I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the quote from 102 comes from Chapter Two and the section on Service to Others:

The Service-to-Others Path

52.11 Questioner: Well, is there then, from the point of view of an individual who wishes to follow the service-to-others path from our present position in third density, is there anything of importance other than disciplines of personality, knowledge of self, and strengthening of will?

Ra: I am Ra. This is technique. This is not the heart. Let us examine the heart of evolution.

Let us remember that we are all one. This is the great learning/teaching. In this unity lies love. This is a great learn/teaching. In this unity lies light. This is the fundamental teaching of all planes of existence in materialization. Unity, love, light, and joy; this is the heart of evolution of the spirit.

The second-ranking lessons are learn/taught in meditation and in service. At some point the mind/body/spirit complex is so smoothly activated and balanced by these central thoughts or distortions that the techniques you have mentioned become quite significant. However, the universe, its mystery unbroken, is one. Always begin and end in the Creator, not in technique.

Ra made it clear that the heart of the service-to-others path is the fact that we are all part of the unity of the entire creation. We are all part of the One Infinite Creator. In this third-density illusion we normally do not see or feel this unity with the creation and the Creator unless we have traveled the path of service to others for quite some time. Traveling this path can be seen as an endless array of choices to be of service to others in our conscious spiritual journey. Each choice of service makes us a more polarized being in the positive sense and gives us further opportunities to continue to realize, in ever more profound ways, that we do contain the One Creator within our beings. We are Players on the Enhanced Game Board of life.

Ra said, “within this unity lies light”. The creative power of love becomes the focus of the One Creator as it sets about realizing its desire to know Itself. This great desire to experience more of Its infinite Self—more than the harvest of the previous octave of experience that has coalesced in Its infinite being—becomes a free will desire of cosmic proportions that focuses through the creative power of Love, and what we see as light in an infinity of galaxies is produced. All of these Logoi that spring from the Primal Logos, or Love, then continue this creative process to produce sub-Logoi, planets, life forms of infinite variety, and all of these creations and entities are made of light.

To consciously partake in this unity, love, and light brings the realization of our very being as having these qualities within us so that we have the equivalent of the universe contained within ourselves. This realization causes joy to bubble up from within us in whatever degree of realization we may have achieved, mental or spiritual. These are precious moments of Self-realization that become a comfort when times get difficult and we have to deal with disharmony and indecision as Q’uo mentions in this quote.

“Many entities among your people and those to whom we speak at this time feel much loneliness within your third-density illusion because it is difficult to deal with the vibrations that are harsh and confrontive and cause one to make choices without enough knowledge. That is the key. You are never given enough knowledge to make an intellectual decision. You must do the meditating, the listening so that you may be intuitively inspired to know when the time has come for you to concentrate every iota of your being in love and compassion for another. There is no service that is small. All service is gauged by the intensity of the intention to serve. That is what you will be looking for when it you review your incarnation.” Q’uo, August 13, 1989

Here, Q’uo reminded us that the overarching principles of unity, love, and light that Ra spoke of do not always have center stage within our daily experience. The reality of our lives many times must be faced in a way which we ourselves have to devise. If we wish to be Players on the Enhanced Game Board, we need to make our lives a constant conscious choice of polarity. If we have seeming obstacles like loneliness, we need to be able to use this reality as a starting point in seeing the purpose of this type of solitude so that we can utilize it in a manner that will eventually enhance our ability and desire to serve.

Many times it will be necessary for us to walk through these inner fires in order to purify those qualities of ourselves that may block our desire and abilities to serve others. These inner challenges ensure that we will be able to heal ourselves before we attempt to heal or serve another. These challenges give us the opportunity to prepare ourselves to grow stronger as polarized beings who desire to be of service to others as our life’s work.

So how do we do this inner work? Q’uo reminded us that so many times we are not given enough information as to how to do it. There may not be any obvious answers on the surface of our experience, so we need to dive down into meditation and set ourselves to listening in the silence to those intuitive flashes that come out of the blue, so to speak. Our subconscious minds, our higher selves, our teachers and guides, and the One Creator all have the desire and ability to give us clues that will serve as guides in our daily life. These hints and clues are precious whether they are clearly perceived as words or perhaps simply take the form of an image of us taking a certain road, or a feeling in our hearts of the way to proceed.

Then we can follow that path in our great desire to be of service to others in whatever form it make take. And as Q’uo said, the size of the service is unimportant. What is important is our desire to serve, to give of ourselves in time and talent that truly reflects the pure desire within our hearts and souls to be of service to others. We can never really know whether or not we have been of service. We can only know that we have a burning desire to do so and that we have given our best effort in an attempt to do so. As Players this burning desire becomes the very nature of our being made manifest within the third-density illusion.

“You see, this third-density experience is biased, in the outer sense, towards service to self. This makes all entities uncomfortable and puts one in the position of choosing. This is the point of this particular density. It is especially the point of the density at this time, as each entity prepares for the walk of light and each entity wishes to move comfortably into the more dense and living light of the one infinite Creator which creates the illusion of fourth density.” Q’uo, November 5, 1989

We are living in the third-density illusion where the primary focus of most of the people on Earth is to be of service to themselves with occasional nods to being of service to others if it is convenient. Our culture teaches us that in order to be successful we need to have a good job, make lots of money, have a beautiful home, an ideal family, and be well thought of in our local community. Any mention of being of service to others, just for the sake of being of service to others, is relegated to the bottom line of what would be the profit in such action. We live in the land of the flat game board.

So, when we feel the desire to be of service to others in a selfless way, we are liable to be judged as foolish and ignorant. This peer pressure to pursue the common goals and forget to move in tune with our hearts will require of us that we continue to make this choice to serve others over and over. There are endless opportunities to increase our positive polarity, not just in the face of such peer pressure but because we have made The Choice again and again as a clear signal of our life’s purpose and heart’s desire.

Many spiritual seekers feel that after they have repeatedly made these choices the whole process should eventually become easier. There is the hope of becoming so good at it that, due to practice, it won’t take so much effort anymore. But that is not usually—if ever—the case.

Along the evolutionary journey there is always a new challenge around the bend—one that is a match for your level of spiritual growth. Just as we must lift heavier weights to increase our physical fitness as our bodies get stronger, we will need to lift heavier metaphysical weights in order to further polarize our consciousness. In order for us to continue growing as Players we need to be able to see the deeper rewards of processing ongoing daily catalyst and to follow that inner star that leads us through the darkness of this third-density illusion and into the light-filled realms of the fourth-density Harvest.

17.30 Questioner: Well, if an entity wants to learn ways of it, wants to be of service to others rather than service to self while he is in this third density, are there best ways of being of service to others, or is any way just as good as any other way?

Ra: I am Ra. The best way of service to others is the constant attempt to seek to share the love of the Creator as it is known to the inner self. This involves self knowledge and the ability to open the self to the other-self without hesitation. This involves, shall we say, radiating that which is the essence or the heart of the mind/body/spirit complex.

Speaking to the intention of your question, the best way for each seeker in third density to be of service to others is unique to that mind/body/spirit complex. This means that the mind/body/spirit complex must then seek within itself the intelligence of its own discernment as to the way it may best serve other-selves. This will be different for each. There is no best. There is no generalization. Nothing is known.

Ra suggested that the best way, in general, to be of service to others is to share what we feel and believe, in the very heart of our being, is true of the One Creator every time we have a chance to do so. In order to do this it is necessary that we have thought long and hard on how we view the Creator and Its place in our life and within our inner being. It is most helpful for us to have used meditation as the heart of our path of seeking the truth because the greatest truth that we can realize, in my opinion, is that the One Creator lives within us and can guide us in any way that we are able to perceive it: words, images, intuitions, dreams, feelings, coincidences, and so on. Sharing with others just how these realizations and experiences of the Creator in our lives has aided our spiritual journey is a most compelling way to serve others.

Each of us is unique, and our spiritual journeys are unique as well. It is up to each of us to determine what kind of sharing we may do with others and when is the appropriate time to share. Ra suggested that there was no hard and fast rule in such a service. We just have to consult our hearts and our desire to be of service whenever and however we may do so.

The consciousness of the Creator flows through our heart when we sit in meditation and the Creator speaks to us in thoughts too deep for words. But the feeling of the message wells up from this deep connection with the Creator to give us directions and messages that we can perceive through our intuition, and feelings that can then inspire our thoughts and actions.

This morning, once again, I used the garden hose and watering wand to water the flowers in the front and back yards. I had already used the sprinkler set on the top frame of the fish pond to water the side yard. While I was at it, I also watered the small forsythia bushes on my north and south borders. Then I began bringing in more house plants as there is the possibility of a frost this weekend. I had to be sure that Boscoe was not near the door that I was using to bring the house plants in because I would not want him to get outside. He has been downstairs for a week now and is enjoying exploring the first floor and the basement as his new territory.

This afternoon I completed bringing in all of the house plants and putting them in either the living room, the area behind the kitchen, or in the office. My last job was to vacuum the first floor of the various kinds of leaves and stems that came off some of the house plants.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 4

The One Sea Of Love

Greetings in the love of Jesus the Christ. We are of the consciousness of love in the vibration which comforts this channel.

We encourage you to rejoice, one with another, for all your seeming differences are but shadows. The one who calls upon the Allah, the Zoroaster, the Christ or the Buddha, calls not to separate oceans, but to one great sea of love. All differences are structures created by the perceptions of dreamers. And yet all shall awaken. And as you rejoice then, so may you rejoice now in the promise of awakening.

Peace be with you. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, our minds, and our souls to send love, light, and healing energies to Mother Earth as she brings forth a New Earth in fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energies of the One Infinite Creator heal the heart of each soul in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energies in their hearts, in their minds, and in their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the quote from 102 comes from Chapter Two and the section on the Service to Self path:

The Service-to-Self Path

The description of polarity as service to self and service to others, from the beginning of our creation, dwelt within the architecture of the primal Logos. Before the veiling process the impact of actions taken by mind/body/spirits upon their consciousnesses was not palpable to a significant enough degree to allow the expression of this polarity to be significantly useful. Over the period of what you would call time this expression of polarity did, indeed, work to alter the biases of mind/body/spirits so that they might eventually be harvested. The veiling process made the polarity far more effective. Ra, 93.5

In our studies with Ra, we discovered that the basis for the service-to-others and the service-to-self paths was inlaid by our Primal Logos at the very beginning of the creation. It is an interesting thought that both polarities are inherent in the framework of the universe because it suggests that there was a grand overview of the upcoming experience of the Creator by Its infinite portions of Itself. It seems that this plan was set in place in case it was needed by the evolving third-density entities that existed before the veil of forgetting was implemented. It would seem that the means of inventing a way to manifest it would be the part of the puzzle that was left to the various Logoi by the Primal Logos.

Ever since that moment long ago when the veil descended upon the third density experience, we in third density have lived in a world of apparent separation. Ra mentioned that animals, who are second-density beings, do not have a veil. They see themselves as part of their group, and they serve that “group-self “in a way that cannot be considered negative. Likewise, entities who are new to third density still possess some of this “innocence”, or natural tribal thinking. Ra explained that the veil eventually produces a sense of individual self, and therefore, a sense of other-self—or “not me”–, which leads to choices that can be considered polarized.

19.15 The second-density concept of serving self includes the serving of those associated with tribe or pack. This is not seen in second density as separation of self and other-self. All is seen as self since in some forms of second-density entities, if the tribe or pack becomes weakened, so does the entity within the tribe or pack.

The new or initial third-density entity has this innocent, shall we say, bias or distortion towards viewing those in the family, the society, as you would call, perhaps, country, as self. Thus though a distortion not helpful for progress in third density, it is without polarity.

The break becomes apparent when the entity perceives other-selves as other-selves and consciously determines to manipulate other-selves for the benefit of the self. This is the beginning of the road of which you speak.

So, a newly-minted third-density being still thinks a bit like an animal, but only due to not yet fully realizing its individuality, since the animal will see other members of its tribe or pack as itself. This instinctual point of view will dictate behaviors that reflect a kind of service to “self” that is not of a polarizing nature.

Apparently this type of behavior of second-density animals can be carried over into third density when the animals have accumulated enough self-consciousness to activate the spirit complex and graduate into the third density. Then this behavior will still not have any polarizing effect or benefit in the third-density experience. It is only when the new third-density entity sees other selves as different from the self and attempts to control these other selves for the benefit of the self that the beginning of the service-to-self road begins.

19.16 Questioner: Then, through free will, sometime in the third-density experience, the path splits and an entity consciously— probably does not consciously choose. Does an entity consciously choose this path at the initial splitting point?

Ra: I am Ra. We speak in generalities which is dangerous for always inaccurate. However, we realize you look for the overview; so we will eliminate anomalies and speak of majorities.

The majority of third-density beings is far along the chosen path before realization of that path is conscious.

This early tendency to behave in service to the self that began innocently and without polarity can eventually turn into the service-to-self path when the new third-density entity consciously seeks to control other selves. This slow evolution of third-density consciousness is apparently unconscious for some time before it becomes a consciously realized and persistent path for the new third-density entity. I would imagine that the efficiency of this path would increase with time.

