and will never regret having it, for any desire that is unmet in third density must be met before the entity may move forward to the next level of classes, the next level of illumination, the next level of peace and joy.

How many times, my friends, have you seen a loved one, and found a way to touch that loved one, to strengthen it with your very being? How many times have you been the one to make peace among brothers and sisters? Do you not see the sweet hand of love moving through you in manifestation of the glorious love and light of the one infinite Creator? If you wish to manifest you must feel, deeply, sincerely and honestly. Not all entities can serve in this same way, as not all entities have been given the same gifts, and as we have said before, all services are equal when done for the love of the one infinite Creator.

We would not mislead you. You cannot by any means whatsoever achieve a higher state of consciousness. No mental act, no deliberate series of choices, no action within the illusion shall bring you the paradise of peace that you seek. That which will bring you quietude and serenity is the finding of that deeper self within through meditation, and the surrendering of the minute power of the human intellect to the infinite wisdom, compassion…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. We shall continue. You are the hands, you are the voice of the Creator, and as you love each other as you love yourself, so you love all that is the Creator. This is the function of purified emotion, to become a channel through which infinite love may flow so that you do not dry up like a shallow well or a desert spring, but remain well watered, well fed, well inspired with food and drink for the soul. In that consciousness you become hollow, and in your purity of love you allow love to speak by surrendering to the Infinite within.

This surrender is not one made without discrimination and care. Surrendering to those who say, “This and this and this you must believe, that and that and that you must do,” is an acceptable choice for those who cannot use intellect and feeling, but merely have a generalized need to know what is right and what is wrong to do in life, so that one does not have to think, grow, change, expand and transform the self. For these people, and we do not put them down in insult, this is the way to progress, and progress they will, however slowly. But each of you wishes to move more quickly, to become true channels of light, to feel true peace in the heart, to feel genuine, authentic harmony and serenity, to meet one’s companions with joy, trust, sharing and caring. Are these all not words of emotion? Can one reason oneself to this attitude? No, my friends, no.

Why, then, are you in your shell, this thick, impenetrable shell of forgetting? We say to you, you are in this shell of forgetting so that you may make your choice unfettered by the knowledge of the answers to the test. Many are the students who simply write down what the teacher says and parrot it back to the teacher to make a good grade. In spiritual or metaphysical work this line of endeavor is of no virtue, for you are seeking authenticity of self, and only in the authenticity of the self-forgiven self can the Creator move from infinite intelligence through infinite energy into your heart, your spirit, your hands, and your eyes, that you may behold the glory of all that is about you, that you may feel anguish for those many, many things that are awry, and then to affirm that it is possible for this unfortunate condition to cease.

Allow your love to spring forward from within. It is not yours, it is not another’s, it is the Creator’s. Love one another, my friends, and you shall love the Creator, and this purified emotion of sacrificial love shall move you ever more quickly toward the homeland of peace.

Now Q’uo said that in order to deepen our emotions that we need to miminally balance each of our energy centers by meditating so that the full energy of the one infinite Creator, the life force, or the prana within the body, is able to meet the inspiration of the infinite Creator and cleanse our energy centers. Then Q’uo said that we need to use our deep intuition and choice-making wisdom in harmony to move in the way that we and the Creator have chosen for us this day. In this way we all can serve in our own unique way when the opportunities to do so come to us. Q’uo went on to say that this purified emotion is the love of the Creator that comes through us as we surrender to the Creator’s will and love each person we meet, and we will then be loving the Creator as well. On August 12, 1982, Q’uo said that when we love each other we are loving the Creator:

Therefore, let your dedication be careful and deep. But do not forget to let the sunshine flow through all your thinking, and lighten it that your service may be pleasant and of good cheer. For it is with those about you that you shall wend your way as pilgrims. It is with those about you that the ever-changing present will come. Therefore, my friends, let your souls be merry and glad together, that in loving the one infinite Creator you may love each other with the gentleness and forbearance requisite for each unique being in your life.

We thank you for allowing us to finish our thoughts on this subject. There is more material in this area, but it would require further questioning.

We would offer to the instrument known as Jim the opportunity to close the session. A simple silence will express this entity’s desire not to speak because of the difficulty of speaking at this time. I am Q’uo.


(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I am again with this instrument. We have examined the instrument known as Jim, and find that in order for us to be able to use this instrument’s vocal mechanism at this time we would have to induce a trance state. This we are unwilling to do, as without dedication, protection and planning such sacrifice of energy is unacceptable to us as a gift. It is a gift we cannot take unless it is fully offered. We shall therefore open the meeting to any questions which may remain upon the minds of those here. Is there a query at this time?

