The Camelot Journal

This Camelot Journal entry would have been posted yesterday afternoon, but yesterday was the first day of our Homecoming Gathering at Terrapin Hill in central Kentucky which is an hour and a half drive from my home. The opening ceremony lasted an hour and a half longer than when I was planning to leave, so I will try to leave in time for the last three days of the Homecoming Gathering so that I can post my Camelot Journal around 7:30 pm Eastern Time.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Hatonn channeling comes from August 9, 1979:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. We thank you for summoning us on this evening, and we express our appreciation to you for inviting us into your domicile at this time. We are aware that each of you has had a busy and a trying day, and to know that you are making room for meditation is very heartwarming to us, for to find companions on the spiritual path is, indeed, a great pleasure, as always.

This evening we would talk to you about the strength and the keenness of your desire. We will talk to you about something that you do not think about enough, and that is how complete the illusion is in which you now exist. Your physical vehicles are, at this point, in what you would call a seated position, held downward by a force which you do not explore but simply take for granted. What would occur, my friends, if suddenly gravity were reversed and you were flying toward the ceiling? Could you think fast enough that your heads would not come into contact with the ceiling before your feet whirl around? Would you land on your feet?

When you walk down the street you expect that no buildings would fall upon you, that people’s heads will remain attached to their bodies and will not come hurtling at you. You do not find a high risk in simple actions. Do you realize, my friends, how carefully the illusion has been planned so that you do not have to be aware of the safety of your physical vehicles? You have your gravity; you have your energy fields; you have your physical universe in which your very fragile physical can make its way with a minimum amount of danger. Why do you think this is, my friends? And why is it that so many people, instead of taking the opportunity of this safety from imminent danger to meditate and to try to penetrate the desire of their lives, simply find more and more comfort to enrich the luxury of their lives, if you would call it that?

Hatonn wanted to speak to the group about their strength and desire. They began by saying this evening we would talk to you about the strength and the keenness of your desire, and we will talk to you about something that you do not think about enough, and that is how complete the illusion is in which you now exist. Your physical vehicles are, at this point, in what you would call a seated position, held downward by a force which you do not explore but simply take for granted, but: “What would occur if suddenly gravity were reversed and you were flying toward the ceiling? Could you think fast enough that your heads would not come into contact with the ceiling before your feet whirl around? Would you land on your feet?” Hatonn went on to say when you walk down the street you expect that no buildings would fall upon you, that people’s heads will remain attached to their bodies and will not come hurtling at you, so you do not find a high risk in simple actions, but do you realize how carefully the illusion has been planned so that you do not have to be aware of the safety of your physical vehicles? Hatonn said you have gravity; you have energy fields; you have a physical universe in which your fragile physical vehicle can make its way with a minimum amount of danger, and:” Why do you think this is? And why is it that so many people, instead of taking the opportunity of this safety from imminent danger to meditate and to try to penetrate the desire of their lives, simply find more and more comfort to enrich the luxury of their lives, if you would call it that?” On May 2, 1993, Q’uo described the purpose of our energy fields:

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. It is a feature, shall we say, of choiceless awareness that that quality of working with energy fields and ideas that you call creativity is given the greatest opportunity for expression, for this energy of thought and inspiration runs ceaselessly through each entity’s life experience and is available for inspiration as the entity is able to open the self in an unguarded and vulnerable way to this energy. Whether this choice to experience awareness without choice is made in the conscious sense or in the subconscious sense, the entity is able to feel the pulse of its own being and to express this sensation in any avenue available, whether it be of the physical creation, or of the mental creation, or of the simple experience and expression of awareness internally.

There are people that dwell upon your sphere who live in a very high-risk situation at all times. No, my friends, gravity is not reversed, nor do things hurtle at them from others, except in war. But there are other dangers: there is hunger and thirst, being too cold and too hot, and too wet and too dry, passing the parameters of your physical vehicle. And in these high-risk situations many among your species pass from existence in your dimension. But you yourselves, my friends, you are not in such an area. You have incarnated into a physically easy, simple, comfortable number of parameters of existence.

What shall you do with this opportunity, my friends? Much has been taken from your worry that you may turn your will and your desire more deeply into the mystery of who you are and where the truth lies that suffuse your identity. Do you really wish to know? Have you sought in meditation today, even for a few seconds, that link with the Creator that gives you the key that unlocks the door to knowledge of yourself? What do you know of yourself besides the fact that you are comfortable, and that you enjoy comfort? You have been placed into this world by yourselves for experience, but you are not to be hungry and at risk by bullets, by tidal waves, by heat, by exhaustion. For what, then, were you put into this world?

Hatonn went on to say there are people that dwell upon your sphere who live in a high-risk situation at all times, for gravity is not reversed, nor do things hurtle at them from others, except in war, but there are other dangers: hunger and thirst, being too cold and too hot, and too wet and too dry, passing the parameters of your physical vehicle, and in these high-risk situations many among your species pass from existence in your dimension, but you are not in such an area, for you have incarnated into a physically comfortable number of parameters of existence. Hatonn continued by saying much has been taken from your worry that you may turn your desire deeply into the mystery of who you are and where the truth lies that suffuse your identity, so: “Do you really wish to know? Have you sought in meditation today that link with the Creator that gives you the key that unlocks the door to knowledge of yourself? What do you know of yourself besides the fact that you are comfortable, and that you enjoy comfort? You have been placed into this world by yourselves for experience, but you are not to be hungry and at risk by bullets, by tidal waves, by heat, by exhaustion. For what, then, were you put into this world?” On August 26, 2006, Q’uo described who we are:

When you move into that part of yourself where the seeds of these questions truly lie, and from which they grow into that bloom which is yourself within incarnation, you move into common ground. You move into nested realities of who you are. You are you, of course, within incarnation. You are the only you that ever was and ever will be. But you are nested into your soul stream along with all of the “you’s” that you have created in many blooming incarnations. You are a full garden of beings in one. You are nested into your soul group, which is nested into the entire societal clan which decided to come to planet Earth to be part of the Light and the Love of the one infinite Creator.

And this is nested into your being a part of Earth itself, the tribe of Earth which you became when you took flesh and laced your soul carefully into the substance of the mind, the body, and the spirit of that entity which sits within our room this evening and is able to share energy with us.

And all of this is nested into order of magnitude after order of magnitude, until you are the one infinite Creator. All is run not simply from the top down but from the tiniest iota of being upwards. And each iota of that universe of the creation contains the creation within it.

When we translate that reality back into your question, we say that within you lie rivers and oceans of purified emotion that constitute an archetypical world. You can touch into emotion that has moved through all of its more shallow expressions and into that which is beautiful and pure of its kind, leached of pity and impurity, sorrow and anger, until the emotion you experience is the essence of sorrow, the essence of pain, the essence of impatience.

When you move into those archetypal rivers of purified emotion, you become more and more aware of what kind of being you are. What an exotic, complicated, and unimaginably complex, multilayered being you are! It is stunning! And when you can see how stunning you are, you see that all of your imperfections add power. You begin to see how beautiful everyone else is because you have forgiven yourself for that imperfection. And now you are ready to see the beauty of everyone else too.

As you get to this level you begin to see that who you are changes, the deeper that you go. At the bottom of that digging is a place in your heart where you are unconditional Love. In that place, the Christ waits for you. To some entities the Christ is a being, a person, with eyes and hands, and a voice. To some entities Christ is the energy, the creative principle that created the world, wrapped into a cloak which any entity may choose to prepare the self to wear.

The cloak of Love that is unconditional may be seen as a crown. It may be seen as a mother nursing its child. It may be seen as the figure of the Christ washing the feet of his disciples and saying, “Follow me and be the servant of those you love.”

It is difficult to discuss being itself. Words fail. And we can use only metaphors, stories, and well known and even clichéd figures to describe the world in which that energy resides. Who you are and where you came from are things that evolve into your conscious awareness very naturally, little by little, throughout an incarnation, if you are interested.

Many are the laws of Love which you have discovered, and for that we congratulate you. But we tell you that you have only scratched the surface of your own consciousness. We tell you that there is a vast geography beneath the surface of your knowledge of yourself, and in this area of yourself lies an understanding that goes beyond comfort, beyond the physical body, beyond the physical life that you know. How can you seek less, my friends, even for one day? We do not ask you to lose your sense of humor, to deny yourself any comfort that you may find pleasant. We ask only that you see the place of these things and the importance of these things relative to the real business of your lives: finding and sharing the truth that is within you.

We find within this instrument regret that she has, during this day, failed to be of perfect service to one of her own species. And we say to you in this regard, yes, you must share what you know, but if you cannot share what you know you must not regret your lack. For if what you know is incomprehensible, then to attempt again and again to share it is, as it says in your holy works, to throw pearls before swine. They cannot understand; they will only sicken on such a diet. Thus, allow yourself only to desire to know the Creator in yourself and others. But if the moment has not come for you to be able to demonstrate a teaching, then, my friends, it simply has not come. You were not sent out into the world to change those who were not ready. You must only see in them the possibility that exists for them to, at any time, as you call it, to become aware of that which you may know; thus, never shutting your heart against another, you may bide your time, as you say, and plant those seeds of information, those thoughts of Love, when they are asked for, not before.

Then Hatonn said many are the laws of Love which you have discovered, and for that we congratulate you, but we tell you that you have only scratched the surface of your own consciousness, and we tell you that there is a geography beneath the surface of your knowledge of yourself, and in this area lies an understanding that goes beyond the physical life that you know, so how can you seek less even for one day? We do not ask you to lose your sense of humor, to deny yourself any comfort that you may find pleasant, but we ask that you see the place of these things and the importance of these things relative to the real business of your lives: finding and sharing the truth that is within you. Hatonn went on to say we find within Carla regret that today she has failed to be of perfect service to one of her own kind, and we say to you that you must share what you know, but if you cannot share what you know you must not regret your lack, for if what you know is incomprehensible, then to attempt again and again to share it is, as it says in your holy works, to throw pearls before swine, for they cannot understand, and they will sicken on such a diet, so allow yourself to desire to know the Creator in yourself and others, but if the moment has not come for you to be able to demonstrate a teaching, then it simply has not come because you were not sent out into the world to change those who were not ready, so you must only see in them the possibility that exists for them to become aware of that which you may know, never shutting your heart against another, you may bide your time and plant those seeds of information, those thoughts of Love, when they are asked for, not before. On February 5, 2006, Q’uo spoke of how we can come to know the Creator:

You cannot know the Creator except by being the Creator or seeing the Creator in others. So, you cannot think your way to devotion. Indeed, your best approach to becoming more able to be devoted is to see yourself approaching your own heart. Within your heart, at the very core of your being, lies that part of yourself which is completely and wholly the Creator. The object of your devotion, then, waits for you at the very core of your being.

Within incarnation it is likely that you will not know that you are the Creator without some point of infinite realization, which comes as a gift and not as a plan. But you are well able to approach that within yourself and to know that waiting for you is an entity who Loves you with an energy that is indescribable and complete. The devotion is already flowing. You are approaching that place where devotion flows. It flows first from the Creator to you, and it is only reflection, then, to allow that energy to flow back to its source.

If you think only the word “Creator,” you may become very close to being able to experience that devotion. If you think the word “devotion,” it may move you to the same place. Play with the words, the feelings and the various aspects that you can get a handle on in your daily, ordinary mind and thinking.

The important thing, my friends, is to remain untouched by success or failure in contact with others. You do not know in a true sense what your manifestation may have been to another, for that is not in your saying within another’s experience. You know only what you feel, and that you have as much control over as you do over yourself as a whole. Therefore, let your heart be glad; let your tongue be honest; and let your thoughts dwell upon the Creator. More than that you cannot do. Less than that you should not do.

[Pause]

I am conditioning each of you, and would like at this time, although the instrument is very fatigued, to say a few words to the one known as Don. I am Hatonn.

[Pause]

(N channeling)

I am Hatonn. I am now with this instrument. Please pardon us. We felt this… would endeavor to speak through this [inaudible] at this time, for he is open to our contact with ease. We of the Confederation have some [inaudible] words to be handled. We have been attempting to be of service so that you may speak the truth to those who desire to know the truth. We do not need many words. We use them to aid an understanding, but in reality, my friends, what you seek is very simple. It is so simple, it is not simple. What you desire to know, you already know. The Love you yearn to feel surrounds your body and your thoughts at all times; it has never left; it is always here with you.

At this time, we will attempt to step up our conditioning rays, so to speak, to bring you closer together as a group during this meditation. We will pause for a moment.

[Pause]

I am Hatonn. Again, I am with you. The illusion that you now live, my friends, will distract you very easily, as you know, but in reality it is an illusion. Your progress spiritually cannot really be intellectually described, but we say only the desire must be there. If you desire truly to know Love, you will, my friends, because you already know. Meditation calms you to a point where you can sometimes [inaudible] this knowledge and recognize it. It is always available to you.

At this time, I will transfer this contact. I am Hatonn.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am again with this instrument. I am Hatonn. We had again attempted to contact the one known as Don, for we wished to exercise him, due to the fact that he is somewhat out of practice, and it is sometimes a little difficult to regain the fluency one has had in the past immediately. Therefore, we wished to practice just a few sentences with him. We will attempt again a little later.

At this time, we would open the meeting to questions.

[Pause]

This instrument has a question, due to the fact that she has been perceiving a concept which is somewhat beyond her abilities, because it is a geographical concept. But we can assure her that we felt that the earthquake activity which was recently felt in California was a great victory for those who do meditate and attempt to lighten the consciousness of your planetary sphere, in that no one was, shall we say, removed from the physical who did not wish to be; and once again some pressure of new transition is eased somewhat. However, due to your continued difficulties in your Middle East and elsewhere in your world, there will be continued difficulties in your oceanic tides and storms. Therefore, we urge you to continue meditating for peace for the world, for there is some danger.

We have difficulty giving this instrument the geographical location, but it is west of your nation and south. Thus, we ask your help in your planet’s deliverance from a very difficult [inaudible] into a new age. We thank you who have attempted to be messengers of Love and Light in these times, which do not lend themselves to messengers of that type, and, as we say, we urge you to continue.

Is there another question at this time?

[Pause]

I am again with this instrument. The energy this evening is somewhat low, and thus we are not at our very best contact level, although this is a very good group, as one of your comedians has often said. The energy level of the group is somewhat low; thus, it is less easy for us to make contact, and we thank you for the energy that you give us at the end of such a busy day. We ask you to remember that in Love there is no limitation; there is room for all things to be done in full measure. Thus, if you are physically weary you may draw from an infinite supply of energy which has been called cosmic, but which we tell you is simply the Love that created you and that created all that there is.

We will again attempt to contact the one known as Don, that we may close through him. I am Hatonn.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

We thank the one known as Don that we are able to work with him, for we are having good success in conditioning him, but we are not making good contact with him, due to the fatigue and his analysis of our thoughts. Before we leave this group we would condition the one known as G and the one known as M. We are attempting a new, gentler conditioning for the one known as M in hopes that it will be more comfortable for her. I am Hatonn.

[Pause]

I am again with this instrument. I leave you, my friends, in the love and the light of the infinite Creator. Again we bless each of you and assure that at all times we are with you if you wish us. May your days be full of light and your sleep full of comfort. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

[The tape recorder was stopped and then started again.]

(N channeling)

I am Oxal. I greet you in Love and Light, my friends. I will not detain you, for I know you are tired. But I wish you to feel a higher note, so to speak. The seriousness that surrounds problems in your individual lives is not so serious as you may think. We ask you to try to view yourself as a grain of sand on the beach of a vast ocean. You are an individual, and you are one of many millions like you forming one great stretch of sand, and every so often the waters of the ocean come in and waves surround you, and the water may be softly turned a little to go back put to sea. As this perpetual motion goes about, you are taken along the path.

My friends, we ask you to think of yourself as a grain of sand, because in the eyes of the Creator you are one of many. But, as with the grains of sand on the beach, not much real harm can come to you, not much can really hurt you, except being bounced around with other grains of sand. If the Creator overlooked creation, it is perfect, and at no time would the Creator let harm come to His creation. The illusion makes it seem that way sometimes, but as a father and mother love their children, they watch and protect us.

It has been a great privilege to speak with you. I am Oxal.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am Latwii. I greet you. I was afraid I would not get to speak with you before you had not gotten your second wind, but now I will speak only a few sentences to say that I send you Love and Light in the name of the Creator and, as always since our meeting several of your months ago, watch over you with the greatest of love. I am Latwii.

As you go about your business remember, my friends, whom you serve. Only one thing do you serve, my friends: Love. Invoke the Light of that Love, and all things will come into harmony in their own time. I leave you. I am so glad to have been able to speak with you. I am Latwii. Adonai, my friends.

This morning Josh, Jon, and I went on an errand run with out first stop being Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. Our second stop was at Speedway where I filled Stanley’s tank with premium gasoline. Our last stop was the house on Watterson Trail in Jefferson Town where Don, Carla, and I were part of the Ra contact. Then we came home and had lunch.

This afternoon we drove down to Terrapin Hill, and the rest of the afternoon was filled with many inspiring experiences. I met and talked with some friends that I knew well. Then I met Heidi who was a friend of Carla’s for many years before I knew Carla. She gave me a picture of Carla that she took 47 years ago and a book that she wrote about training to be a psychic. Then, when it was time to begin our Homecoming Gathering, I talked for a few minutes about how Carla had decided to have Homecomings beginning in 1995, so that spiritual seekers could talk to everyone in the gathering about their spiritual journey, and no one would think that they were crazy, and she wanted everyone to have the experience of being able to open their hearts and love each other without any conditions. Then Gary gave everyone some information regarding the goals and procedures that would be used so that each seeker could take part in the schedule of presentations, meals, and time together. Then Austin surprised Gary by letting everyone know that this gathering was the 20^th year that Gary had been participating in facilitating these gatherings, and it was also the 50^th gathering that he had facilitated. Then he gave Gary a large picture of the cover of the book Tilting At Windmills that he wrote after interviewing Carla and me in 2014 with 400 questions about the Ra Contact and our spiritual journeys. Austin also gave Gary a glass pyramid with the L/L Logo of the painting of Don Quijote by Pablo Picasso. I shared the many times that Gary had been of service to me in helping me with my lawn service, how he had asked advanced spiritual questions from the beginning of his joining our public channeling sessions in 2003, how he helped me get out of a couple of scams a few years ago, and how he had facilitated a meeting with my Glenview Trust team to scale back my donations to the Red Cross until December. The last part of the opening of our Homecoming Gathering was the Round Robin where we went around the circle of 68 seekers and gave each seeker the chance to express in one sentence what it was that they wanted to take with them during the Homecoming presentations and time spent together.

From A Book of Days channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 11

Mountains Of Smoke

Greetings in the Love of Jesus the Christ. I am the consciousness and Spirit of the Christ in the vibration which comforts this instrument.

You have many seeming difficulties which rise before you like mountains of smoke, seemingly dense and impenetrable and yet seemingly unable to be grasped. It is of no avail to struggle against these difficulties, for opposition strengthens illusion.

Rather neglect them by turning your attention to your Creator and the preserver of your life, offering praise and thanksgiving to the mystery which you behold.

When you turn again in this consciousness the mountains will be there no longer, and the straight plain will offer your path no hindrance.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn channeling comes from August 2, 1979:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. We, of the Confederation of Planets In the Service of the Infinite Creator, can greet you only with these words, for they describe all that there is, my friend—Love and Light; for the Creator is Love, and it is our understanding that that Love, working through motion, or vibration, or, as you may call it, Light, has created all that there is in an infinite panoply of beauty and order and unity, so that we are all one divine and unified being, with but one purpose, my friend. And that purpose is to give back that which has been given us so freely.

And what is it that has been given us, my friend? For we are all so different, and so many different things have been given us. Yes, my friends, we are aware that your circumstances differ. Some may have more of a supply of worldly goods than others, some a greater supply of what you on your planet term the intellect, some a greater supply of strength, some a greater supply of courage; and, certainly, all feel they have a greater supply of difficulties and problems. But we are not speaking, my friends, of this one gift, when we speak of any of these, for these are not gifts at all, but limitations that you have chosen for this experience. What you have in common, my friends, is consciousness. Could you but strip away the layers and layers of concept and illusion that furnish your mind, you would find that the original Thought in which you are molded is that of Love made conscious of itself. Each of you, my friends, is Love.

Hatonn wanted to speak about the nature of the universe and the various nature of the being of the population of Earth. They began by saying we can greet you only with these words, for they describe all that there is as Love and Light, for the Creator is Love, and it is our understanding that that Love, working through vibration, or Light, has created all that there is in an infinite collection of beauty and unity, so that we are all one divine and unified being, with but one purpose, and that is to give back that which has been given us so freely. Then Hatonn said we are all so different, and so many different things have been given us, so we are aware that your circumstances differ, for some may have more of a greater supply of the intellect, some a greater supply of courage, and all feel they have a greater supply of difficulties and problems, but we are not speaking of one gift, when we speak of any of these, for these are not gifts at all, but limitations that you have chosen for this experience, for what you have in common is consciousness, and if you could strip away the layers of concept and illusion that furnish your mind, you would find that the original Thought in which you are molded is that of Love made conscious of itself, for each of you is Love. On October 27, 1996, Q’uo said that each of us is Love:

And the truth which cannot be got at by knowledge can be attained through Love, for each of you is Love. Each of you is created as Love, in Love, for Love. That which is you, that which is most deeply yourself, is that portion of self that is Love. That ground of being for each of you is the same. There is only one life. There is only one being. There is only unity which expresses and manifests in distortion within your density, within each succeeding density, though each succeeding density is more densely filled with Light and the lessons become finer tuned, yet still we move from illusion to illusion, growing and learning.

How can this be a practical piece of knowledge? How can you use this in your life? That is why we are in your skies at this time. That is why we are attempting to speak through instruments such as this one, to those people of your planet who are hungry for some words that make sense amidst so many words that do not. All of you are aware of the transforming power of Love. Each of you has seen it at one time or another, the touch of a hand, the difference a smile or a kind gesture might make to a stranger. And we say to you that there is a method by which you can tap into the infinity of the universal supply of this Love. We do not say a great deal about the Creator to you, because we do not know about the Creator.

We are, as you, fallible, imperfect, unsure—but a little surer than you, my friends, for in the vibration which we now enjoy we can see that our brothers and sisters are one with us, so that to do harm to them is only to do harm to ourselves. We cannot lie, for our thoughts are visible to those about us, just as your clothing is obvious to those about you. Our vibrations are visible; thus, there is no deception, and there can be no confusion between people. We no longer even have names, for we do not need them. We were aware of your conversation earlier about names, and it made us smile ,for, indeed, in our society we do not need to name an individual, for each individual vibrates in a unique manner and could not possibly be mistaken for another person. Seeing the vibration that is based upon the great octave of Love in each person, we thus love each person. But that is easy for us; it is not easy for you.

Then Hatonn said: “How can this be a practical piece of knowledge? How can you use this in your life?” That is why we are in your skies at this time, and that is why we are attempting to speak through instruments such as Carla, to those people of your planet who are hungry for words that make sense within so many that do not, for all of you are aware of the transforming power of Love, and each of you has seen it at one time or another: the touch of a hand, the difference that a smile, or a kind gesture you might make to a stranger, and we say to you that there is a method by which you can tap into the infinity of the universal supply of this Love, but we do not say a great deal about the Creator to you, because we do not know about the Creator. Then Hatonn said we are–as you–imperfect but a little surer than you, for in the vibration which we enjoy we can see that our brothers and sisters are one with us, so that to do harm to them is only to do harm to ourselves, for we cannot lie as our thoughts are visible to those about us, just as your clothing is obvious to those about you, so our vibrations are visible, and there can be no confusion between people, so we no longer have names, for we do not need them, yet we were aware of your conversation about names, and it made us smile, for in our society we do not need to name an individual, for each individual vibrates in an unique manner and could not be mistaken for another person since seeing the vibration that is based upon the octave of Love in each person, we Love each person, for that is easy for us, but it is not easy for you. On September 18, 2022, Q’uo described the transforming power of Love:

For this is the great challenge, to take that which is known to be true and to reflect it on a daily basis, however difficult it might be, so that all may see, and you may feel the transforming power of Love and Light blended together and balanced into the power of moving into the One Infinite Creator.