The more conscious one on the service-to-self path becomes in separating the self from others and in controlling other selves, the more polarity and power it gains. Among those who are subjected to this control and manipulation, there are various choices to be made. While some entities seek to free themselves from this treatment, even attempting to open their hearts and to refrain from engaging in negative behavior for their own protection, others feel that this service-to-self behavior is fitting. Therefore, some accept being manipulated and choose to learn how to get better at doing the same. They willingly participate in a hierarchy of power and control, serving their self-interested leaders as a way to gain more power for themselves. This is the structure of the negative path.

19.17 Questioner: Can you tell me what bias creates their momentum toward the chosen path of service to self?

Ra: I am Ra. We can speak only in metaphor. Some love the light. Some love the darkness. It is a matter of the unique and infinitely various Creator choosing and playing among its experiences as a child upon a picnic. Some enjoy the picnic and find the sun beautiful, the food delicious, the games refreshing, and glow with the joy of creation. Some find the night delicious, their picnic being pain, difficulty, sufferings of others, and the examination of the perversities of nature. These enjoy a different picnic.

All these experiences are available. It is free will of each entity which chooses the form of play, the form of pleasure.

In the above quote Ra shed some light on the basic qualities that might contribute to evolution of consciousness within the early third-density negative entity. The negative path is now giving the Creator a whole new flavor of experiences by which It will come to know Itself. That might sound a bit macabre, but we have to remember that everything of both positive and negative natures is happening to the Creator by the Creator’s own hands, since all is the Creator. However, the true nature of the Creator as being all things is hidden within the third-density illusion by the veil of forgetting, so it may appear that there are victims and perpetrators, but there is only the Creator being expressed in an infinity of ways which are now colored by two polarities: service to others and service to self.

54.19 Questioner: In the case of service-to-self polarization, what type of catalyst would entities following this path program when they reach the level of programming their own catalyst?

Ra: I am Ra. The negatively oriented entity will program for maximal separation from and control over all those things and conscious entities which it perceives as being other than the self.

These pre-incarnative choices often include entities which program wealth in their lives, the acquisition of power, the easy life, health, and good looks on the more desirable side—which is not to say that these things cannot be features of the positive life as well; but a negatively-polarizing entity may plan for a lifetime of anger, hatred, and frustration to enhance the separation between itself and others. The newly evolving negatively-oriented entity eventually becomes conscious of the service-to-self path and begins to program future incarnations with those qualities that will promote its selfish desires in upcoming incarnations.

17.32 Questioner: What must be the entity’s percentage, shall we say, if he is to be harvested for the negative?

Ra: I am Ra. The entity who wishes to pursue the path of service to self must attain a grade of five, that is five percent service to others, ninety-five percent service to self. It must approach totality. The negative path is quite difficult to attain harvestability upon and requires great dedication.

In order to make the Harvest into the fourth density the negatively-oriented entity must be very effective in its separation from and control over others. It uses the lower three energy centers to bring others under its enslaving influence. It utilizes the red-ray chakra to achieve sexual domination to control others in personal ritual magic. It works within the orange-ray chakra to manifest its separation and control of others on a one-to-one basis. It does the same in the yellow-ray chakra as it functions within the group setting to achieve a broader expression of its power by attempting to enslave groups of people and to use groups to enslave other groups.

The negative adept refuses to open its heart because it is of the firm opinion that green-ray energy of love and compassion for others is the height of foolishness. Once this Harvest has been obtained it finds itself in the fourth density, practicing service only to the self. They are surrounded by many other negatively-oriented entities that have also been able to achieve this level of ninety-five percent service to the self. Though at times they work together to achieve their goals, this “cooperation” reflects each entity’s selfish desire to become more powerful and dominant. 

38.14 Questioner: All right, I’ll just ask this one. I have here that— could you give me some idea of what conditions are like on a fourth-density negative or self-service planet? Can you do this?

Ra: I am Ra. The graduation into fourth-density negative is achieved by those beings who have consciously contacted intelligent infinity through the use of red, orange, and yellow rays of energy. Therefore, the planetary conditions of fourth-density negative include the constant alignment and realignment of entities in efforts to form the dominant patterns of combined energy.

The early fourth density is one of the most intensive struggle. When the order of authority has been established and all have fought until convinced that each is in the proper placement for power structure, the social memory complex begins. Always the fourth-density effects of telepathy and the transparency of thought are attempted to be used for the sake of those at the apex of the power structure.

This, as you may see, is often quite damaging to the further polarization of fourth-density negative entities, for the further negative polarization can only come about through group effort. As the fourth-density entities manage to combine, they then polarize through such services to self as those offered by the crusaders of Orion.

So, after our fourth-density negative graduates have made the Harvest they find themselves having to do a kind of battle of wills with a multitude of other negative graduates, all of whom wish to be the boss. Once everyone has had an opportunity to exercise their desire for power to determine just what the pecking order will be, then the group mind takes shape. This is called a social memory complex by Ra, wherein each entity has access to one another’s thoughts, memories, and experiences. Though the social memory complex also exists upon the positive path, it is used differently in negative fourth density, where each entity utilizes whatever it learns about the others to help it vie for power. This results in a constant rearranging of the pecking order.

At some point the negative social memory complex will find itself in competition for power with other negative social memory complexes so that there then forms a pecking order of social memory complexes according to the relative power of each, and a group of such social memory complexes is born. In our portion of creation, all negative entities are referred to by Ra as the Orion group, simply because the leaders of this group hail from the area of the Orion constellation.

Questioner: What is the density of the Orion group?

Ra: I am Ra. Like the Confederation, the densities of the mass consciousnesses which comprise that group are varied. There are a very few third density, a larger number of fourth density, a similarly large number of fifth density, and very few sixth-density entities comprising this organization. Their numbers are perhaps one-tenth ours at any point in the space/time continuum as the problem of spiritual entropy causes them to experience constant disintegration of their social memory complexes. Their power is the same as ours. The Law of One blinks neither at the light or the darkness, but is available for service to others and service to self. However, service to others results in service to self, thus preserving and further harmonizing the distortions of those entities seeking intelligent infinity through these disciplines.

Those seeking intelligent infinity through the use of service to self create the same amount of power but, as we said, have constant difficulty because of the concept of separation which is implicit in the manifestations of the service to self which involve power over others. This weakens and eventually disintegrates the energy collected by such mind/body/spirit complexes who call the Orion group and the social memory complexes which comprise the Orion group.

It should be noted, carefully pondered, and accepted, that the Law of One is available to any social memory complex which has decided to strive together for any seeking of purpose, be it service to others or service to self. The laws, which are the primal distortions of the Law of One, then are placed into operation and the illusion of space/time is used as a medium for the development of the results of those choices freely made. Thus all entities learn, no matter what they seek. All learn the same, some rapidly, some slowly.

The natural outgrowth of negative activities is that there would be a massive attempt to separate from and control other selves and eventually create an empire that may be ruled in a manner that gives more power to the apex of the social memory complexes which comprise the Orion group. This grouping of negative social memory complexes attempts to continue to gain more power by adding third-density planets to their ranks of the enslaved before those planets can achieve the level of a social memory complex of either the positive or the negative path.

However, it is interesting that the negative path suffers from what Ra called “spiritual entropy” that is due to the basic nature of separation. Because each entity wishes to gather power for itself—and not share it with the group—there is a continual loss of spiritual energies by the group that weakens the group. At some point this spiritual entropy will result in the negative path being abandoned as Ra mentions in the next quote.

78.25 Questioner: Then you are saying as a result of the polarization in consciousness that has occurred later in the galactic evolution, that the experiences are much more, shall I say, profound or deeper along the two paths. Are these experiences independent of the other path or must there be action across the potentiated difference between the positive and negative polarity, or is it possible to have this experience simply because of the single polarity? This is difficult to ask.

Ra: I am Ra. We would agree. We shall attempt to pluck the gist of your query from the surrounding verbiage.

The fourth and fifth densities are quite independent, the positive polarity functioning with no need of negative and vice-versa. It is to be noted that in attempting to sway third-density mind/body/spirit complexes in choosing polarity there evolves a good bit of interaction between the two polarities. In sixth density, the density of unity, the positive and negative paths must needs take in each other for all now must be seen as love/light and light/love. This is not difficult for the positive polarity, which sends love and light to all other-selves. It is difficult enough for service-to-self polarized entities that at some point the negative polarity is abandoned.

So now, having traveled the road of service-to-self long enough to see how it functions as the “path of that which is not”—that is, separation and control rather than unity and free will—what is the eventual outcome for these power-hungry souls? They have made the Harvest into the fourth density; they have joined a negatively-oriented social memory complex; they have expanded further into a super group of negative social memory complexes; and they have formed the Orion Empire. Ra suggested that this path would move through the fourth density, the fifth density, and then in the sixth density a problem develops that halts further progress.

In the sixth density the work is to balance the love and compassion of the fourth density with the wisdom of the fifth density. This blending of love and wisdom realizes and reflects the ultimate unity of all creation and all entities within the creation. When the negatively-oriented social memory complexes, and individual entities within such groupings, encounter this basic requirement that is necessary to continue progress within the sixth density, the spiritual entropy which has constantly plagued the negative path becomes the stopper to the negative progress.

The concept of unity requires that all see each entity within the creation as part of the One Self. This is not difficult for the positive path of service to others, for this path has always seen all beings as one and has always sent love and light to all beings—including those on the service-to-self path—for they are their other selves. This necessity of seeing all as One is impossible for those on the service-to-self path. As a result, in order to progress any further in unity with the One Creator the negative path must be abandoned. Then the power accumulated by the negative entities is used to switch polarities and become positively oriented.

Thusly the two paths merge and all move forward together as sixth-density beings in social memory complexes. The One Creator has become immensely enriched by all of the positively and negatively oriented entities that have given It a wealth of ways to know Itself. This would not have been possible without the two paths polarizing so effectively through the mid-sixth density. After that point all progress is made without the need to use the concept of polarity.

In 64.6 Ra summarized this type of seeking process:

We seek now without polarity. Thus we do not invoke any power from without, for our search has become internalized as we become light/love and love/light. These are the balances we seek, the balances between compassion and wisdom which more and more allow our understanding of experience to be informed that we may come closer to the unity with the One Creator which we so joyfully seek.

This morning I starting bringing in the house plants from out on the deck behind the house. I got the three biggest ones in and placed where there was room for them in the area behind the kitchen. Then I went up to The Home Depot to get a pot that will be large enough to go under the Christmas Fern that is presently hanging around the fish pond.

This afternoon I went to Baptist Hospital for my Pre-Admissions testing for the hip replacement surgery that I will have on October 24. I have severe osteoarthritis in my right hip that has been getting worse and worse over the past few years, so now I am looking forward to having the hip joint replaced and getting rid of the pain.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 3

Heavenly Food

I am of that principle which is known as the love of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

How peculiar it must seem to have such glory in the inside experience of meditation, contemplation, praise and thanksgiving, only to find that two steps into the world and all of the strength of your faith is distorted and confused. How very disconcerting!

This is done on purpose, my children, not for your comfort but for your growth. There are various agendas for various entities; various lessons of love they wish to learn. And thus this catalyst must take place that has neither a good nor a negative connotation. It is simply that which you came here to experience and to find a way to change from nonsense poetry to the rich tapestry of heartfelt and painstaking stitchery of clear, clear colors of emotions, of love in relationships, and of self-forgiveness.

Do not allow this dark illusion to keep you from being aware of the infinite light in which you dwell. You need not say a word to another to do this work. It is simply altering a program within the mind that you may, out of habit, begin to think about the Creator.

The Comforter has been promised to you. We do not stop those things which you consider negative from happening. We are simply there to accompany you through the difficulties. Please ask for our help, for we cannot infringe. And no matter how fast you may run this day, no matter how many things you have to do, try to stay centered in the present moment where all intersects with eternity.

We leave you in the peace that is the transcendence of this illusion and in the principle of divine and unconditional love and peace, both now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, our minds, and our souls to send love, light, and healing energies to Mother Earth as she brings forth a New Earth in fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energies of the One Infinite Creator heal the heart of each soul in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energies in their hearts, in their minds, and in their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the quote from 102 comes from Chapter Two and concerns the section on The Choice of the Paths:

Carla’s goals for Chapter 2—I talk about the two paths and how each choice we make in everyday life can be that first choice, if we have not yet consciously made it, and also how it can function as a way to follow up the initial choice with further choices along the same line of polarity, thus building personal power.

Chapter Two: The Choice of the Paths

The Fork in the Road/the Choice

The first beings of mind, body, and spirit were not complex. The experience of mind/body/spirits at the beginning of this octave of experience was singular. There was no third-density forgetting. There was no veil. The lessons of third density are predestined by the very nature of the vibratory rates experienced during this particular density and by the nature of the quantum jump to the vibratory experiences of fourth density. Ra, 82.12.

There was a time many unknown millions of years ago, at the beginning of the universe as we know it, when making the Choice was not much of an option.  Third-density beings did not possess a “veil of forgetting”—that invisible partition between the conscious and subconscious minds which produces the illusion of separation from the Creator. Since each entity viewed itself and all others as the Creator, service to others was natural, virtually automatic.