T: Yes, I have a question. At one point I sort of went away—I missed a small portion of what was channeled, and when I came back you had said something to the effect that “… then you can surrender to the process, to your inner self,” something to that effect. My question is, were you at that time talking about the creating process of holding a thought and then creating the desire and then giving up the process to your inner self? Was this what you were speaking of?

I am Q’uo. My brother, we were not speaking of such, but rather were speaking of the work entailed in moving beyond the surface consciousness to the deeper and more trustworthy wisdom that lies deep within the self. We do not ask you to surrender to any outer authority. We ask you only to surrender to that portion of yourself that you have found to be imperishable, worthy, beautiful and able to manifest the fruits of an unconditional love which is your birthright, which moves through you from a deep place of self-acceptance within.

As to the imaging of that which you desire, we exhort you to be extremely careful, as you create what you desire and focus upon it, for you shall receive it. However, there is always, as in many of your myths and fairy tales, the difficulty of attempting to control what occurs. The difficulty is this: for every desire there are unsatisfactory side-effects which will occur when the desire has been met. You are then involved in an unbalanced fashion, and some call this karma, with that which you have created as a life and desired within the life pattern.

Therefore, unless the intuition is most deep, heartfelt and worthy to the self of being held all through the incarnational life experience, we strongly suggest that you are faithful in listening, and when you go forth from your meditation you carry with you the desire to love. One’s path is taken one step at a time, one expression of love at a time, one expression of honesty which may lance a boil of misunderstanding and heal. To communicate with the heart and the love of the infinite One is to heal, and by the power of that love the Creator may, if all love, transform and renew the creation of the Father.

T said when Q’uo was speaking he had just returned from blanking out for a while and he heard: “… then you can surrender to the process, to your inner self,” and he wanted to know if Q’uo was talking about: “the creating process of holding a thought and then creating the desire and then giving up the process to your inner self? Was this what you were speaking of?” Q’uo said that was incorrect as they were talking about surrendering to the deeper self that was full of wisdom and that can share the unconditional love that comes from one’s self-acceptance. Then Q’uo spoke to T’s creating a desire and then giving up the process to the inner self, and suggested that that could carry unwanted consequences as certain side effects could accompany the obtaining of the desire. Q’uo felt that the better choice would be to desire to love in whatever the circumstance. On May 28, 2023, Q’uo revealed the value of the expressing the desire to love:

As you go through this process that we have described in attempting to realize that those you look upon are simply a reflection of the Creator and of you, and all that you cast your gaze upon may be seen both outwardly and inwardly, we ask that you protect that flame of desire to love, and always use it as a cornerstone or a touchstone as you go through this process.

This instrument is informing us that we are spending a rather long time, so we would ask if there is a final query at this time. I am Q’uo.

K: I find that there are a number of concepts that I have accepted without perhaps fully understanding them, over the years. One of these is the idea of accepting and loving yourself. Could you offer briefly some suggestions on how to begin to go about the process of accepting and loving yourself in order to move on to loving others?

I am Q’uo. We are most happy to speak to this subject, for within your heavy chemical illusion it is very difficult to have an unbridled love of the divine self within, for one is so taken with the surface iniquities of mundane living, the little disappointments, the little irritations, the hostility, and all the repertoire of negative emotions, that one cannot even believe that one could possibly be worthy, and, indeed, as a human in third density one is not yet worthy of utter self forgiveness except for one thing: the nature of creation is utterly self-forgiven. In finding that basic truth you may claim your worth.

Let us gaze at it in another manner. Upon the surface you are one person, and your sphere is populated with many, many other persons, some of which are very much in sympathy with you, many of which have almost nothing on the surface in common with you. Furthermore, those who wish to be of service are walking a tightrope betwixt service gladly given and the service of the doormat. And when one perceives oneself as a doormat because one is, as this instrument would say, nice, one does not feel that oneself is worthy, but rather than oneself is an hypocrite and a liar, or at least one who tells the fib so as not to offend.

Move within the self at this moment. Consciously allow the awareness to move through the short term memories. Now allow all the pain and joy of this experience of incarnation to be gazed at with eyes of love, for you have learned from each and every challenge. You have not reached the self, you are forgiving the imperfections of the self which an imperfect world was formed on purpose to cause you to feel. If you never felt unworthy your worthiness would have no passion, no strength, and no stamina. It is only when one moves through the awareness of one’s human limitations within third density, and accepts each imperfection, each folly, each thoughtlessness as the action of one who simply was not properly tuned, then you may move on to more fertile territory. Not to forgive an imperfect self—and that is the surface self of each—is to deny that there is more, and that that more is a divine mystery which we may only call love.