Through meditation on a daily basis the people of your planet, even though they are in the midst of incredible turmoil of one kind of another, can gradually erode and remove the illusion of that turmoil and discover that which is calm, peaceful and yet ever moving; that which is the fountain of Love within each being. We do not promise you great power, although some souls have been known to find great power through simple meditation. We do not promise great riches, although we can promise you that those who are aware of the moment receive what they need in that moment. We cannot promise you peace of mind, though you will constantly go back into the world. You cannot stay in meditation, unless you wish to stop learning. Coming from meditation with your heart full of Love, it is then time to meet the world on its own terms, but with a smile on your lips in the face of that which may make you upset were you not centered in the awareness of yourself in this present moment, safe in a harbor of Love that extends throughout the universe.

So many people you meet, my friends—and we are aware of this—are polarized, shall we say, in a negative way. This is not their fault. In their own minds they are trying as hard as they can. In their own minds they are not attempting to be negative, for the most part. They are victims of their own conditioning. And yet, when you meet them, you must deal with them, whether they be in stores, or in cars, or among your friends when they are having a bad day. Even you yourself may be met by you the observer with some horror as you say to yourself, “Can that be me? Can I be this upset, this angry?” Let the part of you that has been found in meditation, that part which is infinite in Love, be the self that meets that situation. Find the humor that is hiding in the situation. See the Love that is hiding in the person, and make available to that person for the first time the seed of an idea, the idea that it might be possible that there is something that they do not know that they may want to know, that it might change them to know.

Hatonn continued by saying through meditation on a daily basis the people of your planet, even though they are in the midst of turmoil of one kind of another, can remove the illusion of turmoil and discover that which is the fountain of Love within each being, but we do not promise you great power, although some souls have been known to find great power through simple meditation, and we do not promise great riches, although we can promise you that those who are aware of the moment receive what they need in that moment, so we cannot promise you peace of mind because you will constantly go back into the world, but you cannot stay in meditation unless you wish to stop learning, so coming from meditation with your heart full of Love, it is then time to meet the world on its own terms, but with a smile on your lips in the face of that which may make you upset were you not centered in the awareness of yourself in this present moment, safe in a harbor of Love that extends throughout the universe. Now Hatonn said many people you meet are polarized in a negative way, but this is not their fault, for in their minds they are trying as hard as they can, and they are not attempting to be negative, for they are victims of their own conditioning, yet when you meet them you must deal with them wherever they are when they are having a bad day, and even you may be met by you the observer with some horror as you say to yourself: “Can that be me? Can I be this upset, this angry?” So, let the part of you that has been found in meditation, that part which is infinite in Love, be the self that meets that situation, and find the humor that is hiding in the situation, and see the Love that is hiding in the person, so make available to that person for the first time the seed of an idea so that it might be possible that there is something that they do not know that they may want to know, that it might change them to know. On September 17, 1989, Q’uo spoke of the value of finding humor in any situation:

You live in darkness, but your hope is your Light. As you hope to become more and more of service to others, let the hope shine as a beacon before you, drawing you ever onward, reminding you to step back from situations and to find the humor, the pathos, the sympathy, those positive emotions which one may fruitfully share with another.

We do not say to speak, to testify—as some of your religions call it. No, my friends, you are sent into the world—as it is written in one of your holy works as sowers to sow a seed here and a seed there. Many will fall where they will not grow. But the seeds of Love are the most valuable and precious seeds in your universe. The Creator has sown them all about you; the beauty of the trees breathe with Love, the wild life, the flowers, and all of your beautiful grasses, herbs, and foods cherish humanity, make it possible for it to live and send it Love. The very skies give you wind, and rain, and sunshine so that you may live and grow your crops and enjoy your existence. This much the Creator can do. Beyond that, you are the Creator, and it is the look in your eye or the touch of your hand or the way you can give Love in an unlovely situation that produces the future crop of Love in those about you.

And so, we say to you, my friends, go into meditation in whatever fashion you may wish. Consciously ask to know the truth. If we have not told you the truth, then find yours, for we tell you only what we know, and we are imperfect. But in all good faith, we ask you to seek for yourself. And then, after you have sought in your daily life, seek then to know the moment, each simple, discreet moment. It will not come again, your chance to be a creature who is a child of Love in that moment will not come again, so we ask you to remember from moment to moment what you have learned in the silence.

Now Hatonn said we do not say to speak as some of your religions call it, for you are sent into the world to sow a seed here and a seed there, but many will fall where they will not grow, but the seeds of Love are the most valuable seeds in your universe, and the Creator has sown them all about you in the beauty of trees that breathe with Love, the wild life, and the flowers cherish humanity and make it possible for it to live and send it Love, for the skies give you wind, rain, and sunshine so that you may live and grow your crops and enjoy your existence, so this much the Creator can do, and beyond that you are the Creator, and it is the way you can give Love in an unlovely situation that produces the future crop of Love in those about you. Hatonn continued by saying go into meditation in whatever fashion you may wish, and ask to know the truth, for if we have not told you the truth, then find yours, for we tell you only what we know, and we are imperfect, but we ask you to seek for yourself, and then, after you have sought in your daily life, seek to know the moment, for your chance to be a creature who is a child of Love in that moment will not come again, so we ask you to remember from moment to moment what you have learned in the silence. On May 3, 1998, Q’uo said that each of us is a child of Love:

However, in the spiritual sense the only control is in how to surrender the small will and the small self to an infinite One whose wish for all is to give and to receive Love. Each time, then, that you find yourself having imaginary conversations, moving into circles of concern and worry, and, in general, finding oneself knocking up against the corners of life, find ways to stop the momentum of that relationship with what is. Stop and remember that you are a child of the Creator, a child of eternity, and a child of Love Itself. You need do nothing but welcome the rhythmic and rightful destiny that awaits.

We are aware that we have outlined a course of action which, were it to be compared to a sea voyage, would be a lifetime voyage. That is all right, my friends. It is our understanding that it is for that voyage that you set out on this incarnation. At least, you are now thinking about taking ship. Some of you have already embarked. You shall become, then, those with the far-away eyes who can touch and help those upon the land who do not yet know that life is a voyage and that there is a purpose: a new world to be found at the end of it. This experience of yours, my friends, in this illusion will end. Each of you will leave, and then you shall see what you have done in this experience. This is a precious time for you, my friends. This is a time when, under the most difficult of circumstances, you can try to help. That help can be given effectively only from one person to another, in the illusion. We who are within what you might call the inner planes or the outer planes of existence can only seek to inspire you yourselves to act in such a way as to seek the truth.

Hatonn said we are aware that we have outlined a course of action which, were it to be compared to a sea voyage, would be a lifetime voyage, but that is all right, and it is our understanding that it is for that voyage that you set out on this incarnation, so you are now thinking about taking a ship, for some of you have already embarked, so you shall become those with the far-away eyes who can help those upon the land who do not know that life is a voyage, and that there is a purpose: a new world to be found at the end of it, so this experience of yours in this illusion will end, and then you shall see what you have done in this experience, for this is a precious time for you, a time when, under the most difficult of circumstances, you can try to help, and that help can be given effectively only from one person to another, and we who are within the inner planes or the outer planes of existence can only seek to inspire you to act in such a way as to seek the truth. On December 16, 1984, Latwii suggested that we seek the truth:

So, my brother, you need not worry about the expense or the time required to seek the truth. If you have the desire to seek the truth, you may do so each moment of your existence as you see yourself in each entity that you meet, as you see yourself as the Creator in each situation in which you find yourself. There is no end to the opportunities for seeking the truth, the Creator, and your self, for all are one thing. You live in that one thing as that one thing.

At this time we will pause and condition each of those within the group. I am Hatonn.

[Pause]

I am again with this instrument. I am Hatonn, and I greet you once more in Love and Light. We thank each of you for making yourselves available to us for conditioning, and we ask that if, in any case, our vibration is too strong you simply request mentally that we adjust our vibration.

At this time we would open the meeting for questions.

[Pause]

M: I have a question. I was wondering if you have any insight or comments on any possible reason why I might have such problems getting up physical energy. I feel I exercise regularly and feel like my diet is fairly under control, and still I feel almost like it must be some mental or psychic problem more than physical even, maybe.

I am Hatonn. I am aware of your question, my sister. We see in your body no significant difficulty. However, there is a certain amount of indecision at this time which is very deep. We do not specify this, for we do not wish to infringe upon your free will. However, this type of emotional difficulty is very common for those of, shall we say, a certain transitional period which comes and goes within the life span, as you would call it, of beings of your planet. It occurs many times in a lifetime, and we feel strongly in saying that you are, shall we say, all right and should be confident that the problems of transition will run their course as you stay centered, as you have said, physically, mentally, and spiritually. Some things simply take time, as you would call it on your sphere, and it is good meanwhile to be very kind to yourself, assuring yourself that to have less energy than at another time is simply a way of conserving the energy that you need to meet an inner source of difficulty.

As for the psychic part of the question, there is a small component of the transitional phase having to do with previous conditioning of a spiritual nature, and we feel that you are making good progress in integrating what was best of that experience with what is best of your present life, which is a more balanced one in many ways. Thus, taking the good from the past and having every hope of the future, we feel that you may balance yourself in a period of what you call time and feel much more energetic when the other problems are resolved. At that point you will feel more [inaudible] in an outer way and more serene in an inner way. As we have said, this is a cycle and, as all things within the illusion, it is part of an experience that you have designed for yourself in order to teach you certain lessons. Again, we would not infringe upon your free will by speaking of the lessons which you have set for yourself. But we know that you are working to understand, and we encourage you and, above all, ask that you be confident and not require more of yourself than you would be able to give at any particular moment. You are doing what you should if you do it with Love, however little or however much it may seem to you.

M asked: “I was wondering if you have any insight or comments on any possible reason why I might have such problems getting up physical energy?” Hatonn replied by saying I am aware of your question, and we see in your body no significant difficulty, but there is some indecision which is very deep, but we do not specify this, for we do not wish to infringe upon your free will, so this type of emotional difficulty is common for those of a transitional period which comes and goes within the life span of beings of your planet, and it occurs many times in a lifetime, and we feel that you are all right and should be confident that the problems of transition will run their course as you stay centered physically, mentally, and spiritually, for some things take time, and it is good to be very kind to yourself, assuring yourself that to have less energy than at another time is simply a way of conserving the energy that you need to meet an inner source of difficulty. Hatonn went on to say as for the psychic part of the question, there is a small component of the transitional phase having to do with previous conditioning of a spiritual nature, and we feel that you are making good progress in integrating what was best of that experience with what is best of your present life, which is a balanced one in many ways, so taking the good from the past and having hope for the future, we feel that you may balance yourself in a period of time and feel more energetic when the other problems are resolved, and at that point you will feel more [inaudible] in an outer way and more serene in an inner way, for as we have said, this is a cycle that is part of an experience that you have designed for yourself in order to learn certain lessons, but we would not infringe upon your free will by speaking of the lessons which you have set for yourself, for we know that you are working to understand, and we encourage you and ask that you be confident and not require more of yourself than you would be able to give at any moment, for you are doing what you should if you do it with Love. On March 19, 2006, Q’uo spoke of the value of doing whatever we do with Love:

It is not that Love will tell you what to do. It is that Love will tell you how to do it with Love. As you do ordinary, everyday things with this intense, overshadowing Love, something magical occurs. As you seek to pull that enhanced vision of a life lived in Love into yourself from the regions of the divine, you activate powers within you that are incredibly strong. And you begin emitting Light. It is not coming from you but rather it is coming through you. You’ve turned the switch by turning your mind to Love.

Does this answer your question, my sister?

M: Yes. You’ve even stated the question better for me than I have; you heard my question better than I said. Thank you.

Hatonn: Oh, we thank you, my sister, as always, for the opportunity to share our thoughts. Is there another question at this time?

[Pause]

This instrument has a question which we will restate for her and answer, for she has been wanting to ask it; we have not had another channel for some time. The question has to do with the number of UFO movies and television shows which are appearing at this time, and she has been wondering if we are influencing Earth people or if there are extraterrestrials among you. The answer is, of course, that we are with each of you who ask to hear our thoughts, but that there are some among you who have come through incarnation into this illusion, but whose basic personality is, shall we say, extra-terrestrial or extra-dimensional; this would probably be the more accurate term. And, indeed, the generation that is responsible for much of the new activity in these areas within the popular culture of your society is extra-dimensional in nature.

We are not capable, without infringing upon free will, of actually writing, shall we say, television scripts or influencing the minds of people in the business of producing such things to create such scripts as those which have been seen by your people. However, we are very pleased that so many of those who came to the Earth sphere during this time have remembered or are beginning subconsciously to remember why they came, for it is very usual in such cases for at least nine out of ten of these incarnated extra-dimensional people to forget for their entire incarnation why it is that they have such a feeling of not belonging, why it is that they do not fit in, why it is that their natures seem so often at odds with society.

Carla wanted Hatonn to speak to her question of: “The question has to do with the number of UFO movies and television shows which are appearing at this time, and she has been wondering if we are influencing Earth people or if there are extraterrestrials among you.” Hatonn went on to say the answer is that we are with each of you who ask to hear our thoughts, but that there are some among you who have come through incarnation into this illusion, but whose basic personality is extra-dimensional, and the generation that is responsible for much of the new activity in these areas within the popular culture of your society is extra-dimensional in nature. Now Hatonn said we are not capable, without infringing upon free will, of writing television scripts or influencing the minds of people in the business of producing such things to create scripts as those which have been seen by your people, but we are pleased that so many of those who came to the Earth sphere during this time have remembered why they came, for it is usual in such cases for at least nine out of ten of these incarnated extra-dimensional people to forget why it is that they have such a feeling of not belonging, why it is that they do not fit in, why it is that their natures seem so often at odds with society. On September 15, 1996, Q’uo spoke of these entities that do not fit in:

We would recommend that interaction with these entities is most important, that the relationships of the family be emphasized and be supported in all their many expressions of excitement, interest, and dedication. These entities, as each generation notes, seem to be of another order so that the ways of the culture, though providing many foundation stones for the new building, yet do not fit in every instance, so that there is the need for the individuality of each entity to be recognized, nourished, and directed with a means of giving praise and thanksgiving to the one Creator in a regular fashion and in a way which gives the young entity a sense of wonder for the immensity and the infinity of all creation. The young entity needs to find his or her place within this infinite creation, and as the family and friends of each young entity provides support, the young entities are able to test their new legs in a safe and supportive environment.

We feel that this has answered the instrument’s basic question. Is there another question at this time?

[Pause]

D: What could you all… do you see any value in using astrology as a tool to understanding cycles—the sort of cycles you spoke about earlier?

I am with the instrument. I am Hatonn. We are aware of your question. It is a difficult one to answer. There are many occult sciences, shall we say, such as astrology, which have some use. They have been largely misused among your people as a way of prophesying, and this has overtones of infringing upon free will by suggestion. This is not in line with the law of the Creator, which is one of Free Will and Love. Your world is not deterministic, and your stars, shall we say, are merely pointers pointing the way, as you know, to the basic structure of your Earthly personalities. You are also provided with a will which, following the laws of the Creator, can totally transform the basic Earthly personality, if it so desires; most often it does not. Therefore, the system or language, such as astrology, has its purpose in simply helping the aspiring student to begin to understand what it is they are dealing with, what their basic problems are, what their assets might be, etc.

In the determination of cycles, we might compare the value of astrology to the value of an almanac in determining the planting and the reaping of a crop. There is some technical value to knowing what the new moon is, what the full moon is, but you must know what you plan to plant, and this astrology does not tell you any more than the almanac can tell you by a simple explanation of the phases of the moon. An almanac, like astrology, can be mistaken about the precise placement of storms, be they weather storms or storms of emotion that sweep over those in your illusion. Consequently, astrology, just like the almanac, can lead you astray if you are too literal-minded, if you do not rely most completely on your own hunches, on your own intuition, on your own feelings.

D asked: “What could you all… do you see any value in using astrology as a tool to understanding cycles—the sort of cycles you spoke about earlier?” Hatonn began by saying there are many occult sciences such as astrology which have some use, but they have been misused by your people as a way of prophesying, and this has overtones of infringing upon free will, so this is not in line with the law of the Creator, which is one of Free Will and Love, for your world is not deterministic, and your stars are merely pointers pointing the way to the structure of your Earthly personalities, so you are provided with a will which, following the laws of the Creator, can transform the Earthly personality, if it so desires, but most often it does not, so the language of astrology has its purpose in helping the aspiring student to begin to understand what it is they are dealing with, what their basic problems are, what their assets might be. Hatonn continued by saying in the determination of cycles, we might compare the value of astrology to the value of an almanac in determining the planting and the reaping of a crop, for there is technical value to knowing what the new moon is, what the full moon is, but you must know what you plan to plant, and this astrology does not tell you any more than the almanac can tell you by a simple explanation of the phases of the moon, so an almanac, like astrology, can be mistaken about the precise placement of storms, be they weather storms or storms of emotion that sweep over those in your illusion, so astrology, just like the almanac, can lead you astray if you are too literal-minded, and if you do not follow your intuition. On April 23, 1989, Yom described how we may use our intuition:

Thus, listen with the inner ear as well as the outer to what we have to say, and above all, as always, refrain from thinking of us as an information source that is always right. We consider ourselves fallible, and we hope you do too. Trust your own intuition, your own sense of recognition of the truth. If it does not ring true for you, it is the truth which does not work for you. Simply toss it aside and move on. You will meet it again one day, and it will be helpful, or you have gone past it already. Waste not time in worry about whether what we have to say is true or untrue, for you shall recognize truth as if remembering it.

Perhaps the best use of astrology and many of the other disciplines, such as tarot, numerology, and others, is as a focusing point, shall we say, for the psychic power of the individual. It may be quite small to begin with, but by working through this particular system, your own power of intuition begins to develop, and you see more than what is in the stars or in the cards or in the numbers, and you see better. You, unlike the stars, are creatures of compassion and Love. The stars in their courses are, indeed, determined. You, my friends, have free will. Thus, we ask you to approach astrology as everything else, in a cautionary manner, trusting most reliably on your own senses, both outer and inner—your common sense and your intuitive sense.

Hatonn went on to say perhaps the best use of astrology is as a focusing point for the psychic power of the individual, so it may be small to begin with, but by working through this system, your power of intuition begins to develop, and you see more than what is in the stars, or in the cards, or in the numbers, and you see better because you are creatures of compassion and Love, but stars in their courses are determined, but you have free will, so we ask you to approach astrology as everything else, in a cautionary manner, trusting your common sense and your intuitive sense. On September 4, 2010, Carla said that we are creatures of Love:

The Creator has certain characteristics that are innate. It’s in our spiritual DNA that we’re the creatures of Love because Love is all there is. The one great original Thought was a Thought of Love. And when Light came into being and manifestation took place, it linked that Thought into everything it manifested. So, the most distorted things that you see are still Love. They’ve just greatly distorted. But the heart of everything is Love. Jesus said it well, when he said, “I am the vine, and you are the branches.”

Does this answer your question?

D: [Inaudible]

Hatonn: Is there another question at this time?

[Pause]

We are aware of a couple of unasked questions in the minds of a few of you, but we are unwilling to break into your thoughts, shall we say, and raid the storehouse of your memory. Consequently, we will only say that we are available to you at any time that you may ask for us. We are your very humble companions. But what little help we can give you, we offer you freely. If at any time we are with you and you request that we leave, we will instantly. And on that note, we will close this meeting. We will attempt to transfer this contact to the one known as H. I am Hatonn.

[Tape ends.]

This morning I put the sprinkler in two different places around the fishpond and then on the flowers in the Sun Mandala behind the garage because it has been over a week since we have had any rain.

This afternoon I enjoyed a visit with three friends who are from Germany and will be attending our Homecoming Gathering at Terrapin Hill this weekend. We talked for a while about what has been happening in our lives recently, and then we took a tour of my yard and gardens.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 10

Your Essence Is Spirit

I am the Comforter, and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine Love.

May peace fall like dew upon you this day, no matter what the outer situation. May you experience, and continue to experience, the inner peace which no disaster of humankind can destroy.

Within the Father’s Love there is a peace which comes from eternity and which is the vehicle for your own imperishable spirit. Rest quietly in the knowledge of that peace, no matter how quickly you run, no matter how many tangles of human relationships you encounter.

Touch always the peace within, for the Comforter does not fail. It is only those whose hearts are puzzled and befuddled by that which occurs that are not able to hear words of comfort and to feel the presence of that peace which passeth all understanding.

We feel that it would help each if each would think of itself not as one attempting to be a spiritual being but as one who is, in essence, spirit. That being accepted, the point of view may shift so that the spiritual door may be opened to peace more easily and the hubbub and turmoil of a wrangling world may be set off from you by the buffer of comfort, peace and faith.

For we are of the principle of Jesus the Christ. We are of the Spirit of living Love. And we are eternal, as are you, and exist only to interact with you in positive ways that bring each spirit more and more light and less and less confusion.

We leave you in peace, both now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn channeling comes from July 26, 1979:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. As always, it is our privilege to speak with you, and we thank you for inviting us into the midst of your group. We share our thoughts with you, insubstantial though they may be, one life speaking to another, one seeker speaking to another, for are our lives not like clouds as they cross the moon, visible only for a brief time, before and after lost in the darkness of the eternal heavens? Yet, we are now here, you and we, and it is with deep appreciation that we join our thoughts to yours in this transient moment.

Yes, my friends, your lives are very transient, and yet your spirit is indomitable. There is nothing that you cannot seek, nothing that you cannot will to know, if it be done honestly and courageously and without selfishness. And so even though your brief life may sometimes seem to be relatively meaningless, your activities mundane, your thinking confused, we say to you that if you can each day find some moments to meditate, to center your will upon the desire to know the Love of the Creator, that wish for the original Thought will be unto you as a beacon, guiding your spirit far into the stormy seas of night when you have crossed the moon and there is no light.

We are sorry that we have had to delay our speaking to you this evening, but there was a desire in one of those present that we not speak. [There was a storm raging outside.] And this, my friends, is a perfect example of that which we deal with now: the transience of experience. There is a saying in one of your holy books, “All flesh is grass.” We are not being mournful. We are attempting to be emphatic about the direct and important knowledge that you must have that you yourself are not your bodies, your pains and pleasures, or your experiences, but are instead a vibration which is temporarily and transiently housed in a chemical body. That vibration has certain characteristics which show forth to a greater or smaller amount in the physical amount in the physical body.

Hatonn wanted to speak to the group about their transient lives as seekers. They began by saying your lives are transient, and yet your spirit is indomitable, and there is nothing that you cannot seek to know, if it be done courageously and without selfishness, so even though your brief life may sometimes seem to be meaningless and your thinking confused, if you can each day find some moments to meditate, to center your will upon the desire to know the Love of the Creator, that wish for the original Thought will be unto you as a beacon, guiding your spirit far into the stormy seas of night when you have crossed the moon and there is no light. Hatonn went on to say we are sorry that we have had to delay our speaking to you this evening, but there was a desire of one of those present that we not speak. [There was a storm raging outside.] And this, my friends, is a perfect example of that which we deal with now: the transience of experience, and there is a saying in one of your holy books, “All flesh is grass,” but we are not being mournful, for we are attempting to be emphatic about the important knowledge that you must have that you are not your bodies or your experiences, but you are a vibration which is temporarily in a chemical body, so that vibration has certain characteristics which show forth to a greater or smaller amount in the physical body. On January 20, 2002, Q’uo spoke of how we are a vibration

You are not a solid. You are a vibration. You are an energy field that has connections to absolutely all other energy fields in the universe. You are connected to them through a series of orders of magnitude and, shall we say, reality, that are understandable only from the larger viewpoint. Many times within the life experience you will not be able to see how a certain situation could possibly be one in which Love abides. But this is always the question to turn to, that one offered by the ones of Ra, “Where is the Love in this moment?” This is a question that is always productive, that one may ask the self in a crux in the present. And by finding where the Love lies for you in this moment and placing yourself there, there is how you affect the future. You are choosing what you desire because you desire it. That is understood, but in terms of responding to that which is given you have the skill, and you have the chance at each offering to ask the self, “Where is the metaphysical structure of this moment? What speaks to me from a larger point of view that really informs the situation for me?”