But this understanding presented a problem: third-density beings did not have to consciously strive to open their hearts. The world was full of love but lacked opportunity for personal growth. Entities didn’t face the challenges that we face today, because they did not live within an illusion of separation from one another and from the Creator. They didn’t have any tough choices to make that would allow them to exercise and strengthen their free will to love and serve one another, or to seek deeper ways of knowing the Creator. Harmony was in-built, so the lessons of working toward harmony were not available. Further, the environment was so comfortable that there was no motivation to transcend it! 

Consequently, the beliefs and actions of third-density entities did nothing to help them “graduate” to the next classroom in the school of life. Instead of needing to make difficult choices, these beings could simply glide along, knowing that all was well and all was One.  This led them to have to repeat third density again and again.

So, the various Logoi (the sun-body co-creators of the early galaxies), sought to find a means of accelerating evolution. 

Questioner: Then even though, from our point of view, there was great evolutionary experience it was deemed at some point by the evolving Logos that an experiment to create a greater experience was appropriate. Is this correct?

Ra: I am Ra. This is correct and may benefit from comment. The Logos is aware of the nature of the third-density requirement for what you have called graduation. All the previous, if you would use this term, experiments, although resulting in many experiences, lacked what was considered the crucial ingredient; that is, polarization. There was little enough tendency for experience to polarize entities that entities repeated habitually the third-density cycles many times over. It was desired that the potential for polarization be made more available.  Ra, 82.21.

And so, by intelligent design of the Logos, the veil of forgetting descended upon third density, and the Edenic state of the unity of all things and all entities was hidden from the conscious mind. Beyond the veil now lay the unconscious mind, full of deeper truth just waiting to be discovered by the evolving entity.

83.19 Questioner: What was the mechanism of the very first veiling process? I don’t know if you can answer that. Would you try to, though, answer that?

Ra: I am Ra. The mechanism of the veiling between the conscious and unconscious portions of the mind was a declaration that the mind was complex. This, in turn, caused the body and the spirit to become complex.

With the veil, the mind became complex, having “more than one characteristic element or concept.” (79.19) The vast contents of the unconscious mind—which is connected to the deeper racial mind, planetary mind, and cosmic mind—were not available to the conscious mind on a constant basis anymore. No longer could a third-density entity see its pre-incarnative choices, the unity of the creation, the Creator in all things and all entities, or the power of love that had made all of the creation out of light. Ra summarized the situation eloquently:

The primary veiling was of such significance that it may be seen to be analogous to the mantling of the Earth over all the jewels within the Earth’s crust; whereas previously all facets of the Creator were consciously known. After the veiling, almost no facets of the Creator were known to the mind. Almost all was buried beneath the veil. ”85.19

The result of this great experiment of the veil of forgetting being placed between the conscious and unconscious mind was the creation of a “Fork in the Road”, as the seeker of truth could now discover that it had the option to polarize toward service to self or service to others. This was because the environment changed to one of apparent separation, where the seeker would have to use its will and faith to discover the unity and perfection that lay beyond the veil, or else live in a land of illusion, seeking only comfort and the control of things that it found to be unacceptable. What an incredible thought that if you removed the knowledge of the Creator having created the universe with the power of love; if you hid the fact that the universe was made out of light; if you erased all obvious connections between people and the creation, and you disguised unity as separation . . . that all of this would make the evolutionary process more efficient rather than less efficient!

This Choice between the two polarities caused a quicker polarization in consciousness so that it became possible to be able to make the fourth-density Harvest in one cycle of 75,000 years. All of the sudden there was the Player on the Enhanced Game Board being born from the many players on the flat game board. The Game became more interesting, more varied, more imbued with catalyst where misperceptions and misunderstandings could be used to increase the accuracy of one’s perceptions and understandings.

Despite the veiling, there is a universal principle in operation: entities yearn to seek the hidden truth as the Creator likewise yearns to gather the fruits of Its experience through all entities everywhere. In the following quote, Don asks about this principle, which was mentioned in a work channeled by other seekers.

39.6 Questioner: Thank you. Can you tell me— can you interpret a transmission from “The Nine,” where they say “CH is a principle which is the revealing principle of knowledge and law?” Can you tell me what that principle is?

Ra: I am Ra. The principle so veiled in that statement is but the simple principle of the constant or Creator and the transient or the incarnate being and the yearning existing between the two, one for the other, in love and light amidst the distortions of free will acting upon the illusion-bound entity.

Even though we have the veil of forgetting hiding the Creator in all things from our outer sight, we still have the Creator within us that “yearns” to be a more conscious part of our life experience. And we have this distant “yearning” in ourselves as well to find that something, that memory, that experience of joy and meaning that dwells deep within our being. Somehow, we know that there is more to our lives than the mundane world of illusion has to offer. We dream a more personal dream of meaning, direction, joy, wholeness, and expansion of consciousness. As Players on the Enhanced Game Board we continue to follow that dream while most of those around us remain players on the flat gameboard of life and accept the illusion as the reality of their existence. As Players we know that we exist in an illusion, but we see it as an illusion with the purpose of requiring us to bend every effort to penetrate the veil of forgetting and polarize our consciousness ever more powerfully in the positive sense of service to others, so that we may return to unity. So, the veil promoted The Choice, making the Harvest to the fourth density much more likely, as it would become desired by every seeker of truth.

This morning I used my garden hose and watering wand to water the flowers in the front and back yards since it has been nearly three weeks since we have had any rain. I used the sprinkler on the side yard yesterday, so I didn’t have to water it again today.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 2

Heavenly Food

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine compassion.

Each of you is most intent upon being of service to others. We applaud this desire. But the spirit of love must be nourished. And we encourage each of you to be most careful to offer the self that heavenly food which makes being of service to others possible.

For to give from oneself is to deplete oneself. To give through oneself is simply an act of service to others. And to open that shuttle through oneself, one must find that which is most helpful in establishing the feeling of unity with the Creator in Christ.

Give to yourself the permission to seek and to enjoy deeply and digest heavenly food, whatever it is that the spirit may give to you. Realize that the spirit of which we are representatives—for many different kinds of people need many different kinds of Comforters—is omnipresent. You cannot be without the spirit of unconditional love, for this lies within you.

Find it and open it, that your service to others may be no burden to you but instead a delight and a joy. For it is a merry illusion to one who steps with light feet. And to one who steps with light feet comes the ability to deal with serious subjects in a gentle way. This is desirable.

We leave you in peace, the infinite peace of the principle of Jesus the Christ, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, our minds, and our souls to send love, light, and healing energies to Mother Earth as she brings forth a New Earth in fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energies of the One Infinite Creator heal the heart of each soul in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energies in their hearts, in their minds, and in their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The quote from 102 today comes from Chapter Two: The Choice of the Paths:

Chapter Two: The Choice of the Paths

The Fork in the Road/the Choice

The first beings of mind, body, and spirit were not complex. The experience of mind/body/spirits at the beginning of this octave of experience was singular. There was no third-density forgetting. There was no veil. The lessons of third density are predestined by the very nature of the vibratory rates experienced during this particular density and by the nature of the quantum jump to the vibratory experiences of fourth density. Ra, 82.12.

There was a time many unknown millions of years ago, at the beginning of the universe as we know it, when making the Choice was not much of an option.  Third-density beings did not possess a “veil of forgetting”—that invisible partition between the conscious and subconscious minds which produces the illusion of separation from the Creator. Since each entity viewed itself and all others as the Creator, service to others was natural, virtually automatic.

But this understanding presented a problem: third-density beings did not have to consciously strive to open their hearts. The world was full of love but lacked opportunity for personal growth. Entities didn’t face the challenges that we face today, because they did not live within an illusion of separation from one another and from the Creator. They didn’t have any tough choices to make that would allow them to exercise and strengthen their free will to love and serve one another, or to seek deeper ways of knowing the Creator. Harmony was in-built, so the lessons of working toward harmony were not available. Further, the environment was so comfortable that there was no motivation to transcend it! 

Consequently, the beliefs and actions of third-density entities did nothing to help them “graduate” to the next classroom in the school of life. Instead of needing to make difficult choices, these beings could simply glide along, knowing that all was well and all was One.  This led them to have to repeat third density again and again.

So, the various Logoi (the sun-body co-creators of the early galaxies), sought to find a means of accelerating evolution. 

Questioner: Then even though, from our point of view, there was great evolutionary experience it was deemed at some point by the evolving Logos that an experiment to create a greater experience was appropriate. Is this correct?

Ra: I am Ra. This is correct and may benefit from comment. The Logos is aware of the nature of the third-density requirement for what you have called graduation. All the previous, if you would use this term, experiments, although resulting in many experiences, lacked what was considered the crucial ingredient; that is, polarization. There was little enough tendency for experience to polarize entities that entities repeated habitually the third-density cycles many times over. It was desired that the potential for polarization be made more available.  Ra, 82.21.

And so, by intelligent design of the Logos, the veil of forgetting descended upon third density, and the Edenic state of the unity of all things and all entities was hidden from the conscious mind. Beyond the veil now lay the unconscious mind, full of deeper truth just waiting to be discovered by the evolving entity.

83.19 Questioner: What was the mechanism of the very first veiling process? I don’t know if you can answer that. Would you try to, though, answer that?

Ra: I am Ra. The mechanism of the veiling between the conscious and unconscious portions of the mind was a declaration that the mind was complex. This, in turn, caused the body and the spirit to become complex.

With the veil, the mind became complex, having “more than one characteristic element or concept.” (79.19) The vast contents of the unconscious mind—which is connected to the deeper racial mind, planetary mind, and cosmic mind—were not available to the conscious mind on a constant basis anymore. No longer could a third-density entity see its pre-incarnative choices, the unity of the creation, the Creator in all things and all entities, or the power of love that had made all of the creation out of light. Ra summarized the situation eloquently:

The primary veiling was of such significance that it may be seen to be analogous to the mantling of the Earth over all the jewels within the Earth’s crust; whereas previously all facets of the Creator were consciously known. After the veiling, almost no facets of the Creator were known to the mind. Almost all was buried beneath the veil. ”85.19

The result of this great experiment of the veil of forgetting being placed between the conscious and unconscious mind was the creation of a “Fork in the Road”, as the seeker of truth could now discover that it had the option to polarize toward service to self or service to others. This was because the environment changed to one of apparent separation, where the seeker would have to use its will and faith to discover the unity and perfection that lay beyond the veil, or else live in a land of illusion, seeking only comfort and the control of things that it found to be unacceptable. What an incredible thought that if you removed the knowledge of the Creator having created the universe with the power of love; if you hid the fact that the universe was made out of light; if you erased all obvious connections between people and the creation, and you disguised unity as separation . . . that all of this would make the evolutionary process more efficient rather than less efficient!

This Choice between the two polarities caused a quicker polarization in consciousness so that it became possible to be able to make the fourth-density Harvest in one cycle of 75,000 years. All of the sudden there was the Player on the Enhanced Game Board being born from the many players on the flat game board. The Game became more interesting, more varied, more imbued with catalyst where misperceptions and misunderstandings could be used to increase the accuracy of one’s perceptions and understandings.

Despite the veiling, there is a universal principle in operation: entities yearn to seek the hidden truth as the Creator likewise yearns to gather the fruits of Its experience through all entities everywhere. In the following quote, Don asks about this principle, which was mentioned in a work channeled by other seekers.

39.6 Questioner: Thank you. Can you tell me— can you interpret a transmission from “The Nine,” where they say “CH is a principle which is the revealing principle of knowledge and law?” Can you tell me what that principle is?

Ra: I am Ra. The principle so veiled in that statement is but the simple principle of the constant or Creator and the transient or the incarnate being and the yearning existing between the two, one for the other, in love and light amidst the distortions of free will acting upon the illusion-bound entity.

Even though we have the veil of forgetting hiding the Creator in all things from our outer sight, we still have the Creator within us that “yearns” to be a more conscious part of our life experience. And we have this distant “yearning” in ourselves as well to find that something, that memory, that experience of joy and meaning that dwells deep within our being. Somehow, we know that there is more to our lives than the mundane world of illusion has to offer. We dream a more personal dream of meaning, direction, joy, wholeness, and expansion of consciousness. As Players on the Enhanced Game Board we continue to follow that dream while most of those around us remain players on the flat gameboard of life and accept the illusion as the reality of their existence. As Players we know that we exist in an illusion, but we see it as an illusion with the purpose of requiring us to bend every effort to penetrate the veil of forgetting and polarize our consciousness ever more powerfully in the positive sense of service to others, so that we may return to unity. So, the veil promoted Choice, making the Harvest to the fourth density much more likely, as it would become desired by every seeker of truth.

This morning I changed the sheets on my bed and also did the laundry. Then I set the dish washer going to wash most of a week’s worth of dishes. At 10 am I was interviewed on a zoom meet by Peter Occhiogrosso regarding the information that we received in the Ra contact back in the early ‘80’s. Peter has studied the Ra material and is quite familiar with the Law of One, so he asked many good questions about Ra’s point of view concerning our path back into unity with the One Infinite Creator.