In claiming the worth of the self it is necessary to gaze at one’s relationship with the infinite One. This entity created you before it created the densities, the stars, and the planets which make up your illusion. You are portions of the active consciousness of the one infinite Creator of love and light that is within you. And so you do not honor the small self by feeling worthy, but rather you surrender to the greater Self within, and then you may love all of your idiosyncrasies, all of your faults, because you know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that as you slip you may forgive yourself, pick yourself up, and walk on. You are imperishable. You are creatures of love.

Once you have made the difficult choice between serving others as a way of serving the Creator and expressing that relationship, and serving the self and so expressing a relationship of total unity with the Creator, then you have made the decision that this density was created to enable you to make.

All upon the outside of the consciousness has a tendency to appear negative, and to evoke negative emotion. Consequently, you, as a spirit of light, are gazing constantly at the darkness of one’s own Earthly vessel. This Earthly vessel is made of clay and chemicals and water, and an electrochemical system which enables that which you call consciousness to have a home, and you may be grateful for that imperfect self. You cannot exonerate yourself for the things that you have done amiss. That is not self-forgiveness. When you have done that which you consider amiss, it is well for you immediately to go to the entity whom you feel you have slighted and to create harmony once again betwixt the two, knowing that not only are you an entity of Earth, but also the other is similarly befuddled and confused in a sea of illusion that is the third density.

You must go deeper. You must move from the mind which condemns, judges, evaluates, and so forth to the heart, where resides that infinite spark of imperishability which is the Creator within. It is this portion of the self that is worthy, and because you carry within yourself, within this Earthly vessel, the glorious perfection of the infinite One, so you may move into the point of view of that within you which is the Creator, as the Creator forgives a perishable, various, woeful entity for making the errors of childhood.

Yes, the universe, the Creator has already forgiven all that you may do. You yourself, however, must forgive the self, be at peace with the self, acknowledge all of the thoughts of the self, and attempt as much as possible to become better. It is well to realize that perfect behavior is not only impossible but meaningless. It is the heart, the love, the emotion that makes you worthy, and as the intensity of your love of the Creator and your love of fellow men and your love of yourself grow, so shall you become a more and more metaphysical light being, moving affirmatively from your strength—that is, the Creator within—rather than running from, avoiding, or being embarrassed about many, many errors that any limited, somewhat ignorant, and often biased child might make.

You in the third density have chosen to be children. You are children of the one infinite Creator. Are you less than worthy? A child may misbehave, but a child is forgiven. You are prodigal, you have squandered your inheritance. All who are Earthly in third density have so done, with extremely few exceptions. Yet, by doing so you strip away for yourself the illusion that this will bring pleasure, that will bring satisfaction, control will give you what you want, and demand will always be heard. A sense of worthiness comes as one becomes aware of oneself as the worthy servant, the least of all, one who is always in error, yet one who carries an imperishable, holy and divine spark of the Creator.

To see oneself as a cell in the body of creation is a most helpful concept, because as you gaze in thought at your own anatomy and physiology you may see that each cell is equally important. The skin, the muscles, the mind, the simple reaching out of the hands that is possible because you are in physical existence, these are causes for rejoicing, these are causes for thanksgiving and praise, for you have the opportunity to act as a channel, a worthy and loving channel for the infinite love and light of the one Creator. Self-acceptance is a good start upon self-forgiveness. To accept one’s faults as they are, paradoxically, is to open oneself up to the possibility of change, growth and transformation.

K asked for an elaboration on the value be being able to love her self in order to be able to love others. Q’uo began their answer by saying that in the third density it is easy to feel unworthy and willing to become a doormat as a result of this feeling. Then Q’uo said that accepting the feeling of being unworthy, in each instance which this feeling was felt, would allow one to move onto more fertile territory of surrendering these feelings to the Creator of the universe of love and light that is within you, so that you can forgive yourself because you are a creature of love. Then Q’uo said that you can make the choice of serving others in the positive sense, and when you have behaved badly with another person you can seek to create harmony again as it is the opening of the heart to the love of the Creator, of others, and of the self that makes you a metaphysical light being. Q’uo said this process would make you a channel for the infinite love and light of the one Creator: On June 14, 1992, Q’uo described the value in loving the self:

There is no need to manipulate, teach, control, move or advise other entities. The need is only to do these things within the self, disciplining the self to a more and more balanced and clear acceptance of the universal nature of selfhood, and therefore choosing lucidly and clearly to serve others, to withhold judgment of or control over others, and to practice loving the self, accepting the self and allowing the errors perceived within the self to be self-forgiven. As one forgives one’s self, one then is able to forgive all.

May we answer you further, my sister?

K: No, that’s very helpful for now, thank you.