Eachcharacteristic shows forth as the degree of loving kindness of your nature, the degree of generosity, of compassion, of kindliness, that you have within your character. It may show forth in your ability to help people by healing, by the preparation of food, by working with your hands, by singing, or by telling stories, or by raising the young who are entrusted to your care that they, too, may know the Creator as do you. These biases come through from your vibratory personality into the physical illusion. However, you must not take this illusion any more seriously than you would take the passing of a cloud across the moon on a stormy night, such as this one. You know that there will be other clouds and other nights, other sequences of activities. These are unimportant. Your only important effort should be placed in centering yourself in the knowledge of the original Thought of the Creator, which is that of infinite love expressed in light. This light has formed all of the Creator’s creatures: the planet in which you live, the skies which surround us in different vibrations. All things are Light. As you begin to have this ability to be detached from the transient experience and to be rooted in the knowledge of the original Thought, your power as a personality will develop, so that those circumstances which may seem to you to be inharmonious will of themselves become more harmonious, for your attitude will become such that nothing can disturb you.

Then Hatonn said each characteristic shows as the degree of loving kindness and of generosity that you have within your character, and it may show forth in your ability to help people by the preparation of food, by singing, or by raising the young who are entrusted to your care that they, too, may know the Creator as do you, for these biases come through from your vibratory personality into the physical illusion, but you must not take this illusion any more seriously than you would take the passing of a cloud across the moon on a stormy night because you know that there will be other clouds and other nights, but these are unimportant, for your only important effort should be placed in centering yourself in the knowledge of the original Thought of the Creator, which is that of infinite Love expressed in Light that has formed all of the Creator’s creatures: the planet in which you live, the skies which surround us in different vibrations, for all things are Light, so as you begin to have this ability to be detached from the transient experience and to be rooted in the knowledge of the original Thought, your power as a personality will develop, so that those circumstances which may seem to you to be inharmonious will of themselves become more harmonious, for your attitude will become such that nothing can disturb you. On October 16, 2005, Q’uo described the nature of our power:

We would say to you that it is most helpful for powerful entities such as you are to realize where your power comes from. Your power does not come from you except insofar as you choose the manner of your being. Your basic source of power comes through you and is a function of your awareness of the Creator within.

If you are attempting to fulfill your obligations and pursue your ideals from a concept of self which involves the self by itself as a powerful thing, then your power will not last long. You shall run out of available power, exhaust yourself, burn yourself out as this instrument would say it, and find yourself empty and hollow, weary and exhausted, sitting by the side of the spiritual road gasping for breath.

It is the entity that realizes that the source of the magic within is that energy which is coming from the infinite Creator that will have the staying power to persist through these cyclical times of deconstruction and re-imagining your universe.

I would pause at this time so that Laitos, may speak. I am Hatonn.

[Pause]

I am Laitos, and I greet you in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. If you will permit me, it will be my privilege to work with each of you. I would first condition this instrument, for she is experimenting with a deeper, shall we say, meditative state.

[Pause]

We thank the one known as Carla for working with us, and we find that she is more and more capable of working with the Light vibration of some of your contacts, such as Latwii, due to her growing ability to deepen her meditative state.

We would now attempt to condition the one known as M. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

We thank the one known as M for working with us, and now we would like to condition the one known as J. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

I am again with this instrument. We thank each of you for being able to work with you. If we can help you to deepen your meditative state, that is our only desire among your people, for if we can but help the people of this planet to meditate and feel the oneness of all creation we will, indeed, my friends, have a part in the delivery of a tiny infant. That is the new age dawning upon your planet. At this time, it needs all the midwifery that it can get. Please ask for us at any time that you may wish for us to, shall we say, underscore your own meditative state. I am Laitos. Adonai.

I am Hatonn. I am again with this instrument. We are sorry for the delay, but the one known as Oxal was attempting to contact the instrument known as Carla. However, she was not able to perceive this. Therefore, we will continue for Oxal, saying to this instrument greetings from the one known as Oxal. The one known as Oxal is concerned lest they be misunderstood in this group, for there has been in this group, shall we say, an impostor using their name. Therefore, the group consciousness of Oxal asks each of you to be in total at-one-ment at any time that the name of Oxal is heard in this group, for it is not wise to allow astral entities to deal with this group in its present configuration. We must explain that there is nothing intrinsically wrong with astral beings in general, but specifically mimicking a Confederation member by an astral being is very confusing to those who would believe the channeling of such beings. Thus, we ask your help in the future, as you call it, and we thank you.

At this time, we would open the meeting to questions.

[Pause]

If there are no questions requested of us at this time, we would leave you with only a few thoughts, my friends. You know that Love is all that there is. You may think of it as the great medicine that is needed by your people. You may think of yourself as a healer, for the one who loves heals. There are different methods and different levels of healing, peace-making, and calming the troubled waters of your ever turbulent society. Among the millions of you who are incarnate on the planet Earth, some have the power to heal nations through what you call your politics. Some have the ability to heal the hunger for knowledge through what we call teaching. Some have the ability to heal sickness and ill health. Some can heal melancholy, some loneliness, but all work through the vibration of Love. There is a great sea of Love around you, my friends. Float on it, rest in it. There is nowhere you can go that is not full of Love, if you have but the eyes to see and the heart to understand. In meditation, may your hearts be opened to that understanding.

Before leaving the group Hatonn wanted to share some thoughts on healing. They said if there are no questions requested of us at this time, we would leave you with only a few thoughts, for you know that Love is all that there is, and you may think of it as the medicine that is needed by your people, and you may think of yourself as a healer, for the one who loves heals, so there are different methods and levels of healing, peace-making, and calming the troubled waters of your turbulent society, for among the millions of you who are incarnate on the Earth, some have the power to heal nations through politics, and some have the ability to heal the hunger for knowledge through teaching, and some have the ability to heal sickness and ill health, but all work through the vibration of Love, for there is a sea of Love around you, so rest in it, for there is nowhere you can go that is not full of Love if you have the eyes to see and the heart to understand, so in meditation may your hearts be opened to that understanding. On December 12, 2005, Q’uo spoke of the vibration of Love:

The vibration of Love, in the sense of unconditional Love or Logos, is a particular vibration that has created all that there is. Consequently, we cannot say that Love and truth are absolutely equal. For in the sense of the Logos, that is a way of describing the Creator Itself.

I leave you in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. I am of the group consciousness of Hatonn. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning I went outside and used my trimmer to weed around the flower gardens in the front yard and on the south side of my home.

This afternoon I spent about an hour and a half searching all around my neighborhood for a sweet little black and white kitty cat that may be a year or two old. He showed up in my front yard ten days ago, and I began feeding him cat food on a paper plate on the ground in front of my porch. Within two days he was coming up on the porch to get his food. He only let me get a few feet away from him, but I enjoyed talking to him, telling him that I loved him, and just sitting and watching him eat. I named him Hopeful because I was hoping that we could become friends, and that he could come into my home and be an indoor/outdoor cat like Dan D. Lion was. This morning, I gave him a can of cat food, but he only ate half of it, and throughout the day I was looking on the front porch to see if he was there eating food as he has been doing for the last ten days, but he never came back. My last hope is that he will be waiting for me tomorrow morning when I go out to get the newspaper.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 9

Each Is Your Brother

I am the spirit of the living Christ which speaks to the world this day, greeting you in the full consciousness of divine Love.

The many preparatory and studious engagements of those serious, spiritual seekers who labor to learn the Love of the Christ are well meant and may yet yield fruit. Yet, paradoxically, it is not the one always who strives the hardest, thinks the most or works more laboriously than others to whom the inspiration, the Love, and the clarity of vision that infinite Love offers, comes.

Many times, it is the one who is unassuming and humble, who accepts the basic unworthiness of free will while recognizing the necessity of it, who may choose and choose and choose again the way of Love, the way of the Christ.

Therefore, stride self-confidently into the world but be ye humble and not over-assuming, for each entity is likewise the Father within, just as you are. Each is your brother. Each is your sister. None contains that which you do not contain. Sometimes it is possible to try too hard to be loving and blessed, sanctified and giving. Relax into the rhythm of spontaneous service, and life shall become merry and light.

We leave you in love and peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Latwii channeling comes from July 19, 1979:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I am with this instrument through the grace of all present, and we send you blessings and thanks for allowing us in your midst this evening. May we greet each of you and send you our Love?

We ask you tonight, my friends, about treasure. We are aware that the treasure that is in your heart is sometimes buried. It has been written in your holy works, “Where your treasure is, there shall your heart be also.” And yet we say to you, my friends, that your heart may contain any treasure which you desire. Thus, the question of treasure is far more the question of your buried desire. We wish to speak with you only for a very short time this evening, but we wish very much to encourage you to desire, with the greatest intensity possible, that which you wish to desire. Have you desired? Have you desired, this day, well, my friends? Have you had small desires easily satisfied? Have you glanced up into the lovely imperium arches of your heavens during this day and sought and dreamt and hoped—those desires which make people into beings who are claiming their birthright? That is what lies between you and the birthright of Love and Light—which you brought into this illusion—your inability to remember to desire it. That is all that separates you from infinite Love, infinite Light, and the power of a consciousness which these understandings can coordinate and enable. What have you desired today, my friends? We ask you in the name of the Creator.

At this time we would pause so that the one known as Laitos may pass among you.

[Pause, then the group chants “om.”]

I am Laitos, and I am with this instrument, with thanks to my sister of Hatonn. We [inaudible]. We should ask this instrument to realign and retune the group, due to the addition of your sister and brother, and we feel most happy with the harmony of your circle at this time.

We would like at this time to condition and send healing to the one known as E. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

I am again with this instrument. We have been working with each of you during the pause. However, we wished especially to work with the one known as E, who is in some discomfort at this time. We would now like to do some more work with the one known as L, if she will relax. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

I am again with this instrument. We would now like to send our vibrations to the one known as H1. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

I am again with this instrument. If the instrument known as N would open himself to our contact, we would like to close through the one known as N. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

(N channeling)

I am Laitos. I am now with this instrument. My friends, as we view the souls on your planet, we yearn sometimes to reach out and aid directly [inaudible] to help, but we know we must not; for the will of the infinite Creator does not work that way at this time. We see millions of people evolving, and we know that eventually they will all attain a state of higher consciousness. We are sorrowed by the pain we see, though we know there is a great plan. We know that deep within each of you there is a higher state of consciousness and that each of you, in reality, control your own destiny; for you have willed it so.

My friends, we send you our Love. We are with you always. Your time upon this planet is just an instant, as we see it, but it is a valuable… We love you, and we leave you in the Light and Love. We will attempt to make our vibration known to you at this time, if you will open yourself to it. We would describe it as… a pleasant sort of feeling.

I leave you now in the Light and Love. I am Laitos. Adonai vasu borragus.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am Latwii. I greet you in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator and am most appreciative of your desire to hear my babbling remarks once again humorously. Therefore, since you have asked us to be here, we are very delighted to be with you this evening; and, indeed, we are most sincere in sending you our Love. We have come to answer questions at this time. If there are any among you, we greatly encourage you to ask them.

N: I have a question that I would like you to kind of comment on, but I don’t want to say what the question is; so, if you feel like attempting that I would appreciate it.

[Pause]

Latwii: If we would allow our imagination to run free, we would tell you that the answer is no. However, we will attempt to be more responsible than that: we ask that you wait, for in waiting, that plan which our friends have spoken of in this meeting will come to fruition. The forces which surround a moment of time, as you call it, are very questionable and variable, and a simple waiting is often a catalyst for change. Does this answer your question, my brother?

N: Yes, thank you.

Latwii: We thank you. Is there another question at this time?

[Pause]

H2 Yes, I have a question. Several weeks ago, in response to one of my questions, you said that we, or humankind, was seeded on this planet, and yet we had nothing to say about that—we had no choice in the matter. Why was that so?

Latwii: What can I tell you, my brother? None of us has a choice; we are all the Creator. The condition of creation exists; it will exist infinitely. We are in a position in the infinite universe of the infinite creation, not due to chance, but due to the cycles with which you have become involved as you pass through the universe of the Creator’s creation. You begin in darkness, if beginning is a possibility; of this we are not sure. We are sure, however, that like travelers your eye is caught by a pretty color, and off you go into an illusion that is that color of being. And so, you have been attracted to this illusion and ultimately to this incarnation. You are the Creator. You do not have a choice. None of us do. Yet you have infinite choice in the amount of time it takes you and the way in which you wish to articulate your Creator-ness. Thus, the paradox which is the necessity of spiritual truth is satisfied. You have no free will, and you have complete free will. You have been seeded by your choice. There is no mysterious and possibly questionable moral gardener who has seeded Earth. The gardeners are you yourselves, not trapped in time and space but delighted, instead, by the color of this creation.

H2 asked: “Several weeks ago, in response to one of my questions, you said that we, or humankind, was seeded on this planet, and yet we had nothing to say about that—we had no choice in the matter. Why was that so?” Latwii began by saying none of us has a choice, for we are all the Creator, and the condition of creation exists infinitely, so we are in a position in the infinite universe, not due to chance, but due to the cycles with which you have become involved as you pass through the universe of the Creator’s creation, so you begin in darkness, if beginning is a possibility, but of this we are not sure, but we are sure that like travelers your eye is caught by a pretty color, and off you go into an illusion that is that color of being, and you have been attracted to this illusion and to this incarnation, for you are the Creator, so you do not have a choice, for none of us do, yet you have infinite choices in the amount of time it takes you and the way in which you wish to articulate your Creator-ness, for the paradox which is the necessity of spiritual truth is satisfied, but you have no free will, yet you have complete free will, for you have been seeded by your choice, so there is no mysterious gardener who has seeded Earth, for you are gardeners’ gardeners and are not trapped in time and space but delighted by the color of this creation. On September 1, 2018, Q’uo said that each of us is the Creator:

For there is nothing but Love and Light, my friends, in various configurations in this illusion in which you inhabit and indeed within the entire creation. The One Creator has fashioned us all as means by which it shall know Itself in greater variety and intensity and depth. You are the Creator in earth clothes. You move as the Creator moves, yet there are times when you wonder, “How does this all work?” It works together, my friends. As you learn to be a community, and to commune, not only with each other, but with the natural environment about you, with those you know and do not know, with those within the angelic realms, and those beyond this Earth, for all are, indeed, one. There is no true division. Call, then, upon your friends at any time, and you shall be answered. The very heavens rejoice at your every step.

Does this answer your question?

H2 Partially. Paradoxes are a puzzle to me. Do I understand you to say that we had no choice in being created, yet we had a choice in coming here?

Latwii: That is not precisely correct. You were not created. You are the Creator. You are a portion of all that there is. You are a portion of no time and no space. Consequently, you are not a created being. You are Creator and creation. With that concept under control, we may say to the second part of your question that you do have that portion correctly understood. Paradoxes, of which you spoke earlier, are an absolute necessity if one is to advance spiritually. If you are not facing a paradox at this time, then you are not trying. Thus, you must at all times be involved in a puzzle. We hope only that the puzzle is worthwhile, that you are pressing ahead from paradox to paradox so that you begin to live what you cannot understand; this, you understand.

Latwii asked are we doing with you now, my brother?

H2 Better. I also think I have come up against another paradox; and that is, if there is reincarnation, and if there is no time, and all is one, and all is now, then all past lives, present lives, and future lives are now. If this is so, then how is it that in past lives some of us—or at least someone—lived in magnificent structures, ruins of which stand today, and we see them as ruins? If all is now, all in a living instant, how is it that those in centuries past are living there now, yet we see these marvelous structures as ruins?

Latwii: If you will pardon us, we must take a few seconds to align this instrument, for she is becoming overly sensitive to the intensity of our vibrations. I am Latwii. I am Latwii. I am with this instrument. I am with this instrument. We have better contact now. We thank you for your patience.

In answer to your question, my brother, perhaps the most intelligible answer has to do with a rather tired cliché from this instrument’s mind; she is familiar with it many times over. Take a piece of living tissue from your thumb and look at it under a microscope—look at it under an intensely strong microscope. Ultimately, under the atomic microscope, you can begin to see the creation—the galaxies, the solar systems, the planets. There are beings on your thumb. How long do you think their lives are, in your time? How many civilizations pass while that cell that is a universe is spending itself as a living part of your being? And when it is sloughed off in a giant nova, when the explosion that ends all life occurs, what infinity do you think has taken place for those beings? What ruins have been built and lost? What Romes, what United States, what Chinas have come and gone?

You yourselves are in time and space that is far less slow, shall we say, relatively speaking, than the universe. There is one uniting truth, and that is that beyond time and beyond space lies unity. You live in a [inaudible]; this is an illusion. The illusion can be manipulated by those who understand it. Thus, we ourselves travel in no time. Some among your people have been able to master various dimensions beyond time and space. No one understands this. However, there is only now. The problem is that this now is within the understanding only of those who do not have a watch and do not know time.

H2 again asked: “I also think I have come up against another paradox; and that is, if there is reincarnation, and if there is no time, and all is one, and all is now, then all past lives, present lives, and future lives are now. If this is so, then how is it that in past lives some of us—or at least someone—lived in magnificent structures, ruins of which stand today, and we see them as ruins? If all is now, all in a living instant, how is it that those in centuries past are living there now, yet we see these marvelous structures as ruins?” Latwii said in answer to your question the clearest answer has to do with a tired cliché from Carla’s mind, for she is very familiar with it, so take a piece of tissue from your thumb and look at it under a strong microscope, for under the atomic microscope, you can begin to see the creation: the galaxies, the solar systems, and the planets, for there are beings on your thumb, “How long do you think their lives are, in your time? How many civilizations pass while that cell that is a universe is spending itself as a living part of your being? And when it is sloughed off in a giant nova, when the explosion that ends all life occurs, what infinity do you think has taken place for those beings? What ruins have been built and lost? What Romes, what United States, what Chinas have come and gone?” Then Latwii said you are in time and space that is less slow than the universe, and there is one uniting truth, and that is that beyond time and beyond space lies unity, for you live in a [inaudible], but this is an illusion which can be manipulated by those who understand it, so we travel in no time, but some among your people have been able to master various dimensions beyond time and space, yet no one understands this, so there is only now, but the problem is that this now is within the understanding only of those who do not have a watch and do not know time. On January 12, 2008, Q’uo said that this now is a very inspirational place for us:

As entities become more spiritually mature, they become more and more aware that they do not know anything. They become more and more aware that they are living in the now, and that this now is a beautiful, magical, wonderful moment, wherein two worlds meet, the world of phenomenal experience and the world of infinity and eternity.

They become aware of themselves as a place where these two worlds may express at the same time. They are embodied spirits and may feel both the day and the night, the heat and the cold and all of the dynamics of opposites that create the world of male and female, the Earth world. At the same time, they are able to feel the energies of infinity and eternity move through them and create that consciousness which only time/space and timelessness can offer.

Now is now. You experience now and another now and another. It is as though you were standing on a wheel and going round and round. Could you but stand in the center of the wheel, you might turn, but you would not go anywhere. It is in the state of now that information, such as some of your most famous mediums have had access to, is stored. By some, this place is called, locally, the Akashic Record. This is possible because all times are truly one. You are not living in a straight line; you are living in a circle. The beginning is your ending, and there is no beginning or ending.

Then Latwii said now is now as you experience now and another now, and it is as though you were standing on a wheel and going round and round, so if you stand in the center of the wheel you might turn, but you would not go anywhere because it is in the state of now that information, such as some of your famous mediums have access to is stored, and this place is called the Akashic Record, so this is possible because all times are one, but you are not living in a straight line, for you are living in a circle, and the beginning is your ending, and there is no beginning or ending. On April 15, 1987, Quanta defined the nature of the Akashic Record:

These terms have a close relationship in that the grouping of entities which shall comprise the fourth-density social memory complex of entities will have access to that Akashic record of experience which has been collected throughout the history of this planetary experience to date. Thus, the social memory complex is the grouping of entities that has as its heritage the Akashic record, not only of this planetary influence but of those planetary influences which shall also contribute a portion of the population of the fourth-density social memory complex.

Does this even begin to answer your question, my brother?

H2 It doesn’t help me understand, and it doesn’t help me understand how my camera records this illusion of the Parthenon standing there in ruins, yet at one time Socrates and others were there when it was in all its glory. The thing that bothers me about this… maybe it’s unanswerable… is that if all is now, and the Parthenon is now there, Socrates is there and other of his Greek comrades in the living now, and yet I have been there in the living now, and it is a ruins, and my camera said it is a ruins also. Does my camera have illusions also?

Latwii: Your camera is part of the illusion which you now enjoy. We must distinguish between your now now and your other now. You are living in a now now, something like a muu muu, and it is only so so [said humorously]. Consequently, in order to understand now you must live in another now, in that other now you may see what you wish to see and really understand what you want to understand, but you cannot be in the now now. You cannot do both. Thus, this illusion is to you a lesson time in which that which is an illusion appears real.

It may be of interest to you to remember that if a physicist were to describe the Parthenon either in ruins or in its original form, he would describe a structure of space. There are great differences among physicists, but it is agreed that there is either almost no mass or no mass at all to any physical structure, including human beings, but rather a series of magnetic fields. Therefore, logically, one could put one’s hand through a Parthenon, a person, a table, a building, or whatever one wished to put one’s hand through. However, in the now now it is impossible, and your camera is part of the now now. You have many indications in the now now of those who are not within the now now, and those people walk right through everything, thus indicating to you that the now now is not the only now.

Does this help, my brother?

H2 Now it helps some.

Latwii: Now we are glad! Is there another question at this time?

H2 I have another question, since you’re here, Latwii. It’s something you said several weeks ago, when you were talking about the color green, and its filling a room in which we dwelled in another part—not here but somewhere else, and you also said that you were enjoying our fifth dimension. I assume the vibration of our fifth dimension. Does that mean that we exist elsewhere as well as here?

Latwii: It is not a question of location, my brother, for the dimensions are interpenetrating. However, you exist in denser and denser vibrations, according to your abilities. All of you exist into the fourth dimension, and there are adepts among you who are working at this time, actively, in the fifth dimension and are attempting to understand some of the teachings of the inner realms of the sixth dimension. There are a few people who work as far as the eighth, but there are two within this room who have seen it in visions and are aware of its nature, although they could not maintain it for any length of time. This is the octave of your universe, and these are the dimensions of that octave. To go beyond that, you must be free of your chemical body; and therefore, we are talking to a roomful of those who are not going to be doing that any time terribly soon; however, there are many, many infinities to explore within those dimensions and much wisdom to learn. Therefore, we urge you onward; for the path becomes lighter, the teachings truer, and the laughter happier.

Did you wish to know about green, or was that the essence of your question?

H2 Green?

Latwii: Green.

H2 No. You just mentioned the color green, and that was a reference point.

Latwii: Ah, yes. Green is simply an important color for this particular group, due to the fact that it has healing properties, and there are many in this group who can use them. Therefore, we were attempting to surround you with that vibration.

Is there another question?

H2 Since we were talking about other existences and everything being now, is it possible there is another me living across the street from me or somewhere else on this planet as of now or several other me’s?

Latwii: You are, my brother, in this particular universe, a time traveler but not a space traveler. Thus, you live each of your lives simultaneously, but you are not in the same space with yourself. However, in order to be aware of the past or future you must reach an altered state of consciousness, and this should be done only with the proper respect for knowledge. Knowledge, as we have said to you before, entails responsibility.

H2: Are you trying to give me a message about responsibility?

Latwii: The message is general, my brother, and not for you alone, and it is simple; that is, if you know it and do not act it, the backlash effect will be hurtful to you; thus, you will begin to know it truly. That is the law of knowledge of the spiritual kind.

H2 Thank you very much, and I also thank the group for my taking this time.

[Pause]

Latwii: We were drawn here by the one known as E, and thus we would at this time ask her if she would wish to voice her question to us?

[E had left the room.]

I am Latwii. We are sad that our sister is not here to ask the question, for we do not wish to answer in her absence. Are there any other questions at this time?

H1: I have a question. This is about channeling. I have pretty much given up on the idea of being a vocal channel, and I have begun to feel that if I could paint, along with a fellow trying to learn [inaudible]. There are certain images and concepts that I get that are in color and form and have movement that I think I could express through those two mediums. I was wondering if I could get any type of conditioning that the verbal channels get.

Latwii: I am with the instrument. Yes, indeed, my sister. You can get as much conditioning as you need, and to ask for it is to receive it. We would suggest that you request the presence of two of the Confederation whom this group has known for some time: the vibration of Laitos, which is the basic conditioning vibration, and the vibration of Nona, which is an extremely sensitive vibration and one oriented more than most of the Confederation toward that part of Love which expresses itself in art and beauty. Thus, this instrument requests the presence of Nona when she wishes to sing, and those who are involved in the arts will do well to request those two vibrations as good underliners to your own natural talent. You understand that we could not work with you did you not already have a good deal of ability in the area of conceptualization, abstract thinking, and the desire to be a channel for the Love and the Light of the Creator. With these things in your heart and in your character, you can then make full use of the Confederation. We wish you great good fortune, my sister, with your endeavor.