This afternoon I ran errands with my first stop being Feeder’s Supply where I bought three cases of canned cat food for the kitties and another 40 lb. bag of birdseed. Then I stopped at Kroger’s and got some food for myself as I did in my next stop at Paul’s Fruit Market. My last stop was at Walgreen’s where I bought some ice cream and garbage bags.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 1

Divine Hunger

I am of the principle of divine love and I greet you in the full consciousness of the love of Jesus the Christ.

Look you ahead to your day. Your work lies ready for you. And you are ready for the work.

Your establishment and domicile, your daily bread, your expectations for the future: these are the things at which you gaze as creator of your little world, to look and see that all things are pleasing and satisfactorily arranged.

Look you to every physical aspect of the arrangements of your life day by day. Look till you come to the end of them. Now ask yourself: have you still the divine hunger or are you satisfied?

The spirit speaks to those who hunger, to those who ask and to those who face the door of non-complacent doubting and say, “My deeper self hungers and thirsts for that which all my tidy arrangements cannot give me.”

We of the principle of love bless that divine hunger which calls into manifestation those powers of creation which alone express the unity betwixt the soul and divine love.

We leave you in the peace of that love, both now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, our minds, and our souls to send love, light, and healing energies to Mother Earth as she brings forth a New Earth in fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energies of the One Infinite Creator heal the heart of each soul in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energies in their hearts, in their minds, and in their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The quote from 102 today comes from the section on emotions:

Emotions

“The creation is consciousness, and that consciousness is pure emotion, not the pure intellect. Infinite intelligence expresses itself within incarnation as deep and abiding emotion. Thus, as one feels love pouring through one, one is fulfilling one’s fundamental and major mission upon your Earth sphere, and that is to be a radiant being, a light to many, not by action, but by the vital energy, the sweetness of soul, and the expressions of love which move through the seeker who has opened the door to deep emotion.” Q’uo, November, 12, 1989

As Players, we often do not trust our emotions. And sometimes we are correct to distrust them, because surface emotions are not always trustworthy. There are two general reasons for this. Firstly, we may have learned as children to “stuff” our emotions. Even though we have awakened to a larger view of our lives now, we may still be trying to slough difficult emotions out of our surface awareness and into deep caches of buried pain. These emotions do not seem, at first glance, to lead us anywhere good, spiritually speaking. And so we bury them. This means that our energy bodies are vulnerable to contracting when that hidden pain is triggered by catalyst.

Alternately, we may have learned as children that emotions create drama in our lives, and that we enjoy drama. And so we might be wearing our hearts on our sleeves, embracing impulsivity, diving into surface emotions when they arise and milking them for effect without attempting to take them deeper. The resultant emotional splash may give us the feeling that we are vibrantly alive. But the pond of emotion in which we are splashing is shallow. This means that our energy bodies are vulnerable to being over-activated and therefore blocked as we emote and dramatize without processing and refining the emotions we feel.

Neither method of valuing and dealing with our emotions will help us as Players to learn more about ourselves and to begin to purify our emotions. We want to purify our emotions because pure emotions tell the truth of creation. Q’uo says:

“Purified emotion, whole and unblemished divine love, is the very axis upon which infinite intelligence built the myriad illusions which lead each imperishable soul along the path of inspiration, closeness to the one Creator, and an infinite capacity for compassion and service to others. Without emotion of a deep nature, the life experience lacks vividness, and it is more difficult for the seeker to make the choice of service to others or service to self with firmness of heart and intensity of passion.” Q’uo, November 12, 1989

As Players, we are intent upon making that choice of service to others and then persisting in affirming that choice. Each time catalyst strikes us, we will have a spontaneous emotional response. As we come upon incident after incident of catalyst and response, we can begin to see into the underlying pattern of these responses. We can follow the surface emotions deeper and begin to hone and purify them. This takes courage and patience. Above all, it takes faith. For you have no real evidence that the work is worth doing until you see the fruits of it in your life by hindsight.

An example from my life of the purification of emotion is my experience with the dark emotion of grief after the death of Don Elkins in 1984. My journey in purifying the emotion of this grief took me six years. For a long time I was awash in the various aspects of grief, as so ably drawn by Elizabeth Kubler-Ross. I denied; I was consumed with anger; I bargained and I was profoundly depressed. Each time I thought about anything at all to do with Don’s death, that one small detail would sweep me into the whole epic story of his illness and passing. I was drowning in my emotions, often suicidal and lost to myself.

I got help. I was in therapy with a skilled, sensitive Jungian psychiatrist for five years. I took anti-depressive medication. I worked tirelessly with the resources of faith. I placed mottoes and inspired quotations where I could see them at all times, and I focused upon them. At the worst of my ordeal I prayed a hundred times a day, and that is no exaggeration.

I was Niobe of classical myth, changed to stone in her grief, yet crying still for her slain family.

I was Shakespeare’s Juliet, mourning her Romeo who was barely but surely dead, kissing his still-warm lips and knifing herself mortally, saying to the blade as it entered her heart, “This is thy sheath.”

Most of all, I became myself again, vibrating fully with the song of grief for my beloved companion which I offered with every breath. My grief was larger than this earthly life, ennobled by my willingness to allow it to sink deeply within me. And as the grief transformed, gradually, from surface emotion to archetypal purity, it set my memory free to remember Don’s death without having to relive it. I had become an instrument that was able to vibrate the beautiful, haunting melody of pure grief.

When the L/L Research study group asked those of Q’uo about the discipline of the personality, the Q’uo group responded with a discussion of the seeking self as a musical instrument, saying:

“You may look upon the structure of your mind, emotions, mentality and spirituality as an instrument, that each is a different kind of instrument. Some personalities are those which must be struck, such as the piano or the drums. Others are entities who have various strings of character and nature that individually can be tuned and then plucked or vibrated in such a way as to produce tone by friction. Other instruments require energy, the pressure of breath forced into a shape and then air opened and denied in order to produce various notes. Each spark of the one infinite Creator that is each of you is an unique instrument with the ability within its potential to produce pure, clear, beautiful tones.” Q’uo, January 5, 1997

Isn’t that an interesting way to look at ourselves as emotional beings? We can ask ourselves, “Do I act like a drum, a harp or a trumpet? Does catalyst have to strike me quite firmly in order to produce emotion within? Then I am a fairly hardy soul, or perhaps I have numbed myself on purpose to avoid having to feel. Do I need to encourage myself to allow myself to feel more expressively?” These are questions worth consideration. Working with my tuning is fairly simple if I am a drum-like personality. I need to “tune” to one note only—the “concert A” of the vibration of the Logos, divine love.

“Am I like a harp or violin, my emotions sensitive to being plucked or bowed by catalyst? Then tuning myself as an instrument is more complex. I start the tuning with the string which holds the vibration of the Logos, but then all the other strings must be tuned also so they are in harmony with that ‘concert A’. My emotions are easily stirred. A mere breath of wind across any one of my strings can set them all vibrating with emotion. Do I need to work on reducing impulsivity?” It is an issue to consider.

“Am I a wind instrument through which the breath of catalyst must be forced in order to produce my emotional response? In that case I will adjust my energy body to tune to the vibration of the Logos, as my instrument as a whole will be in tune if “concert A” is in tune. It is not as easy to move me to emotion as it is for the harp-like personality, but when I am so moved, my emotional response is liable to be loud. Do I need to relax my control a bit? Might I find ways to tone down my responses?” These are questions useful to ask.

Once we have chosen the musical instrument we are most like, we have a new vocabulary and system of imagery concerning how to bring our emotions into truer pitch.

What all personality types have in common is “concert A”—the vibration of the emotion of unconditional love. If we cannot find that vibration of love anywhere in our emotional response when we are working with a given situation, we know we need to do some work with that emotion and penetrate its surface to find its underlying heart and its deeper truth.

Q’uo goes on to say:

“One may perhaps see that the first concern of one approaching the self and wishing to do work in consciousness is to investigate the nature of one’s own instrument. Because of the veil, this is excruciatingly difficult without help, for it is hard for a person to see its own character. One may most accurately see into one’s own personality by reflection. It is no mistake or coincidence that your third-density experience is determinedly social, for it is in the interactions of personalities with each other that the truth is projected to each from the other.” Q’uo, January 5, 1997

The logic of this train of thought is that we can be thankful for the people around us who help us see into our own emotional nature by reflection. Why should we trust those around us to give us good information when they mirror to us? Q’uo says:

“Were each personality not to have come from one source, it would be an entirely different thing to learn the disciplines of this particular instrument that you possess, that you have created up to this point in your cycles of manifestation. But you can stand upon firm ground in receiving information from any other human source, because each is most assuredly and truly a distortion conglomerate whose roots are identical to your own. This is why so much can be learned in the interaction of person to person. Moving deep enough, one treads common ground with all entities.” Q’uo, January 5, 1997

Do the people who provide catalyst for us have any real awareness that they are “distortion conglomerates” whose roots are the same as ours? That is doubtful. It is a hard concept to fathom using the intellect. Jesus’ words echo the same sentiment, however:

“I am the vine; you are the branches.”

Holy Bible, John 15:5.

We are all children of the One Creator. Our deepest essence is love. Whatever we are feeling, it has its roots and its truth in love.

The Confederation looks at catalyst as a positive thing, and it looks at the deliverers of catalyst as blessings. By reflection, as we react to the catalyst we receive, we have the chance to learn about our emotions and ourselves. It turns out that a big subject in 103: The Inner Work, the discipline of the personality, has everything to do with becoming aware of our emotions. We are getting an early chance to peek into inner work here. Before we discipline this personality of ours, however, for the moment, dealing with the outer work we simply want to come to know and accept ourselves and to understand where our emotions are coming from.

Q’uo says that becoming deeply aware of our emotions is the work of many lifetimes. We need not feel inadequate because we find it hard to apprehend our emotions rather than their sweeping us away. In the same session, Q’uo remarks:

“It is equally important to grasp the common ground and to grasp the peculiarities and specialties of your particular instrument.

The music that personality plays is a music made of pure emotions when the discipline of the personality is somewhat advanced. However, as in any entity attempting to learn to play an instrument, the sounds produced by one who has not practiced can be discordant and unpleasant to the ear, and, in most cases among your peoples, those who have not yet learned discipline produce many unpleasant tones.

There is the feeling of one sitting down at, say, a piano but knowing not where the keys are or how to make harmony, and, unless certain keys, certain key information, that is, is made available, the piano continues to be a large physical object which produces nothing that is pretty. When one sets oneself to learning to play the piano, one practices each piece to find the harmonics of that particular key. Then, and only then, can one begin to make music.

So, as you have emotions, as you experience emotions, what you are first attempting to do is find that purity that lies within the distorted feeling that you have.” Q’uo, January 5, 1997. 

In other words, it is equally important to know that the people giving you catalyst can be trusted in their gifts to you and to trust that whatever emotions you are feeling are legitimate and worthy of your attention and respect. We can have faith in this process of catalyst and emotion.

And we do not expect this process to recreate us as tuned instruments overnight. We know it will be slow going. When asked by a tourist how to get to Carnegie Hall, the New Yorker replies, “Practice, practice, practice, practice!” That’s our lot! We need lots of practice. And life gives us plenty of that. And we know the way to go about getting a handle on our emotions, honoring them and developing them, over the course of our lifetimes, into feelings that are harmonious and lovely rather than discordant and dull.

Q’uo finishes the train of thought by saying:

“We think that each of you as seekers will find this work enjoyable. It is not an intellectual process but rather a sensing or feeling or intuitive process to find the heart of emotion, and we would simply suggest that each of you, as it feels right to do so, begin to sense into the emotions that spontaneously arise, loving, supporting and respecting them as they come to you and, at the same time, allowing the heart within to search for the heart within that particular emotion”. Q’uo, January 5, 1997

When the energy body is contracted and emotions are either numbed out or overblown into mere noise instead of signal, we feel things chaotically. As we are able to experience our emotions more and more intelligently, consciously and fully, we are able to feel more fully self-forgiven, worthy, hopeful, cheerful, peaceful and oriented toward offering a lively service on behalf of the One Infinite Creator. As Players we are hoping to free our surface emotions from confusion and allow them to clarify, deepen and mature.

Q’uo says, in another session:

“Humankind is fueled, not by oil or coal so much as by inspiration, passion, sharing and caring. Thus, the more fully one is able to tap into the deep and plangent notes of purified emotion, the greater is one’s ability to manifest the light of the infinite One to a darkened world which rejoices in seeing beacons of light, whether or not they know why the light is there, how the light has come to be there, or what is its function”.  Q’uo, November 12, 1989

To switch analogies, let us look at our emotions as colored light. If we have not worked to free numbness and to damp down excessive impulsivity in our emotions, the Creator’s love/light is colored in dim or muddy tones as it passes through our energy body and out into the world. As Players, we hope to refine our emotions so that we can be full of harmonious passions that color the Creator’s love/light in beautiful, pure hues.

Observing some spiritual practices, we might presume that we should try to leave emotions behind. For the Confederation, the opposite is true. Their readings suggest that we want to aim our emotions and come to be able to allow them to go deeper and deeper, into truer and more brilliant states. We want to trade in our numbness or our hectic impulsivity for more deeply felt and realized emotions. We know that at their base, emotions form the sacred rivers of the archetypal mind, and as we purify our surface emotions and let them run deeper, we can begin to resonate with that deep mind.