We thank each of you, and would at this time close the meditation, wishing each to respect and seek the heart within, the deep intuition within, not to denigrate the Earthly vessel in which you move, for though it makes many, many errors, yet it has the hands to give, the mouth to speak, the eyes that offer the softness of a loving glance, the breasts that may give the babe nourishment, the loins that shall produce souls whom one may love and by whom one may experience the incredible gift of unconditional love. Love one another, my friends, unconditionally, and if there is a condition, use the intellect for that for which it was made. It is a burro; load it with the information and let it climb the mountain to the answer.

We are no more worthy than you. We are all seekers, all pilgrims, and all imperfect. We could suggest that one may look forward to a time when one is not so, shall we say, imperfect, as seen by the self, but we assure you that these feelings of unworthiness, insecurity and other feelings of this kind are designed completely by yourself before the incarnation to teach you to love, and to love that which is imperfect is to make it worthy.

Examine your soul. All that is, is within you, the bad, as you would call negative emotions and ideas, and the good, as you would call positive emotions and ideas. But the source of your worth is that which makes the universe One, and yourself a citizen as important as any, as worthy as any. You are a part of the infinite Creator; you are worthwhile, necessary and beloved. May you love yourself enough to move the imperfections out of the way of your service, and never ever to hold a grudge against the self, but to forgive the self, to intend a newness which is less imperfect in the ways of doing things.

As always, meditation is the great tool. Prayer, as this instrument understands it, is also a great tool when one is upset with another, for one may pray for that other, and in so doing heal the self of negative emotion as well as being effective in prayer and uplifting of the self in consciousness.

We leave you with that desire to be uplifted, to be transformed, and, indeed, many times, to be uncomfortable. Comfort is for those who are asleep. Comfort is for those for whom someone is willing to tell them exactly what to think about everything. It is a comfortable life. One can attain fourth density light by this means, but it is very difficult, for a feeling of richness and completion of the self is the same problem exactly as the feeling of a great mass of wealth. Clinging to one’s possessions is not necessary. When you have made your peace with the imperfections of the self, wait until you feel the presence of the infinite One, of your guidance, of your comforter, and at that point say, “I wish to do the will of my greater Self, I surrender my imperfect human self. What would you have me do?” Be willing; that is the key. Be discriminatory; those discriminations are the lions that guard the truth.

In this truth, love, light, peace and joy of the infinite Creator, we leave you, with blessings and ever flowing love for those who are awake and seeking. We are those known to you as Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu.

This morning I was on a Q & A zoom meet with Jonathan Tong and his Seattle Law of One Study Group. After some introductory sharing of how each of us was doing in our life pattern we dove into the questions that the members of his group had for me today. As usual, the questions were very thoughtful and, in some cases, quite powerful and personal. I especially enjoy talking to conscious spiritual seekers of truth, and today was a lot of fun. I even got two of the three questions right on Jonathan’s Pop Quiz at the end of our session! Last month I was 0 for three.

This afternoon I went outside and used my trimmer to cut down all of the onion grass around the yard as well as various flower stalks that were dead.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 2

The Heavenly Food Of Love

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

Let not any fear dismay you this day. Let thy shoulders turn towards that which warms the soul. Let thy heart rest on that which feeds the heart. For the heavenly food of love and joy permeate the creation. And to one who can open like a flower to feel the subtle sunshine of silent love within creation, there is abundant thanksgiving in all directions.

Be aware of the plenty, the fullness, the grace, and the surety of love. You are loved most deeply. Go your way therefore in peace, carrying within you the precious burden of that love, that you may share it with a universe all too unaware of its own glory.

We leave you in love and peace, in the name and spirit of Jesus the Christ, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 12, 1989:

What is the function of emotions in the life of the spiritual seeker, and what value is there to the seeker in attempting to uncover or develop or feel the full range of emotions, especially the caring for those about one, and feeling the vitality of life and being able to express the feelings that move through one?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet this circle of souls in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is our privilege to be called to this group of light being, and we bask in the glow of your seeking and your love.

In speaking about emotion, there are semantic difficulties. Emotion has been systematically undervalued among your peoples for a great span of your experience, much to the detriment of the whole and unified self which seeks to manifest through third density illusion the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. What passes for emotion among many are not so much feelings as basic instincts such as reproduction, companionship and practicality. The role of emotions, while idealized within your culture, is in fact a false role, in that emotions do not serve the function which they are capable of serving.

The most usual blockages of energy are two. One is the overactive emotional nature, that nature that wears, as this instrument would say, the heart upon the sleeve, one who reacts with a shallow and instinct feeling to each catalyst that it encounters. The hectic quality of these emotions is a disturbance and a confusion, rather than that which is the true function of emotion, that is, the further knowing of the self and the ennoblement of the expression of life within the consciousness of manifestation. How much we wish we could aid those who are caught in surface emotion, yet always it is the free will choice of each to use its intellect, surface emotion, or to move in consciousness into a more helpful and useful focus of mind and heart, so that one may discover the true, deep and abiding emotions that create a life in faith.