Well, my friends, is there another question at this time?

[Pause]

Questioner: I have one. I am getting ready to open up to a deeper level in my own channeling. I think you can tune in to what I’m referring to. I’m wondering if there is anything that you all might be able to do at this time that would help me to do this.

[Pause]

Latwii: We would at this time be glad to send you an image which will appear to your inner eye, where it is not infringing upon your free will but only aiding…

[Side one of the tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

Let us define this image for you now. Make it sharper. This is a key to that level which you may trust. We would also say to you at that time that you may carefully watch the next level beyond that, for this is not necessary for you to enter at this time; and the, shall we say, expansive or… we are giving this instrument a concept she cannot express. We are working with her… Within the next dimension there is a spreading of the personality which we would not recommend. Therefore, if you feel the next vibration beginning to disperse your personality through the universe, we suggest that you pull yourself back from that realization, for it is not yet time for you to be able to use the knowledge which you would gain in that work.

May we help you further, my sister?

L: I appreciate what you’ve given. Thank you.

Latwii: We are most grateful to be of service. Is there another question at this time?

K: I have a question. Is it helpful for us to be aware of other lives and other incarnations from the standpoint of spiritual development? If so, how do we do this?

Latwii: This is a difficult question for us to answer, because we do not know what triggers the spiritual development of any being. It is usually not at all valuable, as being spiritual, to know of past incarnations. Normally, what is powerful to the individual is to be in the presence of someone who is happy, who has something that the searcher does not have, who suggests something that the seeker might not know. This is why we speak through these instruments—to attempt to inspire, stretch curiosity, cause you to arouse your own instinct for progress.

Unfortunately, it has become a fad among your people to discover who they were in past lives. If you have a specific personality conflict with another being, it is sometimes helpful—not in the spiritual realm but in the realm of human relationships—to go back to the previous experience and discover what it is that you are reaping in this incarnation as a result of actions in the past, However, if you can learn the art of forgiveness, you do not need to know what it was that somebody did to somebody else. If you can ask forgiveness with all your heart and forgive with all your heart, you have broken the laws of karma. Thus, you have no need of knowledge of an esoteric or occult type.

K asked: “Is it helpful for us to be aware of other lives and other incarnations from the standpoint of spiritual development? If so, how do we do this?” Latwii began by saying this is a difficult question for us to answer because we do not know what triggers the spiritual development of any being, for it is not valuable, as being spiritual, to know of past incarnations, and what is powerful to the individual is to be in the presence of someone who is happy, and who suggests something that the seeker might not know, so this is why we speak through these instruments: to attempt to inspire, stretch curiosity, cause you to arouse your own instinct for progress. Then Latwii said it has become a fad among your people to discover who they were in past lives, so if you have a personality conflict with another being, it is sometimes helpful—not in the spiritual realm but in the realm of human relationships—to go back to the previous experience and discover what it is that you are reaping in this incarnation as a result of actions in the past, but if you can learn the art of forgiveness, you do not need to know what it was that somebody did to somebody else, and if you can ask forgiveness with all your heart and forgive with all your heart, you have broken the laws of karma, so you have no need of knowledge of an esoteric or occult type. In 18.12, Ra spoke about the process of forgiveness:

Questioner: You stated yesterday that forgiveness is the eradicator of karma. I am assuming that balanced forgiveness for the full eradication of karma would require forgiveness not only of other-selves but forgiveness of self. Am I correct?

Ra: I am Ra. You are correct. We will briefly expand upon this understanding in order to clarify.

Forgiveness of other-self is forgiveness of self. An understanding of this insists upon full forgiveness upon the conscious level of self and other-self, for they are one. A full forgiveness is thus impossible without the inclusion of self.

Unfortunately, this type of information has often been misused, due to the rule we were explaining earlier that knowledge implies responsibility. Thus, if you know what your lesson is and still refrain from learning it, your lesson becomes harder and harder until, as a matter of survival, you must learn it. To make it easy upon yourself, explore the possibilities of Love in this incarnation, in this moment, at this time, with these people, in this environment, in this illusion, before you begin working with previous lifetimes. For it is in this life that you have the opportunity, at this moment, to take conscious control of your destiny and to speed yourself on your journey toward the Light which you now invoke in this meeting.

Latwii went on to say this type of information has often been misused due to the rule we were explaining earlier that knowledge implies responsibility, so if you know what your lesson is and still refrain from learning it, your lesson becomes harder until, as a matter of survival, you must learn it, and to make it easy upon yourself, explore the possibilities of Love in this incarnation, with these people in this illusion, before you begin working with previous lifetimes, for it is in this life that you have the opportunity to take conscious control of your destiny and to speed yourself on your journey toward the Light which you now invoke in this meeting. On September 8, 1996, Q’uo spoke of how we can fulfill our destiny:

We can only counsel that you surrender to your destiny. This instrument has heard it said frequently. And by this we mean that you must, as all warriors of consciousness, go forth into your daily round of activities and experience that which is yours to experience. In some instances, you will feel that you can become more of what you call vulnerable. In other instances, you will feel the need to withdraw to some degree behind a certain safe construct or wall, shall we say. As you move through your daily round of activities experiencing and experimenting with each possibility you will find that some feel more fulfilling than others, and you will find this balance yourself. You must learn to trust yourself, your inner impulses, this small voice of which you have been speaking, until it speaks to you as often and as clearly as your best friend, for indeed it is such. And as you seek to hear this voice, and await the words, await the feeling, await the intuition, it will become more easily accomplished, and you will indeed be apprised of the situation by this best friend, this small voice that is still within where peace resides at the heart of your being.

Does this answer your question, my brother?

K: Yes, it does. Thank you.

Latwii: As always, we thank the questioners, for we could not say a word if you did not ask us your questions. Is there another at this time?

[Pause]

K: I have one. During the day, sometimes I’ll think about you all. Sometimes I’ll ask questions, but I don’t… you know… I don’t hear the answer, but I can’t think of an answer. Are you all listening when I think about you?

Latwii: We are checking the computers at this time… one moment. The one known as Laitos is with you at all times when you ask your questions. Laitos is the easiest of the Confederation to, shall we say, hear conceptually. At this time, you are not picking up the concept. However, if you persist in daily meditations, you will begin to receive impressions. They will not be, or usually are not, in words. You will simply get an impression. Or you may go to sleep and awaken with an impression.

We cannot work more closely with those who seek our advice than the conscious intellect allows. We find your vibration to be one of a strongly logical and commonsense type. This, I am afraid, my sister, is not a very easy vibration to enter due to the fact that your common sense tells you that you are asking questions of thin air. Thus, we encourage you to ask your questions, and one day you will begin to feel the concept of the presence of the one known as Laitos. We must say, however, that sometimes when the questioner is alone, the answer will simply be a feeling of presence, due to the fact that the power of the individual is not strong enough to warrant a stronger impression. Also, some questions are not answerable, due to our desire not to infringe upon free will. However, the one known as Laitos is there with you when you mentally request their presence. We hope that you will gradually become aware and be comforted by the presence of that kindly vibration.

Does this answer your question, my sister?

K: Yes, thank you.

Latwii: We thank you. May we ask for another question at this time?

[Pause]

I am going to leave this instrument, for she is becoming fatigued, and if the one known as H2 wishes, we will close the meeting through him. I am Latwii.

[Pause]

(H2 channeling)

I am Latwii. I am with this instrument. I hope he will relax more. I promise not to hurt you. You have been wondering why I have not talked with you since the last meeting. You are too anxious. You want too much. You must learn to accept what comes to you. Oxal is your main contact.

We would speak to the group about the advisability of learning how to cope with general problems of daily living in a spirit of Love. We hope you can keep in mind that we are with you. When I say “with you,” I mean someone of us. And we are with you in Love, and we will do whatever we can to aid you. By “can,” I mean what is lawful for us. Your hopes for betterment are not in vain. You will evolve in betterment in some time frame, because it is your destiny. You can help it to be now, or—if you must in your own pursuits—it can be any time later. Let it be now, my friends. We do Love you. We care for you. We send you Love and Light.

I am Latwii. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning I blew all of the leaves in different parts of my yard in the side yard, front yard, and back yard into places where I could mulch them with my big mower, Venus. Then I cut the grass with Venus. Then I went on an errand run with my first stop being Kroger’s where I bought some Peach Zero Sugar drink and some Mango Zero Sugar drink. The next stop was at PNC Bank where I deposited a check into my savings account. The third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreens Drug Store where I dropped off a prescription and bought some Pepsi Zero, paper plates, and Kleenexes.

This afternoon I went outside and used the garden hose and wand to water the flowers along the parking area in my front yard. Then I used the garden hose to and sprayer to clean the filters in the fishpond.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 8

The Deepest Union

I am the Spirit of the living God, and I greet you in the full consciousness of that Love.

It seems, when one hand touches another, when one life touches another, when thoughts commingle in conversation, that there still is a boundary of separation betwixt hand and hand, life and life, thought and thought. Your organs of perception indicate the distance between two energies regardless of how closely they may lie together.

Yet the energy, which is the strength of the hand, the power of the life, and the tenor of the thought undergirds, overshadows and unites all things.

If you be confused and lonely this day, turn at once to that contact, that touch, that mutual beholding that is the deepest union between yourself and the spirit and principle of the full consciousness of Love, and then see the unity in all things with new eyes.

We leave you in peace, comfortable peace, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn channeling comes from July 14, 1979:

(E channeling)

A charge to keep I have to serve the present age. God of grace, God of Glory, on Thy people pour Thy power. Crown Thine ancient churches [inaudible]. Bring her bud to glorious flower. Grant us wisdom. Grant us courage for the facing of this hour. Amen.

Questioner: [Inaudible]

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you each in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. It gives me special pleasure to greet the one known as L and the one known as E, for we have not spoken through instruments to these sisters for some time, although, as you know, we are always with you if you desire our vibration.

As we look at the vibration of your world at this time, we are sure that you are aware that we are seeing a darkening of the vibration, due to an increase in negative emotion felt among your peoples toward each other and even toward themselves. It has sometimes been said that ignorance is bliss; this is a saying among your people. And when you are dealing with a spiritual journey, this is very true, for knowledge carries with it a great responsibility. That which is known and not practiced reflects itself upon the knower, so that they must again know that which they have already learned. This is the price of knowledge, my friends—that you practice what you know.

You need several ingredients in order to be able to do this well. In meditation you can deepen several of these ingredients. The first and most important is confidence, the kind of confidence that comes from knowing who you are. Have you ever, my friends, in meditation felt all the parts of yourself finally come into alignment with your highest goals and your deepest beliefs? By centering yourself in meditation, by finding that within you which vibrates in Love and seeks the Light of the Creator, you can find a quietness and a peacefulness that you can then use in the somewhat hectic and chaotic world that you find about you.

Hatonn wanted to speak to the group about the dark nature of the world around them at this time. They began by saying as we look at the vibration of your world at this time, we are sure that you are aware that we are seeing a darkening of the vibration, due to an increase in negative emotion felt among your people toward each other and even toward themselves, and it has sometimes been said that ignorance is bliss, and when you are dealing with a spiritual journey this is true, for knowledge carries with it a great responsibility, for that which is known and not practiced reflects itself upon the knower, so that they must again know that which they have already learned, but this is the price of knowledge, that you practice what you know. Then Hatonn said you need several ingredients in order to be able to do this, and in meditation you can deepen several of these ingredients, so the first and most important is the kind of confidence that comes from knowing who you are, so have you ever in meditation felt all the parts of yourself finally come into alignment with your highest goals and your deepest beliefs? By centering yourself in meditation, by finding that within you which vibrates in Love and seeks the Light of the Creator, you can find peacefulness that you can use in the chaotic world that you find about you. On November 12, 2006, Q’uo described the value of knowing who you are:

We, on the other hand, would encourage you to see that if you choose to stand knowing who you are, your feet planted upon the soil of your life and your experience, and your arms stretched in praise and thanksgiving to the Creator of all things, you are a person of great power. If you so choose to adopt and embrace faith, no suffering can break you, for you choose the truth and all else is illusion. If you choose hope, those wings shall fly you where you need to go. For each entity morale and attitude are a matter of choice. There is no limitation which can keep an entity from grooming and settling his own mind and his own heart along the lines of peace, and joy, and thankfulness if they so desire to seek those levels of being within them. And, my sister, as each entity does these things, so the world will change.

It is true that not all of your problems are large. You do not have to decide the fate of nations, but your vibration on an individual basis is as important, as vital, and as necessary to the salvation of your planetary consciousness as is the vibration of kings and heads of state. You do not move armies with your commands, but can you command yourself? My friends, this is perhaps the hardest thing to do of all the tasks that you have been given in this experience. So many things occur which cause you to lose yourself; and instead, you act in a way which you yourself would not approve of, were you in control, were you conscious of your behavior. As you come out of meditation, then, this confidence that you have gathered therein becomes your armor.

[Telephone rings. Pause while the call is attended to.]

I am with the instrument. I am Hatonn, and again I greet you in love and light. We apologize for the delay. We will continue through this instrument.

As we were saying, the confidence which you have gathered in meditation becomes your armor, and it is as though you are wearing a cloak of light through which no negative vibration may pass. Thus, you do not need to react to irritating, angry, and other negative statements from others. Circumstances cannot penetrate the confident one who moves in power. This confidence is, indeed, the most important benefit which you receive from meditation. There are others, and you may find them as you proceed along the path of seeking. You may find yourself deepening as a person, becoming more able to understand the problems of others and finding that you are an ear, which is requested many times by others, for they sense in you a deep understanding. In this way you are of service to your brothers and sisters.

You may find the gift of laughter, which is not easy to come by in a daily life which can be so easily filled with difficulties. As your character grows deeper and your knowledge more centered, you begin to see the divine comedy of your existence, the delightful balance of lessons and experience. You cease looking for happiness, and you become divinely happy, whatever your circumstances may be. In short, my friends, you slowly become a generator of your own experience rather than the recipient of other people’s experiences of the world view, which is so often negative. In this way only can you aid your planet at this rather dark hour. We thank you for allowing us to speak to you through this instrument and for supporting her and us with your vibrations at this time. It is a great privilege to share our thoughts with you.

Now Hatonn said the confidence which you have gathered in meditation becomes your armor, and it is as though you are wearing a cloak of Light through which no negative vibration may pass, so you do not need to react to negative statements from others because circumstances cannot penetrate the confident one who moves in power, and this confidence is the most important benefit which you receive from meditation, and there are others that you may find as you proceed along the path of seeking, for you may find yourself deepening as a person, becoming more able to understand the problems of others and finding that you are an ear, which is requested by others, for they sense in you a deep understanding, and in this way you are of service to your brothers and sisters. Hatonn continued by saying you may find the gift of laughter which is not easy to come by in a daily life which can be so easily filled with difficulties, and as your character grows deeper and your knowledge is more centered, you begin to see the divine comedy of your existence, the delightful balance of lessons, so you cease looking for happiness, and you become divinely happy whatever your circumstances may be, for you slowly become a generator of your own experience rather than the recipient of other people’s experiences of the world view, which is so often negative, and in this way only can you aid your planet at this dark hour, so we thank you for allowing us to speak to you through Carla and for supporting her and us with your vibrations at this time. On December 10, 1989, Q’uo spoke of how we may be of service to others with our gift of laughter:

The first laughter may be very rusty, but in time a melancholy soul with faith in the gift of laughter which has been manifested to it will learn to share in that gift, and so give glory to the one infinite Creator, by lightening consciousness upon the planet.

At this time we would pause while Laitos moves about the room, offering each of you the conditioning wave of our vibration. I am Hatonn.

[Pause]

I am Hatonn, and I am with this instrument only to ask if you have any questions at this time. Please ask them now if you do.

[Pause]

If there are no questions at this time that you would ask, I will leave you in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. I am only a voice through this instrument, known to you as Hatonn, but I and my people send to you the Love that we have in abundance from the Creator to you. We leave you in that Love and that Light, which is not ours but the Creator’s, and bless each of you. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu.

This morning I ran some errands with my first stop being at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some Kleenexes. My second stop was at Walmart where I bought two roles of Duct Tape. My last stop was at AutoZone where I bought two 5W30 oil for Stanley.

This afternoon I was planning to go to a meeting to remember a friend and neighbor of mine who passed into larger life a year ago. But when I got to the address that I was given it turned out to be a different gathering for another neighbor of mine who recently passed into larger life. I am hoping that I just got the day wrong for the first neighbor’s meeting.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 7

Truth Renews The Senses

I am the Holy Spirit of the Lord Jesus Christ, the principle of unconditional Love and the encourager of grace amidst paradox.

I come to this instrument in that glad paradox of eternity and dust which is the spirit in manifestation. The Spirit speaks as an echo reverberating that which the heart of man already knows. Where the heart lies open, each moment may disclose a new heaven and a new earth.

See the paradox of your soul’s striving amidst the celebration of perfection which is the essence of the nature of the reality hidden in manifestation. Let the spirit of Love conquer the eye that sees the mask of things. Through the Spirit apprehend the inner core of perfection in each and every circumstance.

For by this willingness to trust in the Spirit of Love, by this choosing of a consciousness of Love, you may view each desert as a garden and each garden as a desert, gaining for yourself the full picture which the true heart may paint of the paradoxes of divine Love.

Release the need to make sense and allow truth to renew your senses.

In peace we leave you, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then I got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn channeling comes from July 11, 1979:

(Carla channeling)

I am Telonn, and I greet you in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. We are very happy to be with your little group this evening, and we wish to work with you at this time if you would desire to work with us. Visualize, if you will, a white globe of light that hovers in the center of the room in which you now dwell.

[Pause]

When you can clearly see in your mind’s eye this globe of light, transfer your consciousness into the light until you can look back at yourself as you sit in meditation in the dim light of the room.

[Pause]

You may stabilize the globe at this time by realizing that the two of you have become one, and it is your will which will direct the light to wherever you may wish it to go.

[Pause]

With our consciousness protecting you now, slowly move the globe of light through the windows of the room in which you now sit, and up above the roof of the room in which you now sit, and up above the roof of your dwelling.

[Pause]

Look down now upon the quiet house that you have left, and then speed quickly away from the gravity of Earth, through the overcast.

[Pause]

Now you begin to see the rounded shape of the Earth beneath you. Keep your globe stable, and look for a moment at the spinning, beautiful planet which you have now left.

[Pause]

We ask you now to visualize a triangle, moving toward us, away from the Earth. It is green. It seems like a great eye. Move through the eye. Feel the sensation of great speed. You are out the other side. You are in the next dimension.

[Pause]

What do you see, my friends? All that is about you is very bright. The sky is no longer dark. Now you perceive one coming toward you—a watchman of this density. Remain stable in your globe, and allow him to sense your vibration.

[Pause]

You may greet him now, if you wish, with your thoughts.

[Pause]

Let us travel back now toward the Earth in this density, for we have been cleared for travel in this density at this time.

[Pause]

The Earth is no longer a blue planet with white clouds, is it not, my friends? It is, indeed, a rainbow of colors.

[Pause]

Can you feel any gravitational pull in this density? You should be completely free of movement.

[Pause]

Do not go too close to the darker colors of this environment; they are the dwelling places of thought forms of those among your people who are less than fully positive in their thinking. But observe the reality of these thought forms, the activity of the colors, and know that your thoughts are never lost, just as energy can never be lost. Your thoughts are the equation of the next dimension.

[Pause]

Move now into the realms of higher and lovelier Light.

[Pause]

We are aware that you are enjoying these realms; for these are the realms of sweet thoughts and kindly deeds, and beings who vibrate in this level dwell therein.

[Pause]

We feel that it is time now for you to return, for we wish to make sure that our protection of you is complete; therefore, we must limit this visit. Allow yourself to be pulled back through the eye.

[Pause]

You now see the night and the night sky.

[Pause]

Now let the magnetism of your body pull the globe—not too fast—very steadily.

[Pause]

The globe is now with you in the room, and you can see your quiet figures again. Say goodbye to your unity for now, and partake again of the separation of the physical body.

[Pause]

I am Telonn. I am a messenger of infinity. It is our fervent hope that you and Telonn can enable those of you who desire it to experience higher realms of consciousness and to seek them through your daily life. I leave you in love and the many varieties and gradations of light—the light of the Creator, my friends.  Adonai.

[Pause]

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in Love and Light. We do not wish to speak for long this evening. We only wish to communicate to this instrument our thanks to you for allowing us to be with you and to send our Love. We have no esoteric message to deliver, for our truth is the same, whether it be said in simplicity or with the greatest of intellectual complexity. We are a portion of the consciousness that is of single-minded determination to speak when asked of the Creator. Many among your people have had the same desire, and their information is always distorted. The master, as you call Him—the teacher, as we call Him—known to you as Jesus, is a perfect example of a man who wished to speak of the Creator, but whose words were so distorted that for a long stretch of your time millions of your people have worshipped a human being instead of the Creator. This was not the will of the one known as Jesus, for He came to fulfill the will of his Father, and so He said time and time again.

What is the will of the Father for your planet? It is very simple, my friends: it is that it may evolve. We do not speak of a Darwinian evolution where the fittest survive, and the weaker are destroyed. Indeed, my friends, it is the very opposite that is true. In spiritual evolution it is the weak that survive and the strong and hard-headed who go down in confusion and must repeat again the cycle of lessons that have to do with loving one another. Loving takes a type of strength that is known among your people as weakness. Loving is serving. Loving is not caring what is done to you in return for your love, and such humility is difficult, indeed, to accomplish. In a culture such as yours, where each person demands their rights and each action seems to demand its reward, the act of pure love implies a total disregard of reward. This seems to others to be weakness. You become known as a doormat, as a pushover. Count these things as blessings, my friends. When someone says to you, “You are not liberated,” silently give thanks that you are at least trying to be loving rather than demanding.

Hatonn wanted to speak to the nature of the Creator and the nature of Love. They began by saying we do not wish to speak for long this evening, so we wish to communicate to Carla our thanks to you for allowing us to be with you and to send our Love, and we have no abstract message to deliver, for our truth is the same, whether it be said in simplicity or with the greatest of intellectual complexity, for we are a portion of the consciousness that is of a single-minded determination to speak when asked of the Creator, and many of your people have had the same desire, and their information is always distorted, so the master Jesus, is a perfect example of a man who wished to speak of the Creator, but whose words were so distorted that for a long time millions of your people have worshipped a human being instead of the Creator, but this was not the will of Jesus, for He came to fulfill the will of His Father, so He said time and time again. Hatonn went on to say the will of the Father for your planet simple, and it is that it may evolve, but we do not speak of a Darwinian evolution where the fittest survive, and the weaker are destroyed, for it is the opposite that is true because in spiritual evolution it is the weak that survive and the strong who go down in confusion and must repeat again the cycle of lessons that have to do with loving one another, for loving takes a type of strength that is known among your people as weakness, but loving is serving and not caring what is done to you in return for your love, and such humility is difficult to accomplish, and in a culture such as yours, where each person demands their rights, and each action demands its reward, the act of pure love implies a total disregard of reward which seems to others to be weakness, and you become a doormat, so count these things as blessings, and when someone says to you, “You are not liberated,” silently give thanks that you are trying to be loving rather than demanding. On October 22, 1989, Q’uo spoke of the value in loving one another:

Any form of loving one another is that action which expresses what this instrument would call the Christ consciousness, that which is deeply buried within you, that with which you are to some extent acquainted, but perhaps more to the point, of being able to love without stint, to give without thinking, to spend all one’s energy, time, talent, and what you call money, with the spiritual life central and in the mind.

We are not suggesting that this path is not without its rewards; the rewards are simply personal. The rewards are the satisfaction of seeing an improvement in your state of mind, a raising of your state of contentment, and nonchalance about what others may think of you, or what you should be doing. You should be doing, my friends, that which in your instantaneous evaluations from moment to moment is of service and of love and of real value to others. Those who love themselves and love others—those are the rich people of your planet. We send you confidence and peace at this time that you may be among those who are in touch with the reality of love, and, experiencing it yourself you share it with others. We are aware that you will be misunderstood, that you may be found to be cold because you have not given the expected response. We ask that you not allow the vicissitudes of your daily life to influence your attempt to learn to be a loving being.