Q’uo says:

“When one is persistently fearless with emotions and is able to sit with the self as it experiences an emotion flowing through, there is a gradual deepening of that emotion. Eventually, as repetition and work in consciousness with these emotions begins to yield its fruits, the seeker begins to have glimpses of the refined and purified emotion that started out so highly colored. And eventually that emotion can take one into the archetypical mind, where the deepest of truths may be found.

“In the archetypal mind these emotions flow like underground rivers, emptying into the sea of bliss and unconditional love that is the beginning and ending of all that is. As they wend their way through the archetypal mind, they water the myths which make up the roots of consciousness.” Q’uo, January 7, 2008

Later in that same session, Q’uo continues:

“These emotions, while often not pleasant to experience, have great value. We say this because we wish to encourage the seeker to work with that which he feels, not judging it, not condemning it and not being indifferent to it, but rather giving it respectful attention, investigating it, and exploring it. Each emotion, given this honor and respect, will reward the seeker with more and more of a sense of surety as to who he is and to why he is here.” Q’uo, January 7, 2008

In the next chapter we will look at some of our most common emotions, both positive and negative. [2] They are important to us as we tackle the issue of our lives. We Players know that we need to keep our energy bodies open. That is the basic and enduring resource of our Game. But as we tackle problem-solving, we will get much further if we are prepared to spend a substantial amount of time sorting through and coming to understand the emotions we feel which are involved in a given situation.

It is sacred work because we as souls, and part of the Creator, are sacred. It is highly worthwhile to do the work of deepening our understanding of what we feel and why we feel it. It is freeing to feel our emotions come more into tune with love. And the process of working with our emotions is—or can be—a lot of fun.

[1] The entities in this quote are the ones Carla is referring to;

63.13 Questioner: Now these entities incarnate into a third-density vibratory body. I am trying to understand how this transition takes place from third to fourth density. I will take the example of one of these entities of which we are speaking who is now in a third-density body. He will grow older, and then will it be necessary that he die from the third-density physical body and reincarnate in a fourth-density body for that transition?

Ra: I am Ra. These entities are those incarnating with what you may call a double body in activation. It will be noted that the entities birthing these fourth-density entities experience a great feeling of, shall we say, the connection and the use of spiritual energies during pregnancy. This is due to the necessity for manifesting the double body.

This transitional body is one which will be, shall we say, able to appreciate fourth-density vibratory complexes, as the instreaming increases, without the accompanying disruption of the third-density body. If a third-density entity were, shall we say, electrically aware of fourth-density in full, the third-density electrical fields would fail due to incompatibility.

To answer your query about death, these entities will die according to third-density necessities.

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[2] I followed Carla’s outline for Chapter 2, but it was different from this comment.

This afternoon Trish came by with some corrections to my recording of A Wanderer’s Handbook that I recorded in the recording studio in the basement. I also recorded another channeling from the Holy Spirit that Carla channeled from A Book of Days. Then I pumped a quarter of the water out of the fish pond and replaced it with fresh water. While the pond was refilling I cleaned the filters for the fountain and then went into the house to vacuum the first floor.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 30

Call The Light To You

I am of the spirit of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

See yourselves seated, just as you are, taking moments precious to you. For each is busy. So alter your consciousness that the ensuing period of time may be altered by the light which you have called to yourself in these moments.

Picture yourself opening as a flower to the wonderful sunshine of perfect love, being drenched by the freely given dew of strength, quietness and peace. Store this up within your heart, that through your eyes may shine this transcendental love which has the power of touching all those about you with a light which they may not know, but which they yet recognize as that which lifts the spirits, heals the mind’s pain, and cheers the emotions.

Allow that light to be stored within you more and more, that you may become an active spirit, a practicing and moving force for love, not by direct action, necessarily, but merely by the glow within the eye, the smile upon the lips, and the words spoken from a simple and cheerful peace.

We leave you in that peace, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, our minds, and our souls to send love, light, and healing energies to Mother Earth as she brings forth a New Earth in fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energies of the One Infinite Creator heal the heart of each soul in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energies in their hearts, in their minds, and in their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the 102 quote comes from Chapter One and the section on catalyst:

Catalyst

“The catalyst, and all catalyst, is designed to offer experience. This experience in your density may be loved and accepted, or it may be controlled. These are the two paths. When neither path is chosen, the catalyst fails in its design, and the entity proceeds until catalyst strikes it which causes it to form a bias towards acceptance and love or separation and control. There is no lack of space/time in which this catalyst may work.”  Ra, 46.16

From our point of view within incarnation, there is something mysterious about how catalyst comes into our lives. It is never completely random. And as we wake up and, as Players, become more attentive to the flow of events in our lives, we start looking for deeper meaning in what happens to us. And our catalyst obligingly comes to contain more and more synchronicity. Spiritually interesting coincidences and feelings of deja’ vu become more and more common.

Logically, we Players should notice this and trust our catalyst more and more as our lives unfold. However, it is doubtful that we ever really learn to accept catalyst without interpreting it immediately according to our previous prejudices, or distortions, as the Confederation would call them. Here is one good example from my life.

When I was three and a half years old, at three a.m. on New Year’s Day of 1947, my brother, Jim, was born. He was a seven-month baby, but the premature birth went well until the doctor, drunk and fresh from a New Year’s Eve party, clocked the back of his little head with his forceps, which he was swinging freely without paying attention to what he was doing. This placed a big dent in the back of infant Jimmy Rueckert’s head. Jimmy immediately went into spasms.

Until Jim was five years old, these spasms continued intermittently. His molars did not grow in properly. He could not speak English, although I could understand the sounds he made sufficiently to communicate with him, and he could understand me. He was a happy child, loving and wishing to please me, but simple.

Then came my catalyst, in the form of the neighborhood bully, a fully-grown 15-year-old named Donny. I was baby-sitting my brother one summer’s day as he played with a stick at a mud-hole near the curb of our front yard. Donny walked by, carrying a board over one shoulder. As he passed my brother, he gave his head a whack with the board. Jimmy keeled over, unconscious.

I flew at Donny with the crystal-clear intention of killing him on the spot. I thought he had murdered Jimmy! However, I was mistaken. The blow happened to hit at the exact spot where the dent was. The dent popped out. My brother came back to consciousness able to speak clearly and without spasms. His teeth grew in. He was able to enter school as a first-grader and has lived a normal life ever since. He now resides in Denver, an excellent teacher and a beloved husband and father.

In responding to the catalyst of Donny’s assault on my little brother, I had no thought for spiritual practice. I was a small, thin, nine-year-old Goddess of Vengeance; a witch on a broom; Donny’s Nemesis personified. Nevertheless, in the long view, I was quite wrong! In the way of real life, which is often stranger than fiction, Donny’s carelessly violent act had healed my brother.

We cannot often achieve, within our human lives, the point of view which is able to see a bully strike a defenseless child and still see the bully as the Creator. However, as Players, that is where we are aiming.

Since the spiritual life contains continual cycles, we meet the same kind of catalyst again and again. This gives us many chances to practice. As Q’uo says,

One shall indeed meet each experience again, but it is a spiral of experience and catalyst, and experience and catalyst, and each time you meet the same type or class of catalyst you have a new opportunity to recognize the catalyst, to locate the trigger of the catalyst, to examine the equation of the catalyst: what is going into the chemical experiment, what’s being “cooked,” and what comes out at the other end. And you have the opportunity, if you choose to use the will and the discipline to take it, to alter by removing various, shall we say, chemicals of your emotions, your thoughts, and your triggers, thereby changing the equation and changing the result of this particular little experiment in the life of your self. Q’uo, May 2 2004

Was it predestined that my brother would be healed in this peculiar way? The Confederation suggests that this is not the case, at least, not precisely. Later in that same session, Q’uo remarks:

“There is a causative factor inherent in the carefully made agreements that were entered into before incarnation. Biases were set up in the very currents of destiny surrounding the particular nexus of energies that represents the opportunity for an incarnation. When the body and parents and so forth are chosen, this nexus becomes potentiated and that particular little destiny that is your pre-game plan clicks into place and begins to unroll the scroll of space/time as you, as an entity, enter into a body, become embodied and enfleshed, take form by birth and begin to unravel that great tale that is the story of your life. Q’uo May 2, 2004

While the Confederation information does not suggest that our fate is predestined, it does suggest that there is a sense to its causation, not from within the veil but from beyond it, in that place within the inner plane where we and our guidance systems set up the basic fabric and themes of our incarnations.

Q’uo uses the word trigger in talking about catalyst. Some triggers are inherent in human experience and common to all. A mosquito bite or sexual arousal triggers the unthingking desire to scratch the itch. The feeling of burning heat triggers an instinctive move away from the heat. Breathing in smoke will trigger coughing. An odor which is foul will trigger the wrinkling of our noses.

Many other triggers, however, are unique to each of us and are a product of our previous lives. They may well stem from early childhood experiences that were very painful. Perhaps the most common trigger of all is the product of hasty, harsh words or even physical abuse, which we experienced from one or both of our parents. If you have ever been beaten or sexually abused, you cannot help gaining the strong impression that you are unworthy and should feel ashamed. Even if no physical violence takes place, verbal abuse can create deep pain.

It is a parent’s responsibility to guide and advise a child. It is good, in the Confederation’s opinion and in mine, to set boundaries, teach manners and otherwise prepare a child for the realities of the adult world in which he will have to take his place. Along the way, plenty of constructive criticism occurs. The parent explains what the child did incorrectly and how to do it rightly. That is helpful, necessary and profitable.

On the other hand, blanket statements which offer no explanation or correction, such as “You are no good,” “You never get it right,” and “That is unacceptable,” are not constructive but destructive. The child is judged by that judge who, as far as it knows, is supreme. And unworthiness sinks into the child’s self-definition and stays buried, a little nugget of crystallized pain. Later on in life, similar statements or even seemingly implied judgments of the same sort will trigger the painful emotions connected with unworthiness. Often these emotions will seem to be hugely out of proportion to the catalyst, which seems minimal. This is because you cannot see the buried trigger.

Once we become Players, we start the long process of identifying our personal triggers, with an eye to digging down to them, pulling them up into the daylight and dismantling them. We do not want to have them constantly tripping us. We want to create peace in our inner lives and keep our hearts open. Each time we identify a trigger, we gain the power of knowing ourselves better. It is a wonderful feeling. It is hard-won, but this self-knowledge helps us to mature spiritually and become responsible for ourselves at the soul level. We free ourselves from victim-hood as we become able to recognize triggers as they are activated. Q’uo said,

“As you can identify those repetitive types of catalyst that point to incarnational level lessons, you as a seeker can begin to see into the game plan; to begin to think not like the victim of circumstance but the person who planned all this and finds that certain things have simply slipped her mind. If you can find this attitude in times of stress, that “you really have responsibility for this situation but, my goodness, you seemed to have forgotten just a bit of the pattern and now there is work to do,” then you may do the work of identifying catalyst, locating the trigger, and, to the extent possible in situations, doing what you can to remove the trigger or to alter the circumstances. You have become far more a person of power than you were before.” Q’uo, May 2, 2004

Job One in our incarnative game plans is to polarize, to become people of metaphysical power. As Players, we are playing the Game of Life to win, and that means polarizing. Readers of this book and I are polarizing in service to others. And we want to learn to react to catalyst in ways that “form a bias towards acceptance and love”, rather than “separation and control”. [46.16]

If we simply try to control our reactions to catalyst, we are going down a service-to-self path. We do not wish to stuff our responses to catalyst away. We want to dance with what is happening to us in ways that keep us open-hearted and energized. In this same session, Q’uo notes,

“It is only as a person begins to be able to see into the process of these repetitive, cyclical testings, or introductions of catalyst into the environment, that one begins to be able to settle into a relationship with catalyst which sees catalyst, destiny and unexpected events in general, with an eagerness and a freshness of attitude that invites that which is to come and looks forward to the next lesson, the next test, the next introduction of discomfort into an otherwise serene atmosphere.

Within the confines of your illusion and the life which you experience consciously, awake and working with your day, there is a tremendous amount of power in becoming eager for that next piece of catalyst. When you at last find an appetite for change, for learning, for newness, then you are more able to invoke discipline when it would seem that difficult or unpleasant circumstances arise.” Q’uo, May 2, 2004

I was talking to a counseling client today who has seemingly come to the end of one path of service. He is very eager to know where he is headed next and what his next path of service will be. His catalyst of the moment is the feeling of chaos that occurs when one reaches a decision point without having a clue as to how to move forward.

Our every instinct at a point like that is to grab at the future and try to control it; to move into the future immediately. The discipline of waiting for events to unfold organically is a tough one. Yet I encouraged him to slow down, to find his faith and to allow his next path of service to open up for him, event by event, as he cooperates with his destiny rather than pushing it around. It is unnerving to live by faith. At the same time it makes of life a grand adventure. As Q’uo says,

“There is tremendous power in knowing why something is happening to one. Not in knowing what provoked a certain person to do something or what strange machinery created a coincidence that is complex and deep but rather knowing that one is in good hands, one is in the hands of guidance, and having faith in the process that will deliver one, at the end of that process, a greater gift  to the Creator and a greater asset to the self because the balance of the energy body that has been worked on has improved, has come closer to that which was hoped before incarnation.” Q’uo, May 2, 2004

This morning I was on a zoom meet with a couple of friends of 50 years where we studied The Ra Contact and Living Buddha, Living Christ, by Tich Nhat Hanh. We also spent a good deal of time catching up with what is going on in each of our lives. It’s always great to be with such good friends.