The other common blockage of emotions is also culturally produced. The young ones of your society are not cherished with deep and abiding emotion, quite often and instead there is the rigid rule, the constant request of parent to child for this or that behavior, which, in the course of the young years, causes many souls to become inured and numbed to emotion. The intellect observes the pain of expressing emotion to those who identify deep emotion with misbehavior and unacceptable sentimentality, and so it becomes unproductive, seemingly, and indeed hurtful, to continue experiencing the impact of the full emotional nature of the deep mind.

The group question for this session was what is the function of emotions for the seeker of truth, and what is the value of expressing the full range of emotions and to be able to experience the feelings that move through one? Q’uo began their reply by saying that our society does not appreciate the true value of emotions but operates more by instinct such as reproduction, companionship, and practicality. Q’uo continued by saying that emotions were blocked by expressing only surface emotions instead of expressing the deeper emotions based on faith, and there was a second blockage was that parents frequently did not express a deep and abiding love for their children, but constantly required correct behavior which eventually blocks children from being able to express their deeper emotions. On September 19, 2004, Q’uo describe the problem of surface emotions:

And how difficult it is sometimes to see through the surface details to the issues that are half-hidden and half-revealed by surface emotions, surface occasion, and surface reaction. Yet those surface expressions are as the foam upon the top of the waters. They have no substance. They have no longevity. They have no reality. Yet because they recur with such steady regularity over the course of the waves of the day, it is easy to become fixated upon watching them and surfing in them, to the exclusion of doing that work which deepens the requirements upon the self; which pulls the self into the more mysterious precincts of the deeper waters of the path.

Almost everyone dwelling upon your sphere at this time, in your culture, tends toward one or the other bias, rather than appreciating emotion in its purified and deeper sense as the profoundest part of one’s intelligence. The function of emotion in the spiritual life is the creating of the vitality, the passion and intensity which is not created out of thin air, but discovered from within. In order to make use of these purified emotions which speak of deep intelligence, it is often necessary for an entity to be aided by inspiration, example, and most of all, desire: desire to remove the stumbling blocks which block energy from the heart. With the energy blocked by over-activity or numbness of emotion, the spiritual path is even more muddled, wearisome and confusing than it needs to be. This is because such blockages keep energy from entering the heart in full measure, and it is the heart energy which is lifted up and ennobled by work in consciousness.

Now, what is the definition of purified emotion? We search for vocabulary which is not religious, but rather philosophical, for it is all too easy to say worship, adore, give thanksgiving, offer praise to the one infinite Creator. Instead, we would simply put it in another context. As one is able to experience the self more and more intelligently, consciously and fully, one is able to feel self-forgiven, worthy, hopeful, cheerful, peaceful and oriented toward a lively work on behalf of the one infinite Creator. Humankind is fueled, not by oil or coal so much as by inspiration, passion, sharing and caring. Thus, the more fully one is able to tap into the deep and plangent notes of purified emotion, the greater is one’s ability to manifest the light of the infinite One to a darkened world, which rejoices in seeing beacons of light, whether or not they know why the light is there, how the light has come to be there, and what is its function. The emotional nature of a deep and strengthening kind is the basis of intelligence which forms the bedrock of faith. We speak not of faith in this, or faith in that, for the Creator is infinite and mysterious, and any specific belief system neglects much of the whole repertoire of spiritual tools and resources. Therefore, in encouraging one’s own deeper intelligence, that is, the deep emotions, one must seek within for that center about which the incarnational experience now revolves.

It is impossible to create purified emotion by desire alone, for desire will bring you to the border of that emotion, but will make of it a mockery unless the deep self is touched, and felt, unless emotion may inform intellect. Those among your people who are small in years are perfect examples, for the most part, of entities which are in touch with deep emotion. The younger the entity, the closer that entity is to concepts of deep memory concerning the true self and the purpose of the incarnational experience. However, immediately upon entering this illusion the process of enculturation begins, and little by little, young souls react to a lack of understanding, either by moving on a sea of shallow emotions at all times, or by rejecting emotion as painful, unnecessary and undesirable, as it does cause pain to one who does not have a fully energized heart energy center.

Many of your peoples attempt to create within themselves deep emotion, that they may love, and know the joy of deep and spiritual love. This is an exercise in futility. Also to be de-emphasized are those practices of your religions which encourage and even goad participants into an high emotional state which is fed, not by deep emotions in most cases, but by the enjoyable excitement of group joy, that is, when one worships in such a way as artificially to move the hearts of entities from without, so, to the extent that this is so, shall the emotion be that which rings false for deep work in consciousness.