Love yourself, your circumstances, your troubles, your pleasures, your friends, and your enemies, your catastrophes, and your triumphs with a grand and careless equality, and you will find yourself to be on key, on balance, and able to act without selfishness and without foolishness in any situation. How can you do this, my friends? As always, meditate. And in your daily meditations center yourselves upon that Love which, like a gyroscope, keeps you from being tumbled about in this world of illusion that you call Earth.

Hatonn went on to say we are not suggesting that this path is not without its rewards, for the rewards are the personal satisfaction of seeing an improvement in your state of mind and being unconcerned about what others may think of you, or what you should be doing because you should be doing that which in your evaluation is of service and of love to others, for those who love themselves and love others are the rich people of your planet, so we send you confidence and peace at this time that you may be among those who are in touch with the reality of love, and you experiencing it and sharing it with others, for we are aware that you will be misunderstood, that you may be found to be cold because you have not given the expected response, but we ask that you not allow the circumstances of your daily life to influence your attempt to learn to be a loving being. Now Hatonn said love yourself, your troubles, your pleasures, your friends, and your enemies, with a grand and careless equality, and you will find yourself to be on key and able to act without selfishness and without foolishness in any situation, so how can you do this? As always, meditate, and in your daily meditations center yourselves upon that Love which, like a gyroscope, keeps you from being tumbled about in this world of illusion called Earth. On July 5, 1979, Oxal spoke of the value of our becoming a loving person:

It is possible for you as a being at this very moment to forgive in your heart all those who have hurt you, with such strength that you may stop the karma forever for them. It is possible, also, for you to take the karma of others, but we do not advise this, for you have your own destiny to work out and that is enough of a job for you.

Thus, you are here to be a loving being. Those whom you meet may be accidents; they may be intentional; it does not matter, for this is the lifetime you are living now, and the actions which are the fruits of your thoughts at this time are the karma that you collect now.

I am very grateful for the opportunity to have spoken with you this evening. I will pause only to ask if there are any questions.

[Pause]

I am again with this instrument. We caution you once more: in the hierarchy of obedience, be obedient first to that which you feel is correct. If you are meditating each day, your feelings are more trustworthy than the opinions of others. We are always with you, and we send you our Love. I am known to you as Hatonn. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning I went on an errand run with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some bird seed, cat food, and a couple of soft beds for pets that I hope to make into a warm winter bed for the kitty that has been eating at least five cans of cat food on my front porch for the last week. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My last stop was at AutoZone where I bought two bottles of 5 W35 oil for Stanley. At 11 am this morning I was honored to be a guest on Jonathan Tong’s Seattle Law of One Study Group to answer questions about how the Law of One could be used in any seeker’s spiritual journey. Some of the questions concerned the value of meditation, totem animals, whether Mother Earth is a positive, negative, or neutral being, where the first Hatonn channelings were held, The Brown Notebook, and the nature of sexual energy exchanges. These zoom meetings have been a favorite of mine for many years since they occur on the first Saturday of each month which gives me the feeling of speaking with friends and creating a social memory complex.

This afternoon I went outside and used my trimmer to trim the weeds around the fishpond, the pet cemetery, and the Ruins Mound of flowers.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 6

The Strength Of Acceptance

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ, the Son of Man. I greet you in the full consciousness of Love in manifestation.

We hear the voices of those upon your planet who cry, “Woe! Woe! Dark is the day, and dark is the hour!” The railing against fate and the anger against the Father is most understandable and acceptable.

Yet as the Spirit of Jesus Christ is the Spirit of power and creation, so those who cry woe and feel powerless must needs call to the Holy Spirit. For within each difficulty, within each pain, there lies a peace, an acceptance. The strength to adopt acceptance and to move in acceptance of limitations and difficulties is at least equal to the strength and power to go forth and do battle in the name of Jesus Christ.

Realize that in the center of your being is the power to accept powerlessness and to accept that which cannot be changed. There is the peace in that acceptance which may open into joy. The cross is for all who seek to know Jesus Christ.

We leave you in the peace of the full consciousness of divine, sacrificial and creative Love, both now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Latwii channeling is from July 5, 1979:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet each of you, my friends, in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. It is a great pleasure to greet each of you, especially those who are new to this group; for, indeed, it is not only our privilege but our only purpose to share with you our humble thoughts, that you may consider them in the discrimination of your own hearts to accept what is good and to discard that which does not appeal to you.

Tonight, I would like to tell you a little story. Once upon a time, my friends, in one of your southern cities there came to be a very unusual creature. This creature had the body of an alligator but the wisdom of a man. Soon, those about him learned to treat him as a man. And he wore special shoes and special clothing and had a hat specially made for him, and learned to sit upright, and eat his meals, and hold his job and act in every way like a human would act. One day as he was sitting on a bar stool of his favorite pub, watching the big game on the television set, a rather tipsy man stumbled and stepped upon his tail. Somewhat tipsy himself, the alligator was furious, and he whipped around and made to slay the poor unfortunate who had dared to step on his tail.

“I am sorry,” said the drunken man, “but I did not see your tail.” “I do not have a tail,” said the alligator with great fury, “for I am a man!” And again, he made to lunge furiously at the poor man, who grabbed what he could off the bar, that being a large stick the bartender handed him, and rammed it into the alligator’s throat, killing him. As the alligator lay on the floor, dead, in his shoes and his clothes and his hat, the man said to him, ’’I may be drunk, but I know an alligator when I see one.“

There are many negative emotions, which do not seem so negative on the plane which you now enjoy. Greed is explained away as a means whereby produce is generated in the market place; ambition is explained as that which one must do in order to be of service to one’s family, to one’s children, or to one’s best interest; selfishness, jealousy, and envy, all of these things, my friends, can be so easily explained away in your mind. You can clothe them in explanations—the hat, the coat, the shoes. And so we charge you, in your meditations, first to find your alligator and to remove him, and then to meditate in quiet and humility, knowing that you are not unlike your friends but very, very much the same. Let the citizens within you which are compassionate grow and spread their wings. This can be done, not by your efforts, my friend, but by meditation; not by conscious thought, my friend, but by intuition.

Hatonn wanted to tell a story to the group. They began by saying once upon a time in one of your southern cities there came to be an unusual creature which had the body of an alligator but the wisdom of a man, so soon those about him learned to treat him as a man, and he wore special shoes and clothing, and had a hat specially made for him, so he learned to sit upright, and hold his job and act in every way like a human would act, so one day as he was sitting on a bar stool of his favorite pub, watching the big game on the television set, a tipsy man stumbled and stepped on his tail, and tipsy himself, the alligator was furious, and he whipped around and made to slay the unfortunate one who had stepped on his tail. Then Hatonn said “I am sorry,” said the drunken man, “but I did not see your tail,” but “I do not have a tail,” said the alligator with great fury, “for I am a man,” and again he lunged furiously at the poor man, who grabbed what he could off the bar, that being a large stick the bartender handed him, and rammed it into the alligator’s throat, killing him, so as the alligator lay on the floor, dead, in his shoes and his clothes and his hat, the man said to him, ’’I may be drunk, but I know an alligator when I see one.“ Hatonn went on to say there are many negative emotions which do not seem so negative on the plane which you now enjoy, so greed is explained as a means whereby ambition is explained as that which one must do in order to be of service to one’s family, or to one’s best interest, and selfishness and jealousy can be easily explained away in your mind, for you can clothe them in explanations, so we charge you, in your meditations, to find your alligator and to remove him, and then to meditate in humility, knowing that you are not unlike your friends but much the same, so let the citizens within you which are compassionate grow and spread their wings, for this can be done by meditation and intuition. On May 3, 1987, Q’uo spoke of how we can use meditation and intuition to find our way on our spiritual path:

I am Q’uo, and we speak to this query in order to offer the possibility for consideration that there is great difference between what one may become aware of through the intuitional faculties and what one may think with the intellectual is an appropriate course of action. It is possible for one to become aware of the speaking of the intuition, the small voice that speaks in stillness within the heart of being, through the exercise of meditation which has been primed, shall we say, with the intense contemplative and intellectual analyzing of possibilities. This priming or opening of a path through the intuition, when accomplished, will in its season of appropriate time allow the communication from the deeper levels of the mind to the conscious mind. This response is that which seeks to fulfill the desires of the seeker of truth in a manner which is appropriate for the seeker according to the plan that it has laid out for itself prior to the incarnational experience.

We ask you at this time, my friends, to consider this story in the context of your own personality. You must realize that within your own mind there lives a population of many creatures. Some are saintly—good and pure, kindly and compassionate; others are, perhaps, boring, over-intellectual. Some of your citizens may be too emotional, and a few may actually be beasts that you may not wish to face.

There is no time to be proud, my friends, to assert yourself as a good person or as a bad person. You are a person… you are the Creator, and you have all of the parts of the creation within you. As that is so, all people are your friends; from the murderer to the saint, from the fool to the sage. Look past the citizenry of your emotions and find the heart of unity that lies beyond all of the paradoxes of human nature. You are in this life. Your vision is blurred, and your steps are unsteady, and this is for a reason. Come to understand the challenge of this illusion and the possibility of progress. Above all, come to understand that you will never know your progress; you can only continue meditating, seeking the Creator, and attempting to be a channel for the Creator’s Love and Light among people like yourself. Although we are more advanced than you, we of Hatonn know that our thoughts are varied and are not always harmonious. The difference between us, my friend, is simply that we can see our thoughts. We have a reality in our density. Consequently, we have no chance to quarrel with our alligators. When they arise, we must deal with them without further ado. We ask you to never fear what is inside yourself, but only to love it, for it, too, is the Creator.

Now Hatonn said we ask you to consider this story in the context of your own personality, for you must realize that within your mind there lives a population of many creatures, and some are good and pure, kindly and compassionate, but others are boring and over-intellectual, and some of your citizens may be too emotional, and a few may be beasts that you may not wish to face. Hatonn continued by saying there is no time to be proud of being a good person or a bad person, for you are the Creator, and you have all of the parts of the creation within you, so all people are your friends, from the murderer to the saint, so look past the citizenry of your emotions and find the heart of unity that lies beyond all of the paradoxes of human nature, for you are in this life, and your steps are unsteady, and this is for a reason, so come to understand the challenge of this illusion and the possibility of progress, but above all come to understand that you will never know your progress because you can only continue meditating, seeking the Creator, and attempting to be a channel for the Creator’s Love and Light among people like yourself, so although we are more advanced than you, we know that our thoughts are varied and are not always harmonious, but the difference between us is that we can see our thoughts, and we have a reality in our density, so we have no chance to quarrel with our alligators, and when they arise we must deal with them, so we ask you to never fear what is inside yourself, but only to love it, for it, too, is the Creator. On March 5, 2011, Q’uo spoke of the value of our being a channel for the Love and Light of the Creator:

Therefore, do your best to be good stewards of this planet and help those who have come here to do that. But remember that your main job is to be a channel for the Light and the Love of the one infinite Creator. Rest in the effulgence of that Love and ask for the fire of Love to be kindled in your hearts from Spirit that you may with the utmost passion and intensity do your best with this incarnation of service, of learning.

I would at this time pause so that Laitos, may speak. I am Hatonn.

[Pause]

I am Laitos, and I greet you, as do my brothers and sisters, in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. If you will be patient with me, I would like to work with some of those among you who desire conditioning at this time. I would like first to work with the one known as E. If she would allow us, we will condition the instrument known as E, and if she desires, we would speak a few words through her. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am Laitos and again with this instrument. I would like to thank the one known as E. We find that, although she is personally a willing and able channel, there are teachers of hers who desire that her tuning be not disturbed at this time, for she is working in other vibrations. Therefore, we will pass on at this time.

We would like to condition the one known as M and allow her to feel our contact. Although we will not attempt to speak to her, we would explain that this vibration may be helpful for healing or for a more peaceful meditation. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

We have a good contact with the one known as K, and we would now attempt to say just a few words through her, if she would desire to be of service in this manner. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am again with this instrument. The one known as K is somewhat nervous; however, our contact with her is excellent, and she is a strong channel. In fact, my friends, this is an excellent group, and one in which we are most fortunate to work with.

At this time I would like to condition the one known as E, for she is in need of comfort at this time.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

We thank our sister, E, and would like now to condition the ones known as T and K, so that they may feel our contact and be strengthened in their meditations. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am again with this instrument. At this time, if the one known as G would wish it, we would like to work with her. We are aware that she has some capability of visualizing our truer natures, which is pleasing to us, and we greet the one known as G. We would at this time, if in her free will she would request it, speak a few words through the instrument known as G. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

We thank the one known as G and are aware that she is very fatigued. However, we have greatly appreciated the chance to work with her.

If the instrument known as H will speak freely, without analyzing his thoughts, we would like to close through H. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

(H channeling)

I am Laitos. Latwii was calling on this instrument earlier this evening, but he was afraid to speak.

I am Latwii. I am with this instrument, although he is on the verge of heart failure. I say this humorously. But he is very fearful that I will not give him words to speak. This is the first time he has spoken in this manner in public. However, we have been with this instrument for a long while. Although he was not aware of it, we have worked with him rather intensely subconsciously and in answer to his calls for help. But he was not aware that all he had to do was listen. He would call but not listen. Finally, he got the idea of listening and was able to hear us. Since that time, our messages have been to him directly, and he is doing very well as a receiver.

There is something I would like to say about how to become a channel. All you need do is relax and listen; and when you get an impression of our name or any word or phrase, acknowledge that word or phrase, and we will give you the next word or phrase. Sometimes, if you do not acknowledge, we will give you a brief preview of what is to come, but not usually, because this tends to confuse some channels rather than help. So, the key is: relax, be still, listen, acknowledge any impression you get by repeating it to yourself or, as in this case, out loud, and listen for the next impression. That is all there is to it. This channel will acknowledge that now. However, he would have you know something else.

When we were first able to come through to him, he had a tremendous ringing in his right ear. We stopped that. And, also, he had a large hole in his right eardrum, and we healed that. Why did we do this? Because this was interfering with his ability to receive us. That is all for now. I thank you and wish you all well, and love and light. Adonai. I am Latwii.

[Pause, during which visitors entered the room.]

(Carla channeling)

I am Oxal, and I greet you in Love and Light. I greet those who have joined us, and I’m here for a specific purpose, for there is a question upon the mind of one who is here which shall not be voiced. But we feel that it is an important question, and, therefore, we would wish to deal with it at this time through this instrument, although we normally do not use this instrument, for she is a little too delicately tuned for our vibration. It has been said in your holy works that if you deal with mediums and spiritists it is not good, for it may defile you; and this warning has deterred many from listening to the fount of inspiration within them, which exists for all of us.

May we ask you, then, if to listen to a spirit were to defile, what it was that Saul of Tarsus saw on the road to Damascus? Those about him saw only a Light, which blinded the man, but in his blindness, Saul heard a voice. We do not come to you as gods, as people, as individuals. We come to you as messengers of One consciousness. We hope, and we intend, that that consciousness is that of Love, for that, my friends, is what the Creator is and what this Creation is made of: Love—divine and perfect. The words we speak are poor, and we may seem to be speaking through mediums, but we can only assure you, my friends, that far from attempting to defile, degrade, or undermine any sense of self you may have at this time, or any beliefs that you may treasure, we hope only to make available to you a realization of the Love of the Creator. We come in Love, we speak in Love. We look into your hearts, and we see that you are Love.

Let your lives be filled with this Love, my friends. Let your eyes shine with the Light, which is the wisdom engendered by divine Love, and the world about you shall be warm in the coldest winter, and those who gather about you shall know not you but the Creator. This is our hope for us and for you. Join us, my friends, in this place which you may call the heavenly realms, and be refreshed at the source of Love. Come down again from this place into the world with open hands and open heart.

Oxal wanted to talk about an unasked question from someone in this group about communication with unknown spirits. Oxal began by saying I greet those who have joined us, and I’m here for a specific purpose, for there is a question upon the mind of one who is here which shall not be voiced, but we feel that it is an important question, and we wish to deal with it at this time through Carla although we normally do not use her, for she is too delicately tuned for our vibration, so it has been said in your holy works that if you deal with mediums and spiritists it is not good, for it may defile you, and this warning has deterred many from listening to the fount of inspiration within them, which exists for all of us. Then Oxal said may we ask you if to listen to a Spirit were to defile you, what was it that Saul of Tarsus saw on the road to Damascus? Those about him saw a Light, which blinded the man, but in his blindness Saul heard a voice, but we do not come to you as gods or people, for we come to you as messengers of One consciousness, and we intend that that consciousness is that of Love, for that is what the Creator is and what this Creation is made of: Love, divine and perfect, and the words we speak are poor, and we may seem to be speaking through mediums, but we can only assure you that far from attempting to undermine any sense of self you may have at this time, or any beliefs that you may treasure, we hope to make available to you a realization of the Love of the Creator because we come in Love; we speak in Love; and we look into your hearts; and we see that you are Love. Oxal continued by saying let your lives be filled with this Love, and let your eyes shine with the Light which is the wisdom engendered by divine Love, and the world about you shall be warm in the coldest winter, and those who gather about you shall know not you but the Creator, for this is our hope for us and for you, so join us in this place which you may call the heavenly realms, and be refreshed at the source of Love, and come down again from this place into the world with open hands and open heart. On February 12, 1995, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the source of Love:

Yet the architecture of the Logos, that source of Love, is absolute. In truth, there is one great Absolute as far as we are aware and that is the unity of all things and all entities, for even the archetypical mind is that which is expressed by an infinite number of logoi throughout the one creation.

At this time, I would open the meeting to questions. Does anyone have a question at this time? We ask you, please, to feel free to ask anything that you wish at this time.

[Pause]

N: I have a question. Do you have an idea of what percentage of souls on the Earth return—die and are reborn [inaudible]?

Oxal: We are aware of your question, but we will find it less than simple to answer, for the soul which enters this vibration does not enter for one lifetime only, for the most part, but for a cycle of what you would call time, this cycle being approximately 3,000 of your years, according to our best estimates. As you must know, we are somewhat less than perfect in our approximations of your time. Thus, the probability that a person will reincarnate during a cycle is extremely high. The percentage of those who are in physical bodies, as opposed to denser or more spiritualized bodies, at any given, shall we say, locus in space/time is approximately two percent.

Thus, most of the souls in the reincarnational cycle, at any moment during that cycle, will be without a physical body. They will, however, be part of the consciousness of Earth. And it is this unseen and very strong influence which has caused the repetitive actions of your civilization in this cycle. For, unfortunately, your people have not made the progress which we had hoped but, instead, have repeated over and over again the cycles of war and intrigue for war which have marred the previous cycle and this one also.

N asked: “Do you have an idea of what percentage of souls on the Earth return—die and are reborn [inaudible]?” Oxal began by saying we are aware of your question, but we will find it less than simple to answer, for the soul which enters this vibration does not enter for one lifetime only but for a cycle of time being 3,000 of your years, and we are less than perfect in our approximations of your time, so the probability that a person will reincarnate during a cycle is high, and the percentage of those who are in physical bodies in space/time is approximately two percent. Oxal went on to say most of the souls in the reincarnational cycle will be without a physical body, but they will be part of the consciousness of Earth, and it is this unseen and strong influence which has caused the repetitive actions of your civilization in this cycle, for your people have not made the progress which we had hoped, but have repeated over and over the cycles of war which have marred the previous cycle and this one also. On July 3, 1989, Q’uo spoke of how we can enhance the consciousness of Earth:

Thus, no one needs to use an enormous amount of discrimination in order to do the work necessary to make changes necessary in consciousness. The trap of those with spiritual pride is that they would rate dramatic services to others above the less dramatic services and those who render them.

This will never advance the cause of lightening the consciousness of Earth. Rather, it is a series of paradoxes which we suggest you consider, that is, the middle way, the via media—for walking in balance with the life about one in service to others. Non-dramatic services to others—those who tend the child, those who sweep the hearth, those who work in jobs that do not seem to have satisfaction in them—are just as capable as the most experienced seeker of bringing into manifestation within their creation the Love of the infinite One.

Would you like to continue with your question?

N: Yes, I was wondering, if the cycle is 3,000 years, how many people will be going through the 3,000-year cycle together… or is it just scattered or are there, like, big groups that would start, say, approximately the same time and do a cycle, or just all mixed up as far as… I know you can’t get real specific, but I was wondering about that.

Oxal: I am Oxal. I am with this instrument. I am aware of your question. The pattern of reincarnation changes during a cycle, not only the minor cycle but also the greater cycles—the major cycle and master cycle. Those of you in this room, for the most part, have met many times before, not simply in the last 3,000 years but prior to that time in the last 25,000 years, and there are a few who have met during the master cycle, which is approximately 76,000 of your years. These are all approximations, you understand.

Now, my friend, what occurs is that as a soul rises from the ignorance of the darkness of the beginning of a cycle, he begins to collect about himself or herself a series of relationships which begin to have a special meaning, due to emotion, which is one of the most powerful words in your language, because it deals with the only reality of your world. Those whom you love, those whom you have wronged in hate or envy—those souls you will meet again to again work out a destiny in which the lessons of love can be learned. Thus, by the end of the cycle, such as this one, you will find quite large groups of people gravitating together for a more or less known and specific purpose, which has been generated due to the lessons learned by each in conjunction with the others over a series of many incarnations.

Does this answer your question?

N: Yes, thank you.

Oxal: We thank you, my brother. Is there another question at this time?

E: Yes [inaudible]. I have noticed with increasing regularity a very unusual phenomenon upon certain peoples’ third eye—a symbol—and in particular Jimmy Carter, our president. And I was wondering if you could enlighten me about this symbol that I’ve seen on various people’s foreheads? I started noting this about two years ago, and it’s very evident to me, and I think if everyone would look closely, they would see the cross that…

[Side one of the tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

I am Oxal. I am deepening the state of meditation of this instrument so that she may better receive our words. If you will be patient. I am Oxal. I am with this instrument. I am aware of your question.

Yes, my sister, there is indeed a symbol which has begun to appear upon the so-called third-eye chakra of those in your society whose vision is already partially within the world to come. And by this we do not refer to the heavenly world which occurs after death but that which has often been referred to as the Golden Age. That which seems to be a cross is actually four triangles or pyramids, arranged in such a way that they become a golden wheel which, like the sun, is an entrance into the fourth dimension of being. There should be increasing changes, not only in this chakra but in the higher, or crown, chakra, and in the auras of many of your people at this time as they begin to become aware of what may be called the new vibration or the new age.

The old vibration is, shall we say, not dying an easy death. And in its final illness and decease, it may keep many of your people from seeing the opposite of that which seems so hopeless; for all spiritual truths are opposites. However, the one known to you as Jimmy Carter, though burdened with great responsibility, is within his heart a true man of a new age, hampered by the realities of his present duties, yet full of an undying hope for the newness of life.

Does this answer your question, my sister?

E: Yes, thank you very much. May I ask you one other short one?

Oxal: Please do, my sister.

E: What would be the significance of a heart as opposed to a cross on the third-eye chakra?

Oxal: This normally has to do with the attempt of those among your people to be in contact with higher intelligences and, thus, to heal the Earth’s brokenness. It is a healing and a loving sign and one which is recognized by many in the heavenly realms as being the sign of sacrifice and, through sacrifice, healing Love. Thus, you will find a high vibration in people who carry this sign and, yet a great desire on their part to deal with the world, as it is at this time, in a healing fashion. We, ourselves, are attempting through many in the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator to extend a heart symbol about the entire planet, thus shielding it from itself. And the only way we know to do this, without interfering with the free will of your people, is simply make this vibration available. Many of the teachers of your inner realms also work with this symbol. The vibration is rosy, warm and good.

Does this answer your question, my sister?

E: Yes, so graciously accepted. Thank you so very much. Thank you.

Oxal: We are most appreciative that we are able to share our thoughts with you, my sister. Is there another question at this time?

N: I have another question. As far as karma goes, what makes somebody have to turn back, reincarnate again, to work out something that, you know, they didn’t work out before? How major a situation does it have to be? Or is it with everything? Would it be as if you stepped on a bug, would you have to come back and make that up, you know, work it out or something, or is it just major things or minor things or… that’s the question.

I am Oxal, and we are aware of your question. However, it is best to deal with karma not as your people have dealt with it as lawyers, attempting to balance the case in court, or accountants attempting to total the debits and credits; for we are dealing here, not with actions, but with thought. A person is as they think. That is reality. Their actions are the fruits of their thoughts. There are accidents which do not carry karma, and there are seeming accidents which carry heavy karma, due to the fact that there was thought behind the action not evident to the world. It is possible for you as a being at this very moment to forgive in your heart all those who have hurt you, with such strength that you may stop the karma forever for them. It is possible, also, for you to take the karma of others, but we do not advise this, for you have your own destiny to work out and that is enough of a job for you. Thus, you are here to be a loving being. Those whom you meet may be accidents; they may be intentional; it does not matter, for this is the lifetime you are living now, and the actions which are the fruits of your thoughts at this time are the karma that you collect now.