This afternoon I decided to water all the flowers in the yard as we have been dry for a couple of weeks, and there is no rain in sight.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 29

This Holy Day

I am the spirit of the living God and I greet you in the full consciousness which is the love of Jesus the Christ.

See before you now an holy day!

Hold your hands before you and know that if you dwell within the spirit of love these hands may be instruments of love to do divine work in a divine world.

Gaze at your feet, holy feet which may carry you to no place which is not holy.

Sense the pounding of your heart and the movement of blood in the veins. This is an holy body in and of itself and more and more full of self-awareness of love as the mind and heart love and dedicate this body to the principle of love.

Ask the mind and heart to love and dedicate this body to the principle of love.

You do not know what you might manifest within this day and night to come. You do not know what troubles shall arise which seem so persuasively to point to things that are not blessed. Yet within each abuse of body, mind and spirit there lies that soul, that infinite intelligence which is masked to the human eye but which is never absent from the spiritual picture of your day.

Know, and know in a deep and final way, that all things tend to good; that all disharmony tends towards love; that all despair tends towards hope, and all loss tends towards inner realization. And embrace each and every aspect of your experience in the firm faith of Christ, seemingly crucified, forever alive.

We leave you in Christ’s own peace, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, our minds, and our souls to send love, light, and healing energies to Mother Earth as she brings forth a New Earth in fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energies of the One Infinite Creator heal the heart of each soul in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energies in their hearts, in their minds, and in their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the quote from 102 comes from Chapter One:

A note from Jim:

The following chapter is the only chapter that was written by Carla. I would like mention that this was perhaps her rough draft. While we have chosen to leave it unedited but for the rare typographical error, it is possible that Carla would have wanted to change or add to this substantially in either wording or content. I have added my own thoughts in the footnotes.

Chapter One

Life, Catalyst, and Emotions

Life on Earth

The Creator sent you forth, at the beginning of this creation, as a collector, observer and transmuter of experience. Your job has been, and continues to be, to observe all things; to create within yourself an awareness of how you feel about those things; to create questions and find the heart of your desire as you look at how you feel, and then to move yourself forward along the paths that you have chosen in order to respond.

Again and again you have been called forth from contentment into discontent, from sameness into change, from stability into the seeming chaos of transformation. We would ask simply that you approach the changes that this time in your life calls forth from you with a stubborn and fearless faith that all is well and that these transformational changes are not to your detriment although the world may see them that way. Q’uo, September 5, 2005.

This volume is titled 102: The Outer Work. Its focus is the everyday work we do in the lower three chakras—the red, orange and yellow energy centers, plus the great central chakra, the green-ray energy center of the heart.

The red-ray chakra works with issues of sexuality and survival. The orange-ray chakra works with personal relationships—our relationships with ourselves and our relationships with other people. The yellow-ray energy center deals with formalized relationships, such as those related to our birth and marriage families and our work environment.

When I pondered how to begin to discuss these issues, at first I thought I would proceed from issue to issue, taking red-ray issues first, then proceeding to orange-ray topics and then yellow-ray matters. But this approach does not work. A seeker deals with the same emotions in all three energy enters. For instance, he might feel the emotion of hatred for his sexuality, his work, himself or his mate.

This reasoning made me see that we needed to look at emotions before tackling any issues. And since emotions arise in the context of the catalyst we receive in the course of our daily lives, I found myself looking at life on Planet Earth.

On Planet Earth, everyone suffers. That is a given. Rich or poor, young or old, we all undergo suffering again and again. Life on Earth is an environment in which suffering is inbuilt. As Q’uo says of third-density life on Planet Earth:

“It is an environment designed to shake a complacent person out of his complacency and to challenge his presuppositions. The goal of this is not simply to give the seeking soul a degree of suffering, but to set the stage for that great choice of polarity upon which the next two and a half densities are based and which shall only be refined in fourth, fifth and sixth densities by further studies in love, in wisdom, and in unity.” Q’uo, May 23, 2009

The suffering is not senseless. It offers us “grist for the mill” of our spiritual processes. No healthy human deliberately seeks to suffer. No one likes to suffer. As Forrest Gump’s tee shirt says, “**it just happens”. And it happens on purpose, in terms of our overall plan for incarnation.

This is the opening title of a book by Baba Ram Dass and Stephen Levine: 

Grist for the Mill

The Mellow Drama

 Dying: An Opportunity for Awakening

Freeing the Mind • Karmuppance

 God and Beyond

When we are born, we have already shaped our life on Earth to some extent. We have set up for ourselves incarnational lessons, things we want to bring into focus. These things always have to do with balance. Perhaps we want to become more loving, feeling that we are unbalanced on the side of wisdom. Perhaps we want to season our compassion with more wisdom. Perhaps we want to find for ourselves the right use of power.

Somewhere in these dynamics you will probably recognize the theme or themes of the catalyst you have found to repeat again and again in your life so far. For me, the incarnational lessons have been two: to learn better to give love without expectation of return, and to add wisdom to the workings of my sometimes foolishly loving heart.

Working with our guidance systems before incarnation, we choose our relationships carefully. We choose our parents, mates, friends and even our enemies, if we have them. And we choose redundantly, so that no matter how many times we choose within incarnation to walk away from our incarnational lessons, there remain plenty of players in the wings who will help us bring them up again.

We were not being masochistic when we so planned. Indeed, we were eager to engage with these incarnational themes. From the standpoint of pre-incarnative planning, we could see the great benefit of doing this work within incarnation. An incarnation, from that point of view, looks just like a term of school. The times when catalyst strikes and our emotions are engaged do not look like suffering, outside the veil. They look like section tests, ten-minutes quizzes, mid-term exams and finals.

That perspective does not last long! By the time we have traveled through the birth canal and out into the cold hard world, we have lost the long view. I feel sure that for me, it happened even before I was born. I was in the womb for a bit over ten months. I must have been very reluctant to enter the classroom of life on Earth!

Sixty-six years later and counting, I am thankful I did choose to come into incarnation now. I have had hard lessons, but as I look back on them with the wisdom of hindsight I can see that each one has added a great deal to my ability to serve the One Creator.  Each bout of suffering has indeed been a gift. And I am grateful, but not because I should be—who was ever improved by doing what he “should”? I am grateful because I see the value gained, the tempering of my soul that has made it stronger and more flexible and the disciplining of my earthly personality shell so that I can live a more abundant, more joyful, more self-realized life.

Life on Earth has not made me cocky. I do not waken in the morning and say to life, “Bring it! Let’s boogie! “Indeed, if I have learned anything so far, it is that I need help. So I start my day with chapel time, in the sanctuary of my inner room of prayer. I dedicate this one day entirely to the Creator. And I ask Spirit to help me stay on task. I thank my angels for their deep love and sweet guardianship and ask them also to aide my awareness.

An important feature of life on Earth is the recurrence of one’s incarnational lessons. We cannot open our hearts—or any other chakras—and expect them to stay open. We do not learn our lessons once and never again. The ocean of life has its tides, and we may expect the occasions for suffering to come and go with every moon and season of our lives. And so we do well to start each new day as though it and we are completely new to life, yet also as though we are living the very last day of our lives. Both attitudes are equally true and helpful

There is an added piquancy to these opening days of the twenty-first century. We are seeing the last of third-density light now, as 2012 comes ever closer. As Q’uo says,

“Within third-density life as it has been experienced upon your planet for many millennia there has been third-density light that shone, both physically and metaphysically, and helped you to work towards making your choice of polarity and then maintaining that polarity and increasing that polarity. Ever since perhaps forty of your years ago that situation has gradually changed and it has made things more difficult for third-density entities upon your planet. Your planet comes closer and closer to that time when fourth density shall be the active density and third-density light shall be exhausted. […] As this instrument has experienced this change, it has been a matter of being completely unable to avoid looking at each and every part of the universal personality which this instrument has which has not yet been integrated into the heart, the mind, and the basic beingness of the surface personality.” Q’uo, May 23, 2009

In these final days of third density, the stakes are higher for us. It has become both more difficult and more desirable to study for our third-density final, the graduation harvest we will undergo when we drop our physical bodies at the natural end of our third-density incarnations.

Do not be dismayed because the time is so short. Indeed, do not be concerned if you are reading these words after 2012. If you are here at all after that, it is extremely likely that you have an advantage over purely third-density souls: you have a dual-activated, third-density/fourth- density physical and energetic body. [1] Scientists who test DNA have begun to find unknown additions to younger people’s DNA. Your higher self would not abandon you here if you could not do the work. So settle in and do the work you came to do. As you go, be heartened by Q’uo’s words:

“My dear ones, you are the light of the world. It is from hearts such as yours that the light of your plane comes. It is from lives such as yours that the great procession of life and death is imbued, in the passion play of life on Earth, with honor, dignity, compassion and deep caring. You have within you every force of death and every force of light/[life?]. Nothing has been left out of your makeup. It is the way of the spiritual sojourner to live that uncomfortable life that is aware of these matters, that is aware of the great wheel of evolution working through time and space to bring consciousness to that infinite present moment, where that great love that created all that there is suddenly explodes into light, infinite and indivisible.” Q’uo, April 7, 1996

In Living the Law of One—101: The Choice, I suggested that the Confederation view is that life is a game. The Confederation suggests that we can play the Game of Life as spiritual athletes, and we can win it. The choice to which the title of 101 refers is the choice of polarity. For only as we polarize past a certain point can we win the Game and move through the harvest of third density to achieve fourth density or, to put it in educational terms, graduate from third grade to fourth grade in this School for the Refinery of Souls.

Footnote: [1] The entities in this quote are the ones Carla is referring to;

63.13 “Questioner: Now these entities incarnate into a third-density vibratory body. I am trying to understand how this transition takes place from third to fourth density. I will take the example of one of these entities of which we are speaking who is now in a third-density body. He will grow older, and then will it be necessary that he die from the third-density physical body and reincarnate in a fourth-density body for that transition?

Ra: I am Ra. These entities are those incarnating with what you may call a double body in activation. It will be noted that the entities birthing these fourth-density entities experience a great feeling of, shall we say, the connection and the use of spiritual energies during pregnancy. This is due to the necessity for manifesting the double body.

This transitional body is one which will be, shall we say, able to appreciate fourth-density vibratory complexes, as the instreaming increases, without the accompanying disruption of the third-density body. If a third-density entity were, shall we say, electrically aware of fourth-density in full, the third-density electrical fields would fail due to incompatibility.

To answer your query about death, these entities will die according to third-density necessities.”

This morning I worked on my Camelot Journal entries and enjoyed the second day of having Boscoe living downstairs with me. It has taken about a week to slowly make the transition so that he would spend more and more time downstairs and get used to his new home. Now the two feral cats upstairs have the second floor to themselves, and, hopefully, this will create a better life for all of the kitties.

This afternoon I used my backpack blower to blow half of the leaves in the back yard into Dana’s Crystal Corner and create another area for my participating in the Leave the Leaves program to benefit insects, butterflies, birds, bees and all pollinators. Then I used the garden hose and wand to water some areas in the back yard that were particularly dry.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 28

Go Forth Rejoicing And Glad

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

It is the wish of the principle of unconditional and creative love that each particle of the Creator’s love, each of your cells, go forth into the world rejoicing and glad.

Whatever your troubles, whatever your sorrows this day, we ask you to treat them as gently as honored guests. For each of those beautiful and less beautiful things that you may meet is something which may catch you, as a twig along the river; as that which may snag your attention and curl you into the outwardly blinded and inwardly gazing position of the fetus.

Let not your troubles bend you over or bring you to the dust, but rather stand in faith and enjoy each small and great blessing that you may find before you this day, offering praise and thanksgiving with a strong heart. Thus may the Father’s light shine in your world.

We leave you in peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, our minds, and our souls to send love, light, and healing energies to Mother Earth as she brings forth a New Earth in fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energies of the One Infinite Creator heal the heart of each soul in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energies in their hearts, in their minds, and in their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the 102 quote comes from the Forward and concerns Don, Carla, and me as we functioned together.

We Three

Don, Carla and I shared a unique and very harmonious configuration of energies. By the time I arrived, Don had chosen a life of celibacy but loved Carla dearly. Carla likewise adored Don but did not prefer celibacy. I was, at first, a recluse who liked to spend my free time in the wilderness. Carla and I eventually enjoyed an intimate relationship that was grounded in loving friendship, which would one day evolve to a deep and meaningful romance. Don and I were, of course, friends from the start, trusting in our mutual love for Carla, each supportive of the other. The Ra Contact began only a few weeks after I arrived to aid Don and Carla’s truth-seeking mission. Once the contact was underway, Don, Carla, and I each had a role to play, and we faced the Choice together, day by day.