Indeed, the intellect is often the master, even of the most devoted spiritual seeker. Burdened with the rational mind, the seeker often places too little emphasis on the freeing up of deep energies, of keeping open those passageways from spiritual self to mental, emotional and spiritual self. The creation is consciousness, and that consciousness is pure emotion, not the pure intellect. Infinite intelligence expresses itself within incarnation as deep and abiding emotion. Thus, as one feels love pouring through one, one is fulfilling one’s fundamental and major mission upon your Earth sphere, and that is to be a radiant being, a light to many, not by action, but by the vital energy, the sweetness of soul, and the expressions of love which move through the seeker who has opened the door to deep emotion.

Now Q’uo said that the expression of deeper, truer emotions is often blocked in one of the lower three energy centers so that they cannot enter the heart, and in order to express these deeper emotions one must discover the center of one’s being about which the current incarnation revolves. Q’uo said that the younger that children are, the more fully they can feel their deeper emotions, but with additional years of enculturation they begin to express more shallow emotions or even reject emotions as being too painful. So Q’uo suggested that the seeker must free up its deeper emotions and the passageways to the spirit within to allow pure love to flow through the heart so that the seeker becomes a radiant being to many. On September 12, 2009, Q’uo spoke of the value of discovering our deeper emotions:

If you respect your own emotions and regard them with affection and a lack of judgment, and if you persist in allowing yourself to feel those emotions and to let them move ever deeper, you shall find that the gift begins to bear fruit as you feel yourself becoming more spacious within, more responsive to the deeper emotions. You will find that you are an alchemist turning disharmony into harmony, fear into love, darkness into light. It is a natural process and it begins with the disharmony, with the darkness. Such are the ways of spirit.

To remove oneself from the coil of emotion that is shallow, or emotion that is numbed, one may sometimes find it helpful to seek a healer which works with the emotional dynamics and energies of entities. There is, in this type of healer, the energy which may be used, shall we say, as a jump start upon the clearing of emotional blockages. The energy of the teacher in this instance is critical, and those teachers which are not basically moving in joy need to turn within before teaching further, to find the absolute love which is the wisdom of the self for that greater Self which is Love. Love needs must answer love for the creation of each seeker to move into balance.

Perhaps the road to experiencing emotions more clearly and more deeply begins with the contemplation of the astounding, generous and infinite love of the one Creator. The Creator’s nature Itself is love infinite. Each of you is likewise imperishable and infinite, but in terms of the experience you now enjoy, you within the body are finite, limited and fooled by the illusion which is to teach you. Therefore, we suggest a daily alignment of affirmation and closeness with the love within one’s self which is infinite. Many negative emotions disturb the hearts of those who have not found pure emotion, and, instead of being uplifted by love, they feel judged, inadequate and unloving. This is because the surface healing emotions come from one rather than through one, and are easily exhausted or transformed into negative emotions of frustration, anger and guilt.

Thus, one is seeking that which one cannot put into words, that which may fill the being, so that the being is rich and full and vital, and spilling over with love, love infinite. In this atmosphere each entity becomes a healer, each entity becomes a channel, each entity becomes that which one would call Christ to those about one.

Purified emotion, whole and unblemished divine love, is the very axis upon which infinite intelligence built the myriad illusions which lead each imperishable soul along the path of inspiration, closeness to the one Creator, and an infinite capacity for compassion and service to others. Without emotion of a deep nature, the life experience lacks vividness, and it is more difficult for the seeker to make the choice of service to others or service to self with firmness of heart and intensity of passion.

Sometimes it is a long road which the pilgrim must wend upon its way to the experiencing of untutored and unregulated emotional truth. This is as it should be, and we ask each not to be discouraged as one again and again fails to realize the potential within the self, while manifesting this worshipful, sanctified and perfect love. Such deep truths are difficult to find within your illusion. So it was designed that each, by one lesson upon another, by persistence, and by the leap of faith, may become that which one was not before, consciously, that is a very creature of the Creator, a portion of infinite intelligence, an eternal, beautiful and perfect group of energies and expressions.

For, as you well know within your density, all that you see, including your own body, is illusory. That which you are indeed, in truth, is a complex of electromagnetic fields which hold within them the precious and infinite consciousness which, when purified, is one with the infinite Creator. Thus, each emotional blockage which may be found and dispelled, leaves a space, an emptiness, which is absolutely necessary in order that one may move from the emotions of the surface and the involvements of the day to a keener awareness of self as one with the Creator, a bearer of love, a messenger and channel of light to all whom you meet.