As to canceling out the karma of your own previous mistakes, we can only suggest that you analyze each thought that you may have, and find if it is positive, if it is of service to yourself or to another; if it is of disservice to yourself or to another; if it denies the Creator; if it shuts out the sunlight; if it grasps illusion, unhappiness, want, limitation, need and pain as reality—stop and meditate on Love. That is the end of karma, for the law of Love is far greater than the law of cause and effect, just as the law of eternity is greater than the law of time and process. Do not linger in the river of your life, but move onward to the sea, dissolving yourself in Love. In this way, karma ceases to become your reality, and your love may be freely taken and freely given, with forgiveness to all people for all things.

N asked: “As far as karma goes, what makes somebody have to turn back, reincarnate again, to work out something that, you know, they didn’t work out before?” Oxal said it is best to deal with karma not as your people have dealt with it as lawyers attempting to balance the case in court, for we are dealing here, not with actions, but with thought, so a person is as they think, and their actions are the fruits of their thoughts, but there are accidents which do not carry karma, and there are seeming accidents which carry heavy karma due to the fact that there was thought behind the action not evident to the world, so it is possible for you to forgive in your heart all those who have hurt you with such strength that you may stop the karma forever for them, and it is possible for you to take the karma of others, but we do not advise this, for you have your own destiny to work out, and that is enough of a job for you, so you are here to be a loving being, and those that you meet may be accidents, or they may be intentional, but it does not matter, for this is the lifetime you are living now, and the actions which are the fruits of your thoughts at this time are the karma that you collect now. Oxal went on to say as to canceling out the karma of your previous mistakes, we can suggest that you analyze each thought that you have, and find if it is of service to yourself or to another, or if it denies the Creator, or if it grasps illusion of need and pain as reality, then stop and meditate on Love, and that is the end of karma, for the law of Love is far greater than the law of cause and effect, just as the law of eternity is greater than the law of time and process, so do not linger in the river of your life, but move onward to the sea, dissolving yourself in Love since in this way karma ceases to become your reality, and your love may be freely taken and freely given, with forgiveness to all  people for all things. In 18.12, Ra described the best way that we can deal with karma:

Questioner: You stated yesterday that forgiveness is the eradicator of karma. I am assuming that balanced forgiveness for the full eradication of karma would require forgiveness not only of other-selves but forgiveness of self. Am I correct?

Ra: I am Ra. You are correct. We will briefly expand upon this understanding in order to clarify.

Forgiveness of other-self is forgiveness of self. An understanding of this insists upon full forgiveness upon the conscious level of self and other-self, for they are one. A full forgiveness is thus impossible without the inclusion of self.

Does this answer your question, my brother?

N: Yes, thank you.

Oxal: Is there another question at this time?

[Pause]

If there are no more questions, we would like to close through the one known as N. I am Oxal.

[Pause]

(N channeling)

I am Oxal. I greet you all once again in Love and Light. We feel it has been a great privilege this evening to be with you to answer some questions—some vocalized and some not. My friends, as we view lives and happenings on your planet, we notice some seek Love more than others; but in many, many cases the secret being to seek for a while the center more so—feel good, receive some knowledge, taste of oneness—and then become scattered, so to speak, and sidetracked, and then gradually come back to seriously seek again. It is a pattern which, as time goes on, the gaps between the seeking become shorter.

For those of you who have thoughts of oneness and love to surround you, even for a split second, you will never forget it. In that split second of [inaudible] is within you at all times. No matter how it may be covered up, eventually it will shine through. Before I leave you I shall send you a loving vibration with the intention that you may feel the vibration. I leave you now in Love and Light. I am Oxal.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am Nona, and I speak only to say hello and farewell. We come, my friends, in Love and Light. We surround you, and we reach out to you. At any time that you wish us, please ask for the Confederation. We are always there as your guides and all those who are messengers of the Creator. I am Nona. I bid you farewell and love. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning I went outside and used my trimmer to weed the Moss Garden. Then I used my backpack blower to blow the weeds out of the Moss Garden.

This afternoon I went outside and used the long limb lopper to cut off the tallest limbs of the hedge on the south side of the front yard. I filled two garbage cans with the limbs.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 5

Worthiness To Be Slain

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine Love.

This morning the instrument’s mind is full of questions of worthiness. “Worthy,” what does that mean?

In terms of the Spirit’s speaking to the peace and joy of those who may deem themselves unworthy, we may say that “worthy” means “ready to be slaughtered.” “Worthy is the Lamb that is Slain.” The worthiness is willingness to sacrifice.

Unworthiness is unwillingness to sacrifice on behalf of the Creator seen in others’ eyes. You are unworthy if you cannot be a sacrificial giver for those things which you see to be of God and of the work of God.

Other than this, thoughts of unworthiness have no place in the life of the disciple. Are you worthy to be slain today? To give sacrificially? To open yourself, that love may come through you?

If you have the humility to count yourself unworthy, then perhaps you have become worthy after all.

We leave you in the divine peace and Love of Jesus Christ, both now and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn channeling comes from July 5, 1979:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. It is a very great pleasure to greet each of you this evening, and we especially greet those who are new to this group and welcome you to our expression of Love for your people. We are aware that you are somewhat apprehensive, and thus we would like to pause at this time so that we may send you the energy that this instrument has called conditioning in order that you might feel more relaxed. We will pause at this time. I am Hatonn.

[Pause]

I am again with this instrument. We are grateful for your patience in deepening the contact. We now have good contact with this instrument and good harmony in the group.

This evening, we of the Confederation of Planets in Service to the Infinite Creator would like to share with you a little story which you may find interesting. There are many trees, my friends, but this is the story of only one tree. As a small seed it was carried in the clothing of a not particularly cleanly fellow for several years in the cuff of his trousers. It was dark, and the seed would have liked to have grown, but it could not; the environment was not correct. One day at the beach this small, winged seed fell from the cuff of the trousers of the man as he walked, and it lay there on the sand; and again it tried to grow, but it could not, for the conditions were not correct for its blossoming. And one day a wind picked up the seed and carried it far, far inland, blowing it on the winds of change; and over this the seed had no conscious control. When it landed it saw the sun and felt beneath itself the grass, and the rains came and watered the grass, and the seedling put forth its tiny roots.

With infinite patience and with an instinctual awareness that time fulfills its purposes harmoniously, the small seed became buried, put forth young shoots, dropped its leaves, and began the process of living. As it grew, it gave off oxygen to the air, being of service to those beings who breathed that sweet and healthy substance, who lived nearby. Its harvest was collected. And the beauty of the tree, the delicacy of it in the spring, and the beautiful richness of its colors in the autumn made many stop to envision the beauty of nature. We ask you to realize, my friends, that you do not have or should not have pride in your existence or your importance, for that which you are you are because of the winds of change working upon that which is instinctually yours. You, unlike the tree, my friends…

Hatonn wanted to share a story with this group about the seed of a tree. Hatonn began by saying this evening, we would like to share with you a story which you may find interesting, so there are many trees, but this is the story of one tree, and as a small seed it was carried in the clothing of a not particularly cleanly fellow for several years in the cuff of his trousers, and it was dark, and the seed would have liked to have grown, but it could not since the environment was not correct, so one day at the beach this small, winged seed fell from the cuff of the trousers of the man as he walked, and it lay there on the sand,  and again it tried to grow, but it could not, for the conditions were not correct for its blossoming, and one day a wind picked up the seed and carried it far inland, blowing it on the winds of change, and over this the seed had no conscious control, so when it landed it saw the sun and felt beneath itself the grass, and the rains came and watered the grass, and the seedling put forth its tiny roots. Then Hatonn said with patience and an instinctual awareness that time fulfills its purposes harmoniously, the small seed became buried, put forth young shoots, dropped its leaves, and began the process of living, so as it grew, it gave off oxygen to the air, being of service to those beings who breathed that healthy substance, who lived nearby, and its harvest was collected, and the delicacy of it in the spring, and the richness of its colors in the autumn made many stop to envision the beauty of nature, so we ask you to realize that you should not have pride in your importance, for that which you are you are because of the winds of change working upon that which is instinctually yours. On October 22, 1989, Q’uo spoke about how the winds of change work in our lives:

The difficulty for those within your culture is that people identify service to others with certain specific skills, which we would call dramatic skills, such as vocal channeling and healing. It is our opinion that each and every entity who has incarnated at this time upon the Earth has a beautiful, loving, and right service to perform, planned beforehand, planned in such a way that one may be continuously rocked and buffeted by the winds of change that accompany realization. This is true whether or not the service is the greatest service of all, that of knowing who you are, and of vibrating in that knowledge consciously, or of non-dramatic service.

[Telephone rings. Pause while the call is attended to.]

I am with this instrument. I am known to you as Hatonn. We are very sorry for the interruption. However, we felt the one known as Carla would desire to receive the call which was just received; and therefore, we helped her to let her chore of turning off the phone slip from her. Due to her absent-mindedness, we find this very easy to accomplish with this instrument. I will continue at this time.

As we were saying, my friends, you as beings of conscious volition over your destiny are unlike the tree, which has a destiny without free will. Its wisdom is given it freely, and it reaches for the sun and is of service to the creation without hesitation or doubt. Those of you who enjoy the density which you call Earth and are subject to the emotions and the difficulties of free will are aware that, in many cases, you cannot intellectually know that part of yourself which is the sum of all that you are. You are surrounded by a dense chemical illusion in which your true identity is rather well buried. But you are quite unique, each of you. There is no, shall we say, tree like unto you. And the winds that blow forever changeably must blow each of you to a different spot before it is the proper time for you to grow and come into your own as conscious servers of the creation.

You may think that you do not have the capacity as people to blossom and be of great use to each other; but I say unto you, my friends, it is as instinctual for you to turn towards the Light and Love of the Creator as it is for the tree. It is simply less easy for you to penetrate the busyness of your daily lives, the limitations and apparent difficulties and find within yourselves that seed which is very simple; that seed is that part of you which is a unique vibration of Love. In order to reach that part of yourself, we believe that a good method—and surely the quickest method available to you—is daily meditation. Among your people this is considered a difficult thing to achieve, for there is, shall we say, no time. May we ask you, my friends, to make the time.

Then Hatonn said as we were saying to you, as beings of conscious preference over your destiny, are unlike the tree which has a destiny without free will, for its wisdom is given it freely, and it reaches for the sun and is of service to the creation without hesitation, so those of you who enjoy the density of Earth and are subject to the emotions and the difficulties of free will are aware that you cannot know that part of yourself which is the sum of all that you are because you are surrounded by a chemical illusion in which your true identity is well buried, but you are unique, and there is no tree like you, so the winds that blow forever changeably must blow each of you to a different spot before it is the proper time for you to grow and come into your own as conscious servers of the creation. Hatonn went on to say you may think that you do not have the capacity as people to blossom and be of use to each other, but I say to you it is as instinctual for you to turn towards the Light and Love of the Creator as it is for the tree, but it is less easy for you to penetrate the busyness of your daily lives and find within yourselves that seed which is simple, that seed that is that part of you which is a unique vibration of Love, for in order to reach that part of yourself, we believe that the quickest method available to you is daily meditation, but among your people this is considered a difficult thing to achieve, for there is no time, so we ask you to make the time. On November 18, 2001, Q’uo spoke of how we each have a unique way of sharing the vibration of Love:

However, any seeker may simply share the quality of being which each has as a basic vibration, as distinct as one’s fingerprint or voiceprint. For each of you resonates and vibrates in a certain fashion according to the nature of how you seek, of what you seek. And as you are able to communicate that very basic quality of your efforts to another, you share from heart to heart that which is of most importance. Each of you vibrates in a certain fashion the harmonics of love, for from love was each made. If one is able, through the process of seeking, to discover this basic vibration of Love, then there is no greater gift that one may share with another.

If you knew that there was a reward for an action a million times greater than that of money, or power, or sensual pleasure, would you not indeed then pursue a course of action in that general direction? Yet, this is what we say to your people. We ask them to awaken from their journey through power, and money, and the buffeting of the senses by good and bad feelings. And we ask them to take conscious control of that journey by realizing that they cannot direct their lives but only their selves—their inward and substantial selves—to not give a thought to where you are or to what conditions you may be in. From this point, my friends, seek the one simple truth of the Creator: your identity.

Then Hatonn said if you knew that there was a reward for an action a million times greater than that of money or power would you not then pursue a course of action in that general direction? Yet, this is what we say to your people, for we ask them to awaken from their journey through power and the buffeting of the senses by good and bad feelings, so we ask them to take control of that journey by realizing that they cannot direct their lives but only their inward and substantial selves, and not to give a thought to where you are or to what conditions you may be in, and from this point seek the one truth of the Creator: your identity. On November 5, 1981, Hatonn described the nature of our identity:

At this time, we feel the need to share with you the thought of your identity. This identity is very easily lost, for you are strangers in a strange land, as this instrument would put it, dealing with many foolish and petty occasions, words, and thoughts generated by yourself for your learning and by those about you for their learning. This is a confusing density, we can make no bones about it. It is a difficult one in which to remember your identity. And the Light within you marks you as the Creator’s own. No circumstance, no thought, no behavior, no error, no difficulty, no limitation can remove this mark from your very being and you rest in the arms of the Creator. There is no moment in eternity when this is not so.

The illusion is strong and ofttimes dark, my friends. But there is a light within you, and you are the Creator’s own. You shall never be forgotten. You shall never be lost. For all who seek begin to intensify that Light more and more. As your Light becomes brighter, so shall you begin to light the way of others and so may it go. Perhaps you cannot see your light. Many do not. Others will tell you. Trust no words, no thoughts, no behavior in yourself or others, but be grounded in the knowledge of your birthright, of your identity in the Light. Call upon it, speak to it and never fear that you shall be lost from it.

At this point I would like to transfer this contact to the one known as T. I am Hatonn.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am again with this instrument. We thank you for your patience, and we thank the one known as T for the opportunity to work with him. When an instrument has not practiced for some time, it is sometimes a little while before this type of service becomes easy again.

At this time I would like to open the meeting to questions.

[Pause]

H: I have a question. I keep reading in the literature—metaphysical literature, psychic literature—that there are seven levels, seven states of consciousness, seven heavens, or something of this sort. Is this a valid concept?

We are aware of the question. I am Hatonn. You are no doubt familiar with the concept of quantum mechanics and also with the octave which you may find on any piano. There are in a major scale, as this instrument would put it, seven different notes, having a relationship to each other which is pleasant. And then there is an octave. In that octave there is an identity, top note with bottom and the tonality begins again. Thus it is with quanta, where you have just so much occurring within a quantum; and then there is a leap, shall we say, to another set of configurations. There has often been in your culture the term “seventh heaven” heard, and it is only one of many popular beliefs that there is not only a heaven but that there are various heavens for those who have done various things. Your rather primitive Christian dogma would limit one’s heavens to two—one good and one bad—with a rather neutral zone in between for those who have not yet decided whether to be bad or good. This is not accurate.

There are, indeed, seven levels within the realm within the next dimension or quantum—from you. This plane has been called by Theosophists the astral plane. Beyond that quantum there is a further octave of seven, and that plane is sometimes called the devachanic. Beyond that plane there is another octave of seven, which is sometimes called spiritual by your people. Beyond that plane few among your people who are incarnate upon your planet have traveled. There are an infinite number of octaves in the heavenly music. The number seven, however, is the number of completeness, for that is, shall we say, the scale of vibrations within each quantum.

H asked: “I keep reading in the literature—metaphysical literature, psychic literature—that there are seven levels, seven states of consciousness, seven heavens, or something of this sort. Is this a valid concept?” Now Hatonn said you are no doubt familiar with the concept of quantum mechanics and also with the octave which you may find on any piano, for there are in a major scale, as Carla would put it, seven different notes, having a relationship to each other which is pleasant, and then there is an octave, and in that octave there is an identity, top note with bottom note and the tonality begins again, so it is with quanta, where you have just so much occurring within a quantum, and then there is a leap to another set of configurations, for there has often been in your culture the term “seventh heaven” heard, and it is only one of many popular beliefs that there is not only a heaven but that there are various heavens for those who have done various things, so your primitive Christian dogma would limit one’s heavens to two—one good and one bad—with a rather neutral zone in between for those who have not yet decided whether to be bad or good, but this is not accurate. Then Hatonn said there are seven levels within the realm within the next dimension or quantum from you, and this plane has been called by Theosophists the astral plane, and beyond that quantum there is a further octave of seven, and that plane is sometimes called the devachanic, and beyond that plane there is another octave of seven, which is sometimes called spiritual by your people, but beyond that plane few among your people who are incarnate upon your planet have traveled, so there are an infinite number of octaves in the heavenly music, but the number seven is the number of completeness, for that is the scale of vibrations within each quantum. On October 11, 2004, Q’uo defined the nature of a quantum:

The concept of a quantum, is a concept of, say, a semester in school, or a unit of something that, once that is done, it is done, and one goes on to what one must go on to another quantum in order to continue. In quantum physics, the quantum is as the universe, and it can be filled with just so many items and then that is the complete amount that can fit into that quantum. In your terms we would probably move more through the meaning of a semester that has been completed. The amount of learning which you have gone through, up to this point, has given you more and more and more detail. And as you move into your next field of study, there will be much more detail. We would suggest that what happens is that, as detail after detail after detail is added, there comes a crucial time when, just as in a super-saturated solution, more and more is added to the water. Suddenly, the solution goes away, and a crystal appears, and this is what you are in the process of achieving in terms of your study. The result of this study will be not that you will lose the detail, precisely, but that it will have a certain pattern. It will have a certain crystalline arrangement where it all makes sense, to a certain degree. It is another way of saying that you are not filling in the blanks in a puzzle, you are putting in your information to make a crystal, and that crystal will be a simplified, central structure of awareness.

Does this answer your question, my brother?

H: Yes, thank you—except I would like to know now in which octave or in which level of an octave are you?

Hatonn: Well, we are speaking only for ourselves, for we are only one of over 500 civilizations which take part in this operation concerning planet Earth, the planet of sadness, at this time. We, ourselves, vibrate within the fouth octave. You vibrate within the third. There are many in the Confederation which vibrate in the sixth, and some in the fourth. We have three among our number who, though vibrating in the third dimension, have done so in such harmony that they are able to aid us in spite of the gross physical illusion that they are experiencing and are able to aid us by thought. So, you see, my friends, your condition is not hopeless. Your bodies do not pin you down as specimens pinned under a glass table. It is your minds that imprison you by accepting the illusion. We ask you, therefore, to open your minds to the freedom of realizing that there are infinite illusions, and that your imagination has the freedom and the right to play among them as it will.

H: Well, what did the Apostle Paul mean when he said he was caught up to the third heaven?

Hatonn: The octave directly above you is the fourth and is called by the one whom you call Paul, the apostle, the spiritual kingdom. There are seven levels to this kingdom and, as we have said, its modern or Theosophical term is astral. In this heavenly universe, that which is not apparent while you are in the physical body—namely, the reality of thought and the illusion of matter—become obvious. Thus, as Paul was caught up—depending on his vibration—into the matching portion of the spiritual kingdom, he was able to do that which in his physical body he desired to do most to do, which was to worship and praise the Creator.

Does this answer your question?

H: Yes, except I have one more. If we are in the third octave, what are the two octaves below us?

Hatonn: As you are well aware, when you have your television set upon channel 3, you cannot see channel 2. Thus, we cannot show you the first and second octaves of existence, except to say to you that in comparison to them yours is a much more interesting and beneficial octave—the second octave of existence being two-dimensional, shall we say, and the first existing as the birthplace or point from which the great cycle of being begins.

H: That’s all for now. Thank you very much. I’ll leave it to others.

Hatonn: As you know, it is always we who are the thankers, for to share our thoughts with you is our only desire. Is there another question at this time?

Questioner: Yes, I have a question about reincarnation. Why is it, when we do not know anything about our former lives, and how, if we do not know these things, can we change direction? We do not know what took place before; we do not know what we have to learn and what we have experienced. So how can we… We are chasing around in the dark without knowing what it’s all about. Why are these lives not known to us? Why is there not some light turned on these things?

Hatonn: We will attempt to explain to you the reason for a lack of memory of past experiences. Though it is not an easy concept, you must realize that you are not helpless but are, instead, a person of free will with the opportunity to meditate and to seek the kernel of Love that lies within you at this time. In previous existences, the experiences that you have had have generated within you certain biases. Thus, some people are born with native love, and others without it; some with native goodness, and others without it; some with great native intelligence, others with very little; some with great talent, others who seem quite ordinary. These biases form the personality which you bring into this world. But other than that, you have the opportunity to begin wherever you are and become a loving being. This is the only test upon your level.

If you knew all that you have done before, your mind would be attempting to carry you through all of the lessons you had learned before. This is too much for the mind to deal with. It is enough that you have this incarnation to deal with. The fruits of former incarnations dwell within your spirit. Again, we go back to meditation. If you have a difficult relationship or a difficult concept to conquer, meditate and request that Light be given to you upon this subject. When you can say, “I have no past, and I have no future, but at this moment I hate no person. I love all beings and all those with whom I may have any score to settle, those things I have settled with,” at this point you are beginning to be able to pass the great test of this vibration.

Questioner asked: “I have a question about reincarnation. Why is it, when we do not know anything about our former lives, and how, if we do not know these things, can we change direction? We do not know what took place before; we do not know what we have to learn and what we have experienced. So how can we… We are chasing around in the dark without knowing what it’s all about. Why are these lives not known to us? Why is there not some light turned on these things?” Now Hatonn said that we will attempt to explain the reason for a lack of memory of past experiences, but it is not an easy concept, and you must realize that you are not helpless but are a person of free will with the opportunity to meditate and to seek the kernel of Love that lies within you at this time, so in previous existences, the experiences that you had have generated certain biases, so some people are born with native love, and others without it; some with native goodness, and others without it; some with great talent, others who seem quite ordinary, for these biases form the personality which you bring into this world, but other than that, you have the opportunity to begin wherever you are and become a loving being, for this is the only test upon your level. Then Hatonn went on to say if you knew all that you have done before, your mind would be attempting to carry you through all of the lessons you had learned before, but this is too much for the mind to deal with, for it is enough that you have this incarnation to deal with, and the fruits of former incarnations dwell within your spirit, so we go back to meditation, so if you have a difficult relationship or a difficult concept to conquer, meditate and request that Light be given to you upon this subject, and when you can say: “I have no past, and I have no future, but at this moment I hate no person. I love all beings and all those with whom I may have any score to settle, those things I have settled with,” for at this point you are beginning to be able to pass the great test of this vibration. On November 21, 2015, Q’uo described the great test we all will take one day:

It is the great test of your planet’s population at this time that one may liken to the final examination which many undergo within your educational system at the end of the school year. This, my friends, is the great examination of the heart; whether it can be opened to those who are called strangers, to those some would call dangers; whether it can be seen that—indeed, as the tuning song played before this session began—is God truly one of us? Is the Creator somewhere observing all of this occurring, or is the Creator here amongst you, within you, experiencing all that you feel, see, and imagine?

My friends, we believe you know the answer to this question. Indeed, the Creator is within all. All entities upon this planet are expressions of the One Infinite Creator that has taken this opportunity to give freedom of will to each of its portions so that lessons may be expressed and learned, and the fruits of the learning of experience may be offered to the Creator as a means by which it may know Itself in ways that would not be possible without free will being exercised in the manner in which it is now being exercised.

The test is a difficult one, and it is to show love in the darkness when you seem to be by yourself, not knowing that, in reality, those who love you on other planes of existence are all about you. Those who love you in this life but cannot speak are, without words, supporting you. All these things you cannot know; but, above all, you cannot know by mind alone that which must be given to you by direct intuition of the truth—the one simple truth, my friends, that we are all one, and that we must love one another. Many of your masters have spoken to you of this, and we can only repeat it. It is the only lesson worth learning. Past lifetimes? They are a kaleidoscope; they are you. But so are your future lifetimes. Imagine yourself as part of a great circle where consciousness dwells within this part of it at this time. But all that you must do at this time is meditate and seek the Love of the Creator. And then, when you have it, send it forth. As we have said, this is not an easy concept.