Perhaps Carla’s most concentrated act of selflessness was to risk her own life to sustain the Ra Contact, serving as what Ra called “the instrument”. Willingly going into trance and allowing Ra to speak through her took a huge toll on her body despite all of Ra’s efforts to maintain her wellness, rapidly using up physical material to the extent that Carla was eating all the food she could and still losing two to three pounds per session. All the while, a negative fifth-density entity was, according to Ra, orchestrating ways to end Carla’s already-delicate life. Carla was urged by Ra to consider how martyring herself to the contact, though selfless, would run counter to her goal of sustaining communication with Ra. She was advised to rely on Don and me to help her evaluate whether she was vital enough for another session, for Carla’s irrepressible will to serve superseded all physical limitation, and our fifth-density friend was aware that the instrument could be encouraged to overdo it and risk her fragile life at any moment. Fortunately, Carla chose wisely and we three worked together to keep the contact going for as long as possible until Don’s passing.

For Don, the contact was his ultimate joy. He would meditate to receive ideas about the questions he would ask Ra, sometimes drawing with a finger in the air to work out complex thoughts. Don was brilliant and, some would say, uncannily well-suited in his role as “the questioner”. It cannot be a coincidence that his knowledge of physics and his deep appreciation for metaphysics often allowed him to instantly understand Ra and to ask such intelligent, poignant questions with relative ease. Don took Ra’s advice with the utmost seriousness, attending to each detail that would help protect and prolong the contact. Until his mental health began to deteriorate, Don was an extremely calm, sharp and focused individual, giving all that he had to our work together while also supporting us financially as a pilot so that we could carry on without worry over our basic needs being met. 

My role during those golden days of shared service was as “the scribe” and a “battery” for the contact. During each session with Ra I would meditate, visualizing white light that contained every color of the rainbow entering Carla’s crown chakra, radiating out of each energy center, then emanating out of her feet and circulating back to her crown. Carla and I eventually discovered that our lovemaking between sessions also helped to prolong the contact by transferring vital energy to Carla that would increase her stamina when she was in trance, so that the contact did not draw so heavily upon Carla’s personal reserves of life force, as the latter posed a great risk to her physical vehicle. And as the “scribe”, as Ra called me, I would listen to the cassette tapes after every session and transcribe them on my electric typewriter. My other roles included keeping up with the household chores and repairs, cooking, and aiding Carla in managing daily life with her delicate, arthritic physical vehicle. However, I’d say that, just like Don and Carla, my most basic role in the contact was a passive one: as Ra explained, the effortless harmony that existed between me, Carla, and Don is what made it all possible, and that was reportedly due to our many lifetimes spent in service to one another.

The Ra contact came to a tragic end with Don’s suicide on November 7, 1984. There were so many extraordinarily unique metaphysical factors that contributed to his passing that I wrote an essay about it, which can be Googled using the title, “The 34^th Anniversary of the Passing of Don Elkins”, for anyone who would like to read it.

Throughout our twenty-eight years together after Don’s passing Carla and I took every opportunity to share the philosophy of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the One Infinite Creator. We offered weekly channeling meditations; we taught students how to channel; we held workshops around the country to share Confederation philosophy; Carla wrote A Channeling Handbook and The Wanderer’s Handbook; she channeled A Book of Days: Channelings From the Holy Spirit. We began holding our Homecoming Gathering on Labor Day weekend beginning in 1995, and Carla offered herself as a counselor and spiritual advisor to anyone who wished to take advantage of her deep thoughts and feelings regarding the spiritual path and how people might translate their problems to a means of enhancing their own seeking process. Carla remained a tireless devotee of Jesus Christ, singing choral hymns of praise and serving in her church in as many other ways as her frail body would allow. And, of course, she and I eventually fell head over heels in love with each other.

It took about six years for Carla to go through the grieving process for Don’s passing, but she and I knew that our work for the rest of our lives would be to attempt to fulfill Don’s dream to make the information from the Ra contact available to the entire world for free. The eventual birth and growth of the internet made it possible to do that with PDF documents.

When Don was alive, he and Carla were unmarried, but they were joined in deep love and devotion. As Ra said: “These two entities have been as one for a timeless period and have manifested this in your space/time.” At first, Carla and I loved each other but not in a romantic way. However, we felt that since we planned to be together for the rest of our lives in attempting to be of service to others that the most magical and powerful way to do that would be if we consciously attempted to live and grow together as mates. So, we married on May 30, 1987, symbolizing our inner commitment to shared spiritual seeking.

In 2002 I started a lawn service to help sustain us and would continue that for eleven years, as the monies left to us by Don had dwindled. We soon opened our home to various seekers who wished to live in community and study the Law of One. A young seeker named Gary Bean arrived in 2003 and would eventually become a skilled administrator of L/L Research, serving as director and then co-director.

At that time, Carla busied herself with service to her church, healing her body, cooking delicious meals, mentoring members of the L/L Readership, and producing all kinds of spiritual material through channeling and writing. In 2005 she made a trip to England to speak at five different locations. She wanted to let readers know how the trip went, and so she began the Camelot Journal, an online blog. When she returned home, she decided to keep the journal going as a means of letting readers know what a day in the life of L/L Research was like.

The last four years of Carla’s life were spent in our room in a hospital bed as she attempted to recover from two surgeries, one on her upper back (2010) which was successful in helping her to type again, and one on her lower back (2011) which created an open wound that never healed. I took over writing the Camelot Journal after the second surgery and continue it to this day, though now I write about my own daily life and share my spiritual studies and thoughts on the Law of One. In 2012, another gift from the Creator arrived in the form of Austin Bridges, a seeker who would join Gary in managing the organization.

Carla’s being confined to her hospital bed allowed her to do some major incarnational balancing work as Ra described in this quote:

“As we have said, this instrument, feeling that it lacked compassion to balance wisdom, chose an incarnative experience whereby it was of necessity placed in situations of accepting self in the absence of other-selves’ acceptance and the acceptance of other-self without expecting a return or energy transfer. This is not an easy program for an incarnation but was deemed proper by this entity.

This entity therefore must needs meditate and consciously, moment by moment, accept the self in its limitations which have been placed for the very purpose of bringing this entity to the precise tuning we are using. Further, having learned to radiate acceptance and love without expecting return, this entity now must balance this by learning to accept the gifts of love and acceptance of others which this instrument feels some discomfort in accepting. These two balancing workings will aid this entity in the release from the distortion called pain. The limitations are, to a great extent, fixed.”—60.8

Carla spent her childhood giving without expectation of return.  Being confined to the hospital bed allowed her to “to accept the gifts of love and acceptance of others” as she needed to have so much done for her that she could no longer do for herself.

And I learned how to open my heart in unconditional love as never before as her primary caregiver. My service to Carla included helping her to dress for outings to the doctor, cooking our meals, administering Carla’s medications, sitting by her while we watched TV and then, when her eyesight failed her, I read to her instead. I also changed the dressings on Carla’s surgical wound, helped her with personal care, and massaged her sore neck, shoulders, feet, and hands. We always shared the Morning Offering and meditated twice each day. This lasted for four years, until Carla passed into larger life on April 1, 2015.

I discovered that my experience serving Carla had opened my heart to all beings.  Since her passing, this heart-opening has allowed me to carry on Carla’s legacy of sharing the Law of One with our L/L family. I have continued to offer public meditations up until the COVID-19 virus pandemic ruled them out. However, we have plans to start the pubic channeling meditations again beginning in October of 2022. I have narrated as audio books all the volumes Carla wrote or channeled. There is an ongoing practice channeling meditation with four other members of L/L Research. My meditative practice has naturally deepened over time, and I still clean and tend to this beautiful, beloved house, caring for several kitties and for the gardens that always gave Carla such enjoyment.

Today and for a number of years, L/L Research is blessed by the tireless work of three wonderful, dedicated employees, as co-directors Austin and Gary having been joined by Trisha Bean.  Our little nonprofit is also fueled by volunteers from around the world who have likewise chosen the path of service to others. I wish to extend my sincerest gratitude to each of them and to you, our beloved readership for every moment of your devotion to the Choice to serve all in love and light.

This morning I watered the flowers in the front, side, and back yards as well as the small forsythia bushes on the north and south borders of my property.

This afternoon I used my backpack blower to blow all of the leaves in the front yard into the side yard between the fish pond and the pet cemetery.  I plan to leave the there as part of my participating in the “Leave the leaves” practice of helping native pollinators thrive. This is what the internet says about this practice: “Native pollinators, including butterflies, bees, and flies, are important to the function of every ecosystem. If you want to support our pollinators, follow these tips:

• Leave the leaves where they fall. Leaf litter provides habitat, insulation, and protection for insect pollinators. It’s also a natural fertilizer for grass as leaves break down during the winter.”

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 27

The Touch Of The Spirit Of Love

Greetings. I am the spirit of our Lord Jesus Christ in the vibration which comforts this instrument.

When you experience for the first time the touch of the spirit of love, you are as a bride who goes to her marriage bed, becoming a new being, one in flesh and spirit with the beloved.

Although a virgin may be irresponsible, yet a wise householder has the passive responsibility of being an instrument through which new life may be channeled. There is also the active responsibility of a discriminating stewardship of all those gifts which are held in trust from the Father and which should be used to the glory and celebration of the consciousness of love.

My peace I leave with you. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, our minds, and our souls to send love, light, and healing energies to Mother Earth as she brings forth a New Earth in fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energies of the One Infinite Creator heal the heart of each soul in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energies in their hearts, in their minds, and in their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the quote from 102 comes from the Forward and concerns how I decided to live the Choice in my life:

How Jim Chose to Live the Choice in His Life

Compared to Don’s and Carla’s early beginnings in living the Choice, I was a late bloomer. I was a college graduate with majors in business and economics before I discovered that I did not want to pursue making money as my life’s goal. I graduated in 1969, and by that time I had become a member of the “hippie revolution”. Drugs, sex, and rock and roll became a happy interlude in my life pattern that caused me to think seriously about how I wanted to live my life in a manner that focused on what I perceived as righting the wrongs of the American materialistic way of life.

The first thing that I did as I began to think “outside of the cultural box” was to go back to college to take a solid year of sociology so that I then had another major that I thought would be more worth pursuing. After studying sociology, I took a slight bend in the road and joined the National Teacher Corps, a program implemented by Congress to improve education in low-income areas.

I was based at the University of Florida in Gainesville. There, Teacher Corp worked with a program called “Follow Through” which helped ensure children’s successful transition from the Head Start program into elementary school. There were twenty-two “interns” in this program that came from all over the United States. We took a semester of classes on the campus in Gainesville, and then we moved to Jacksonville, Florida in order to work with the inner-city kids there.

The program had various advantages for us as interns: we studied and earned a Master’s in Education with a specialization in early childhood development. We got experience in the classrooms in Jacksonville; and we were paid salaries while working in the Jacksonville school system. As many of us were hippies, we also got to protest the way that the public schools functioned in some areas. Our protests resulted in our being able to have our own classrooms that were filled with first through third graders who posed discipline problems for their regular teachers.

Though my heart felt to be in the right place in attempting to be of service to the kids in our classrooms, I did not feel that working with kids was my life’s work. After graduation I followed another course of study which I had discovered in the bibliography section of a book called Raspberry Exercises: How to Start Your Own School and Make a Book. One of the sources that the authors of this book referred to was T.D. Lingo, who headed the Adventure Trails Survival School and was located in the Rocky Mountains forty miles west of Denver, Colorado.

He offered a course in Brain Self-Control which had the goal of allowing students to live in the primal nature environment for a month and to use dream analysis, journaling, and re-enacting the early childhood memories that blocked the brain’s natural function, in order to circuit consciousness into the “dormant” frontal lobes. Each of us would build a lean-to out of sight of anyone else and have that be our base for this study.

Three meals per day were shared together, as were the most recent dreams that we’d had and our interpretations. We regarded these dreams as gifts from our subconscious minds providing clues to help us realize our full brain potential. Once we were able to get these messages via dreams, our next task was to write about how these messages and memories from childhood had hindered our spiritual growth.

The last stage in the freeing of our brain energies was to take part in a “neuro-drama” in which we replayed the instant in our childhoods where an adult—parents, teachers, neighbors, etc.—had punished us in some fashion that had stunted our mental, emotional, or spiritual growth.

The idea here was that such punishment had created “open circuits” in our brains’ neurons which drained away our brains’ energy and kept us locked out of our frontal lobes, the part of the brain associated with the third eye and one’s connection to Spirit. When three or four of these memories were enacted we were able to “therapize” ourselves and achieve the frontal lobes experience of joy and bliss.

On July 12, 1972, in the pre-conscious state that occurs when awakening from sleep, I felt a “click” at my third eye, and I had my first frontal lobes experience, which felt like an orgasm in my brain. This would continue to happen over the course of nine years. Ra would one day speak to that moment:

I am Ra. We scan the questioner and find some pertinent information already available which regards the physiological disposition of this particular part of the brain. The experiences described and experienced are those distillations which may be experienced after a concentration of effort upon the opening of the gateway, or indigo, mind complex so that experience of a sacramental, or violet, ray may occur. These experiences are the beginnings of that which, as the body, the mind, and the spirit become integrated at the gateway, or indigo, level, may then yield not only the experience of joy but the comprehension of intelligent infinity which accompanies it. Thus the body complex orgasm and mind complex orgasm becoming integrated may then set forth the proper gateway for the spiritual complex integration and its use as a shuttle for the sacrament of the fully experienced presence of the One Infinite Creator. Thus there is much to which the questioner may look forward. –49.2

I would like to add that I am still “looking forward” regarding this experience.