Now Q’uo suggested a few ways that we might purify our emotions so that they are deeper and genuine, and the first way was to seek a healer that was already in a state of joy and contact with the Creator’s love to help one become healed of the shallow emotions. Q’uo also said that it would be helpful to contemplate the infinite love of the Creator and find that love within one in order to heal the surface emotions that are the source of negative feelings like frustration, anger, and guilt. Then Q’uo said that this process of healing surface emotions and finding the love of the Creator to be a part of one’s deepest emotions might take a great deal of time and effort as we continue to learn the lessons of our incarnations that were designed to help us with this process. However, Q’uo said that such work is well worth the effort as the end result is that the continual removal of surface emotions makes more space within us for being able to see the self as one with the Creator and a channel of light for all to see. On December 15, 1996, Q’uo used the analogy of a piano tuner to show us how purifying our emotions provides a connection to the deepest part of our being:

So you may look upon the disciplines involved in purifying emotions within yourself as that job that the piano tuner does when it takes its vibrating instrument which, when struck, vibrates the A below middle C, and then attempts to tune the corresponding note upon the instrument to that precise vibratory rate. Each of your emotions has a perfect crystalline nature. It is buried within the distortions that keep you from seeing and hearing the beauty of that note of feeling, that emotion. So when you experience emotions, know that you are receiving information from a deep source, that is, from that large portion of your consciousness that resides at a level below the threshold of conscious awareness. Where words cannot go, emotions become vocabulary.

There is danger, as in any other pursuit, in working at the discovery of one’s emotions. The nature of the deep self is subtle, and is not to be manipulated from without. Rather, it is a matter of seeking faithfully and persistently in meditation and in action, to begin to observe the resonances of deep emotion which lie between the lines of the pages of everyday life. Emotion wells up within, the gift of the nature of the one infinite Creator to its infinite family, its heirs of glory.

We use the word glory most specifically and literally. There is within each seeking entity the dynamic of vitality and numbness, of joy and sorrow, of giving and receiving. It is those which harness the intellect as a dray horse for work upon the surface, and who move into meditation and deeper states of consciousness, which will find the emotions being released from within. A release of blocked emotion is greatly healing, and as one entity is healed and becomes more and more an intense and passionate creature of the light, one becomes less and less addicted to those everyday things which seem so important, and more and more tuned to the spontaneous actions of creative love. The glory of the universe of the infinite One is that each portion of it is full and instinct with profound and whole emotion, that is, the one great original Thought of Love, which is the Creator as well as the creation.

There is further aid when one has touched the heart of self and felt the release of blocked energies, and that is that one’s abilities to serve others in a compassionate manner are greatly aided, for entities of themselves within the third-density illusion cannot sustain an effort which is ideal. Ideals will always be overtaken by practicalities, adjustments, compromises. Better it is for one to retire from the human arena in a persistently regularized manner, seeking within, listening within, asking to know the deepest portions, the most intelligent portions of the self, which move in emotion and archetype.

The developing of genuine purified emotion is for most a long and toilsome task, where so much of the cultural conditioning is that which, in the case of some, encourages the bubbling of surface emotion, and in others the refusal to express feeling in any way. Such are the ways your culture deadens souls to their true purpose, which is to seek persistently, patiently and prayerfully, to know, and to be with the One.

Once one realizes that within oneself lies holy ground, one knows and trusts far better the path of seeking within, for as we said, emotion that is artificially created is easy emotion, emotion which must be renewed as a library book must be renewed. It is not lasting and it requires constant nurturing and stimulation from without.

Each entity will, because of cultural conditioning, have to more or less extent some measure of blockage within those energy centers which feed the heart energy center. Thus, no one is alone in doubting and asking, yet also no one who seeks to remedy this situation by meditation and contemplation shall be a complete failure, for it is sheer intent, intensity of desire, that moves one beyond the self in surrender to that other Self which is the true nature of the ephemeral third-density self.

Then Q’uo said that the nature of our deeper self is subtle, and we need to use meditation and action to access the deep emotions of the love of the Creator that are a part of Its gift to all of the creation. They said that as we are able to release blocked emotions that this is very healing, and we can become beings of light and be of greater service to all. But then Q’uo said that everyone will have some blockage of the energy centers that will have occurred as a part of our cultural conditioning, and in order to remedy this situation we will need to exercise a strong desire to surrender our small self to our greater Self and open our hearts to feel Its great love. On June 2, 1985, Latwii described the fruit of surrendering the self to the Creator:

To surrender the self, to surrender the decision-making ability in a large degree and to give over the self to the use of the one Creator is the second manner which is most successful and least often chosen among your peoples. To await that which is within is difficult, for you see others seeming to serve very effectively in a manner which is apparent and seems to bear fruit. That you are not first on your block to do so is discouraging, but that you shall eventually do so gives you comfort, and that you shall choose to do so in such and such a manner seems to give more comfort. But, my friends, may we suggest that you give over your desire to do this or to do that in this or that manner and pray that the one Creator moves through you in the way most salubrious, shall we say, for true service to be manifested through being. For each has at least one ability which shall be developed.