Hatonn went on to say the test is a difficult one, and it is to show Love in the darkness when you seem to be by yourself, not knowing that those who Love you on other planes of existence are all about you, so those who love you in this life but cannot speak are, without words, supporting you, but all these things you cannot know, and you cannot know by mind alone that which must be given to you by direct intuition of the truth, the one truth that we are all one, and that we must love one another, for many of your masters have spoken to you of this, and we can only repeat it because it is the only lesson worth learning for past lifetimes are mirrors, and they are you, but so are your future lifetimes, so imagine yourself as part of a great circle where consciousness dwells within this part of it at this time, so  all that you must do at this time is meditate and seek the Love of the Creator, and then, when you have it, send it forth, for as we said, this is not an easy concept. On July 5, 1981, Hatonn suggested that we seek the Love of the Creator:

My sister, we would answer you by saying that to seek the Love of the infinite Creator in each moment of your life is the greatest service and the greatest learning that can be accomplished upon your plane, for it is the lesson of this dimension to discover the Love of the Creator within all that is experienced within the self, within the life, within the family, within the community, within each activity, each experience and there is, shall we say, an infinite amount of time to discover this Love.

Does this, in any way, begin to answer your question?

Questioner: Yes, thank you.

Hatonn: We thank you. Is there another question at this time?

[Pause]

If there are no more questions that you wish to ask at this time, I would like to attempt to close this meeting through the one known as E. I am Hatonn.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am again with this instrument. We had good contact with the one known as E, but she is very fatigued, and we feel that it is not, at this time, a good idea to use her. Therefore, we shall close through this instrument. As you know, we are with you at any time that you may request our presence. We ask that you listen to the words of this channel with great discrimination, for we are not much wiser than you—but only a little. We ask that you take what you need.

And we thank you for allowing us to Love each of you, for it is only by Loving you that we can express our Love of the infinite Creator. I leave you in the Creator’s Love, Light. I am known to you as Hatonn. It is my privilege to be with this group. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning I went on an errand run with my first stop at Bachman Subaru to pick up some 5W30 oil for Stanley as Stanley has been leaking oil somehow these last few days as the dip stick revealed yesterday afternoon. My second stop was at the post office to mail a birthday card to a friend in Nashville. My third stop was at Johnstone Supply to pick up a case of filters for my furnace.

This afternoon I used my seed spreader to spread six bags of grass seed in the front, side, and back yards.

From The Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 4

The Deep Ache For Love

I am of the Spirit of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of that divine Love.

The branches of intellect seem to many to be those holding the most fruit. And, indeed, that vine of connected thoughts grows sturdily and well in the environment of the everyday world. Yet the Spirit of Love is most often found within the homelier, seemingly mundane details of work and play.

How do you apprehend the Love of the living God? With your thoughts? With your heart? Or with an ache so profound that it can be said to come from the roots of being? In this deep ache lies the yearning of Love for Love, for each of you is divine, the son or daughter of the living God. May you seek well and without pride for words or deeds but with that divine growing hunger of Love for itself.

We leave you in changeless peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn channeling came from June 10, 1979:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. My brothers and sisters have been silent, for we realized that it was desired that a silent meditation be part of this evening’s meeting. We greet each of you and thank you, as always, for the privilege of speaking with you.

There are those among your people who are quite concerned at this time as to who we are. It is our fervent wish that your people would be more concerned as to who they are. As we look upon your people, we find half of your population in great hunger and want. We find the other half reeling in the over-abundance of material supplies. Those who are hungry are angry. Those who are over-supplied are defensive. And the great chain of Love which should unite you all is continually broken by your failure to understand who you are. We do not know what to do with your people. We continue as we do, speaking with those of you who are on this path, knowing that our words go forth in Love, but we are powerless to affect or change the destiny of mankind at the end of this cycle and the beginning of the new one. Only you, my friends, can spread the message of Love—the simple message of unity which is our understanding of the truth and in support of which we have come to lend our voices at this time.

It is written in your holy works, “Create in me a new heart and make a right spirit within me.” It is one of this instrument’s favorite prayers which she will repeat to herself very often. And we share it with you out of her mind at this time, because our message to you this evening is that you cannot deal with your culture, with your surroundings, with your life as it is, with the old heart, with the old spirit, with the human frailties. No, my friends. As if they were skins, you must shed them and allow a transformation to take place within you, which can only take place within the purified atmosphere of meditation in which there is created within you a newness of being, in which you are an instrument for the will of Love. We could say the will of God, but, my friends, the culture in which you live does not do well by its God. The master known as Jesus gave you a God of Love, but your people insist upon remembering that this is the God of judgment in your history. You, my friends, are the God of judgment for yourselves., You, and no other judge, will judge yourself. You, and no other judge, will see that which is needed by the soul, which is yourself. And you will see that it is done, so that you may grow according to your needs.

Hatonn wanted to share with this group the nature of their being. Hatonn began by saying there are those among your people who are concerned as to who we are, but it is our wish that your people would be more concerned as to who they are, for as we look upon your people, we find half of your population in hunger and want, and the other half in over-abundance of material supplies, and those who are hungry are angry, but those who are over-supplied are defensive, so the chain of Love which should unite you all is broken by your failure to understand who you are, so we do not know what to do with your people, but we continue speaking with those of you who are on this path, knowing that our words go forth in Love, but we are powerless to change the destiny of humankind at the end of this cycle and the beginning of the new one because only you can spread the message of Love, the message of unity which is our understanding of the truth and in support of which we have come to lend our voices at this time. Then Hatonn said it is written in your holy works, “Create in me a new heart and make a right spirit within me,” and it is one of Carla’s favorite prayers which she will repeat to herself very often, and we share it with you out of her mind at this time, because our message to you this evening is that you cannot deal with your life as it is, with the old heart, the old spirit, and the human frailties, so as if they were skins, you must shed them and allow a transformation to take place within you, which can only take place within the atmosphere of meditation in which you are an instrument for the will of Love, and we could say the will of God, but the culture in which you live does not do well by its God, for the master Jesus gave you a God of Love, but your people insist upon remembering that this is the God of judgment in your history, so you are the God of judgment for yourselves, and you, and no other judge, will see that which is needed by yourself, and you will see that it is done, so that you may grow according to your needs. On August 4, 1985, Latwii spoke of the nature of our transformations:

Thus, the process of seeking becomes more consciously undertaken, and an entity may then determine that a certain action or attitude is more appropriate at this time than the one which it had been utilizing, and the choice may be made to seek a transformation. The entity always has the opportunity for transformation, for such milestones are placed periodically throughout each incarnation. Yet one who seeks in a more conscious fashion may not only utilize those milestones so placed and utilize them more effectively, but may choose additional milestones or challenges, shall we say.

The transformation that you may feel in meditation is all that can, at this point, harmonize your inharmonious planet. There are those in our group that would leave you at this time, for we are no longer in a position to warn you; events themselves are warning you. Many things that have been prophesied are occurring, and it is not necessary for us to speak to you of these things any more. We would scarcely be prophets at this time were we to tell you that you are at the end of a cycle when your scientists are telling you. We bow to your scientists and move on to more important matters. Create in yourselves, my friends, a new heart And the right spirit within you. Find the peace that accompanies the expanded view of life which you may take as a transformed soul whose horizons have been consciously widened so that the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator may be seen in every corner, in every task, in every person.

Hatonn went on to say the transformation that you may feel in meditation is all that can harmonize your inharmonious planet, and there are those in our group that would leave you at this time, for we are no longer in a position to warn you, for events themselves are warning you, so many things that have been prophesied are occurring, and it is not necessary for us to speak to you of these things any more, for we would scarcely be prophets at this time were we to tell you that you are at the end of a cycle when your scientists are telling you, so we bow to your scientists and move on to more important matters, so create in yourselves a new heart and the right spirit within you, and find the peace that accompanies the expanded view of life which you may take as a transformed soul whose horizons have been consciously widened so that the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator may be seen in every person. On October 31, 1976, Hatonn said that we are at the end of a cycle:

It is especially important that we share this knowledge with you at this time. For you see, my friends, the reason that your people are so anxious at this time to discover the purpose of their existence is that at this time your planetary sphere is marking the end of a cycle of existence. And it will be necessary for your people to, shall we say, take a cosmic examination. And those who pass will go on to the next level, and they enter the next lesson. Those who do not pass this examination, will have to repeat this so-called Earthly grade once again.

I would at this time attempt to transfer this message to another instrument. I am Hatonn.

[Pause]

I am again with this instrument. I am Hatonn. The conditions are very good this evening, and we are attempting to communicate through the one known as Don. If he would relax and accept our contact, we would desire to speak a few words through him. I am Hatonn.

[Pause]

(Don channeling)

I am Hatonn, [inaudible]. It is a privilege to be with this instrument. I have not done so for some time. [Inaudible]. I was speaking of the development of your people of the planet Earth. Unfortunately, development of the general population of your planet has been very slow. It seems it is very difficult for them to become aware of the true nature of creation.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am again with this instrument. I am Hatonn. We are having good contact with the one known as Don. However, he is somewhat out of practice with our contact and, therefore, is analyzing our message and thus is unable to continue. We will, however, make one more try at exercising this channel, for we do wish to speak through him at this time. I am Hatonn.

[Pause]

(Don channeling)

I am again with this instrument, speaking through him in order to thrust him into my contact. It is somewhat difficult at this time for the instrument to regain the fluidity of contact after a period of [inaudible]. He does not practice the technique. I am at this time going to attempt to continue the communication.

It is unfortunate that the people of your planet take so long in becoming aware of the true nature of creation. Everything has been provided upon this planet for them… in order for them to become independently aware of the true nature of the creation. The process… the necessary process must occur within an illusion such as yours. This satisfaction is completed. It’s impossible for the individual to progress past that point. As I said, unfortunately a large percentage of the population of your planet at this time has made no progress past that point and is, indeed, not to the point of becoming aware of what I would call their situation in time and space. And they concluded… [inaudible]… nothing else is provided… [inaudible].

It is definite. The greatest mystery is unfolded before you in a never-ending array. Clearly [inaudible]… people think… they miss the point for the most part. A smaller percentage is discovering [inaudible]. A larger percentage is still ignoring it. The real self-disciplined does notice the clues and has done something about them. I have several suggestions: first, become very active in the application of the knowledge you have received about the mechanics of creation. This is a necessity… [inaudible]… be made. Only when this is done can, shall we say, more evidence be provided—the type of evidence that leads closer and closer to a total understanding of that which is true.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am with this instrument. I am Hatonn. I shall continue through this instrument. As we were saying, there are suggestions for those who wish to follow the path taken by those who have noticed the clues given them by the Creator. The second suggestion is that it is very productive to maintain a community of those who wish to follow this discipline together by means of meetings such as yours in as intensive a manner as you can comfortably and willingly fit into your schedules of work and activities. One candle alone gives off great light in a dark universe, but the power of several of these candles is much greater than the added power. It is multiplied many times, my friends. Therefore, whenever you can, meditate in groups, speak in groups, work in groups along the lines which you feel to be important.

The word “family” has different meanings among different cultures, but you may think of those who are on the path of seeking as a family. And when you have gone down that path together, washed yourself clean in meditation together, and worked to the limit of your ability to help your fellow friends, using the knowledge which you have gained together, then you are by far a closer family than can ever be made simply by means of legal and blood relationships. Thirdly, we would suggest an overriding sense of beauty. We suggest this to you because we feel that it will aid you, even if you are not with a group at the time in which you need help. If you could look about you, the world of the Creator would give you beauty each and every time you look.

Hatonn said that there are suggestions for those who wish to follow the path taken by those who have noticed the clues given them by the Creator, and the second suggestion is that it is productive to maintain a community of those who wish to follow this discipline together by means of meetings such as yours in as intensive a manner as you can comfortably fit into your schedules of activities, for one candle alone gives off light in a dark universe, but the power of several candles is greater than the added power as it is multiplied many times, so whenever you can, meditate in groups and work in groups along the lines which you feel to be important. Hatonn continued by saying the word “family” has different meanings among different cultures, and when you have washed yourself clean in meditation together, and worked to the limit of your ability to help your fellow friends, using the knowledge which you have gained together, then you are a closer family than can be made by means of legal and blood relationships, and thirdly, we would suggest an overriding sense of beauty because we feel that it will aid you, even if you are not with a group at the time in which you need help, so if you could look about you, the world of the Creator would give you beauty each and every time you look. On June 20, 1993, Q’uo described the world of the Creator:

This seeking for some way to intensify the offering of love to the infinite One has a long history among your people. There are those in every generation who seek to wear the hair shirt next to the skin, to make this creation uncomfortable in as many ways as possible so that joy will be found not in this world but in the Creator only and the world of the Creator which is not here. There are many seekers who instinctively attempt to find the hardest jobs, the most difficult and intractable people to befriend, all for the sake of the infinite One. To those who find this an expression of their true nature we say go and do that which is natural to you for the path to the infinite Love and infinite Light in its purest manifestation within your illusion is that path which has attained most purely a realization of the natural self within.

There is no intrinsic value either in ease or in discomfort. There is no special learning in arbitrarily choosing the more difficult or the more easy paths. What the seeker is attempting to do is to attain the inner vibration, which is most natural and true, which most expresses the core of the self, the heart of that which is infinite and everlasting.

Fourthly, we ask you, as always, to maintain that level of detachment which ensures that you are as able to laugh at the comedy of life as it applies to yourself, as you are able to laugh at the comedy of life as it applies to others. This detachment is a divine sense of humor which will lead you to a knowledge of the oneness of the universe. As you make your errors, so may you laugh and say, “There also am I.” Thus, when you see the same error in others, you may nod and say again, “There also am I.” Thus, we ask you to practice and share what you know, to constantly rejoin and refresh the inspiration that drives you forward by meeting with those of your own beliefs and past. We ask you to see beauty. We ask you to be detached from the folly of existence. These things we would suggest at this time.

Now Hatonn said fourthly, we ask you to maintain that level of detachment which ensures that you are as able to laugh at the comedy of life as it applies to yourself and to others, for this detachment is a divine sense of humor which will lead you to a knowledge of the oneness of the universe, so as you make your errors you may laugh and say, “There also am I,” and when you see the same error in others, you may nod and say again, “There also am I,” so we ask you to practice and share what you know, to constantly refresh the inspiration that drives you forward by meeting with those of your own beliefs, and we ask you to see beauty and to be detached from the folly of existence. On December 16, 1990, Q’uo described the value of a sense of humor:

That which your people call the sense of humor is, indeed, most helpful to any entity, no matter the position upon the path, or the placement within the life pattern. We see that which you call the sense of humor as being a sense of proportion where an entity is able to gain enough experience within the life that one may see a broader view. One stands upon a somewhat more elevated position, building experience upon experience, until that which you call wisdom is begun.

We would leave this instrument for a short time, for there is a Confederation member who has not been with us for some time, but they have been requested. And so, we will turn this meeting over to them. I am Hatonn.

[Pause]

I am Telonn, and I come to wish you Love and Light. I will work with you only for a very short time this evening, for I realize that you are somewhat fatigued. Let us then, my friends, remove ourselves from the heavy physical shell in which we now reside and imagine a pure, brilliant, white glow in the center of the circle in which you now sit. It pulls you towards it, and in your spiritual body you enter it and become one.

[Pause]

I am Telonn, messenger of Light. As you travel back to your body, I leave you. And yet I am always with you, and it is hoped by us that our vibration is of help to those who are in pain or are distraught mentally, for we are those of Light. I will leave you now.

I am Telonn. Adonai.

[Pause]

I am Hatonn. I am with this instrument. We are attempting to lighten the contact with this instrument, for it is in very good condition this evening, and we are sending too strongly for the needs of this instrument. We have adjusted now to this instrument. We will only pause to open the meeting for questions at this time.

[Pause]

If there are no questions we will close. And at this time, we would attempt to contact the one known as T, an instrument whom we have not used for some time. If he would appreciate our contact at this time, we would close this meeting through him. I am Hatonn.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am again with this instrument. We thank the one known as T for the opportunity to condition him. However, we find reservations in his mind at this time and, therefore, would wish to close through this channel. As you know, we are here in Love. We know, my friends, that you are here in Love. Attempt, we ask you, to remove from your consciousness the over-mechanization of your culture, which seems to make so many things dead, and know that all things are alive, that the universe speaks with a single harmonious chord, and that each of you is an infinitely beautiful and perfect part of that chord, without which the universe would not be complete. Vibrate as yourselves, my friends. You can do no more good than that. And love one another. I leave you in the Love and Light of the infinite Creator. I am known to you as Hatonn. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning I ran a couple of errands. My first stop was at Speedway where I filled Stanley’s tank with premium gasoline. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 3

The Gift Of Peace

I am the most sacred Spirit of the consciousness of Jesus the Christ, and I join you in the consciousness of divine Love.

This instrument has prayed, “Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace.” The early morning brings a sunrise; the noonday, great Light; the evening, the myriad colored rainbows of sunset, and at midnight, a carpet of stars is sprinkled upon the great ground of the sky.

In all of these conditions there is peace. In all conditions of the life that you experience now there is peace. Seek first, in the sunrises, the noons, the sunsets and the midnights of your heart, to feel the sweetly wrapped gift of peace given silently.

This present dwells within each of you. The varieties of life, Light and experience merely embrace the various environments, the diverse parties with which you may share such a precious gift through smiles and laughter and gentle silences with those who greet you.

We leave you in peace, both now and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Latwii session today comes from May 20, 1979:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in the Love and the Light of the One Who is All. It is a great pleasure to be here this evening, and, as always, we greet each of you with much appreciation and [inaudible].

This evening I would tell you a story about a man who was not an ordinary man, but rather a very uncommon one, for within him from childhood was the burning desire to know the Love of the Creator. In his youth this man read widely, feeling extremely frustrated because no one could speak with him deeply enough on the subjects in which he was interested. He found theology a great puzzle, a great confusion of ideas, and wending his way through it was something he did with a burning desire to know the Love of the Creator. He did not find it in his books, but he pressed on. He went into what you would call a seminary, and when he graduated, he became a minister, preaching the word of his Creator to his flock.

Through the years he listened with interest to the many problems of those who came to his church, drawn by the brilliance of his reasoning and the eloquence of his preaching. And yet, he did not find the Love of the Creator. In time he met and married a woman who gave him children. He spent very little time with them because of his duties but was loved greatly and supported tremendously in his work by a wife who understood much and gave of herself unstintingly in his behalf. Nor, yet, did he find the Love of the Creator he sought. And one day as he walked down the path from the rectory of his church he met a boy that reminded him of himself at a younger age, for now, you see, he was quite old. And falling into conversation with the young man they continued on to the rectory, and he continued his conversation. All of a sudden, something occurred that had never yet occurred in the old man’s life. In this stranger’s unlined face, and, burning to know the Love of the Creator, the old man saw a person to love; and at the moment he gave his heart to this young man, as a father to a son, he felt the Love of God. This wanderer was never seen by the old man again, for he was on his own journey. The old man fell in love, first with one person, and finally with all mankind. What had blocked the Love of the Creator that he so earnestly sought for a lifetime? We say to you, my friends, that you must love yourself. Not because your personality has any virtue or because your ego, as you call it, needs shoring up by means of a self-indulgent love. No, my friends, we are speaking of a Love that is one with the Creator.

Hatonn wanted to tell a story to the group. They began by saying I would tell you a story about a man who was not an ordinary man, but rather an uncommon one, for within him from childhood was the burning desire to know the Love of the Creator, and in his youth this man read widely, feeling frustrated because no one could speak with him deeply enough on the subjects in which he was interested, and he found theology a puzzle, and wending his way through it was something he did with a burning desire to know the Love of the Creator, but he did not find it in books, but he pressed on, so he went into a seminary, and when he graduated he became a minister, preaching the word of his Creator to his flock. Now Hatonn said through the years he listened to the problems of those who came to his church, drawn by the brilliance of his reasoning and the eloquence of his preaching, yet, he did not find the Love of the Creator, so in time he met and married a woman who gave him children, but he spent little time with them because of his duties but was loved and supported in his work by a wife who understood much and gave of herself unstintingly in his behalf, yet he did not find the Love of the Creator he sought, and one day as he walked down the path from the rectory of his church he met a boy that reminded him of himself at a younger age, for now he was quite old, and falling into conversation with the young man they continued on to the rectory, and he continued his conversation, and all of a sudden something occurred that had never yet occurred in the old man’s life. In this stranger’s unlined face, and, burning to know the Love of the Creator, the old man saw a person to love, and at the moment he gave his heart to this young man, as a father to a son, he felt the Love of God, so this wanderer was never seen by the old man again, for he was on his own journey, so the old man fell in love, first with one person, and finally with all mankind, so we say to you that you must love yourself. Not because your personality has any virtue or because your ego needs shoring up by means of a self-indulgent love, but no, for we are speaking of a Love that is one with the Creator. On October 21, 1990, Q’uo said that we must learn to love ourself:

The discipline of the personality is the greatest tool for coming to understand and to forgive the 360 degree self, to acknowledge and love that self, that self that must be loved. This is a key that many miss. You must love yourself; you must forgive yourself for the thoughts that you have thought, the errors that you have made, those things you wish you had done but did not. Subjectively, you feel that these make you unworthy. You could be anything about you that you choose not to like about yourself, and to that extent you fail to love the Creator, the creation, in all of its love, all of its Christ, all of its holiness.

Where is the Creator, my friends? Can you touch the Creator? In your senses, those things which are not seen are not understood. Yet, so it has been always. Had you all been blind you would have thought very differently. But we ask you, my friends, where is the Creator? Is the Creator outside of the world as you know it? Is the Creator unknowable in any way? If so, why would we seek to find the Creator? My friends, the Creator is in your brothers and your sisters and yourself. Closer to you than your breath, more available to you than reasoning, more heartening to you than your dreams. That which is beyond doing and dreaming is Love itself.

It has been written in your holy works that a man who is kind to another is not kind to a man but to the Creator. You cannot be kind to a Creator that is invisible, infinite, untouchable, unknowable; but you can be kind to those about you. You can allow yourself to be a channel for Love, whatever your circumstance. Sometimes the circumstances you face are so difficult that you may wonder if there is such a thing as love. And if there is love, is it given equally to all? If it has a plan is it, shall we say, just? But we say to you that, as far as we know, the Creator has a plan that has been worked out between Love itself and that higher part of yourself which you call your spirit. In meditation you become able to communicate intuitively with that part of the creation that is a combination of the finite and the infinite; in this junction lies the plan. Whatever difficulties you may be having, they can be met with Love; and the more deeply committed that you are to finding, feeling and freely giving to others the Love that is in every situation, the more quickly you will become what you might call a conscious being, controlling your destiny, improving the harmony, aiding the vibration of your life. You cannot possess the Creator. You cannot possess yourself. You possess only one thing: consciousness, and you possess it in common with all that there is. That which created this consciousness is Love. Thus, we ask you, allow Love to flow through you. Not your love but the Love of the Creator, for yours will run dry very quickly, and you will find it reflected all about you. People, themselves, are reflections of you. Allow this reflection to be one of Love.

Latwii went on to say where is the Creator, and can you touch the Creator? In your senses, those things which are not seen are not understood, so it has always been, and had you been blind you would have thought differently, but we ask you: “Where is the Creator? Is the Creator outside of the world as you know it? Is the Creator unknowable in any way? If so, why would we seek to find the Creator?” The Creator is in your brothers and your sisters, closer to you than your breath and more heartening to you than your dreams, for that which is beyond doing and dreaming is Love itself. Hatonn went on to say it has been written in your holy works that a man who is kind to another is not kind to a man but to the Creator, so you cannot be kind to a Creator that is invisible and infinite, but you can be kind to those about you, and be a channel for Love, so sometimes the circumstances you face are so difficult that you may wonder if there is such a thing as Love, and if there is Love, is it given equally to all? But we say that the Creator has a plan that has been worked out between Love and that higher part of yourself which you call your spirit, and in meditation you become able to communicate intuitively with that part of the creation that is a combination of the finite and the infinite, so in this junction lies the plan, and whatever difficulties you may be having, they can be met with Love, and the more committed that you are to freely giving to others the Love that is in every situation, the more quickly you will become a conscious being, controlling your destiny, for you cannot possess the Creator or yourself because you possess only consciousness, and you possess it in common with all that there is, so that which created this consciousness is Love, so allow Love to flow through you, not your love but the Love of the Creator, for yours will run dry quickly, and you will find it reflected all about you, so allow this reflection to be one of Love. On July 5, 1981, Hatonn described the nature of the Love of the Creator:

My sister, we would answer you by saying that to seek the Love of the infinite Creator in each moment of your life is the greatest service and the greatest learning that can be accomplished upon your plane, for it is the lesson of this dimension to discover the Love of the Creator within all that is experienced within the self, within the life, within the family, within the community, within each activity, each experience and there is, shall we say, an infinite amount of time to discover this Love.