I returned to the survival school the following year as a teacher, and then I purchased land in the woods of central Kentucky where I started my own school: The Rock Creek Research & Development Laboratories Inc. I lived off the grid on that land for six and one-half years and eventually had two classes of students take the Brain in Nature Course there.

While there I grew most of my own food in a large garden, put in a small orchard, and tended six hives of bees which produced honey that I sold at the Farmer’s Market in Perryville, Kentucky. To support myself I also cut tobacco plants. My strength and physical energy allowed me to cut thirteen hundred sticks per day, each comprised of six plants, at the rate of seven cents per stick—a good living which sustained me in the off-season. I built three other cabins and a root cellar thinking at the time that I would live there for the rest of my life.

Despite my solitary homestead, I got to experience interdependence and service to others in the form of two cooperative groups. One was a collection of food coops that spanned fives states, called the Federation of Ohio River Coops. In this organization everyone had an opportunity to create and refine policies or to be in a representative role for their own local coop. Together we practiced clear communication and representation, discussing each issue to arrive at a consensus vote. One of our meetings was held on my homestead, where 150 people trekked up my rocky creek bed to sleep in tents for three days. My coop prepared and served everyone three meals a day during that long, joyful weekend.

The other organization I belonged to was called The Community Group. This was a cooperative of people, which met one day each week, who aided one another in tasks such as digging gardens, building and painting homes, harvesting crops, or whatever other jobs needed to be done.

However, in May of 1979, I was listening to my battery-powered transistor radio and was tuned into WKQQ Radio Station in Lexington, Kentucky. They were airing an interview with Don Elkins and Carla L. Rueckert, and the topic was UFOs. Don and Carla were sharing some of the channeled information that they had received in the last couple of years as well as some data on UFO abductions that they had gathered in the twelve years they had been together.

They were sharing the philosophy of these UFO beings who said that we all were part of One Great Original Thought, or the One Infinite Creator. This great Thought not only produced the infinite creation that we all find ourselves in, but included the idea that each of us contains the One Creator within our beings as we travel our spiritual journeys back into unity with the One Creator. These ideas came through to me like bolts of lightning revealing what felt like the truth of my being.

I really had a strong desire to meet Don and Carla but had no idea how to go about it until an amazing synchronicity occurred. One day, at a meeting for my food-buying coop, I was talking to a couple that lived on the other side of the same county that I lived in. Our conversation at this one meeting, about five months after I’d heard Don and Carla on the radio, was taking a spiritual turn and I mentioned the information I had heard Don and Carla talking about. In one of the happiest coincidences of my life, they said that they were part of Don and Carla’s meditation group and would be glad to introduce me to them.

For the next year I drove to Louisville every Sunday night to attend Don and Carla’s channeling meditation. At that time, they were channeling those of Latwii, a fifth-density planetary mind, and after the main message there was always a chance to ask questions. I was full of questions and became most impressed with the answers that Carla channeled.

We became good friends, and in the summer of 1980, I helped Don and Carla move from their apartment in the Highlands area of Louisville to a new location on the outskirts of Louisville that eventually became the house that we three would share during the Ra contact. After the move was complete, they asked me to join them in their work; however, I had been planning for a couple of years to move out to Yamhill, Oregon to join Paul Shockley and the folks there who were channeling Cosmic Awareness. I chose to move to Oregon due to my desire to explore further the high quality of information coming through the channel, but also because I was interested in conspiracy theories being discussed by the group at that time. It took a while for me to discover that conspiracy theories only served to distract me from the heart of my spiritual journey.

I had a good time out there, but when a chance to earn a lot of money came from one of the members of that group I took the weekend to meditate on what I should do. The money would come if I took the manager’s position in this fellow’s company that mined diatomaceous earth. I was concerned that this work would take me away from my spiritual path, and I hoped that meditation might help me to take the best path available to me at that time. That wish was certainly granted as it took only thirty seconds of meditation for the message to blaze across my inner field of vision like a comet: “Return to Louisville to join Don and Carla”.

I arrived back in Louisville on December 20, 1980, and three weeks later, on January 15, 1981, the Ra contact began. For the next three years and two months we had the joy, honor, and adventure of communicating with those of Ra who could answer any spiritually-oriented question we could ask as long as it didn’t infringe upon our free will. We knew without doubt that this contact with those of Ra was the pinnacle of our lives’ work.

This afternoon I used my hedge clippers to trim back my five Drift Roses as was recommended when I bought them so they will perform well next year. Then I pulled all the dead Black-eyed Susan flower stalks up in four different locations of the yard. My last job of the afternoon was to spread the many vines of the one vining rose to the other two arms of the arbor so that this one vigorous vining rose can also reach over to the arms where other vining roses have died out.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 26

May Your Soul Be Tempered

I am of the spirit of Jesus Christ and I greet you in the fullness of divine love.

The unconditional nature of love is not fully understood by those who wish each other a pleasant day, a happy day, a good day. For to one full of the spirit of love, each day is, first, that which is dipped in fire and held to the rising sun, a tempered sword of unity so that all things are one, the seemingly good, the seemingly difficult situations alike, blending into love, turning into chances for renewal and growth.

May your soul be so tempered in the grace of Jesus Christ that the spirit may speak through you this day, regardless of the circumstances of your existence, to a world hungry for the love of Christ.

In the peace of Christ we leave you, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, our minds, and our souls to send love, light, and healing energies to Mother Earth as she brings forth a New Earth in fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energies of the One Infinite Creator heal the heart of each soul in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energies in their hearts, in their minds, and in their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the quote from 102 comes from the Forward and concerns How Don Chose to Live the Choice in His Life:

How Don Chose to Live the Choice in His Life

Don’s lifetime of positive service began to take shape when he was seventeen. He was taking flying lessons from Capt. Tom Mantell, who was 25-years old and a veteran of WWII. Tom and Don became good friends during their time together, and when Tom was killed while chasing a UFO on January 7, 1948, Don became interested in UFOs and began what amounted to a spiritual journey that lasted his whole life. He was moved to question whether there was any end to the universe. Was there a God or a creative force that made everything? What was our place in the universe? Were we alone here?

Don had a profound interest in how things worked. He took all of the science courses available to him in high school. There was, however, the pesky matter of an athletic requirement, and Don opted for the alternative to team sports, which was the ROTC (Reserve Officer Training Corp) class. This qualified him for the National Guard after graduation.  

Unfortunately, amidst the Korean War the National Guard was activated and young Don was deployed to Germany. Though Don advanced to a high rank, a couple stories illustrate his decidedly unwarlike nature.

One day, Don was plotting artillery range targets with his unit’s Major. They were looking at a map on the hood of the major’s Jeep, when a ladybug traversed the map. Offering his pencil to the ladybug for transport, Don released it at the base of a nearby tree. When he returned to the Jeep, his major looked at Don and said, “I hope you don’t feel that way about people.”

Another day, Don and his colleagues were standing at attention to be inspected by the general, but the general was not satisfied with the way in which Don’s platoon had saluted him. As punishment, the general restricted the platoon to the base that weekend and they could not go into town. So, on Saturday night, Don gathered his platoon for some recreation. He led them in creating a comedic skit in which they learned how to salute properly, to the tune of much laughter.

To my memory, Don may have joined the ROTC not only to evade the athletic requirement of his high school but to pay for his higher education.  He went on to earn two master’s degrees: one in engineering and one in mechanical engineering. Though he did not pursue a doctorate, his studies prepared him to teach physics at the University of Louisville for a decade. Beloved by his students for his intelligence, good nature, engaging lessons, and subtle sense of humor, Don developed quite a positive rapport with them. They entertained themselves by testing his unflappability again and again with wild pranks—but they never succeeded in ruffling Don’s feathers.

However, all of his academic experience simply convinced Don that science did not have answers to his deeper questions. So, in the mid 1950s, he began to expand his research into the realms of what was first called the paranormal.

Don’s initial in-depth study in this field was to learn how to do regressive hypnosis. This gave him the opportunity to explore the widely held belief of many Eastern cultures that reincarnation was the process by which all of humanity progressed in the evolution of the spiritual nature of our being. He regressed over 200 people between 1955 and 1960 and found abundant evidence of each person having lived lives previous to the one that they were living then.

Don’s next effort toward service to others was an exploration of “ufology”—the study UFOs—and extraterrestrial communication that Don felt might be of use to the evolution of humanity. In 1961, he became aware of information that was supposedly channeled or delivered by extraterrestrial entities to a meditation group in Detroit headed by Walt Rogers. Mr. Rogers reported having a face-to-face encounter with extraterrestrial entities who maintained a telepathic contact with him afterwards. They transmitted information of a spiritual nature to him and gave simple directions for starting a meditation group to receive such information on a regular basis.

Hal Rogers was a member of this group, and he was transferred from Ford motor Company in Detroit to the Ford Motor Company in Louisville, where Don lived. Hal eventually came into contact with Don and shared this information that had been collected into what was referred to as The Brown Notebook. Eventually Don invited a dozen of his Introduction to Physics students to partake in an experiment to see if this process of receiving extraterrestrial information would work. One of the students got Don’s permission to bring his girlfriend, Carla Rueckert, to the group.

Don didn’t tell these meditators that his goal was extraterrestrial contact. He wanted to make a scientific experiment out of the process and see if contact would happen on its own. For the next couple of months there were a lot of mouths opening and closing and tongues making slurping sounds—as that was allegedly the “conditioning” that was used by ETs in those days–but there were no words being channeled. The scientific validity of the experiment was blown when Walt Rogers visited the group and channeled those of Hatonn, who said that although they had established contact with many of the members of the group, the participants were afraid to speak the words they saw in their minds because they thought that they were making them up.

After this session, the students—except for Carla– began to channel Hatonn regularly. Carla loved the messages but preferred silent meditation for herself. Don decided to gather as much of the channeled information as possible to add to his growing concept of how his basic questions might be answered. This experiment would continue for years, through Carla’s departure, marriage, divorce and eventual return.

One fateful day, Carla returned to Don’s doorstep to participate once again in his meditations, and a romance took hold. Only after Carla’s divorce was final and Don had moved in did Carla learn something curious over dinner.  Don confessed that he’d known since their first encounter that they’d wind up together, to which Carla responded, “Well why didn’t you tell me then?!” Don, never a fan of Carla’s first husband, shared that he was respecting Carla’s freedom, with the belief that her experiences would shape a better future.

Don then used his skills as a pilot of small planes and traveled with Carla to investigate UFO abductions and, in this way, they attempted to live their Choice of service to others together for twelve years before I joined them. By this time Don had begun to “put together the puzzle pieces” that represented his basic questions and the portions of the answers that he and Carla would find through the channeling process and investigating UFO abductions.

Don was tireless in his search for the truth. He was singularly focused on this service and, while he was not demonstrably affectionate or emotive, he conveyed a stable vibration of goodwill, gentle humor, and open-minded curiosity. He adored Carla and he loved people. Where Carla was full of faith, devotion, and passionate love, Don was rational, steady, and good-natured throughout his journey of seeking. Don’s consideration of others shone through any difficulty, even when, toward the end of his life, his mental health declined. Both Don and Carla were brilliant and intrepid seekers who chose to use those powerful qualities to be of service to others.

This morning I answered emails and continued my work on using 102 as my Camelot Journal entries. I had also planned to water my flowers, but we got an unexpected quarter inch of rain.

This afternoon I made an errand run to pick up a litter box scoop to use on Boscoe’s downstairs litter box. Then I stopped in and bought some groceries at Kroger’s and also at Paul’s Fruit Market. I have discovered that Boscoe likes to watch the squirrels and birds eat the bird seed and does so from the corner of the living room behind my Arrowhead Vine that stretches out over four 4 ft. tall bamboo poles that form a pyramid. I think I will put his window bed from upstairs in that position in my process of giving Boscoe a new home on the first floor.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 25

Seek The Wisdom Of Love

Greetings in the love of the most compassionate Christ.

You have many things upon your minds, judgments to make and tasks to perform this day. It is good to will to do these things if you seek the grace to do them well. Yet you must know that your point of view is ever less informed than the greater will of consciousness in Christ.

Plunge, then, into the waters of everlasting life and seek not the hot and fervent faith that shall cool by evening but the peaceful, calm certainty that wishes only to move deeper and deeper, breathing the waters of rich and unending wisdom and love, forsaking the dry and barren breath of human judgment and decision. Let your decision be to turn to the faith that is your everlasting consciousness.

Peace be with you. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, our minds, and our souls to send love, light, and healing energies to Mother Earth as she brings forth a New Earth in fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energies of the One Infinite Creator heal the heart of each soul in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energies in their hearts, in their minds, and in their souls. Amen.

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