The instrument informs us that we must cut short our unfortunately prolix dissertation. We are sorry for being unaware of the passage of time, but within your dimension the realization of the time you experience is most difficult for us, and there is much to say upon this subject. We shall simply say to each that the release of negative emotion such as guilt, anger, humiliation and resentment is an incredible healing which is only possible through the infinite love of the one Creator, and through one’s identification with that love, and one’s dedication to seeking in the deepest and most aesthetically beautiful way possible, to be truth incarnate, to express love divine, to allow oneself to be a channel of compassion and nonjudgmental aid.

We encourage each to seek the holy ground within, to find praise and give thanks for the glory, for beauty, the infinite majesty of the one great original Thought. The heavens sing with His glory, the trees and mountains dance, and all stars and planets sing a song of passionate love for the Creator unmanifest, and for each of you, the Creator made manifest and given complete free will.

We encourage you each to seek the deeper truths within, to allow negative emotions to be balanced and to fall away, as it is natural for them to do in the light of unconditional love. May each of you discover within the inner room the infinity within oneself, the purified emotion which in full strength is the Logos.

What is the function of emotion? It is intelligence which produces profound and fundamental transformation. Only the heart, when released from stricture, may be so. The approach of intellect, the approach from the outside in, the approach of believing this or that, is most frequently fruitless. It is the opening of oneself to free-floating and abstract faith, the faith that all is as it was planned to be, the faith that that which was planned is helpful and full of love, which moves the seeker onward most swiftly upon the path of spiritual evolution.

Rejoice, each soul who finds release from numbness or surface addictions. We rejoice with you as you seek the heart of the self which is the greater Self. Respect deep emotion. Realize that the vital energies are based upon one’s ability to have faith and to dwell in an emotional state of unconditional love. Daily meditation, daily contemplation, and what analysis the brain may perform, is suggested for all who seek, for you are seeking to change into the awareness of the self which is imperishable. Forgiveness is an emotion, not a mental process, and it is the key to the advancement of the self in polarization of service to the one infinite Creator. May you respect and encourage intense, loving emotion. May you find it acceptable to release numbness and surface emotion as meditation matures and strengthens the deeper self within.

Q’uo said that we can achieve healing of our negative emotions by identifying with the infinite love that the Creator has for us, and then shining it out into the world around us as channels of compassion and service. They said that the function of emotions is to produce profound and fundamental transformations through contacting the love in our hearts which is actually the love of the greater Self. Q’uo completed their response by saying that forgiveness is an emotion that allows us to serve the Creator more fully, and that meditation reveals the deeper self within us where we can find this forgiveness. On March 28, 1993, Q’uo spoke of forgiveness as that which allows us to serve the Creator more fully:

So we have the situation where forgiveness is intellectually considered as being accomplished but within the emotional portion of the mind, body and spirit the forgiveness is not believed because the self deeply rejects the forgiveness since there remains unhealed memory. You have perhaps heard us before speak of something we call “healing of the incarnation.” In your third-density incarnative experience this is the heart of work in consciousness, for if the incarnation be healed the potentiated and polarized servant is then free to offer with purity the life to the Infinite Creator. As each looks upon its “if onlys” we ask that each consider that these unhealed memories dim and make tenuous the pure light which is the manifestation of love, which empowers each servant of the One Infinite Creator.

We thank this instrument, and would like to close the meeting through the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and light. I am Q’uo.

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This morning I changed out my bedding and washed the blue sheets, pillow cases, and bed spread and then put my green sheets on the bed. Then I  made a short errand run to the Post Office to mail a package and pick up some Christmas stamps for the L/L Research Christmas cards that I will begin working on next week. My second stop was at the City Clerk’s office to pick up two calendars for 2024.

This afternoon I vacuumed the first floor of the house, and in the evening I did my second load of laundry which is my normal Friday laundry.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 1

The Bloom And Fruit Of Peace

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

Peace is much sought after among your people. Yet as you gaze out upon a barren winter landscape you may not see the great peace which is engendered by all those plants as they dream within the seeds and roots of their being, creating by will and thought and the grace of Jesus Christ those formations and changes which in time shall bring forth bloom and fruit.

The human idea of peace is rest without thought. Yet the inner man seeks a different peace and must listen to the voices of the natural world and the inner signal of creation and inner change. This is the peace that is spiritual and frequently it feels not at all like peace but rather like strife. For change and growth are painful, and there may be long periods when there is no evidence of bloom or fruit.

May the peace of Jesus the Christ be your hope and your inner reality, that you may grow more and more into the kingdom of heaven. We leave you in the peace that truly passes all human understanding, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.