I would leave this instrument at this time, as my friend Laitos desires to work with each of those present. I am Hatonn. Adonai.

Laitos: At this time I would like to work with each of you. Let me greet you in Love and Light. I am known to you as Laitos, and it is my special duty and privilege to work with new channels. My vibration is a broad-beam vibration and more easily received than most of the Confederation vibrations. This has decided our purpose in the great scheme of things among the Confederation, and so we work with the channels who desire to get that service. We also work with each individual who simply wants to improve the strength of spiritual vibration; along with that, that which you may call inspiration or contemplation may flow.

I will attempt now to say a few words through the one known as J, if he would relax and allow himself to speak without analyzing our thoughts. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am again with this instrument. I am Laitos. We had partial contact with the one known as J. However, his mind is not totally clear, due to feelings of somewhat conflicting natures about our contact. Consequently, we have, shall we say, a conditioning situation rather than a channeling one, and we are pleased to be of service in this way, for we are always a channel for something. This particular type of channeling is very specialized, but all of you, my friends, show to the world that which flows through you.

We thank the one known as J and offer our assistance at any time he may require it.

At this time we would like to…

[Pause, as H1 arrives.]

I am again with the instrument. I am Laitos. We would like to pause for a moment while the one known as H1 relaxes, and we greet and welcome her to the meeting.

[Pause]

At this time we would like to say a few words to the one known as G, I am Laitos.

[Pause]

(G channeling)

I am with the instrument.

[Pause]

[Inaudible]

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am again with this instrument. We are pleased to contact the one known as G. And may we say that the one known as G is doing very well in her progress. Although she may not know it consciously, there is a large difference between her conscious desire to be of service channeling and her subconscious feeling that there is perhaps something not quite good about such an activity. This is due to a simple feeling that things may not be what they seem—which is very true in your reality, which is illusory, and has stood the one known as G in good stead in her life—and it is only in this particular instance that it is difficult to drop that subconscious bias.

We are faced with a difficult choice. We can either transmit a common and familiar concept to a new instrument, in which case the instrument may block it due to a feeling that such a thought would be one of his own, or we can transmit new information, in which case the instrument might feel that the information was not that of the Confederation, due to its unfamiliarity. As you can see, channeling is not always easy for those who are intelligent. Thus, we would recommend it for the most intelligent in order that intelligence to be set in balance with love and emotions.

At this time, we would like to contact the one known as H2 and, if possible, to say a few words with him. I am Laitos.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am again with this instrument. We thank the one known as H2 and, as always, assure him that at any time he may desire to work on contact we will be with him.

At this time I will leave this instrument, asking you only, as always, to meditate and pray for the good and the peace of humankind, for these are concepts that need to be cherished among your people. I leave you in the Love and the Light Who is the One and the origin of these concepts.

I am Laitos. Adonai.

[Pause]

I am with you. Ah, yes, my friends, I have been awaiting my turn. I am Latwii, and I greet you in the joy and the Light of the Creator. It has been my privilege to be asked to join this celestial big league, and we are very happy to play ball with you at this time, as you might say. We have come for the express purpose of asking if there are any questions, which—as you have noticed—is in itself a question. So, you may answer this question with a question if you desire.

G: I have a question. I heard something on the radio, and I heard just the tail end of it. I’m not sure what it was. I don’t read the papers much lately. It was something about something up in the air, a satellite or something like that. But the point is that somebody is [inaudible] in meditation to do something, and I’d like to know what it is.

Latwii: We are consulting the group memory of the Confederation at this time, for we also do not know. We know of one item which is in your skies which is desired by your people to remain in orbit, and it is called your Skylab. However, this instrument also does not read the papers, and therefore we are unable to give the specific designation of its arrival into your atmosphere. The trajectory of physical objects such as this one is unlikely to be altered by meditation, although it would be possible were the meditation powerful. However, among your people there is not the sophistication of other dimensions. Thus, meditating in your dimension would not aid a physical object; but, rather, meditation in the finer or denser dimensions would be much more powerful. However, it is not easy for your people to meditate in other dimensions, just as it is not easy for your people to leave their physical bodies and move about freely in their body eternal which is, in a way, a physical body but is physical in another dimension. Thus, we would say that it is likely that an application of, shall we say, government funding rather than group meditation would be the solution to that particular problem.

Does that answer your question, my friend?

G: Well, I had the idea that this was something that was out of control or something that we couldn’t do anything about, and there was some group meditating and [inaudible]. Never mind. Thank you.

Latwii: We are sorry that we have not satisfied you, but in our notice of your planet we may have, indeed, missed one of your projects. As we said, the only one of which we are aware of there being a large body of interest in is the one known as Skylab.

Is there another question?

H2 I have a question. I’d also like to comment. I believe the object of interest here is Skylab. At least, that’s my impression from news sources and so on.

Latwii: My goodness, my brother, we are most pleased, because we were beginning to think that our ability to screen your planet was somehow lacking. Please ask your question.

H2 Yes, according to news sources the Skylab is out of control in a sense, in that it is no longer able to maintain orbit and is expected to enter the atmosphere in some future time. My question is… I have several. But first, I’m glad you’re here, Latwii, because I have a question for you on a subject you brought, and I would like to know in regard to this: if you begin a subject, can Hatonn or Laitos answer questions about it as well?

Latwii: The reason that we are here tonight is that there was a request for information on a subject which we had previously discussed. Each of the planetary consciousnesses which speaks to you under some code name, such as Hatonn or Latwii, has a specialty. As we have said before, Hatonn speaks in the vibration of Love and has a general fund of information that is perhaps the broadest of any of your contacts at this time. Thus, it is Hatonn that often answers questions.

Our specialty is due to the fact that our form is that of Light, and thus we are more able to see the problems involved in the taking on of a physical body, which we do not happen to have at this point in our evolution. Thus, we have a viewpoint on certain questions which Hatonn may not have, specifically, as do we. For there is no, shall we say, party line amongst us, as we are a Confederation of harmony rather than unity of thought. We do not come to group decisions about the truth but only communicate to you our own personal experience of the truth as we know it. Thus, we always repeat that we are, indeed, fallible, and, indeed, our views upon a subject which you wish to request information about would be somewhat different from that of Hatonn’s, for the ones of Hatonn dwell within a physical body, although in another dimension of space/time.

H2 Thank you. The question I have for you that seems to be in your specialty is about the genetic personality. This was raised in a few sessions back and has aroused my interest. I believe you said something to the effect that at the time the genetic personality is formed there is a sort of contract made between the entity and the chemical body in the provision of, say, an environment that is best suited for that entity for learning during this incarnation and that it’s possible, perhaps, to regress to that point of contract and to review that contract to see if the agreement with the chemical body was suitable for the entire incarnation and purposes of the entity. Is that correct?

Latwii: This is a properly perceived concept, my brother.

H2 That being to case, then what I’m interested in is knowing how to regress to that point of contract and what procedures could be followed to review it and amend it, if that is possible.

Latwii: We understand your question, although it is somewhat difficult to answer. What is necessary is that you enter a state of altered consciousness which is somewhat different from your consciousness while dealing in day-to-day experiences. The function of many so-called spiritual healers is that the healer, by giving off tremendous energy vibrating in the spectrum of Light creates an environment for the individual in which a momentary dwelling place in which the genetic personality was formed can be maintained by the entity, and in that instant of time, as you know it, a great deal can be accomplished. This is the source of many healings among your people.

Other ways of achieving this type of, shall we say, reprogramming are the proper use of your so-called psychedelic drugs. This is a very risky operation, due to the fact that the state in which you will be led to may or may not be in accordance with the subject which you wish to cover, due to the fact that your personality may or may not be integrated enough at this time to pursue the course which is desired. Many of those among your people who use psychedelic substances to alter the chemical composition of the brain, thus allowing Light vibrations to enter into the process of association within your mind, are simply, shall we say, taking short trips which are picnics of the mind but do not have the proper purpose. Thus, as often happens during a picnic, the entity becomes sunburned, bitten by mosquitoes and ants, tired and cranky when be arrives back home and begins to clean the dirt off his bare feet. That is the problem with psychedelic drugs.

H2 asked: “What I’m interested in is knowing how to regress to that point of contract and what procedures could be followed to review it and amend it, if that is possible.” Latwii began by saying we understand your question although it is difficult to answer, so what is necessary is that you enter a state of altered consciousness which is different from your consciousness while dealing in day-to-day experiences, for the function of many spiritual healers is that the healer, by giving off tremendous energy vibrating in the spectrum of Light creates an environment for the individual in which a momentary dwelling place in which the genetic personality was formed can be maintained by the entity, and in that instant of time a great deal can be accomplished, so this is the source of many healings among your people. Now Latwii said other ways of achieving this type of reprogramming is the proper use of psychedelic drugs, but this is a risky operation, due to the fact that the state in which you will be led to may or may not be in accordance with the subject which you wish to cover, due to the fact that your personality may or may not be integrated enough at this time to pursue the course which is desired, and many of your people who use psychedelic substances to alter the chemical composition of the brain, thus allowing Light vibrations to enter into the process of association within your mind, are simply taking short trips which are composition of the brain but do not have the proper purpose, and as often happens during a picnic, the entity becomes sunburned and bitten by mosquitoes,  so when they arrive back home and begin to clean the dirt off their bare feet, this problem has been caused by psychedelic drugs. On December 16, 1990, Q’uo spoke of the value of our reprogramming our spiritual paths:

Think to yourself: what have you noticed this day that was not useful in some way to your survival or your enjoyment? We suggest to you that it is within your ability to reprogram this computerized choice-making in order that you may notice more of those things which you feel have spiritual significance and less of those things which you feel have become undesirable things to notice. Those things may be any portion of yourself which is judgmental towards yourself especially, which is not accepting of the self, which defends opinions instead of listening to those who speak.

In other words, much of that which is programmed is programmed not in order to learn but in order to survive, so that the entity who wishes to learn along a spiritual path has a considerable amount of reprogramming to do, that you will be able to notice the present moment, and be able to release from the necessity of notice those things which you cannot change, those being the past.

Between the spiritual healing type of charismatic energy, as you would call it, and the psychedelic experiences of some, you have the majority of those who have reprogrammed their genetic personality. However, it is possible to do this by means of a carefully conceived program of meditation—meditation for a purpose, which is unlike the meditation which we urge you to do daily in which you are simply listening. In another context we would call this prayer or prayer of pleading or requesting. Even this type of entry into the world where the genetic personality may be reprogrammed will not work unless two conditions are met. Number one. The entity must have learned that which he decided to learn when he entered into the condition which he now wishes to leave. This is not a partial learning or a majority learning but a complete learning. This learning must have been tested and understood.

Number two. The entity who wishes to reprogram must be able to let go of the circumstance completely. There must be no emotional tie to the previous circumstance. If it is an illness that is to be forgotten, then the person involved must not have a habit of being ill which will then reprogram the reprogramming through continuous, daily, habitual patterns of thinking. If the problem is a wrong relationship, then the person’s lessons having been learned, he must be able to forgive completely, and this is very difficult. All wrong circumstances have within them a simple habit which carries an emotional strength. This habit is not at the conscious level, and it is not easily removed. It is for this reason that reprogramming is not more common among your people.

Then Latwii said between the spiritual healing type of charismatic energy and the psychedelic experiences of some, you have the majority of those who have reprogrammed their genetic personality, and it is possible to do this by means of a program of meditation for a purpose, which is unlike the meditation which we urge you to do daily in which you are simply listening, for in another context we would call this prayer of pleading, but even this type of entry into the world where the genetic personality may be reprogrammed will not work unless two conditions are met, and the first one is the entity must have learned that which they decided to learn when they entered into the condition which they now wish to leave, but this is not a partial learning or a majority learning but a complete learning which must have been tested and understood. Then Latwii said secondly the entity who wishes to reprogram must be able to let go of the circumstance completely, if it is an illness that is to be forgotten, then the person involved must not have a habit of being ill which will then reprogram the reprogramming through habitual patterns of thinking, and if the problem is a wrong relationship, then the person’s lessons having been learned, they must be able to forgive completely, and this is very difficult, for all wrong circumstances have within them a habit which carries an emotional strength, but this habit is not at the conscious level, and it is not easily removed, so it is for this reason that reprogramming is not more common among your people. On May 26, 1991, Hatonn spoke of how helpful it is if we forgive completely:

You act, then, as the Creator, not as your imperfect self, for as you forgive completely the imperfection of your self and toss those considerations aside in order to have more time for praise and thanksgiving, so you cleanse yourself of the need to deal intellectually with these difficulties of others which do not make sense but which are causing difficulty, whereas you listen and allow the Love to flow through you to the other person in an accepting and loving way. The work is being done through you. It does not tire or weary you. And this is true whether the work is upon the behalf of another or upon the behalf of the self.

However, if you have the desire to change your programming, and if you have learned the lessons that your programming was designed for—in other words, if you are ahead of your program by means of your performance in this incarnation—yes, you may reprogram, and the way to do it is by what many would call intercessory or pleading prayer, saying constantly, “Creator, send your Light upon me at this time that I may know the perfection of my being and may drop from my physical form that which is no longer necessary.” You may then, if you wish, name that which you feel is no longer necessary, and then you must specifically state your forgiveness and your desire to forget that which has been negative in that experience.

Latwii went on to say if you have the desire to change your programming, and if you have learned the lessons that your programming was designed for, and if you are ahead of your program by means of your performance in this incarnation then you may reprogram, so the way to do it is by intercessory prayer saying “Creator, send your Light upon me at this time that I may know the perfection of my being and may drop from my physical form that which is no longer necessary,” for you may then name that which you feel is no longer necessary, and then you must state your forgiveness and your desire to forget that which has been negative in that experience. On October 22, 1989, Q’uo described the value of intercessory prayer:

It is possible to be of tremendous service while washing your dishes, for as one washes the dishes it is a waking meditation. The gestures are automatic, and it is possible in the meantime to be in a state of light meditation and listening, or in a state of contemplation, or in a state of intercessory prayer, where you are concerned for the health and the well-being of those you love. Thoughts are becoming things; your prayers are heard more than ever.

Does this answer your question, my brother?

H2 Yes, very good, thank you. I suspect the question I want to ask now will be answered in the negative, but I would like to ask it anyway. Is it possible to help another in this matter through hypnosis and regression?

Latwii: May we say that it is, indeed, possible that this be done; but it is a mixed blessing, due to the fact that in regression a person is made aware of the necessary environment for change. However, the person is not consciously aware of the need for releasing all those things which cause the previous programming to continue after the need for it was over. Consequently, the hypnotic approach lacks what we would call staying power, due to the fact that it is part of the mind of the individual’s feeling that another entity is necessary for the work to take place. Indeed, this is a dealing of you with yourself, and, if we were to recommend hypnosis or the use of psychedelic drugs, for instance, we would have to say that—unless you are doing hypnosis upon yourself—the psychedelic, clinical type of approach is superior, in that if you have prepared yourself properly, if you go through your programming as you have planned it when you were in an everyday state of consciousness, this remains something you have done for yourself.

However, the most efficacious method is meditation done in addition to the simple meditation of listening. And there are no shortcuts to this. Much patience is usually needed. However, once you have achieved a reprogramming, you have achieved by the strength of your desire, and this is infinitely better for your permanent vibratory personality which has entered into the contract with your physical vehicle and its limitations in the first place. Thus, for the greatest value to your spirit in this eternal quest, we do recommend that type of meditation. After all, my brother, adjusting your genetic programming is a little more serious than, shall we say, giving up smoking or finding out a previous incarnation, both of which uses we find somewhat frivolous. However, we do not find this reprogramming as frivolous, for it indicates a certain awareness of the way things are, which we do consider more reasonable.

H2 asked: “Is it possible to help another in this matter through hypnosis and regression?” Latwii said it is possible that this be done, but it is a mixed blessing due to the fact that in regression a person is made aware of the necessary environment for change, but the person is not aware of the need for releasing all those things which cause the previous programming to continue after the need for it was over, for the hypnotic approach lacks what we would call staying power, due to the fact that it is part of the mind of the individual’s feeling that another entity is necessary for the work to take place, and this is a dealing of you with yourself, and, if we were to recommend hypnosis or the use of psychedelic drugs we would have to say that—unless you are doing hypnosis upon yourself—the psychedelic, clinical type of approach is superior, in that if you go through your programming as you have planned it when you were in an everyday state of consciousness, this remains something you have done for yourself. Then Latwii went on to say the most efficacious method is meditation, done in addition to the simple meditation of listening, and there are no shortcuts to this, and much patience is needed, but once you have achieved a reprogramming, you have achieved by the strength of your desire, and this is better for your permanent vibratory personality which has entered into the contract with your physical vehicle and its limitations in the first place, for the value to your spirit in this eternal quest, we recommend that type of meditation, for after all, adjusting your genetic programming is a little more serious than giving up smoking or finding out about a previous incarnation, both of which uses we find frivolous, but we do not find this reprogramming as frivolous, for it indicates an awareness of the way things are, which we do consider more reasonable. On May 20, 1979, Latwii discussed the value of genetic programming:

After all, my brother, adjusting your genetic programming is a little more serious than, shall we say, giving up smoking or finding out a previous incarnation, both of which uses we find somewhat frivolous. However, we do not find this reprogramming as frivolous, for it indicates a certain awareness of the way things are, which we do consider more reasonable.

H2 Thank you. You’ve mentioned psychedelics twice somewhat favorably, if not entirely, but I have determined in my own mind never to touch these kinds of things. Am I wrong in that attitude?

Latwii: You are perfect and right, as are all beings. Each path is different.

H2 I have one more question, and that is concerning my state of spiritual development at this time. I feel that I’m not progressing as I once believed I was. I seem to have reached a sort of plateau. I’m either bogged down, or I’m not advancing somehow. And I wonder if it’s possible—because of the kind of relationship I’ve had in the past—I’ve gained as much from that as I can and should reprogram for something else holding me back.

Latwii: We have two things in response to that, my brother. First, no one knows the state of his spiritual development. The opinion which you may have of yourself is quite irrelevant to your actual development spiritually and may, indeed, be quite different from your opinion. The other comment is that we simply cannot answer such questions as you asked in this instance, due to the fact that it is your freedom of will that has brought you here this evening, and we cannot compromise that by giving you specific instructions. We can only ask you to meditate.

Going back to what we said in the beginning: only you are you. Meditation, therefore, is a method whereby you develop an understanding of yourself. When you have meditated the proper amount you will form an opinion about the problem at hand, or the problem at hand will come into harmony without any apparent effort on your part. These are things that occur when one has a prayer or meditation life. It is not something which you can intellectually figure out. Thus, we ask you to invoke the Light of the Creator. Sit down, meditate, and do not worry about your progress, and do not be disappointed or pleased with yourself at any time. Be objective about yourself. In that way you become a channel through which Love can flow, for if you are meditating and seeking that which is true and lovely, that is all that is necessary. Your day-to-day problems or, shall we say, your year-to-year problems will become apparent to you.

H2 said: “I have one more question, and that is concerning my state of spiritual development at this time. I feel that I’m not progressing as I once believed I was. I seem to have reached a sort of plateau. I’m either bogged down, or I’m not advancing somehow. And I wonder if it’s possible—because of the kind of relationship I’ve had in the past—I’ve gained as much from that as I can and should reprogram for something else holding me back.” Latwii began by saying we have two things in response to that, so first, no one knows the state of their spiritual development, and the opinion you may have of yourself is irrelevant to your development spiritually and may be different from your opinion, and the other comment is that we cannot answer such questions as you asked in this instance, due to the fact that it is your freedom of will that has brought you here this evening, and we cannot compromise that by giving you specific instructions, so we can only ask you to meditate. Latwii went on to say only you are you, and meditation is a method where you develop an understanding of yourself, so when you have meditated the proper amount you will form an opinion about the problem at hand, or the problem at hand will come into harmony without any apparent effort on your part because these are things that occur when one has a prayer or meditation life, but it is not something which you can intellectually figure out, so we ask you to invoke the Light of the Creator, and sit down, meditate, and do not worry about your progress, and do not be disappointed or pleased with yourself at any time, but be objective about yourself, for in that way you become a channel through which Love can flow, for if you are meditating and seeking that which is true, that is all that is necessary, and your problems will become apparent to you. On July 11, 1979, Hatonn spoke about our meditating each day:

We caution you once more: in the hierarchy of obedience, be obedient first to that which you feel is correct. If you are meditating each day, your feelings are more trustworthy than the opinions of others.

Because we understand the distress in which you find yourself, we suggest that you go somewhere by yourself each day for a period of a week or two and spend at least ten minutes each day speaking out loud with intensity about your desire to maintain the position in which you find yourself. We then suggest that you spend an equal amount of time speaking intensely out loud about your desire to remove yourself from the same position. We believe that you will find at the end of this indoctrination procedure that you will have burned out the over-concern you feel at this time about this particular problem. And thus, you will be clear and able to catch the signal that you are sending to yourself. Then one day you will know what to do, and you may not be able to explain it to others, but you will feel the rightness of it inside, where it counts. Then you may proceed as you see fit, for that is your free will.

Latwii continued by saying because we understand the distress in which you find yourself, we suggest that you go somewhere by yourself each day for a period of a week or two and spend ten minutes each day speaking out loud with intensity about your desire to maintain the position in which you find yourself, and we then suggest that you spend an equal amount of time speaking intensely out loud about your desire to remove yourself from the same position, for we believe that you will find at the end of this indoctrination procedure that you will have burned out the over-concern you feel at this time about this problem, so you will be clear and able to catch the signal that you are sending to yourself, and then one day you will know what to do, and you may not be able to explain it to others, but you will feel the rightness of it inside, where it counts, for then you may proceed as you see fit, for that is your free will. On August 30, 2004, Q’uo suggested that we feel the rightness of our choices:

We would simply ask that you stay in touch with your inner self to the point where you feel the rightness of choices such as abstaining or indulgence. Look for your own inner balance, not anyone else’s, not any other system of thought or idea of what good behavior and spiritual environments are. But look within yourself and ask yourself and your guidance, “What do I need? What environment will serve me as I wish to serve the Creator?” Listen deeply and ask more than once, and if you can, write down those impressions that you may get.

We are aware we have not been terribly helpful, but we have given you the truth as we see it.

H2 Perhaps not helpful from your viewpoint—very—but it’s very helpful to me. Thank you.

Latwii: Oh, we thank you, my brother. Is there another question?

J: Just briefly, what is the… give me some idea of what a soul incarnated in two bodies… or is one soul incarnated in twins?

Latwii: No, my brother. The way the union works is one body, one soul. However, those who incarnate as twins have met upon the plane of consciousness, which in your inner world precedes incarnation, and have agreed as part of their genetic personalities…

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This morning I visited a neighbor of mine, who is living in a care home in Mount Sterling, Kentucky, who took a bad fall about four months ago. We talked about how she is doing now, how often she sees her son, the friends she has made since she has been there, and then I showed her some pictures of my flower gardens and a video of a deer who was eating the bird seed on the ground that came so close to me that I could have petted her. Then I gave her a hug as I was leaving.

This afternoon I used my long limb loppers, while I stood on a ladder, to cut the tallest of the limbs from the bushes beside the driveway. Then I used my hedge clippers to cut the limbs that were low enough for me to cut them. Then I went to the other side of the front yard and used my hedge clippers to cut the dead limbs off of the bottom of the Yew Bush. I filled a garbage can with all of the limbs.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 2

Love Has Work For You

I am of the principle of the divine Love of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

Love is the giver, the sustainer and the protector of the tender, young spiritual consciousness. It is the strengthener and sustainer of those whose veil has slipped from the eye, those who are smitten by circumstance.

It is the stripper and remover of pretense, for forgiveness takes away the necessity for defense. Love enables each portion of the creation to sing and move in rhythm, one unified rhythm of continuous co-creation.

Do not expect Love to come to you today. Rather, expect yourself to use whatever discipline is necessary to become aware of the love that is deep, and fine, and strong within you now: within you, around you, and in all that you may apprehend. Go forth in Love and listen, for Love has work for you to do, work of being, work of becoming.

We leave you in the eternal liveness of the consciousness of Love and in peace, now and ever. Amen

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.